I'll become what you like... @rin-137 - Tumblr Blog

My intro post!

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My names are Rin or Denis. I'm trans guy with he/him pronouns. I'm also probably panromantic and demisexual but idk for sure. I'm a minor and from Russia btw

I love making friends!! So please don't be afraid to interact with me!

My interests are under the cut

#intro post

Okay I need to vent slightly again before I feel like going crazy from anxiety.

So not so long ago IN MOSCOW MIND YOU riot police(Omon) laid down about a hundred teenagers. Most of them weren't even 18. Why? Nobody knows. But the main factor was these guys having alternative style. Yeah. Just because of the style. Police also was not nice and in one of the cars offered the boys to beat up one of them in exchange for freedom.

Why am I scared if it's so far away? Because soon my mother and I are going to travel to Saint Petersburg. And there's information going around that right during that period of time there will be similar raids. And I DO dress alt. Something between punk and emo or whatever. And I DO look and sound like a guy. That's a good thing but in this case not really.

My mother did not believe me about such a rain in Moscow. So she has no idea what might happen when we get there. I know that it might be just misinformation but it's still scary. I have no idea what to do. I want to be myself but now when it's dangerous I feel like being forced to shut down and just lay low.

I do think about not giving a fuck and getting arrested just for my mother to understand the gravity of the situation in our country but it can be too dangerous. 1. Too much "prohibited" things on my phone that can be called propaganda. 2. I can get arrested for 14 days with no particular reason and have no way back from that city. 3. Being beaten up does not sound good(electric shaker too) and 4. My mother might just miss the point and start to blame me. Too dangerous.

I am glad that this stupid country can't see my posts on Tumblr because rus audience is really small so they don't give a shit about us here(same with TikTok but cuz it's blocked in Russia).

Fuck Putin. Fuck ruling party. Fuck this all.

#whiner #russia #russian politics #fuck putin #i really hope I'll be safe. but I know i won't really. never. never while being in this stupid excuse of a country

My sister referred to our mother as "she" and father immediately started yelling and shouting like if she did anything wrong? Like seriously?

#whiner #i hate that man.

Okay. So. I've been feeling extremely nauseous for about a week now. Now you may ask why? And you know? I will answer. Because my blood pressure is LOW. Not high as it always has been. LOW. (106/61 as i last checked).

I did everything to raise it but i still lie here in bed and my head is hurting spinning and I feel like throwing up. That's not cool. At all.

From this moment everything will be under the cut because I know there's one particular person who can be triggered by weight talk. Yes I'm talking about you. So please if you still decide to read this be safe