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Chapter Eleven of Blast From The Past
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Rating: 18+
Word Count: 3k+
Summary: Din spends some time with Dinah, and she gets to know him a little more.
Warnings: ANGST angst angst angst, language, fluff, slow burn, mutual pining
Song: I Don’t Want To Miss A Thing by Aerosmith
Author's Note: Wow, it’s been a longggggggg time since I’ve posted an update. Life has gotten pretty crazy for me lately, and I’m sure you’ve been waiting for an update to this story for a while! Don’t worry, I haven’t abandoned this fic!
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Din’s POV
After his conversation with you, Din was lost and unsure what to do.
He had told you the truth of why he had left.
He had apologized.
And he had shown you his face, yet it was not enough.
Din knew that it would take time for you to come to terms with everything. After all, you had every right to be upset with him. But how long that would last was a different matter entirely.
Start small, he thought to himself. Din resolved to start with little things, gifts to show you that he was serious about staying and winning your affection back.
Maybe find a way to spend some time with her and Dinah.
He scrounged through his brain to remember the little things you liked, and he smiled at one of the first memories he had regarding your interests.
―FLASHBACK―
Din had been off tracking his latest quarry but had no luck that day, and he begrudgingly made the trek back to the Crest. As he lowered the ramp, he spotted you polishing his pulse rifle, and he felt a warmth bubble in his chest. He liked the way you looked at handling his weapon, and he inwardly chuckled at himself at his statement, and he willed his mind to crawl out of the gutter.
“No luck?” you spoke, and he felt your eyes trail after him as he began to climb the ladder to the cockpit.
“No,” he replied, slightly grumpy at the lack of progress with the bounty.
“I’m sure you’ll find them soon,” you reassured him, following him up the ladder. He took a seat in the passenger’s chair, thankful that you knew how to pilot the Crest, as he wanted a few moments to decompress as much as possible, although your presence sometimes made that difficult. He knew he had budding feelings for you but knew he would never act on them, though that did not prevent his mind from wandering. As you took a seat in the pilot’s chair, you looked at him questioningly, and he motioned for you to go to a different location on the planet. You nodded and quickly began to guide the Crest to another part of the sphere, and as the ship flew over a waterfall, Din heard you let out a sigh.
“What is it?” he inquired, curious at your reaction to the sight of the waterfall.
“Nothing,” came your reply, and he saw through your attempt at sounding nonchalant. He hummed in response, waiting for you to continue just like he knew you would.
“I just,” you spoke, pausing to release a sigh, “I used to draw as a child back on Corellia.” Your words caught Din off guard, and he looked at you through his visor, wanting to hear more.
“Whenever I had a chance, I could scribble down the image of a waterfall, sometimes imagining that I was sitting at the edge of a lake and just watching the water ripple over each other.” Din saw the faraway look in your eyes and closed his eyes, picturing the waterfall you had just flown over, a soft smile gracing his lips as he listened to your voice.
She wants to draw waterfalls and probably sunsets.
Interesting.
The sweet melody of your words gently pulled him to sleep, and he was shortly pulled into a light slumber before he could hear the rest of what you were saying.
―END FLASHBACK―
Din’s lip quirked as the memory, recalling how your eyes sparkled every time you would speak of waterfalls or sunsets, shamelessly telling him of your dream to sit on the shore of a lake and capture the beauty of the world around you. The thought of giving you what you had dreamed of came to him, and he instantly knew what his first gift to you would be.
A sketchbook.
Tracking down a vendor that sold sketchbooks was not a simple task, but Din managed to find one. He had taken his time studying the unique designs on each cover until one caught his eye. A leather-bound sketchpad sat on the corner of a table, an elaborate pattern of a forest and flowers on the front cover and a waterfall flowing into a lake on the back.
It’s perfect.
He hastily bought the sketchbook and several other items and made his way back to his ship. Once aboard the vessel, he took a seat in the cargo hold and began to write a list of other gifts to give you before composing a note to include with the sketchpad. Din sat and thought long and hard about what to say, wanting to make it as heartfelt as possible. After a few moments, he finally put pen to paper and began to scribble down his love letter.
That should be enough, he thought, looking down at his handiwork. Din started to assemble the present, gently slipping his note inside the book and placing both into a box with a small sigh.
Now the question is, when do I give it to her?
―THREE DAYS LATER―
Three days came and went when Din finally decided to drop off the first of several gifts to you. Just as the hues of the sun began to peek over the horizon, he found himself awkwardly standing at your doorstep, clad in his armor, box in hand. He could hear you getting Dinah ready for the day, your voice sleepily ringing throughout your home, and a small smile crept onto his face.
It’s now or never.
Hesitantly, he lifted his hand and made to knock on your door but stopped.
Kriff, should I hand it to her or just leave it here?
No, she would probably throw it at me if I gave it to her.
Din let out a sigh, set the package down, and straightened himself back up. He stared at your door for another moment, contemplating if he was making a huge mistake, but then made up his mind and softly knocked. Not wanting to risk the chance of you opening the door to find him still positioned there, he quickly walked away and posted himself far enough away to see you but hidden from your sight. He watched the entrance slide open and his breath caught in his throat as you appeared and spotted his gift on the ground. Din’s heart loudly beat in his chest at the way your hair swept across your face with the light breeze, and your eyes darted around the street, trying to find the source of the mysterious package outside your home. He patiently waited for you to pick up the box and retreat inside before making his exit, hoping and praying that you wouldn’t throw it into the trash.
That would make tomorrow’s peace offering completely useless.
As Din walked through the town, a vendor stand caught his attention, and he changed course for it. He studied the assortment of objects and, after some deliberation, decided on one in particular. Din bought the new surprise and continued on his way through the village, stopping by now and then to buy supplies and a few more gifts he knew you would appreciate. At least he hoped you would appreciate them.
This next week is going to be a busy one.
He dropped off a brand-new set of colored pencils and charcoal the next day and a bouquet the day after that. However, this time he included a gift for Dinah, a plushie of a porg, with a floral arrangement. His heart warmed as he imagined her reaction to seeing the new toy, and he wanted nothing more than to be there to witness it.
Maybe someday.
The day after the flowers and plushie, he left a bag of apples and oranges, chuckling to himself, knowing there was no way in you would toss your favorite fruits away. The day after that, a package of your favorite sweets. Din always included a note with each gift, and he made sure to mention a memory or the reasoning behind the gift.
Several days after leaving you the candy, he was making his way through the market when he felt a tug on his glove. He gazed down and saw his daughter standing next to him, shyly clutching the tip of his gloved finger.
“Hello, little one,” he greeted, and Dinah grinned.
“Hi, Din!”
“What are you doing out and about?” he asked, crouching down to her level.
“I was looking for you,” she exclaimed but suddenly turned shy. “I wanted to say thank you for the plushie.”
“You’re welcome,” he kindly spoke, his tone laced with a smile.
“Why are you wearing your armor?” she inquired, tilting her head in curiosity.
Blunt and to the point.
As always.
“I have a few jobs to do, and it’s safer if I wear it,” he answered.
“A job? Like catching bad guys?”
“Not quite,” he said with a chuckle. “Just keeping an eye on some people.”
It’s not exactly a lie.
In reality, Din had felt uneasy the last few days, as if someone were watching him, so he had decided to don his armor again, ensuring his helmet sat securely on his head every time he left his ship.
“Oh, okay,” Dinah acknowledged, eyes cast downward. “I was wondering….”
“Yes?”
“Um – would I – um – do you – um – could I spend the day with you?” The little girl shuffled her feet nervously, unsure how the man would respond to such a request. Din was surprised at her question and did not know how to answer it.
Does she know who I am to her?
“Is your mother alright with that?” he finally asked, not wanting to give you yet another reason to hate him.
“Mhm!” Dinah stated, arms now behind her back as she rocked back and forth on the balls of her feet. Of course, it was a blatant lie, but Din did not want to cause any more strife between the two of you.
I’ll bring her by in a bit.
“Well then,” he began, “I don’t see why not. What would you like to do?” Din watched in amusement as his daughter twisted her mouth here and there.
“Um – I – I want to know about your adventures!” she finally proclaimed. Din raised his eyebrows beneath the helmet, not expecting that.
“Uh – sure,” he responded as he stood up. “Let’s go somewhere quiet. What do you think?” She nodded and laced her tiny fingers with his, and Din’s throat grew tight.
Was this what things could be like one day?
The two of them navigated through the streets toward his ship, and once they arrived, Dinah’s eyes grew wide with awe.
“Is this yours?!” she excitedly asked, releasing his hand, and running up the now open ramp. He trailed behind her with a chuckle and nodded.
“It sure is.”
“Wow. We have one too, but it doesn’t look like this!” Din leaned against the wall, eyes following her little figure as she walked around and examined every detail of the small cargo hold. It was a sight to behold, one that he committed to memory in case he did not get another opportunity to spend time with his child.
My daughter.
Dinah continued to scurry around the ship, taking everything in as Din took a seat on a box.
“It’s so pretty,” she said, taking a seat beside him. Then, after a moment, she pointed to something in the corner. “What’s that?”
“What?” he asked, looking to where she pointed. “That’s the refresher.”
“Oh,” she replied, disappointed that it wasn’t anything interesting. As she looked at Din, she noticed the assortment of weapons he carried and stretched out a hand to poke his blaster. Din flinched at the action, unsure how he felt about his daughter touching something so dangerous.
“I don’t think you should be touching that,” he spoke. “It’s dangerous.” Dinah giggled and withdrew her hand.
“Mommy has a big one like this,” she retorted, rolling her eyes, “And I’ve seen her use it.” Din sighed at her statement.
For a six-year-old, she sure is sassy.
“Well, you should still be careful, little one,” he said. “I don’t want you to get hurt.”
“Okay,” she answered, looking around the ship some more. It was silent for a moment before she spoke again. “So, you do you catch bad guys and send them to jail?”
“Not exactly.”
“But you catch bad guys, right?”
“Yes.”
“What do you do with them?”
“I – uh – I take them to – well, I guess you could say that I take them to a jail of sorts.”
“That’s so cool!” Din awkwardly scratched the back of his neck at her enthusiasm.
“I suppose.”
“What’s that?” Dinah asked, pointing to something else on his waist. He looked down and saw her pointing at the Darksaber.
Of all things to ask about it.
He let out a long breath, composing his thoughts before answering the little girl’s question.
“It’s – um – it’s called a Darksaber,” he responded.
“Like a lightsaber?”
“Of sorts.”
“Why does it look like that? Aren’t lightsabers supposed to be pretty colors?”
“It’s not a regular one.”
“How come?”
“I’m – I’m not quite sure,” Din said.
“How did you get it?” Din’s eyes widened at her question. He was already uncomfortable talking about his weapons, and the painful memories of the Child came to mind with her inquiry.
“Uh – well,” he began, “I had to rescue someone very important to me.”
“Really?! Like an adventure?!” Dinah exclaimed, eyes teeming with excitement.
“I’m not sure I’d call it that, but sure,” he replied.
“Will you tell me about it?” the little girl pressed, “Momma always tells me stories before bed, and rescues are always so cool!” Din let out a heavy sigh, a quiet hiss breaking the silence as he removed his helmet and nodded at her plea. Within the confines of the ship, Din felt comfortable enough in its absence, especially when in the company of his daughter, who had already seen his face.
“Well, it started when…,” Din began.
―FLASHBACK―
Din stepped off the ship, blaster raised in preparation for an attack as he scanned the hanger for any threats. He stealthily snuck through the quiet halls of the base when he heard voices and hid in the shadows as two stormtroopers ran by.
“We’re heading to the bridge now.” Once they had passed, Din continued to make his way up the corridor until he reached the entrance to the chamber with the Darktroopers but found that the door was already open.
Dank farrik.
He quickly inserted the cylinder that began to override the door and make it shut, but one Darktrooper managed to catch it and throw him back, his body hitting the wall with a thud. Din fired at the machine as it marched toward him, but it was no use. The droid caught his arm, knocking the blaster out of his hand, and lifted him to his feet as it pulled its arm back and punched his helmet. Din shut his eyes in panic, bracing himself for the possible end at the hands of a droid, but as metal met Beskar, he opened his eyes and saw that his helmet had done its job, stopping the impact and protecting his face.
Unfortunately, the armor did nothing to prevent the machine’s relentless assault from pushing his head into the wall, and he yelped in pain as the pipe behind him burst, sending steam out, blocking part of the droid’s view. Din saw his opening and turned on his flamethrower, but it proved ineffective as the droid turned its head and flung him across the hallway. Din looked up, and his eyes widened, seeing the glass windows of the door that stopped the rest of the Darktroopers beginning to crack under the pounding of their fists. Din attempted to reach the lever that would blow the robots into space but was too slow. The droid grabbed his leg and slid him away from the panel across the floor. He tried to get up but was swiftly kicked in the stomach, sending him flying back, and felt the familiar pings of blaster shots landing on his armor.
The whispering birds!
With a flip of his wrist, Din launched little projectiles at the approaching machine before spinning around, gracefully grabbing his Beskar spear and piercing the Darktrooper through its neck. Sparks flew from the robot as it began to shut down, and with a final twist of the spear, Din pulled its head off, its body falling onto the floor with a metallic thud. He hastily walked up to the panel, glancing at the window as the cracks grew, and finally pulled the lever, sending the red-eyed figures into space. He breathed a sigh of relief as he continued down the hallways searching for the Child.
To his luck, it did not take long as he spotted two stormtroopers standing guard in front of a door.
Bingo.
He silently snuck up to the two, hitting one on the arm with his spear before impaling the other through the stomach in one fluid motion. Wasting no time, he placed the first stormtrooper in a hold, wedging the rod against the man’s neck and began to choke him, the soldier’s feet no longer on the ground as he struggled before a loud snap ended his thrashing. Din dropped the body and placed the pointed weapon on his back before opening the door and drawing his blaster. The sight that greeted him made the man abruptly stop, his blood running cold as he saw Moff Gideon threateningly holding a dark, whirring blade over Grogu’s head.
Is that the Darksaber Bo-Katan spoke of?
The Child looked up at Din with a sad coo and slightly lifted his bound hands. Din stepped forward but stopped as Moff Gideon spoke.
“Drop the blaster. Slowly.”
Din narrowed his eyes at the men through his visor as he slowly set it down.
“Now kick it over to me.” Din followed as instructed, the gun sliding across the floor away from him as Moff Gideon watched. “Very nice.”
“Give me the kid,” Din said.
“The kid is just fine where he is,” the Moff responded and waved the blade around Grogu’s head, the foundling turning his head away at the action. “Mesmerizing, isn’t it? Used to belong to Bo-Katan.”
Din looked on in silence, surprised that the man knew who Bo-Katan was.
“Yes. I know you’ve been traveling with Bo-Katan. A friendly piece of advice, assume that I know everything. Like the fact that your wrist launcher has fired its one and only salvo.”
Dank farrik, he’s good.
“Where is this going?” Din asked, beginning to grow agitated at the man.
“This is where it’s going. I’m guessing that Bo-Katan and her boarding party have arrived at the bridge, seeking me, or more accurately, this,” Gideon answered, holding up the sword. “But I’m not there. And I imagine that they’ve killed everyone on the bridge, being the murderous savages that they are. And now, they’re beginning to panic.”
Din’s gaze drifted to the Child as he cooed and looked down.
“You see, she wants this. Do you know why? Because it brings power. Whoever wields this sword has the right to lay claim to the Mandalorian throne.”
“You keep it. I just want the kid,” Din replied, growing more annoyed with each passing moment.
“Very well,” the Moff said as he pressed a button on the hilt and the blade retracted, “I’ve already got what I want from him. His blood. All I wanted was to study his blood. This Child is extremely gifted and has been blessed with rare properties that have the potential to bring order back to the galaxy.”
Din glanced down at the Child, knowing his words were true. Grogu was indeed gifted.
“I see your bond with him,” Moff Gideon spoke, his tone slightly changing, as if the man cared, “Take him, but you will leave my ship immediately, and we will go our separate ways.”
Din approached Grogu and began to pick him up, but the sudden sound of the Darksaber powering up and a blow landing on his jetpack threw him slightly off balance as he turned to shield the Child. The Moff came at him, swipe after swipe, the pings of the sword meeting steel filling the air, as Din held his arms up to block the impact of his assailant’s blade. Din backed away with each hit, drawing Gideon into the hallway and away from Grogu, and spun around the man to escape his reach. Din took a moment and then remembered that he had the spear, drawing it from his back, and prepared himself.
The two men lunged at each other, blade and metal meeting with a clang. Moff Gideon continuously swung the sword at Din, but he blocked each attack and managed to land a kick before throwing an attack of his own. They exchanged several more blows before Din launched his cable at the Moff, wrapping him in the wire that was easily cut through by the Darksaber.
Each strike Gideon tried to land was easily blocked, but Din saw a small opening and used his forearm to stop the next attack before thrusting the spear toward Gideon’s chest. The man caught it, but Din pushed him back, kicking him in the leg and knocking him against the wall. Din went for the kill, charging at the man, but he stopped again. However, this time Gideon made the mistake of pushing the tip away from him and toward the wall, placing it in the perfect position for Din to disarm him. The Darksaber flew across the air and landed with a thud, the blade disappearing with a whiz. With the man now disarmed, Din landed a hit to his face and knocked him down, and as he tried to get up, Din pointed the end of his spear at the man’s neck.
“You’re sparing my life?” Gideon asked with a smirk, “Well, this should be interesting.”
“Get up,” Din commanded, pulling the man to his feet and placing cuffs around his wrists. Knowing the man was too tired to try and escape, Din walked into the room and fetched Grogu, gingerly removing the cuffs and tossing them aside before picking him up and cradling him. Upon exiting the room, Din’s eye fell on the discarded weapon on the other end of the hall, and he strode over to pick it up carefully. Pressing the button to reveal the dark blade as it whooshed to life, he curiously waved the blade around, listening to the gentle hum as it cut through the air. A grunt from the Moff cut off his thoughts, and Din, not wanting to waste any time, nudged the man’s side with his foot.
“Let’s go,” Din commanded. Moff Gideon put up no resistance, and the two began to make their way toward the bridge.
After walking down several corridors, they finally arrived at the blast doors that led to the bridge, and with a final shove to Gideon’s back, the door opened, and the man stumbled through. As they walked in, Bo-Katan greeted them, but she did not look pleased.
“What happened?” the woman asked.
“He brought him in alive, that’s what happened,” Cara answered, greeting the Child tenderly, “And now the New Republic’s gonna have to double the payment.”
“That’s not what she’s talking about,” Moff Gideon cut in, drawing everyone’s attention, “Why don’t you kill him now and take it?”
Not liking what he was implying, Cara pushed the man to the ground, and he grinned as he looked up at Din.
“It’s yours now.”
“What is?” Din questioned.
“The Darksaber. It belongs to you,” came his reply. Bo-Katan’s eyes narrowed at the man’s words, and Din turned the weapon off and approached.
“Now,” he said, holding it out for her to take, “it belongs to her.”
“She can’t take it,” the Moff continued with glee at the predicament the woman was facing, “It must be won in battle. In order for her to wield the Darksaber again, she would need to defeat you in combat.”
“I yield,” Din stated, still holding the weapon out to her, “It’s yours.”
“Oh, no,” Gideon chuckled as he stood up to face Din, “It doesn’t work that way. The Darksaber doesn’t have power. The story does. Without that blade, she’s a pretender to the throne.”
“He’s right,” Bo-Katan finally said, conflict shining in her eyes at the desire to take the Darksaber and reclaim her throne and the defeat knowing that she had not earned it.
“Come on, just take it,” Din pushed. The woman looked down at the blade and back at him, but the shrill tone of the alarms cut them off.
―END FLASHBACK―
“So, you got the Darksaber and rescued Grogu, but then the Jedi took him away?” Dinah asked, legs swinging from the excitement of the story.
“Yeah,” Din answered, “He needed to be with his own people.”
“That’s too bad,” she spoke, “But at least you rescued him!”
“Yeah.”
“Would you rescue me if I was kidnapped?” Her words caught him by surprise.
“Of course, little one,” Din replied, “Your mother and I would come to save you no matter where you were.”
“I’m glad,” his daughter replied with a smile, “Mommy can get scary when she’s mad.”
“Yes, she can be,” Din agreed with a chuckle before realizing how much time had passed, “Well, I think it’s about time we get you home, don’t you think?” Dinah hopped off the crate and nodded.
“Thank you for today,” she said with a smile, and Din sent her one in return.
As they walked back to your home, Din could not remove the smile that graced his face. The afternoon he had spent with his daughter was one that he would cherish, as painful as it was to bring up memories of his foundling. Din had yet to tell her that he was her father and was unsure how to bring that up but knew he would do anything to protect her, just like he had done with Grogu.
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For weeks they had tried to track down the illusive man, having managed to catch his scent when he arrived on Nevarro, but they had lost him again when they landed on Sacorria. They had scoured the planet for the Mandalorian, but his ship was too common looking to find, and so he disappeared from their radar. However, as luck would have it, after a month of searching for him, they spotted his armor in a busy bazaar. To their surprise, they saw him approach a little girl and they were even more stunned to see him remove his helmet.
Unfortunately, they only saw the back of his head from their vantage point, but it was enough to pique their interest and decide to watch the two more closely. They tailed the man for several days, seeing him go to the same house and leave gifts on the doorstep, further increasing their curiosity, but they knew that they could not directly confront him there, so they decided to focus on the little girl. Clearly, she was important to him if he was willing to remove his helmet around her, and as they observed the armored man interact with the little girl, a plan began to formulate in their mind, a sinister smile spreading across their face as pieces began to fall into place.
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Warnings: Language, mischief, a little angst, fluff, blowjob, fingering, some dirty talk
A/N: That one angle was a little too inspiring for me.😅 Mild spoilers for The Book of Boba Fett episode five.
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When Peli had told you that she had gotten her hands on an N-1 starfighter for the Mandalorian, your first thought was one of mischief. The two of you had yet to finish assembling it, and since you were waiting on the Jawas to bring more parts for the ship, right now was the perfect time to implement your idea. Throw in Peli’s ever-growing list of ideas on how to improve the vessel and the long hours yet to be spent fixing her up, you knew it would be a while before it would be fully complete.
The older woman had sent Din a message that she had a ship for him, and it was only a matter of time before he showed up. The thought of him taking public transportation amused you to no end, especially with the endless amount of weapons he was known to carry with him, but you knew that the bounty hunter longed for a ship of his own once more.
“Hey, Peli,” you said, approaching the woman as she scrounged through the pile of junk near the starfighter.
“What is it?” she replied, sticking her head up from behind some broken pieces.
“I have an idea on a modification that we should add to this thing,” you spoke as you ran a hand down a panel, “but we can’t let Mando know.”
“Oh? Do tell,” she urged you, an inkling of what you had in store already on her mind.
“Well – uh – you know how things are between him and me….”
“Yeah yeah, I know. I know,” the eccentric woman quipped back with an eye roll and a wave of her hand. “The last time he was here, the two of you disappeared for a while, and I can only imagine what the two of you were doing. And that’s not a mental image I want to have any time soon.”
“Heh,” you uncomfortably chuckled, rubbing the side of your neck at her candor. “Yeah, well, I was thinking….”
Several days passed before the two of you got word from Din that he would be coming soon, and you were giddy with excitement. Still, a week went by before the Mandalorian finally made his appearance, dramatically showing up to help save Peli’s life. The way your heart skipped a beat at just the sight of him almost made you run into his arms, but you knew that the stoic man would not dare show such an act of public affection, particularly while in the company of Peli and her never-ending badgering. After all, you had never fully established what it was that was going on between the two of you. So, you tried to make yourself scarce, staying busy by sorting through some junk on the opposite side of the hanger and trying, but failing, to act nonchalant in his presence.
“What do we owe the pleasure? Here to slay another dragon?” Peli joshed, “Chasing down some elusive bounty?”
“I got your message,” came his reply.
“Message? What message?” You facepalmed at her ridiculous attempt at playing dumb.
She really needs to stop pestering him so much.
“You said you found me a replacement for the Razor Crest.”
“Yeah, that’s right. That’s what I said. That’s what I do. I’ve been working my butt off, yeah,” Peli shot back, “Did you bring the cash?”
Always with the money first.
“It’s right here,” he remarked, handing her a bag of coins.
“Mind if I count it?” she asked, “Not that I don’t trust you. I just wanna make sure you don’t give me too much.”
Always so damn dramatic.
“Hey, droids, make yourself useful. Count this up, and then fire up the grill before that thing gets gamey,” Peli instructed, “Right this way. Wait till you get your eyes on this baby.” You looked up just as Peli began to guide him toward the ship, and you felt his gaze land on you as he listened to the older woman speak.
“So, where is your unlikely companion?”
Oh, yeah.
Where is that little guy?
“I returned him to his own kind,” Din answered.
“Why the hell would you do that? I could’ve made good money off that thing. Open a petting zoo.” You groaned at her words.
“Where’s the ship?”
“Right this way,” she directed, “Ready to have your mind blown?” She pulled the sheet off the starfighter and dramatically gestured to it.
Why is she like this?
“Where’s the Razor Crest?” he questioned.
“I never said I had a Razor Crest. I said I had a replacement for a Razor Crest,” she retorted.
“I don’t have time for this,” he huffed, and your heart sank at his words as he turned to walk away.
“Hang on a second. Do you have any idea what this is?” Peli asked, “This is an N-1 starfighter, handmade for the royal guard and commissioned personally by the Queen of Naboo.”
“This is a pile of junk,” he proclaimed, pointing at the ship, voice laced with annoyance.
“Do you want your credits back?”
“Yes.”
“No skin off my dip-swap. Droids, bring this lovely man his money,” she shouted across the hanger, and your heart clenched at the thought of him leaving so soon, “Here you go. It’s that easy. Sorry to waste your time. Okay?”
You continued to watch the interaction, hoping that she could somehow convince him to stay. After a moment of silence, she spoke again.
“While we’re waiting, can I tell you a little something about this honey? I know she doesn’t look like much, but you got here a lot earlier than I expected, and I didn’t get a chance to finish,” she began to explain.
Liar.
“I mean, clearly, you can see I’ve got all the parts right here. Hmm? It all has a home.” You snickered, watching her toss some parts to the ground and fumblingly pull a cable off the small vessel.
This is so painful to watch.
“Oh, look, a family of scurriers,” she said, touching the little nest. “Let’s not disrupt the nest. You know how hard it is to find all original parts from way back in the Galactic Republic? I mean, these are all handmade. No droids. And not only that, what I’m gonna do, just because I like you, is I’m gonna add on some custom modifications that’ll make her faster than a fathier, AND because this baby’s pre-Empire, she’s off the grid.”
Oh, he will definitely like that.
“And did I mention, she can jump into hyperspace with no docking ring?” she continued, working hard to sell him on it. “I mean, come on! You gotta see the potential. Whoo!” You watched in amusement as he pulled a pipe off one of the engines, dumping water some water out of it before dropping it to the ground. It took everything in you not to laugh aloud, imagining the look on his face under the helmet.
“I’ll tell you, Mando, you gotta believe me. This is a classic.” You could not help but snort at the look on her face as she hit the engine with a fist and caused a panel to fall off.
Oh, Maker.
“Look, at least let me put her together before you decide. Can you give me that?”
Please say yes.
Please say yes.
You shut your eyes, preparing yourself for the Mandalorian to say no, but instead, there was no response, which Peli took as a yes.
“There you go. Hmm? Get this baby up and goin’,” she declared as she awkwardly began to tighten a bolt, “You know, it’d be a lot faster if you helped.”
She held a wrench out to him, and you softly sniggered to yourself as he silently stood there and made no move to get it. You let out and sigh and walked over to save him.
“Peli, give the poor man a break, will ya?” you said, giving him a smile in greeting. He tilted his helmet to acknowledge you as you stood beside her and took the wrench.
“Oh, fine, ya spoilsports,” she replied, “I’d get to work on this thing sooner rather than later if you want it done soon, so no funny business. Especially in my hanger.” The woman walked away to give the two of you some privacy, and you swallowed hard as a blush crept up your cheeks. You had not seen him since he had the little one with him, and seeing him alone made your chest hurt, the longing he felt at the absence of his tiny friend radiating from him like the rays of the sun.
“Dammit, Peli,” cursing the woman under your breath, you picked up where Peli left off with the loose bolt, “So – uh – how are you? I heard about the little guy.”
You mentally slapped yourself once the words left your mouth.
Dank farrik.
That was so not the best thing to ask right off the bat.
“He’s with his own kind now,” came his curt reply, and you picked up the underlying pain in his tone.
Well, now you’ve gone and done it, you idiot.
I should have said something else.
Maybe an ‘I’ve missed you,’ or ‘I haven’t been able to stop thinking about you.’
“Oh. Well, at least he’s safe, right?”
“Yes.”
The atmosphere was thick with tension, the two of you standing there in silence, unsure how to act around one another. Images of your last encounter with the man before he left for his quest flashed in your mind, and you clenched your thighs as you recalled the memory. Being bent over the dashboard of the Crest. His lips caressing your shoulder blade as he buried himself deep inside you, his slight stubble gently scratching your skin. The deep rumble of his voice as he whispered sweet words into your ear, goosebumps riddling your body with every breath.
Kriffing hell.
I need to stop.
“Um – so – do – do you wanna get started on this thing?” you stuttered, attempting to salvage the moment.
Maker, I am such a mess.
You sat on top of the ship welding a panel to one of the engines as Din waltzed over with a part for you. The sight of the broad man had you biting your lip beneath the helmet, and you swore to yourself as he set the part down.
Dammit, why does he have to look so good?!
“Thank you,” you said, popping the helmet’s front up as you gave him a gentle smile.
“You’re welcome,” he replied, shifting his weight to his right leg. You rolled your shoulders back as you removed the welding helmet entirely, letting out a tired groan as you stretched.
“So, what have you been up to lately?” you asked, breaking the silence.
Not awkward at all.
“I’ve been – um,” Din paused and took a deep breath, “trying to figure things out.” You cocked your head to the side questioningly, curious as to what he had been doing since he had left all those months ago.
“You mentioned that you returned the little guy to his people?”
“Yes,” he answered, “It was a little difficult to find a Jedi, but I managed.”
“Well, that’s good,” you told him, but his body language indicated he felt differently, “You must miss him.”
“I do,” he muttered, his voice filled with sadness.
“I’m sorry,” you stated, wanting to reach out and comfort him.
“It – it needed to be done,” he breathed out heavily.
“Yeah, but it doesn’t make it any less painful,” you said, hopping off the engine to stand beside him. You did not realize how close he had gotten until you were face to face with his chest, and you sharply inhaled.
“Do you regret it?”
“Sometimes.”
“Did you do anything else while you were away?” you inquired, wanting to shift the conversation to a lighter tone. The man shrugged.
“Not really.”
“C’mon, you must have done something.” He sighed and shifted his weight to his other leg.
“Well, we ran into some interesting people along the way,” he mumbled.
“Oh? Like whom?”
“Some more Mandalorians, one of them was named Bo-Katan and another named Boba Fett.” The two names made you perk up. You were vaguely familiar with Mandalorian history to know who Bo-Katan was, and Boba Fett was known to everyone in the universe as a notorious bounty hunter who had recently become the new Daimyo of Mos Espa.
Huh.
Interesting.
“That must have been weird.”
“A little bit. But they helped me get the Child back from Imperial remnants.”
“Whoa whoa whoa, what? You let him get taken?! Again?!” The memory of the young man who had taken you, Peli, and the Child hostage came to mind, and you shuddered. The Mandalorian nodded, slumping his shoulders in embarrassment as you chastised him.
Kriffing hell.
“Um – yeah – well no – I got him back.”
This conversation was not going how you imagined, and you felt bad for getting on his case about everything.
“I’m sorry, I shouldn’t be coming down on you about all this. I know you wouldn’t purposefully do anything to put the little one in danger,” you apologized, hesitantly stepping toward the armor-clad man. The distance between the two of you was slowly shrinking, and you were so close that you could almost feel Din’s body heat through his armor. You could hear him breathing heavily through the helmet as you drew nearer, and his body tensed as you wrapped your arms around his waist. When he realized what was happening, he relaxed into your embrace and returned the gesture, relishing the tender moment with you.
Thank the stars that Peli isn’t here to see this.
We would never hear the end of it.
“Thank you,” he whispered, tightening his grip on you. You gave him a gentle squeeze before drawing away and looking up at him.
“Of course,” you responded with a smile, “You are a good man, Din Djarin. Don’t ever think yourself any different.”
Working on the starfighter had been tiresome but well worth it. The countless hours and late nights spent working on her came to fruition as the droids pushed the ship into the open hanger bay.
“Oh! Not a gram of fat on her,” you heard Peli exclaim, “You know, no one’s catching you in this thing.”
“What happened to the droid port?” Din asked.
“I hogged it out. You know, I figured, with your disposition, you’d want to forgo the astromech.” You rolled your eyes when R5 grumpily beeped, and Peli chastised him. “Hey! Watch your language around the customers.”
You listened as Din examined his new method of transportation, the quiet rustling of fabric stroking the silver curves of the starfighter sending a tingle down your spine as you patiently waited.
“Think she’s ready?” came his voice, and you began to grow giddy.
“Ready as she’ll ever be,” Peli answered, “Start her up.”
“Really?”
“Yeah, start her up!”
His footsteps echoed, and the ship wobbled as the man stepped into the cockpit and got comfortable before beginning to flip a few switches. You held back your giggle as the engine sputtered and died.
“It’s not turning over.”
“Give it a little bit more juice.”
You heard some more flips and beeping and grinned as the engine roared to life.
That’s my girl.
“That’s a lot of engine for a little ship.”
“Yeah, well, see what she can do!”
“Shouldn’t we run a diagnostic first?” Din voiced, unsure if it was even safe to have the engine idling for so long.
“Nah! I can hear her!” came Peli’s confident reply. “She’s purring! Send her up!” The man needed no more convincing as the cockpit enclosure slid into place, and the ship began to ascend.
Here we go.
“Engaging forward drives,” Din announced as he hovered over the hanger and began to press a series of buttons. The starfighter lurched forward, and you braced yourself as it took off.
“She handles a little bumpy,” he observed.
“You’re used to a gunship, but she’s a starfighter,” Peli answered over the com, “So fly her like one.”
Yeah, Din.
“Okay,” he replied, “I’ll open her up.” You silently giggled at his words but were cut short as the ship accelerated, and you hit your head against the metal in your hiding place.
Kriff!
Thank the Maker that this thing rumbles so damn loud otherwise, he would have heard that.
Taking a deep breath, you braced yourself for the upcoming series of movements that would inevitably happen and once again thanked the Maker for having an iron stomach as the ship rapidly shifted.
“Dank Farrik, she’s fast,” the Mandalorian spoke in awe.
Of course, she is!
I helped build her!
“Smooth?” came Peli’s voice.
“As a gonk’s scomp jack.”
“There you go. Some teamwork,” Peli cheered, and you could only imagine what she was thinking right now, knowing you were hidden away on the tiny ship.
“Controls are real snappy,” Din said, “How’s the maneuverability?”
“You tell me,” Peli retorted, “Point your navigational disposition between the two suns. You’ll come up to Begger’s Canyon.”
Oh, Kriff.
Beggar’s Canyon?
Really?!
You, once again, braced yourself as best as you could in the tiny compartment, anticipating how much you were about to get thrown around once he entered the canyon.
It must be nice having a chair.
Not getting thrown around like a ragdoll.
You scolded yourself for being in this position, stuffed in a hidden compartment on the already tiny starfighter, but you knew what you had signed up for when you had brought up the idea to Peli in the first place.
―FLASHBACK―
“Are you crazy?!” Peli exclaimed, “What in the Maker’s name have you been smoking to come up with an idea like that?!”
You flinched at the shrillness of her voice, already regretting ever opening your mouth.
“Well – I mean – you know,” you began, “I – uh – honestly? I just – uh,”
“Oh, shut up already,” she said with an eye roll, “I get it. You want to give Mando a heart attack while he’s piloting the damn thing, maybe even give him a little something-something, eh?”
You cringed and bit your lip at her crassness.
Maker, this woman sometimes…
“Well, I guess we can do that,” she stated with a shrug, “Just make sure not to blow yourselves up while you’re up there, all right? I don’t want all my precious work to go to waste.”
As if I wouldn’t be working on the starfighter too…
“Of course, Peli,” you answered with a sigh, your initial excitement about your idea long gone.
“Good, now because of your grand idea, we’re gonna have to rearrange a few things,” she replied with fake annoyance. “Starting with making sure the damn turbonic venturi power assimilator the Jawas get us doesn’t explode while he’s flying this thing.”
“Right….,” you slowly said, “Because then your hard work would go to waste….”
“Precisely.”
“Not because I’d die,” you continued.
“Nope.”
“Gee, thanks,” you mumbled, “I see how it is.”
“You’re welcome,” Peli shot back, “Now, let’s get to work before your tin man gets here, shall we?”
―END FLASHBACK―
You knew the moment you arrived at Beggar’s Canyon because the starfighter rolled to its side and began to move through the tight corridors with ease.
Thank the Maker that I’m not claustrophobic.
“How’s the handling?”
“Tight,” came his answer, “She tracks like a railspeeder.”
Heh, tight.
Had you not been twisting and turning through the winding road, you would have slapped yourself for your dirty thoughts.
“What did I tell you? Razor Crest,” Peli scoffed.
“Let’s see what she’s got,” you heard the man speak to himself.
Oh, no.
Is he about to do what I think he’s about to do?
The ship suddenly tipped back and accelerated, heading straight for space, and you took in a deep breath to steady yourself. Breaking through the atmosphere was always your least part of flying, and you hoped that the work put into the little fighter would hold up against the unseen barrier.
You thanked the stars once you cleared the planet’s gravitational field, feeling the weightlessness that the open space offered, and you breathed out a sigh of relief. However, your stomach churned when you felt the telltale signs of the ship twisting and turning before going into a barrel roll.
Ugh, does he really have to do all these things?
Suddenly, a beeping filled the cockpit, and you groaned.
“Dank farrik!”
What now?
“Run your beacon for me, N-1,” came a voice through the speaker.
Dank farrik.
“Was I doing something wrong, officer?” Din voiced casually. As if he wasn’t just flying around like a manic.
“You’re not allowed to fly that fast next to a commercial ship.”
Kriff, Din!
You really had to do that, didn’t you?
“You’re also operating without a beacon,” the voice through the speaker continued, “I’m gonna need you to run one for us.”
“Sorry, officer, I got a little carried away there,” the Mandalorian answered, “Transmitting now.”
“Hmm. Your engine modem doesn’t match your power drive.”
“We just built her. I was taking her up for a test flight. Haven’t been able to update the registration just yet.”
Ugh, this guy is really getting on his case for everything, isn’t he?
“We’re gonna need to see your title tabs. Send us a ping.”
“Yeah, sorry, officer, but my transmitter isn’t hooked up yet.”
Yet, heh.
As if we’re going to put one in.
“I’ll head right back to Mos Eisley and get it sorted out.”
“Relinquish your flight controls for remote-control access.”
Oh, no.
“Hold on a second there, Lieutenant,” came a second voice, “I think we can let him off with a warning this time.”
Huh?
“Thank you, officer. I’ll have that taken care of,” Din replied.
“One thing before you go,” the voice spoke.
“Yes?”
Oh, Maker, what now?
“Your voice is mighty familiar. Did you used to fly a Razor Crest?”
Oh, may that baby rest in peace.
“I think you have the wrong guy, officer.”
“That ship showed up on a transponder log back in Nevarro in an incident involving Imperial remnants,” the man continued, “I’m just connecting some dots here. You mind answering a few questions?”
Make a run for it.
Make a run for it.
You heard the Kineso-switch covering flip open and grinned as you locked your body in place.
They’re in for a surprise.
The ship suddenly lurched forward, and you felt it take off.
Try to catch us now, officers.
You guessed Din was out of range from the officers when you felt the ship flow down to cruising speed, and a sly smile spread across your face.
It’s now or never.
You pushed open the panel that hid you beside his legs and poked your head out.
“Well, hello there,” you greeted, taking the man by surprise, making him momentarily falter with the controls.
“What the hell are you doing here?” Din asked, “And how the hell are you even down there?”
“Ha, you like?” you replied, crawling out of your hiding space. The cockpit was tight, but you had made sure to give yourself a little room to move into a comfortable position at his feet. “Peli and I made a few adjustments before you got here.”
“I can see that.”
“Well, weren’t you wondering where I was this whole time?”
“Yeah,” he answered, a bulge slowly growing in his pants at the precarious position you were in. “It was strange for you not to be there to see your handiwork.”
“Exactly,” you stated as you ran a hand up his leg seductively, “I couldn’t very well crawl in here while you were there, now, could I?”
Din nodded, and you could see his Adam’s apple bob as he gulped, your hand creeping up ever higher on his thigh.
“I – uh – I’m not sure this is such a good idea,” he stuttered, his pants growing tighter with each stroke of your fingers.
“No?” you teased, “But you wanted to see what she’s got.”
“This was not what I had in mind.”
“Press that button over there for the autopilot,” you instructed, pointing to a button in the corner as you chuckled at his nervousness. You knew this wasn’t like flying in the Crest, having little to no room for what you had in mind, but you were on a mission. Din did as you directed and engaged the autopilot, releasing the controls as you slid further up onto your knees, nestling yourself between his legs. You ran your hand closer to the ever-growing tent in his trousers until you finally touched it, and the man let out a whimpered at the contact.
“Kriff,” he panted out, fists clenched on his lap.
“How long has it been, Din?” you inquired.
“Since –,” he choked out, “Since I was last here.”
“Mm, is that so?” You palmed him through the layers covering his erection and let out a moan at the hardness under your hand. “It’s been just as long for me.”
“Oh, kriff,” he managed to say as you unzipped his pants and pulled his throbbing member out, rubbing the weeping head with the pad of your thumb.
“Shall I take care of this?” you giggled, moving your hand up and down at a tantalizing pace. “You seem a little tense.”
“Fuck,” he growled at your actions, hips bucking up for more. “Faster mesh’la.”
“As you wish,” you responded, increasing your speed before engulfing his cock in your mouth.
“Oh, Maker,” he cursed, “Fuck.”
You began to bob your head up and down over his length, gliding your tongue across the underside of his cock, eliciting a loud groan from the man. You looked up at him through your lashes, and although you could not see his face, you knew it was taking everything in him not to lose control. You let out a moan as you continued your assault on his thickness, pushing him as far into your throat as possible, hands gripping his thigh for leverage.
“Oh, fuck. Maker – your mouth – it feels,” he gasped out, “it feels so good.”
“Mm,” you hummed, sliding him deeper and deeper into your wet mouth, eyes watering as you hit his base, and he grunted at the sensation.
“Kriffing hell.” You started to bob your head on his cock, twirling your tongue around the head every time you came up for air, and once you ran it over his leaking tip, he lost it. His hand flew into your hair, and he pushed himself deep until he hit the back of your throat, and you gagged as a few tears slipped out.
“Oh, stars,” he whimpered, using your hair to hold your head in place as he repeatedly bucked his hips up. With each thrust, he let out a loud groan, and the deep tremor sent a jolt down your body. Wetness had been pooling between your legs, and you finally decided to do something about it, slipping a hand into your pants for some relief. Din caught a glimpse of your hand disappearing below your layers, and he growled at the sight.
“Fuck yourself for me, mesh’la,” he ordered, continuing to push himself into your hot mouth but slowing his stride to give you more time to breathe. You gazed into the visor of his helmet and did as he said, letting out a moan as you slid your fingers across your clit before delving into your heat. You were soaked, and Din wanted nothing more than to bury himself deep inside you, but that would have to wait for later when he had the room to pound into you as much as he wanted.
“Show me how wet you are,” he commanded, voice trembling with need as he watched you extract your hand from your pants and hold your fingers up for him to see. Your digits glistened with your juices, and Din took the opportunity to move your hand until your fingers dipped under his helmet and into his mouth, a groan escaping his lips as he tasted your essence.
“Oh!” you said in surprise, the carnal act causing another rush of liquid to flow out of you. He swirled his tongue around your fingers, making sure not to waste a single drop before releasing your hand.
“Fuck, what I’d do to have you on my cock right now,” he grumbled, cock bobbing at the mental image of you bent over as he thrust into your pussy over and over.
“Mm, we’ll have to make do,” you answered and took him into your mouth. He threw his head back and grunted as you enthusiastically sucked his cock, your hand going back into your clothes to dip two fingers into your dripping entrance. Your fingers kept pace with your mouth as you moved up and down his length, and soon you felt his cock stiffen as he drew closer to the edge.
“Oh, fuck – fuck – fuck,” he cried as you picked up the pace, “Just like that. Oh – fuck – I’m – I’m gonna –” He took your hair in his hand again, clenching his fist with the other, and pushed your head down until your nose hit his pelvis as he reached his peak. Rope after rope of his hot cum spilled down your throat, so much that some dribbled out the sides of your mouth and down your chin, and the man leaned his head against the headrest once he was completely drained.
“Kriff,” he breathlessly said as you swallowed everything he had before swiping a finger over your chin and licking the remaining juices off the tips. You carefully tucked his spent penis back into his pants and gave him a grin.
“You still alive, Mando?” you teased, adjusting your tussled hair. He nodded, words escaping him as he watched you compose yourself.
“Once we get back to Mos Eisley, I’m bending you over the nearest surface and fucking you until you forget your name,” he commented, voice gruff with desire.
“Mm, well, we best get back then, shouldn’t we?” you replied, “Though, maybe take it easy on the flying. I’d rather not bump my head because you’re rushing, and I am not crawling back into the compartment.”
“Better hold on then,” he answered with a chuckle before disengaging the autopilot and making way for Tatooine, your arms gripping his legs to stabilize yourself as he flew through the atmosphere. “By the way, why did you make a hidden space under there?”
You grinned at him mischievously.
“Why, for some starfighter shenanigans, of course,” you remarked with a wink.
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Take Number One
Chapter Two of Out of Time
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Rating: 18+
Word Count: 2k+
Summary: Reader’s first crack at keeping Whiskey from dying.
Warnings: Language, violence, major character death, ANGST (Duh)
A/N: I'm so sorry for not updating in a really long time! Life has been very hectic lately, with work and several deaths in the family, so I really really appreciate your patience. Because of everything going on, it's been a bit of a struggle finding time and motivation to write, but I AM slowly working on my content.
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“WHISKEY! NO!”
You woke up, breathing heavily, and snatched your phone from the nightstand.
Dammit.
Dammit.
DAMMIT!
The device’s screen flashed at you.
3:24 am.
June 13th, 2017.
Friday the 13th.
Fuck fuck fuck.
It was the same day.
Again.
Are you fucking kidding me?!
You were going to lose your shit.
You had a feeling you would be back to relive this day again, but a part of you had hoped that you wouldn’t. That it was only a dream.
Nope.
You took a deep breath and stilled your mind, trying to calm yourself and your racing thoughts. You still had time before Ginger woke Whiskey up, so you thought of ways to stop his death from happening. You decided to try with Ginger.
Maybe if I tell her what’s happening or what will happen, she won’t wake him up.
Yeah, I’ll do that.
But first, coffee.
Knowing that you had almost all day before the inevitable, but maybe preventable, events would happen, you decided to at least start your day off right. You swung your legs out of bed, forgoing your slippers, and walked into your closet. Pulling out some pants and a shirt, you stripped out of your pajamas and quickly changed. Running your fingers through your hair, you tried to unknot it as best as you could but failed.
Ugh.
Damn hair.
You gave in and picked up a brush, tugging at the ends to untangle it. After battling with your hair, you threw it into a bun, having no patience to deal with it any longer.
I have more important things to worry about.
Sliding your phone into your back pocket, you slipped out of your apartment and trekked down to the shared dining area. You had a fully functioning apartment, but you liked going down to the shared dining room instead of cooking for yourself, especially this morning.
Being an agent has its perks.
I never starve.
As you entered the large common room, you were greeted by the sight of Ginger at the coffee pot, filling her mug, steam coming off the top.
Bingo.
You strode over to her, picking up a cup of your own, and filled it with the bitter morning nectar of the gods.
“Morning, Ging,” you greeted with a sleepy smile.
“Good morning, Brandy,” she replied, returning your smile. “You’re up early.” You typically had a penchant for sleeping in, especially when you didn’t have a mission, so it was a surprise that you would be up well before dawn.
“I couldn’t sleep,” you stated with a shrug. “Speaking of which, do you ever sleep?” She chuckled at your question.
“I do, but you’re usually busy doing something.” Nodding at her explanation, you picked up a spoonful of sugar and the small container of milk, pouring a generous amount of each substance into your coffee until it turned into a light brown mixture. As much as you enjoyed coffee and its benefits, the bitterness irked you, so you often opted to dilute it with sugar and milk as often as possible. Many would think it was a heinous crime, but you gave no shits. You would work with the sugar-boosted caffeine any day.
The day I start drinking my coffee black is when pigs fly.
You let out a contented sigh as you brought the porcelain cup to your lips, the sweet aroma filling your nose.
“I will never get tired of this,” you said happily, sipping the hot liquid as Ginger chuckled at you and took a drink of her own.
“You never were a morning person.”
“No way,” you retorted. “Who in their right mind wakes up before the ass-crack of dawn?!”
“I could name a few,” she answered. “Whiskey, for one.” At the mention of Whiskey, you remembered why you had come down in the first place.
“Hey, Ging, about Whiskey. I wanted to talk to you,” you began. She looked at you questioningly.
“What about him?”
“Um – I know you’re supposed to wake him up later today, but could you maybe hold off on that?” The agent looked at you in confusion.
“Why?” You weren’t sure how to answer her.
I either have to tell her and risk sounding crazy or come up with some bullshit excuse.
“Agent Brandy?”
“I just need you to.”
“I need a good reason why,” she replied. “I can’t just keep Whiskey under when he’s fully healed, and we may need his help.”
“I know, but you have to trust me on this, okay?” Ginger shook her head.
“I’m sorry, but unless you have some a good reason why, then I have to wake him up in a few hours.” You began to panic.
Here goes nothing.
“Ginger, if you wake him up, he’s going to die.” She looked at you with wide eyes.
“What are you talking about?”
“He – if you wake him, he’s going to die,” you squeaked out. “Don’t ask me how I know because I have no idea how to explain it, but I just know, okay?”
“Um – Brandy, I think you should go back to sleep; Whiskey will be fine,” she began, worried about your state of mind. “The nanites are working as they should, so there isn’t going to be a risk of him dying when he wakes up.”
“I know that,” came your rebuttal. “It’s not the nanites. Just – just trust me on this, please?” The woman looked at you skeptically.
“I – I’m sorry, but unless Champ says I can’t, or you tell me why then I have to do as protocol states.” Your shoulders slumped in defeat. You did not want to resort to telling her about what was happening with you but did not have any other choice.
God, she’s going to think I’ve fucking lost it.
“Ginger, this is going to sound outrageous,” you began to explain, placing your cup down on the table, “but this day has already happened. For me.” She raised an eyebrow at your statement.
“Uh – “
“Look, I know it’s bizarre, and you probably don’t believe me, but today is yesterday for me.” More confusion spread across her face. “I mean, yesterday is today for me.”
“Uh – “
“Fuck! I just mean that I’ve already relived today. Today is Friday; yesterday it was Friday; tomorrow will be Friday.”
I am seriously starting to sound fucking crazy.
Ginger held her hand up.
“If this is one of your jokes, it’s not a very good one, Agent Brandy,” she said. “I think you might just need more sleep because you’re starting to worry me a bit.” She turned and made her way back to her lab, worriedly glancing over her shoulder at you one last time.
Fuck!
You awkwardly stood there, trying to figure out Plan B.
That was a fucking failure.
Now what?
You picked up your coffee and took a seat in a lounge chair, letting the ceramic warm up your cold hands. You huffed out a breath and contemplated your next move.
You sat there for a while, zoning out and trying to think of what to do next when you got an idea.
Instead of going through Ginger, I could just go straight to Whiskey and tell him what’s going to happen.
Grabbing your phone out of your pocket, you looked at the time.
3:59 am.
Now to figure out what time Ginger is waking him up.
You made your way to her lab, poking your head in, and saw her typing away next to Merlin, and it looked like they were trying to breach Poppy’s firewall. Both of their heads turned to face you when the door swung open, and you gave them a little wave.
“Heya, Ging, Merlin,” you greeted. She nodded at you, and the man smiled.
“Hello, Agent Brandy. What brings you in today?” Merlin kindly asked.
“I was just wondering when Ginger plans on waking Whiskey up,” came your nervous reply, unsure of how she would react given your earlier conversation.
I know from yesterday, no, fuck.
Today.
Yesterday 2.0?
Ugh, I guess it would be 3.0 at this point.
Whatever, Friday the 13th 3.0.
I know that by the time I got to the lab around 3:20 or 3:30, they were already gone, and Whiskey was already…
You snapped yourself out of your thoughts and looked at the two very confused agents staring back at you.
“I’m due to wake him in a few hours. Around maybe eight or so,” Ginger answered, looking at her watch.
YES!
I have time!
“I’d like to be there when you wake him, if possible?”
“I don’t see why not,” she said with a shrug.
Score!
“Thank you!” you replied with a grin. Ginger nodded her head, still weirded out by your behavior, and went back to what she and Merlin were going. As you were leaving, you caught the tail-end of their conversation about an agent position being open and how Ginger always asked, but Whiskey would vote against her.
Huh.
You aimlessly made your way to the library and sat in one of the couches, trying to figure out what you were going to do. You had a while before Whiskey would wake up, and you weren’t sure when Eggsy and Co. would be leaving, but you needed to figure something out. And quick.
You sat in the library for about forty minutes or so before deciding to get up and go to the lab to see if you could help Ginger and Merlin with anything. Just as you pulled the doors open, you heard Eggsy, Harry, and Merlin’s voices and stopped, listening to what they were saying.
“I shot Agent Whiskey. Deliberately,” came Harry’s voice. You covered your mouth to muffle your gasp.
Harry shot Whiskey?
What the fuck?!
Why?!
“What, why?” Merlin replied.
“He was working against us,” you heard Harry reply. “And until we find out why, I say we trust no one.”
What the fuck.
What the fuck.
What the fuck.
“Merlin, Harry’s sick,” Eggsy’s voice ran through the hall. “This whole thing is my fault. I thought he was ready.”
Damn right, he wasn’t fucking ready.
But how the fuck did Harry know about Whiskey before they even went to Cambodia?
“I’m sorry, I’ve got to take this,” Eggsy said as his phone rang. You tuned Eggsy’s voice out and instead tried to focus on Harry’s.
“Listen to me. This is not about my mental health,” Harry spoke. “If there’s a chance, there’s a double agent in our midst, or worse, if Statesmen itself has a dark agenda, we have to safeguard this mission.”
WHAT THE FUCK?!
You were fuming. Harry’s insinuation that Statesmen would support Poppy-fuckface filled you with rage.
How dare he question our loyalties.
You knew that Whiskey was no double agent. Sure, he had a vendetta against drug users; however, you couldn’t understand why Harry might think Whiskey could be a double agent. You were still in the dark about what happened to make Harry think those thoughts and why he would even shoot him, but you wanted to get to the bottom of things, but more importantly, you needed to stop Whiskey from dying. Again. You listened some more, hearing Eggsy’s voice get louder.
Uh oh.
“Merlin! Have you got eyes on that location yet?” Eggsy yelled.
“Soon,” the man answered. “The reconnaissance drone is about an hour away. Which gives us time to sort out – “
“Bullocks, we haven’t time for anything,” Eggsy announced. “I’m leaving now. With or without you.” You heard the elevator doors close, and you poked your head around the corner.
Empty.
Fuck fuck fuck.
You glanced down at your watch.
4:46 am.
You still had hours before Whiskey woke up, and you calculated the time it would take the trio to get to Cambodia.
They’ll most likely be taking the Statemen’s plane, and that bitch goes like nine hundred miles an hour.
Cambodia is almost nine thousand miles away, so that’s like ten-ish hours of flight time.
That will put them at around 2:45 pm when they get there.
Fuck.
You were panicking. If Whiskey woke up around 8 am, and he decided to take the Silver Pony, you knew he would get there shortly after them, which meant he would probably get there just in time to die. You shook your head, not wanting to think about that. No, you had to stop it from happening.
Do I wake him up early?
Do I tell him?
What do I do?!
Your mind was racing, your heart pounding in your chest at the inner turmoil. You took a moment to compose yourself when another idea popped into your head.
The machine!
If I can make it so the nanites keep Whiskey under, Ginger won’t be able to wake him up on time, and I won’t have to tell him what happens if he goes after them.
You hurriedly ran down the hall, checking if Ginger was still in her lab as you passed it, and let out a sigh when you saw she was still busy, although she was now alone.
Merlin must have gone with Eggsy and Harry.
You picked up the pace to the lab where Whiskey was and entered the pin to grant you entry. The doors opened with a hiss, and you quickly shut and locked it behind you.
Just in case anyone comes by.
As you walked to Whiskey’s bedside, you couldn’t help but admire the man’s features. His mustache was always neatly trimmed, and he looked so peaceful as he slept, not a care in the world.
He’s so beautiful.
You wanted to run your fingers through his hair but stopped yourself.
Dammit!
I’m being such a creep.
You did not want to waste any more time, so you promptly pulled up the screen to the machine, fingers rapidly flying over the keyboard as you reprogrammed the nanites from disengaging and allowing anyone to access the wake function. You continued to type, adding another more complex code on the off chance that Ginger bypassed the first one. For good measure, you entered in a third one before looking over your handiwork.
That should do it.
You exhaled and glanced at the time.
5:09 am.
Now we wait.
Knowing you had time before Ginger went to wake the slumbering agent, you decided to hide in the library again, making sure to set an alarm shortly before Whiskey was to wake. Throwing yourself into a plush armchair, you scrolled through your phone, knee bouncing with anxiety as the minutes slowly ticked by. As you mindlessly swiped through social media on your phone, your eyelids began to grow heavy, and before you knew it, you had dozed off.
BEEP BEEP BEEP BEEP!
Bolting upright, you rubbed the sleep from your eyes, taking note of the time.
7:55 am.
Right on time.
You rose from the chair and exited the library, feet guiding you to stand outside the lab doors. You spied Ginger’s dark head of hair as she typed away on the machine beside Whiskey, and you held your breath, hoping that your code would work. You let out a sigh of relief as you watched the woman let out a frustrated groan and rub her temple, the program working its magic to deter her from disconnecting the nanites and initiating the wake sequence.
However, your relief was cut short and quickly turned into fear when the machine monitoring Whiskey’s heart rate started to loudly beep, and his vitals began to plummet. Ginger frantically tried to type in sequence after sequence to make the machine stabilize him, but it was clear that things were going array. When Whiskey began to seize suddenly, and the machinery started to smoke, you knew that you had fucked something up when inputting your code to reprogram the tiny robots. The nanites were no longer working to heal the sleeping agent but were instead undoing their work.
“WHISKEY, NO!”
You rushed into the room as Ginger ran to the corner to get a defibrillator, but you were both too late. You helplessly watched as Whiskey’s body uncontrollably convulsed, back arching off the table, before flames erupted from the machine, engulfing him in hues of red, orange, and yellow. His movements abruptly ceased as the sprinklers finally activated, dousing the room with water, but it was no use. Time stilled as the steady beep of his nonexistent heartbeat rang through the room, the straight line on the screen taunting you.
You fell to your knees, tears streaming down your face as you let out a sob at the sight of his charred figure.
You had failed.
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The Epilogue
Chapter Twenty-One of Well, This is Awkward
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Rating: 18+
Word Count: 600+
Summary: Things never really end, do they?
Warnings: Language.
A/N: As promised, here is the epilogue I said I'd drop on my birthday! I can’t help but keep writing for Dave, and this has been such a great series, so I decided to give you all a little something!
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―THREE YEARS LATER―
Beep.
Beep.
Beep.
Beep.
Beep.
Beep.
Dave slowly opened his eyes, the steady rhythm of a machine drawing him from a deep slumber. It took a moment for his eyes to adjust to the brightness and allow him to take in his surroundings, the dull white plaster of a ceiling greeting his gaze.
Where — where am I?
His mind was foggy, frazzled, and confused. He tried to turn his head but found that his neck would not cooperate, so instead, he shifted his eyes about and scanned the room as best as he could.
White.
So much white.
Too much white.
To the right of him was a window, a chair nestled beside it, and a television mounted in the corner, the news quietly playing on the screen. As he tried to move his fingers, the thin, course material of a blanket met the tips, and he began to realize where he was.
A hospital?
What?
How?
With some trouble, Dave attempted to recall what had happened to him before he woke.
I was in the kitchen with the girls…
And…
Wait.
No.
I was fighting with Mac…
And…
He…
He won?…
But then what was?…
Dave willed his mind to envision what he had last seen, unsure if it was his mere imagination or if it was indeed real, and with some difficulty he was able to pull the images forward.
A beautiful face in a boisterous crowd.
The figure of a woman with his daughters — a woman who wasn’t Carol.
Passion-filled nights tangled in his sheets.
A bleeding, beaten body of a man tied to a chair.
The twinkling lights of a city — a woman in a silver dress walking in front of him.
A blood-stained knife in his gloved hands.
The sparkle of an engagement ring.
A newborn baby crying in his arms.
The clear etching of his name written in the space beside “father” on a birth certificate.
His bewilderment grew, and at first, Dave could not remember the woman’s face, but after a moment of concentration, he finally saw it.
The face of an angel.
Your face.
Dave dug through his brain some more, comparing the events of the would-be dream to what he knew was his reality, and found that you were not part of it.
You were not a woman he had met at a bar whom he had proceeded to have hot dirty sex with inside the restroom.
You were not the family nanny that Carol had hired to hide her extramarital affairs.
You were not the woman that Dave had fallen in for within the short span of a few months.
You were nothing but a phantom conjured up by his injured brain, the events nothing but a figment of his imagination.
It couldn't have been a dream.
If it was, then why did it feel so real?
As if it was a memory?
What the fuck is going on?
Dave laid there, dazed and more disoriented than when he had woken up, and his brain had slowly begun to hurt.
Fuck!
Who was she?
Why was she in my dream?
Is she even fucking real?!
Dave continued to simmer in his thoughts, blankly staring at the ceiling, when he heard the door to his room open. Still unable to turn or lift his head, he waited until the person walked closer to his bed, and when they came into view, his heart nearly stopped.
There, at his bedside, stood a woman clad in hospital scrubs, holding a clipboard, the tag on her chest indicating that she was a nurse. The sight of a nurse checking on a patient was not uncommon, but Dave was shell-shocked beyond belief.
It can't be.
He was rendered utterly speechless, the beeping in the background steadily increasing with his rising heart rate. Dave did not want to believe what he was seeing because the nurse was not your typical nurse.
No, not an ordinary nurse at all.
The nurse that stood before him was you.
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The End
Chapter Twenty of Well, This is Awkward
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Rating: 18+
Word Count: 24k+ (I am so so so sorry.🙈)
Summary: Dave makes more discoveries, and things take a drastic turn, but in the end, how will he respond?
Warnings: ANGST ANGST ANGST, language, SOFT!Dave, smutty goodness (YESSSSSSSSSS! Heads up, it’s quite a lot. You have been warned), light Daddy kink, fingering, oral (male and female receiving), unprotected sex (PLEASE WRAP IT UP), some spanking, some light degradation, anal penetration, graphic descriptions of violence and blood. Those are the only ones I can think of, but let me know if I miss any.
A/N: Ahhhhhhhhhh!!! Here we are!!! This has been a wild ride from start to finish, and I am so so so thankful to each and every one of you who have been part of this journey with me. It's crazy to think that I started this series at the beginning of December last year, not sure where I would even be taking this, and now we're at the end.
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Dave blinked several times, gaping at the photos in bewilderment, unsure of what he was seeing in front of him.
What are these?
They seem so familiar.
But why?
Have I seen them before?
But where? When?
An image of him pulling out the pictures from his jacket flickered in his mind, and he shook his head, a confused haze falling over him.
What the hell was that?
Dave’s perplexion grew. However, he continued to scan the room, curiosity motivating him to keep prying. Your other nightstand caught his eye, and he walked closer to examine the objects sitting on the wooden surface. His heart clenched at the sight of two more picture frames staring back at him.
What the hell is this?
In one frame sat a photo of Dave passionately kissing you at the park, another of the two of you cuddling bed, tangled in a lover’s embrace, love in his eyes, and lastly, a photo of baby Frankie a week after he came home.
Could it be?
His eyes wandered to the second frame, and he discovered the birth certificate. The writing etched across the document made his heart stop.
There, written in the space under ‘father,’ sat his name.
What?
It can’t be…
Dave’s stomach twisted, and a glimmer on the corner of the frame drew his attention. Atop it, on a small silver chain, sat a glittering diamond engagement ring. The very ring he had a receipt for and evidently purchased for you.
Dave’s head began to throb as if someone was unceasingly beating his brain with a sledgehammer. His vision proceeded to blur, and with a gasp, he fell to the ground clutching his skull as a multitude of images flashed before him.
—FLASHBACK—
There you were, short red dress hugging your skin, black heels on your feet, a giant smile on your face. Dave watched as you swayed your hips to the music, and he stood. Like a predator stalking its prey, he weaved through the crowd and approached you.
“Mind if I cut in?” He huskily spoke into your ear, pressing his body against yours and drawing you close, a tent already forming in his pants. “Hope you don’t mind, princess, but I just couldn’t help myself when I saw you dancing.” You giggled and shook your head.
“Not at all, though I usually wait until I’ve been bought a drink first,” came your snarky reply. Dave pressed his muscular frame against you even more at your words, grinding his length against you, knowing you could feel it.
“That can be arranged, though I’m sure I can give you a better drink than one from this bar,” he seductively stated.
“Maybe, but I’m quite a big fan of this bar and its drinks, so you’d have to really impress me.” He gave your hips a slight squeeze, and his mind raced at the possibilities of where this night would go.
“I guess I’ll just have to do my best.”
The scene shifted to you on your knees, bobbing your head up and down on his rigid member. Your tongue swirled around his shaft as you took him deeper and deeper until he hit the back of your throat.
Fuck me.
You kept up the pace, alternating between using your mouth and hand, and Dave felt his sack tighten before he spilled his seed into your wet cavity.
Things shifted again; this time, you were bent over the restroom sink, his cock plunging in and out of you at a brutal pace.
“Fuck baby, you’re taking me so well. Shit, your pussy feels like heaven,” he groaned, looking down to watch his hardness disappear into your soaked cunt. He moved his gaze to the mirror, watching you grip the edge of the sink, your face contorted with pleasure.
“Please, Daddy. Please, I’m about to cum. Fuck, don’t stop,” you pleaded. Dave continued to hammer into you, hand drifting from your neck to squeeze your breast and pinch the nipple.
“Don’t you dare cum until I say so,” he ordered, crushing your nipple between his thumb and index finger, and you threw your head back in pleasure. He watched you open your mouth, letting out a moan, but stopped partway through, remembering that you could not be too loud. Dave moved his hand that was on your hip and snaked it to the front of your dress, pulling it up farther, your pussy exposed to his wanting eyes. His fingers met your swollen clit, and it took everything in you not to cum right there.
“Ohhhh fuckkkkk,” you moaned. “Please let me cum. It’s too much.”
Dave grinned at you through the mirror and rubbed your clit harder, no longer holding back. His cock smashed into you, nearing his release.
“When I say cum, you can cum. Until then, you take it like the little slut you are, you hear me?” He spoke into your ear. You nodded, choking out a whimper.
“Please, Daddy, I can’t take anymore,” you begged. Dave felt your pussy ache around him, his thrusts starting to get sloppy and erratic. He was almost there. Just. One. More. Push.
“Cum for me, baby girl,” he ordered with his last push, biting down on your neck, and covered your mouth with his hand.
—FLASHBACK—
The doorbell ringing caught his attention, and he let out a sigh, pulling himself up from his desk to walk down the stairs. The sight of you leaning over the kitchen island, ass sticking right out, made his eyes widen.
“Oh, Dave! Honey, meet our nanny! This is Dave, my husband,” Carol excitedly said. “I was just telling her about being gone for work starting next week, but you’d be home to help with the girls if she needed anything.”
Dave was speechless. There you were. In his kitchen. Looking just as captivating as the night he saw you in your jeans and skin-hugging shirt. He had to hold himself back from ravaging you on the spot.
“Dave? Are you okay, honey?” Carol asked him. He blinked and shook his head, pushing those lustful thoughts away, and looked at his wife.
“Uh, yeah. Yeah, I’m fine. I just had a work thing come up a few minutes ago that distracted me. Sorry. Hi, I’m Dave; nice to meet you,” he responded, turning to you and held his hand out.
—FLASHBACK—
Dave spied you in the laundry room, bent over setting clothes in a hamper when he decided to corner you and have some fun. He snuck up and pressed himself firmly against your ass. He snaked his hands around you, settling them on your hips, as he pushed his bulge between your cheeks while you slowly stood.
“How’s my baby girl doing today?” Dave breathed into your ear as he then nipped your neck, drawing a shiver from you. You turned to face him and met his lips in a fevered kiss. You slipped your arms around his neck as your tongues battled for dominance. Dave’s hands gripped your thighs and lifted, propping you on top of the washing machine. He pulled your legs apart and moved to stand between them, continuing to kiss you sensually. You let out a moan and reached for the front of his pants, feeling the very prominent bulge there as you began to rub gently. Dave moved his right hand to the apex between your legs and cupped your heat. You broke the kiss to throw your head back at the contact.
“Da - ugh. Oh my god,” you choked out, and Dave shifted your shorts to the side, dipping a finger into your heat.
Fuck, she is so wet already.
“What was that, baby girl?” Dave urged, slipping a second finger into you. “You’re so soaked.”
“Dave, fuck. I need….I need you,” you managed to whimper out as he began to pump his fingers into you.
“Hmmm, is that my name, baby girl?” Dave smirked as he picked up the pace. “Is that how you ask?”
“Fuck,” you moaned out. “Daddy, please. Please, I need more.” Dave chuckled at the needy tone and picked up the pace, resting his left hand behind your neck and bringing your lips to meet his. He circled his thumb on your clit, and added a third finger inside you, drawing a loud moan from your mouth. Suddenly, Dave drew away and knelt on the floor, tugging you to rest on the edge of the appliance. He pulled your shorts and thong down your legs and threw them to the side.
Your folds glistened with slick, and he licked his lips at the sight. Dave wanted to devour you. He shifted closer and bit the inside of your right thigh and then the left. He slithered his tongue up your leg before giving your clit a long swipe once he arrived at the apex of your legs, and he felt your hand tightly grip his head at the action. The effect of Dave’s tongue on your clit was overwhelming as the oscillation of the washing machine made it more than a mere muscle and more like a vibrating toy, only better, amplifying the pleasure tenfold.
“Oh fuck!” you cried out as he snaked his tongue into your heat, tasting your sweet nectar.
Fuck, I could drink her up all day.
He briefly pulled away to insert two fingers into your center and began scissoring his fingers.
“You look so pretty for me, baby girl. Sitting here legs spread out while I taste this sweet pussy,” Dave huskily said. “Fuck, just look at you taking my fingers.” He looked down to watch his fingers pumping into you, fascinated with how well you took his thick digits. He leaned forward and sucked your clit into his mouth, drawing another groan of pleasure from you.
“Oh my god, yes. Daddy, yes! Please don’t stop,” you exclaimed as he sucked harder on your clit and drove his fingers into you at a brutal pace. Within moments he felt a rush of slick flood out, running down his fingers, and he continued his assault on your clit and pussy as you violently came. He gave you a moment to catch your breath before retreating and stood up, licking his fingers with pride.
“I knew you wouldn’t be able to resist me, baby girl. So why try and fight it?” Dave smugly said as he pecked your lips before strutting out of the room, leaving you blissed and spread out over the washing machine.
—FLASHBACK—
Dave took a seat at his desk, opening and unlocking his laptop, and pulled up the files that Ari had sent him. The first folder he opened was photos. Dave shook his head as he scrolled through picture after picture of Carol on her trip. Images of Carol with her assistant on a very not work-related-looking trip. Carol sitting at dinner with her hand on her assistant’s lap. Them laying together next to the pool, looking too cuddly. Carol leaning up and kissing him while his hand was on her ass. The more photos Dave looked through, the more graphic they became until he saw pictures of Carol full-on fucking her assistant in their hotel room with the curtains open.
“Fucking slut couldn’t even close the goddamn curtains,” Dave said to himself. Dave felt anger rage in him as he looked at the evidence he now had.
No wonder she wanted a nanny so she could fuck off with her boy toy.
Fucking whore.
Dave opened the following folder, this one titled ‘emails,’ and began to read. If the photos were not damning enough, he read countless emails between Carol and her assistant, Adrian, making plans to see each other and wrote explicitly about their time together. The incriminating emails dated back to almost two years! Dave felt himself grow angrier and angrier at the fact that Carol had been pursuing such a thing while he had felt slightly bad that he had strayed from his marriage to her. He was angry at the fact that he had been busy taking care of their daughters while his wife went off and slept with her assistant—more than once.
“Fucking good for nothing bitch!” Dave shouted as he slammed his hand down on his desk. He was livid. All hints of remorse he felt at sleeping with you were out the window, and he was done.
—FLASHBACK—
Dave pressed the gas pedal down, speeding up to get to you sooner. Luckily, when you had texted him, he was already on his way, so he was not far. Dave pulled into the apartment complex and saw Tom at your doorstep, howling at you through the door. Dave swiftly got out of his SUV and put his hand on the back of his pants, ready to grab his gun should he need to.
Thank God people are at work at this time of day.
I don’t have the patience to try and explain that one, Dave thought.
“Open this fucking door up, you stupid bitch!” Dave heard Tom yell as he kicked the door and jiggled the handle some more. Tom caught Dave’s movement out of the corner of his eye and looked over at Dave, sizing him up.
“What the fuck do you want?” Tom shouted, trying to make himself look intimidating.
“I want you to go,” Dave calmly said, his hand gripping the handle of the gun, switching the safety off.
“Fuck you. Who do you think you are? Huh?” Tom yelled as he stepped towards Dave, pulling out a knife.
“That doesn’t concern you,” Dave said as he drew his gun and aimed it at Tom. At the sight of the pistol, Tom halted his steps, weighing his options. Never bring a knife to a gunfight, Dave thought.
“Fuck this. Fuck you and this bitch,” Tom said as he spat towards Dave. “I’ll be back.” Tom began to walk backward, and Dave watched as he got into a car and drove off, fuming. Dave lowered the gun and walked over to your door, and knocked.
“Hello?” he said. He did not hear a sound from inside and opened his phone to look at the feed. You were still cowering in your room. Dave decided to send you a text that he was outside, and Tom was gone, and he watched through the phone screen as you read his text and buried your head in your knees and cried. Dave grabbed the spare key to your apartment and let himself in, making sure to lock the door behind him in case Tom decided to come back. He tucked his gun into the back of his pants again as he neared your room and heard your cries.
“Hey, it’s me. Dave,” he announced as he walked in. You looked up at him, eyes red and puffy, tears streaming down your face, and a little snot coming out of your left nostril. You cried harder as you got up and stumbled over to Dave, into his waiting arms as he shushed you and stroked your hair.
“Shhhh. He is gone. I got rid of him,” he said into your hair, trying to calm you down. You held onto his shirt and cried some more. You slipped your arms around his waist, and the pleasant smell of your body wash filled his nose while he stroked your hair, not wanting to let go. Your arms slid down from the middle of Dave’s back and came in contact with the butt of the gun. You both froze as you looked up at him, fear evident in your eyes.
Fuck.
“Dave,” you slowly said as you let go of him and took a step back. “Why do you have a gun?” There was a pregnant pause before you spoke again. “And how did you get into my apartment?”
Dave looked at you. You looked at Dave. There was a silence in the room that was stifling. You blinked, cocking your head to the side, waiting for an answer, unsure of where this confidence had come from. Dave stared at you, unsure of how to proceed.
Do I tell her the truth? Or lie? Dave pondered.
Fuck, here goes nothing.
“I - uh. I used to work for the DIA,” Dave started as he held his hands up to help keep you calm.
“What, like the CIA?” you countered with a scoff. Dave nodded.
“Kind of. DIA, Defense Intelligence Agency. We focused more on national level defense military stuff whereas the CIA was more on the intelligence and international stuff,” he explained. You looked at him bewildered.
“You’re telling me that you’re like some kind of spy or assassin or something?” you asked sarcastically. Dave merely looked at you and nodded.
“Yeah, you could say that. But it’s a was. I used to work for them,” Dave clarified. “The government shut us down a few years back.”
“Used to? What do you do now?” you questioned. “If not for the government, then who?”
“Whoever I want,” he retorted. “I do the same things I used to for God and country, kill names on a paper. Only now, there’s just a price next to them.”
―END FLASHBACK—
Dave’s head ached as the images stopped. He desperately gasped for air, breaths coming out heavy and ragged, insides wildly whirling, and he had difficultly comprehending what he had just witnessed.
Memories.
He was regaining bits and pieces of the life he could not remember, his mind slowly finding the missing fragments and filling in the once empty gaps, returning the memories to their proper place.
Dave took a moment to try and regulate his breathing, his heart thundering uncontrollably in his chest, his ears filled with an uncomfortable ringing. He closed his eyes and pulled the newfound visions forward, carefully studying each one.
She knew.
She knew everything.
She was not just the nanny.
She was more.
She was so much more.
He felt like he was on fire, his skin growing hot, his legs beginning to shake, and sweat culminated in his palms. He balled his hands into tight fists, trying to push away the anxiety that was gradually boiling to the surface, but to no avail. His whole body was vibrating, electricity coursing through his veins as he was met with a second set of forgotten memories.
—FLASHBACK—
Dave was livid.
You had been taken from him. Right under his nose. He stared at the screen and watched the images of a figure opening your window while you were in the shower and going to hide in the closet. His blood boiled as the footage showed the figure abducting you, dragging your limp body out of the window. He had been so preoccupied with Carol and telling her that things were over that he did not think to check on you after the ordeal with Tom mere days ago.
Granted, you were asleep the last time he had checked on you, but he had been so distracted that Tom was able to sneak in and abduct you. In his own home. Oh no, Dave was beyond pissed; he was downright infuriated. Dave was ready to get his hands dirty. More than usual, at least. Dave picked up the phone and begrudgingly dialed Carol’s number.
“Carol, I need you to come back to the house to take care of the girls. Our fucking nanny has been kidnapped,” he angrily spat into the phone.
“What? What happened, Dave?!” Carol screeched through the speaker. Dave held the phone away from his ear as not to go deaf from her outburst.
“I said, you need to come back to the house and be a goddamn mother to my daughters for once,” Dave shot back. Carol grew silent and whimpered.
“Okay, I’m on my way,” she said. Dave replied with a grunt and hung up the phone, dialing Resnik.
“Resnik, I need you to pull the street footage from the last day and look for Tom’s fucking car in the neighborhood. You were supposed to be on fucking top of this, and Tom came into my house and took her,” Dave seethed into the phone. “My own goddamn fucking house!” Resnik had been in charge of maintaining your security and safety but had clearly slipped up.
“On it,” Resnik replied. “Sorry, Dave.”
“You’ll be more than sorry if you don’t find out where he took her,” Dave replied angrily into the phone. Resnik gulped on the other end of the line before Dave hung up.
“FUCK!” he shouted as he kicked his desk.
I am going to find her.
No matter what the fuck I have to do.
—FLASHBACK—
Dave pulled into the hospital’s parking lot and made his way inside to the emergency room’s lobby. As he approached the receptionist, he braced himself for whatever news they had to give him regarding your condition.
“Hi, I’m Dave York. I believe I spoke with a Jenny earlier when she called me,” he suavely said as he met her eye.
“Hi, Mr. York! I spoke with you earlier, yes,” Jenny replied, swooning at Dave. “She is recovering in room four from surgery, but you can go on back.” Dave nodded to Jenny, and with a wink, walked over to the door to take him to the rooms.
He heard a buzz and the door unlock, and he swiftly made his way down the hall, looking for room four. Once outside, he saw a clipboard and a file. He looked around to ensure he was alone in the hallway, opened the file, and read the contents.
Multiple fractured ribs.
Bruising on thighs and arms.
Lacerations on the lip.
Mild concussion.
Miscarriage – D&E advised.
Dave looked at the last bit before rereading it. And again. And again.
What?
It can’t be
She - no.
Dave’s mind was muddled as he placed the file back into its place and quietly entered the room. As he drew back the curtain, his breath hitched in his throat. There you were, hooked up to several machines, the quiet beeping of your heartbeat on the monitor. You looked beautiful, even with all the bruising and injuries. He walked over to your bedside and saw that you were still asleep, so he pulled up a chair and grabbed your hand, laying a gentle kiss on it
“I’m here, sweet girl,” he whispered as he kissed your hand and waited. “I’m here.”
—END FLASHBACK—
Oh, my God.
Dave knelt on the floor, arms bracing his weight, as he struggled to breathe, lungs refusing to keep the air inside its cavities. He was drowning in a deep pool of distress like an unknown assailant was pulling him into the depths, and he was struggling to reach the surface.
Oh, my fucking God.
He recalled the long torturous months when you had been missing and the plethora of emotions he had experienced.
The distress and fear as he tried and failed to find your whereabouts.
The sleeplessness as he laid in bed, running through every piece of information that might be of use.
The relief and comfort when he got the news that you were alive.
The concern and outrage as he read your file in the hospital.
The sadness when he looked at your battered body, dark bruises marring the skin.
The fury and thirst for blood as you spoke about Tom and the horrors you were put through.
The heartbreak and mourning when you had told him of your lost child.
Dave tensed, fingers digging into the carpet, and he squeezed his eyes shut as he was catapulted into a different series of events.
—FLASHBACK—
“Are you ready for this?” Dave asked, stepping in front of you, and took your hands into his own as he brought them to his lips.
“As ready as I’ll ever be,” you replied. Dave kissed your knuckles and nodded and then turned you both to walk towards the door.
“Looks like the boys have been keeping him very comfortable,” he joked, and you let out a little laugh. At Dave’s voice, Tom’s head shot up as he watched the two of you walk towards him.
“Hi, baby,” you mocked as you looked at Tom with hate. Tom cringed as Dave came up to him and placed his hand on the back of Tom’s neck.
“She said hello,” Dave said as he squeezed Tom’s neck. Tom let out a cough as he looked up at you.
“You - you fucking bitch,” Tom managed to breathe out. Dave quickly punched Tom in the stomach, causing the man to cough and spit up blood. You took a step back from him, not wanting to get any blood on you.
“You took everything from me, you asshole,” you jeered at him. “Now, you’re going to pay.”
—FLASHBACK—
“Enough of this,” Dave finally said as he drew a gun from the back of his pants. Tom whimpered as he heard the gun cock and flinched away.
“Wait,” you said, putting your hand onto Dave’s shoulder. Dave looked at you puzzled, unsure if you still wanted this. “I want to be the one to do it.” The moment the words left your mouth, Dave’s cock again twitched, and he grew aroused at your determination to take back your power.
“Are you sure, sweetheart? There’s no coming back from this,” Dave said, wanting to give you a chance to back out from committing your only act of murder. You shook your head as you took the gun from his hands, feeling the weight in your palm.
“I’m sure,” you responded. “He took everything from us, and I want to be the one to take it all away from him.” Dave shook his head in slight disbelief but let you move to stand in front of Tom. He came to stand behind you and put his hands on your hips as he watched you bring the gun up and level it with Tom’s head. Tom’s one swollen eye open enough just to see you hold the gun up to his forehead, and he shook his head, muffled pleas coming from him. You looked down the barrel of the gun as you aimed.
“Fuck you, asshole,” you spat at him before pulling the trigger.
—END FLASHBACK—
Dave’s eyes were wide. He had taken you to watch him kill a man, and then you had done the final act yourself, your thirst for vengeance unwavering.
He shifted to rest on his heels and rubbed his temple, trying to center and ground himself, nerves beginning to get the better of him.
What the fuck.
What the fuck.
What the fuck.
The startling rush of unexpected images was starting to overwhelm him, and it felt like his head was ready to explode, as if his brain was swelling and pressing up against the edges of his skull.
How much more of this can I take?!
A wave of nausea washed over him, his stomach churning as the bile threatened to escape, and Dave knew that things were far from over.
And just like that, another barrage of memories rained down.
—FLASHBACK—
“Dave?” you finally spoke as he worked the suds through your hair and tilted your head back to get the front of your hairline.
“Hmm?” he responded, enamored with the sight of you, water running down your body, washing the shampoo away, lust in your eyes.
She is so beautiful.
“Put another baby into me,” you commanded.
Fucking hell, woman.
Dave’s cock pressed against your lower belly, twitching at your words. “Tom took away our child, and I want you to pump me so full that we get a second chance.”
Dave gazed down at you at your words, feeling his cock harden even more at the thought of you pregnant with his baby, this time carrying it to full term.
Fuck, she would look so gorgeous carrying my baby.
He loved the idea of you being round with his child, and he bent down, capturing your mouth in a heated kiss.
He walked you backward until your back hit the wall of the shower as he lifted your leg and wrapped it around his hips, opening you up to him. He dipped a finger into your core and was greeted with your slick. He let out a groan.
Fuck me.
She is going to be the death of me.
He was already so hot for you after watching you kill Tom, and he ached to bury himself inside of your heat and never leave.
What has this woman done to me?
I cannot get enough of her.
Fuck.
Dave slipped a second finger inside you and began to pump slowly, making you break the kiss and lean your head back against the shower wall. He began to trace circles over your clit with his thumb, and he could tell your knees grew weak, your body vibrating from the sensation. Dave felt your legs start to shake from the pleasure, and he held your leg up firmly, making sure to support your weight as he sped up his movements.
Dave added a third finger into your soaked pussy, knowing that you were close to your release, and curled them upward. Your body exploded in pleasure as it ripped through you like a freight train, eyes rolling to the back of your head and legs shaking. Dave leaned down and bit on your shoulder. The action made you clutch onto him for dear life as your legs finally gave out beneath you. He caught you and moved, so he was sitting on the bench as you straddled his lap.
“You want me to put a baby in you, baby girl?” Dave huskily said as he rubbed the tip of his cock against your entrance, teasing you as you whined and nodded.
—END FLASHBACK—
That was the night she had told me she loved me.
Dave’s heart fluttered at the tender moment you had shared. He remembered the way you looked lying in his arms after the passionate sex. The way your hair splayed out around your head, the slight wrinkle of your nose as he brushed some stray strands away.
He recollected watching you sleep, admiring your features as he relished at how perfectly your body fit into his, and the thought caused a warmth to spread from his core to his fingertips.
Then he recounted what had transpired after you had sleepily confessed your feelings to him.
The turmoil he had faced, unsure how he felt about you.
He knew that you had captivated him, placing him under a spell, but was still hesitant about giving you his heart. However, that hesitation had dissipated when he saw your interaction with the girls upon your return home, and Dave smiled as he let the memory sweep over him like a refreshing tide on a hot summer's day.
—FLASHBACK—
“Let’s get home,” Dave said as he pulled out of the driveway and began the journey home. He placed a hand on your knee to still you, knowing that you were anxious to get home and see the girls.
“Sorry, I’m just a little anxious to finally spend time with them after everything. Seeing them earlier wasn’t enough time,” you said. Dave nodded and took your hand in his, giving you a reassuring squeeze.
“It’s going to be fine,” he said as he continued to drive. It felt like an eternity, but eventually, you pulled up to the house. Dave placed his hand on the small of your back as he guided you through the door, unabashedly admiring the curve of your ass as you walked.
Fucking hell.
I cannot wait to get her back into bed.
You both made your way to the kitchen and saw that Carol had already started on dinner while the girls sat at the table, Molly reading a book and Alice drawing a picture.
Carol looked up at the two of you as you entered and scowled at the sight of Dave’s hand on you but quickly hid it as he shot her an annoyed look.
Don’t you fucking dare act like a jealous bitch now, Carol.
He ignored her obvious displeasure and fondly watched as you made your way over to the girls. The shift in his demeanor was not lost on Carol, but another stern look thrown her way caused her to stay silent and return to making dinner. Dave’s gaze shifted back to you as the girls squealed and engulfed you into a hug.
“You’re back!” they exclaimed as you laughed and sat down with them. Alice held up a picture with a grin.
“I drew this for you,” she said as she pointed to the figures in the picture. There were four figures in it, and each one was labeled. Molly, Alice, Daddy, Mommy. Dave’s heart swelled at the idea that the girls already looked at you as a mother. He watched as you smiled down at Alice as you examined the picture.
“That’s beautiful, Alice,” you said with a tight-lipped smile, and Dave could tell that you were slightly uncomfortable since Carol was there.
“It is! I missed you so much that I drew a picture of our family!”
“I love it,” you replied. Dave stared at you with adoration and happiness, and you turned to meet his eyes with a smile. Your eyes shifted over to Carol, and he knew that she had a frown on her face from Alice’s admission that you were more of a mother to them than she was.
She brought this on herself.
He heard the woman clear her throat as she walked over to the other side of the counter and picked up her keys.
“I’m going to go,” she said as he took over making dinner, allowing you to sit and bond with the girls.
Fucking finally.
Dave ignored her statement, glad that she was finally leaving his house, but you looked over at her and kindly smiled. Your kindness oozed out, counteracting her negativity, and Dave was impressed with how gracefully you handled things.
“Have a good night, Carol,” he heard you saw as she exited the kitchen, and he smirked when he heard the front door slam shut. He looked back at you and stealthily studied your features as you interacted with the girls, the thumping in his chest growing louder as his thoughts wandered to what a future with you would look like.
—END FLASHBACK—
Dave opened his eyes as the image disappeared, moving to sit against the bed, and tilted his head to stare at the ceiling.
That was the night I told her that I loved her.
He began to grow stiff as he dredged up the carnal activates that occurred before his quiet proclamation of love to you.
—FLASHBACK—
“Strip,” he commanded, eyes filled with lust. “Slowly.”
You did as he instructed and began to take your shirt off slowly, giving him a show. Next, you unbuttoned your pants, turning around to wriggle it down your ass, giving Dave an eyeful of your plump behind. His pants grew tight as he watched you peel your underwear off and toss it over your shoulder at him before unclasping your bra and dropping it to the floor beside you. You turned back around to face him and saw him palming his hardening cock over his pants and had your panties held up to his nose, inhaling your intoxicating aroma.
“Sit,” he said as he walked towards you like a predator stalking its prey. You followed his command and sat down, eye level with his bulge.
She’s so obedient.
Fuck.
You looked up at him, awaiting more orders.
“Take out my cock and suck it like a good girl,” Dave demanded. You licked your lips and began to unzip his pants, peppering kisses on the outside as you did so. Dave groaned out at the action and watched as you finally got his pants undone and pulled out his cock, giving the tip a light lick. Dave was having none of that and grabbed the back of your head and shoved his cock into your mouth, causing you to choke on it, unprepared for the onslaught of his hard length hitting the back of your throat. Dave clutched onto your hair, bunching it up in his hands as he began to fuck your mouth harshly, barely giving you time to breathe.
“Oh fuck, I’ve missed this mouth so much,” he grunted as you swirled your tongue around him. He slowed his movements to give you a moment to breathe before he drove his cock back into your mouth.
Fuck, her mouth feels like fucking heaven.
He fucked your mouth at a fast pace, and he moved so that his other hand gripped the front of your throat. Dave let out a groan as he felt the bulge of his cock through the front of your neck and enjoyed the way your throat constricted around him.
“Suck that cock good, you dirty slut.” You moaned around him, and he felt the vibrations reverberate up his length and spread through his body. “Just like that.”
He released your hair as you continued to bob your head up and down on his length, moaning some more. You moved your hand down to your center, feeling it already soaked from sucking him off, and you slipped a finger inside and began to pump it in and out. Dave looked down at you, watching you fuck his cock with your mouth, and then saw the movements of your hand at your core. He abruptly stopped you and picked you up under your arms, harshly throwing you onto the bed.
“You think you can touch this pussy?” He gruffly asked as he ran a finger down your folds, pulling a moan from your lips.
“I’m sorry, Daddy,” you breathed out.
“Whose pussy is this, baby girl?”
“Yours, Daddy. All yours,” you squeaked out as Dave inserted two fingers into your heat and wiggled them.
“That’s right. You’re not allowed to touch this pussy unless I say so; you got that?” You nodded at his words and moaned as he added a third finger, quickening his pace. Dave felt himself grow harder, pumping his cock with his other hand, as he continued his assault on your pussy, and felt your walls clamp down around his fingers.
“Please,” you begged him as you watched him move his fist up and down.
“You want this cock?” You nodded at him, licking your lips as your eyes stayed fixated on his hands running up and down his shaft.
“Since you sucked my cock like a good girl, I suppose I can give it to you,” Dave said as he stopped his movements and pulled you to the edge of the bed. He made quick work of pushing his pants down his legs, kicking them off, then ridding himself of his shirt. His cock bobbed against his stomach, and he caught you greedily eying it.
Such a cock hungry girl.
Dave took hold of his hardened length and ran it over your folds, teasing your clit with the tip, watching as you whimpered impatiently and bit your lip. He gripped your thighs, lifting your legs, and placed your ankles over his shoulders before he promptly thrust himself into your leaking cunt, the warmth, and wetness embracing him with ease.
“Oh fuck,” he grunted out as he began a fast pace, watching as you writhed beneath him in pleasure. From the angle he had you, his cock was driving itself deep into your pussy, and he loved the way your tits bounced up and down from the force of his movements. He circled his hips as he pounded quickly into you and felt your walls convulse around him as you came.
Dave paid your orgasm no mind as he continued to rail into you, building another climax quickly. He bent his knees and pushed himself up and into you, hitting your g-spot, and you let out a shriek of pleasure as you tipped over the edge again. You quickly clamped a hand over your mouth in an attempt not to wake the girls, and Dave watched as your eyes rolled back. He stopped his motions and withdrew himself from you, placing your legs down onto the ground as you limply laid there, recovering from the two orgasms he had just pulled from you.
He walked over to the side of the bed, opening a drawer, and pulling out a bottle of lube before he walked back over to stand between your legs. He easily flipped you over, handling your body like a ragdoll, your chest resting against the bed, feet planted on the floor, as he popped the bottle cap and poured a generous amount of the liquid down your ass and spread it around your puckered hole with his finger.
Once he was satisfied that you were lubed enough, he eased a finger past your sphincter, slowly stretching you out. He added another finger shortly after and watched as your ass took them in with ease. Dave squirted some lube on his cock, rubbing his hand up and down the shaft, preparing it for your ass. He pulled his fingers out and pushed the head of his cock against your gaping hole, giving you a moment to take a deep breath before he slammed into you roughly, fully sheathing his cock inside. You muffled your scream by burying your head into the bed as he relentlessly pounded into your ass.
“You like Daddy fucking your ass?” Dave asked as he railed you hard, the tightness of your muscles bearing down around him.
Fuck, she feels so damn good.
She is so fucking tight.
“Yes,” you whimpered out as he kept up the brutal pace. Dave gripped your hips firmly and pushed his fingers in as he drew close to his precipice. He wanted you to ache tomorrow, knowing that he ravaged you like an animal, and he dug his fingers into your hips with vigor, slight bruises already forming. Dave loved the feeling of your tight hole around him as he drove himself into you and looked down to watch your ass hungrily swallow his cock. You were moaning so much, and Dave loved pulling such pleasurable sounds from you. He snaked a finger down and began to rub your clit and felt your climax wash over you.
That’s my girl.
You firmly gripped the sheets as wave after wave of pleasure ran through you, and Dave’s pace began to grow erratic. As your tight ring flexed around him, Dave threw his head back as his cock pulsed, balls tightening, and he shot white hot streams of his cum into your depths, painting your walls with his essence. Dave grunted at the force of his climax and fell on top of you, bracing himself on his hands as not to crush you with his weight.
Dave took a moment to reestablish his breathing before he extracted himself from you, walked into the bathroom, and grabbed a washcloth from the linen closet. He turned on the faucet, wetting the cloth generously before shutting it off and making his way back to you. He gently ran the moist fabric over your folds and between your cheeks, wiping away any excess fluids, and watched as you shivered and sucked in a breath.
Dave placed a gentle kiss on your lower back before picking you up bridal style and moving to the side of the bed. Bracing your body on his knee, he pulled back the sheets and placed you gently into the bed. Dave walked over to the other side of the bed and climbed in, laying on his side to face you. He brushed some hair away from your face before placing a chaste kiss on your lips, and you sighed against his lips. Your eyes slowly drifted shut, and Dave felt the corners of his mouth turn upward, happy to have you in his arms.
Right where she belongs.
Dave laid there watching you fall into a deep sleep as he stroked your cheek. The sight of you peacefully sleeping next to him in his bed made him ponder things. He thought about how he would protect you at all costs now that he had you back. He would never let you go or let any harm come to you ever again. He thought about how you had asked him for another child. He thought about what you had said earlier that day and how it made his heart jump when you said those three words to him. He felt his heart bubble with happiness as he finally embraced how he felt for you.
“I love you,” he whispered out, confessing his feelings into the night, knowing that they would remain unknown to you.
—END FLASHBACK—
Oh, my God.
Dave continued to stare at the ceiling, small white spots dotting his vision as he thought of how his heart had swelled at the admission that night.
Another collection of images flowed in front of him, and he began to recall where things slowly changed into more than sleeping together and hidden confessions of love.
Where it turned from mere lust into much more, and how he had made the steps to show you. However, the images also reminded him of where things had begun to go wrong.
—FLASHBACK—
The two of you sat at dinner, you clad in a silver gown with golden accents. You had looked absolutely ravishing that night, and the spread before you was simply not enough. Dave had a craving for more than the sustenance that the two of you were currently indulging in, but he held off his desire because he wanted to make things more than just wining and dining you and getting you into bed.
After dinner, Dave had elected to show you more of the beautiful city, bringing you to the plaza.
“Where are we?” you asked in astonishment. Dave internally smiled at how fascinated you were with the view, and his chest tightened with affection.
“We’re in Grote Markt, also known as the Grand Place,” Dave replied as he wrapped his arms around you and rested his chin on your shoulder, loving the way you studied your surroundings. However, he was taken off guard when your eyes began to water, and you let out a sniffle.
“What’s wrong?” he asked as he spun you around to face him. You shook your head, attempting to hold back your tears to no avail. “What is it, baby girl?”
“Nothing. I – I just – I’m just so happy, Dave,” you cried out as he took you into his arms in an embrace. Dave was worried that he had upset you, but hearing you say that you were happy made his heart flutter. He had planned out this whole evening to show you how much you meant to him, and seeing you get so emotional made him get emotional.
Fuck, she is amazing.
The profession of your feelings made him feel elated and on top of the world. As if he were floating in the clouds.
Dave held you as you sobbed in his arms, and he soothed you as best as he could. Even though they were tears of happiness, you were still bursting with emotion, and you had no idea how to handle it. You were overjoyed but were not sure how to accept that good things were happening to you. Finally, after a few minutes, you calmed down and looked into his eyes, fisting the lapels of his jacket, and leaned up for a kiss. He happily obliged and cupped the back of your head as you arched your back, and he dipped you. It was like a scene from a romantic movie. Once you broke the kiss, he stroked your cheek.
“Baby girl, you make me so happy,” Dave tenderly said. “Tonight, I wanted to show you just how much you mean to me, and I hope I achieved that. Even if it did end with you in tears.” You beamed at his words and shivered as you felt a slight freeze. Dave took notice, removed his jacket, and placed it over your shoulders, wrapping it around you. You slid your arms through the sleeves and let out a laugh at how big it was on you. You were swimming in his suit jacket.
“Let’s go back to the hotel. What do you say?” Dave asked as he took your hand. You nodded in agreement and began to walk. You made it several blocks before your feet ached too much in the shoes, and you resorted to taking them off and holding onto them. Dave watched as you bent down to extract your feet from such confines and rubbed your sore feet. An idea popped into his head, and he knew you would appreciate it. He bent down in front of you and tapped his back.
“Get up,” he instructed. You quirked an eyebrow at his offer.
“You know I’m in a pretty tight dress, right?”
“Yeah, so?”
“So, it might rip.” Dave let out a chuckle.
“Sweetheart, what makes you think it won’t end up ripped anyways?” You blushed at the implication before giving in and lifting your skirt to clamber onto his back ungracefully. You wrapped your legs around his waist as he held your thighs, repositioning his hands so he was gripping your upper legs, just shy of your butt.
The walk back to the hotel was about a half-hour, and Dave could not help but savor the way you felt as he carried you on his back the entire time.
God, I love this woman.
—FLASHBACK—
He waited in the lobby for a few minutes before he exited the building. He then snuck around to the back of the hotel to a service elevator, making sure to stay out of sight of any cameras. Once he entered the elevator, he pulled a glove over his right hand and pressed the button for floor sixteen.
It should be just about done right now, he thought as he glanced at his watch. The elevator stopped, and he made his way out and down the hall towards Susan’s room.
The door was ajar, and he walked in, careful not to make any noise or leave any trace that he was there. He went through the hotel room until he spotted her by the bathroom, sitting on the floor, propped up against the wall, breathing heavily. Her hair was in disarray; blood ran down her face from a gash on her head and seeped down into her shirt. At the sound of his footsteps, Susan looked up and saw him, relief flooding her face, and she exhaled a deep breath. He stepped over her legs to crouch down beside her, and she reached out to him, comforted by his presence. She was saved. Or so she thought.
“Did you get the chocolate?” she managed to mutter out through the pain. “Oh fuck.”
Dave grasped her hand and placed it on his knee as he pushed some hair from her face and neck, letting her continue to think that he was there as a friend. Her head rocked back and forth, her eyes closed, as she struggled to breathe, and he gently moved her face to look at him. He then lifted his hand away from her chin and clasped it over her mouth tightly, pulling a knife out of his pocket. Susan, eyes still closed, head still foggy from her wound, was unsure of what was happening. What event was about to transpire until it was too late.
She felt a weight over her mouth and realized that Dave had covered it, so she opened her eyes in confusion and let out a muffled scream as Dave skillfully, and without hesitation, drove the knife between her ribs and straight into her heart. The blade easily punctured the beating muscle, and Dave, pressing his forehead against hers, watched as she heaved out her final breath, her body falling limp within seconds.
Goodbye, Susan.
He withdrew the knife and stood from his crouched position, wiping the blade clean with a cloth before pocketing both items. He would dispose of them later once he was nowhere near the hotel. He stepped over Susan’s lifeless body and walked out of the hotel room, retracing his footsteps until he reached the service elevator, quickly reaching the ground floor and exiting the hotel. He stepped foot on the street and reached for his phone, checking your location once more. You had moved to a different boutique, and he gathered that you would not be back for some time. Dave thought for a moment, pondering what to do while you were off shopping, finally coming to a decision. He swiped over to the map app on his phone and looked for a specific store, seeing that it was about ten minutes away from him via cab. He memorized the address and hailed a taxi.
“Waterloo Boulevard 66,” he quickly stated to the driver. The man nodded before pulling away from the curb and navigated through the streets expertly. Dave drummed his fingers on his leg as they drew closer and closer to the destination, and he thought about his future purchase.
What size?
What type of metal?
What shape?
He wanted it to be something that you would really love and take your breath away, and he was willing to drop any amount of money to achieve that goal.
Once the taxi arrived, he paid the driver and slowly walked inside, an associate warmly greeting him. Dave already knew what he would be getting, but he wanted to be sure before making the purchase. He spent almost an hour at the store, mulling over all the different choices, asking questions about assorted styles and what made each one unique, before finally settling on one particularly beautiful piece. He purchased it without hesitation and soon waltzed out of the store, pocketing it away for safekeeping while throwing the knife and cloth into the trash outside the door.
Now to keep this thing hidden away from her.
—END FLASHBACK—
Dave squeezed his eyes shut, drawing in a sharp breath of disbelief.
What the fuck did I do?
How could I have done that to Susan?
He thought hard about the circumstances that had led to his decision to kill his friend in cold blood, and at that moment, his choices had made sense. He had felt nothing when he had punctured Susan's heart, but now, Dave felt a twinge of remorse, and in the back of his mind, he had an inkling that the decision to kill her had come back and bitten him in the ass in the most unexpected way.
If only I could remember.
As if the universe could read his mind, he was yet again forcefully pulled into another experience.
—FLASHBACK—
“You got fat, Dave.” Dave stopped in his tracks. Processing the voice. Unsure if he was just imagining things. He swung around, and his jaw dropped, astonished at the sight of his previous partner sitting on a bench. His former colleague that he had thought was long dead.
No fucking way.
He stood frozen, rooted to the spot in disbelief, as the man stood up and walked over to Dave, throwing his arms around him. It finally registered in Dave’s mind that this was real, and his old partner stood before him. It was not a phantom. It was not his mind playing tricks on him. Robert McCall was indeed there. Alive and well. In the flesh. Dave returned the embrace, shock still running through him. It felt like he had been hit by a train. A very large, very fast-moving train.
“It’s good to see you,” McCall said to Dave. Dave nodded, still unable to speak as they strode over to the bench and sat down. Dave studied McCall, taking in his appearance. This man was supposed to be dead. He watched him get buried under the rubble.
“I was in the lobby…When that bomb went off,” Dave said, looking down at the ground, recalling the memories of the day he watched his partner disappear, presumed dead. “Looking right at you…When that hotel came down on us. You were there, and then you weren’t.” He glanced at Robert before turning to gaze at the lake in front of him.
“Wasn’t my day,” McCall replied, looking at Dave, some guilt evident on his face.
“I went to your funeral,” Dave said as he leaned on his knees, hands clasped in front of him. “Grieved a long time over you.” He felt a hand clap him on the back comfortingly. Then the thought dawned on him.
Susan must have known.
She and McCall were always good friends.
“Susan, she knew?” he questioned. McCall’s silence was answer enough. “I was your partner for seven years. Kept nothing from you.”
“I’m sorry, Dave,” Robert replied, “I am.”
“I never had a chance to say how sorry I was…. About Vivienne,” Dave voiced sadly, feeling sorry for the loss of McCall’s wife. “You still at the beach?”
“Not in a long time.”
“Well, I got me that cabin,” he stated with a chuckle. “Take the wife and kids up a couple times a year.”
At least I used to.
“Wouldn’t have any of it…. If it weren’t for Susan.” Dave’s voice slightly broke, he was friends with Susan, and it did sting a little that he had to kill her in cold blood. But he needed to protect himself.
“Life got…. dark,” Dave continued, meeting Robert’s gaze. “She talked me off that ledge I was heading over.”
“Probably over a bowl of soup,” McCall replied with a chuckle. Dave lightly laughed, recalling that Susan did, indeed, do just that.
“I owe her my life.”
“You ever talk to the boys?” Robert asked him, prying for more information. Dave shook his head; he had a feeling that McCall was trying to get answers, and he would not give it to him. He needed to keep pretending that he was oblivious to all of this.
“No, not for years,” Dave lied, knowing full well that they still worked together, but he could not let McCall pick up on that. “Hell of a team we were, right?” He watched as McCall scratch his head.
“She never pushed a button, Dave?”
“Who?”
“Susan,” Robert said as he rubbed his face. “On the elevator. She never pushed her floor number. I checked all the video. Backpackers got on first. They pushed number 16. She didn’t have to. They knew what floor she was on.” Dave began to worry.
Fuck, if McCall is looking into this now…
Fuck fuck fuck.
It’s only a matter of time before he figures it all out.
Shit.
“They find them?” Robert asked, looking up at Dave.
“Pieces of them,” he replied with a slight shake of his head. “Couple of tweakers with sheets as long as my arm. My good arm anyway.” Dave added as he rubbed his nose.
“Gas explosion. At least that’s what they’re calling it.”
“What do you call it?” McCall probed.
“Tying up loose ends,” Dave replied, eyes slightly shifting in nervousness, but he portrayed it as if he were thinking. Robert pulled out a piece of paper, unfolding it.
“Autopsy report. Stab wound. Two millimeters. The lower third rib,” he pointed out.
Shit.
“Close quarter technique,” Dave answered, knowing exactly what it was.
“Exactly. That was taught,” McCall stated. “This was no robbery. Something else went on in that room.” Dave looked at the other man and shook his head.
“Mac, whatever it is, whatever you need…. I’m in,” Dave replied, offering his services, knowing that he would, again, have to get someone else off his trail.
I cannot catch a fucking break, can I?
Motherfucker!
“I know,” Robert replied with a nod.
“Same mud,” Dave said, holding his hand out.
“Same blood,” the other man replied as he placed the paper into Dave’s hand and shook it. Robert got up and began to walk away.
“I’ll stay in touch,” he said, and Dave nodded, certain that McCall would reach out soon.
Goddammit.
Son of a bitch.
Motherfucker!
Curse after curse ran through his head as he pulled out his phone and sent a text to Resnik.
Dave: We have a fucking problem. McCall is fucking alive and looking into the Brussels contract.
Resnik: What? Are you fucking kidding me?
Dave: Find me someone to take care of him. Cleanly. Again. We cannot afford to let him find out that we were behind the hits.
Resnik: On it.
—END FLASHBACK—
Mac was alive?!
Mac was fucking alive?!
What the fuck?!
Dave’s mind was jumbled. His friend and former partner was alive, and he tried to wrap his mind around that thought, the pain intensifying as the events of what happened after their initial meeting came to him in an unpleasant series of happenings.
—FLASHBACK—
As Dave took a seat on the table and began to say something to one of the techs, his phone began to buzz. He pulled it out of his pocket, not recognizing the number.
“York,” he answered, lifting the coffee cup to his lips.
“Dave,” came Robert’s voice, causing him to place his coffee cup back on the table, and his eyes hardened.
What does he want now?
Dave signaled to the others that he needed a moment and walked out of the conference room.
“Listen, the gun…Next to Calbert was on his right side,” McCall said as Dave shut the door.
“He was right-handed. Why?”
“His wife was shot by somebody left-handed. Somebody else was in that room.”
Son of a bitch, Kovac.
Why the fuck did you have to use your left hand?!
Small fucking details.
Of course, Mac would pick up on that.
“Powder residue came back from a latex glove,” Dave stated as he took a seat on the windowsill. “Twenty thousand euros were found in the backpackers’ flat.” Dave saw a man walk down the hall and enter the conference room.
“Hey Bob,” he greeted, the phone still held up to his ear.
“Dave,” the other man replied.
“Those guys were set up,” he finally said into the phone.
“Right, Agency assets are taken out all the time. Opposite side loves sending a message. Why stage it?”
“They didn’t know he was one of ours,” Dave explained.
“Susan was about to figure out who was in that room. That’s why she was killed, Dave. The two were connected. I’ll get back to you when I know more.”
“Keep me posted,” he replied before hanging up. His mind was spinning. At this point, McCall would undoubtedly be able to figure out that Dave was involved. The man was too good at his job to not. Dave sent a message to Resnik one more time.
Dave: Do we have someone to take him out?
Resnik: Yeah. It turns out McCall drives Lyft, so it’ll be easy to get someone close to him. It is set up for tonight.
Dave: Good, make sure he gets it done. No more fucking mistakes this time.
—FLASHBACK—
Dave was nervous. He kept checking his phone and watch obsessively, waiting for a message from Resnik about McCall. They had sent someone after McCall last night, hoping to take him out, but had yet to hear from the man. Carol was busy getting snacks ready for the girls while Dave thought about his asset’s lack of communication.
“No crust either,” he heard Molly say. “Mom?”
“Eat up, sweetie,” Carol replied.
“Mom said I have to go to the dentist. She never has to go,” Alice whined from the table.
“The gardener?” she asked Dave, and he ignored her, checking his watch.
“Grapes,” Molly said. “Can I have a treat?”
“You know where the grapes are!” Alice sassed. Dave let out a sigh as he set his cup of coffee down and turned around to open the freezer.
“Oh, my godddddd,” he groaned. “My life is so hard. Here’s your grapes.” Molly let out a laugh at his antics.
“What?” Molly asked as he handed her a Ziploc bag to put the grapes in.
“Come on. Show me what you can do,” he said, gesturing to the bag and grapes.
“But…Seriously?” Molly asked, grumpy that she had to put the grapes into the bag herself.
“Seriously,” Dave replied as he walked over to Alice at the table.
“Come on,” Molly mumbled as she put the grapes into the bag one at a time.
“Hi, baby,” Dave said as he pressed a kiss to Alice’s head and sat down at the table beside her. “Mommy made a nice map.” Referring to you helping her this morning with homework.
“A, Maine. Very good,” Dave said as he studied the drawing. “B, New Hams…. New Hamster.” Dave paused, looking at the words. He looked at his watch and called after Carol. She had gone to check on who was knocking on the door but had yet to return.
“Carol? Who is it? Carol?” he called as he turned back to Alice and pointed out her mistake. “It’s New Hampshire, not “Her Hamster.”
“But I like it as “New Hamster,” Alice said with a pout.
“Okay, leave it “New Hamster,” Dave replied as he gave in to his daughter. He heard footsteps and turned, seeing Carol walk in with none other than Robert McCall.
Ah, fuck.
This motherfucker just will not die, will he?!
“The front doorbell is broken,” she stated. “Your old Army buddy was at the back door for five minutes.”
“Actually, I was his team leader, seven years,” Robert said with a smile.
“Oh my…I’m so sorry, I must have forgotten…This is,” Dave sputtered out. “Got the days mixed up. This is Robert. This is Carol.”
“Hi, my pleasure,” he greeted, shaking her hand.
“Hi. Pleasure to meet you,” she replied. “These are our daughters, Molly, Alice.”
“Come here. Say hi to –“ Dave said as Alice got up to say hi.
“Make yourself at home,” Carol said.
“Thank you,” Robert replied with a smile.
“Call him Mac,” Dave said. “Do you want some coffee?”
Son of a bitch.
“No. I’m fine, thank you.”
“Sorry about the mess. We were – “ Carol began.
“No problem,” Robert replied. Dave was inwardly twitching. McCall was not supposed to be here. He should be fucking dead right now.
“I gotta get these two off to school,” Carol finally said. “Girls, let’s go. Out of these pajamas.” Robert held out his hand for the girls to high five, and they met his hand with a slap as they left.
“Robert, nice to meet you,” Carol said as they walked out of the kitchen.
“Oh, my pleasure,” he replied. Dave ran his hand through his hair, not sure how to handle the situation.
“Sit down. Come here,” he said to Robert, gesturing to the table. “You all right?”
“Yeah. Yeah.” Mac replied, taking a seat at the table. Dave looked at the doorway, hoping that you would not walk into the kitchen. “You got a beautiful family.”
“Thanks. What’s going on?” Dave questioned, feigning concern as he took a seat next to Mac at the table.
“I took this off the guy who tried to kill me yesterday,” Mac said as he pulled a phone out of his pocket and set it on the table.
Clearly, he fucking failed at trying to kill you.
“It’s like you said, they’re cleaning up. Everybody’s who’s looking into the Brussels hit. Nobody’s safe. You, your family, nobody.” Dave looked around as he picked up the phone, running his hands over the screen, seeing the numbers and letters.
“That’s military-grade encryption. You should take it to your office, run the numbers. Check the names against passenger manifests in and out of Brussels in the days surrounding the flight,” McCall continued. Dave turned the phone over in his hands. “Whoever we’re looking for made calls to that phone.”
“I’m on it. I’m on it,” Dave replied as he tucked the phone into his jacket pocket. He glanced at the doorway again before checking his watch, feeling McCall’s eyes on him. He turned back to Robert and watched as the man pulled out his phone and hit the screen a few times before Dave’s phone began to buzz next to him.
Fuck fuck fuck!!!!
Goddammit.
Dave was seething. He was beyond livid. His lips formed a frown on his face as he looked up to meet McCall’s gaze boring into him.
“Tell me I’m wrong, Dave,” Robert said, staring Dave down. “You gonna answer it?” Dave could not speak. He tried to form words, unsure of how to answer.
Mac knows the truth.
He fucking knows everything.
Fuck.
Fuck.
Fuck.
“What happened, Dave?” Mac asked. Dave pulled his buzzing phone out of his pocket and pointed it at the man, annoyance all over his face.
“You died,” he replied, pressing the phone to his lips before dropping the phone angrily onto the table with a sigh. “That’s what happened. Three months after you disappeared government shut us down. I went private right after. Doing the same things you and I did for God and country. Killing names on a piece of paper. Only now…Now there’s a price next to them.” Dave shook his head.
I can’t believe I have to justify myself to this fucking prick.
“We killed the enemy,” Robert replied.
“Who said they were the enemy?” he retorted. “Not us. Not me. We just followed orders.” Robert continued to stare at Dave silently, sizing the man up.
“Mac, there are no good and bad people anymore. No. No enemies. Just….” Dave trailed off. “Unfortunates.”
“And Susan?”
“Unfortunate,” he replied with a lick of his lips as he stood up and pressed his hand to his forehead. “No one knew the Brussels contract was a deep agency asset. Susan was gonna figure out who was in that dining room. She was the only one who could have, right?” Dave’s mind flashed back to the memory of finding Susan’s beaten and battered body in the hotel room. The feeling of sinking the knife into her heart. The way the light left her eyes as she let out her final breath—the lack of remorse he had for the action.
“Until you crawled out of your grave,” Dave spat out. “Susan worked in a dangerous world, Mac. Could have happened anytime by anybody.”
“But it wasn’t anybody; it was you.”
“Just…” Dave held up his hand to stop Mac. “You spare me that righteous bullshit, all right? You do what you have to do, and you move on.”
“There’s no moving on from this, Dave. We gotta pay for our sins.”
Easy for you to say, you’ve been hiding out, making everyone think you were dead, you asshole.
“What about you? Do you deserve to die for yours?”
“Hundred times over,” McCall replied.
“Ah, all right. Well, guess what,” Dave seethed, “there is no sin. No virtue. It’s just shit people do. They trained us to kill people and risk our lives doing it. And then one day, you get a call saying they’re done with you. ‘Thank you for your service; here’s a plaque.’ You need a job? Good luck. You need medical insurance? See the VA.” He clenched his fist in anger, recalling how he and his team were tossed out like garbage, expendable garbage.
“One day, you’re an asset. The next, you’re a fucking afterthought.” All the anger and hate Dave felt for what happened to him was rising to the surface. All the risks he had taken for the sake of his job, given to him by the fucking government, all thrown away without so much as a thank you from them. “It was a natural evolution. It’s who we were. It’s what we did. It’s what you did. Now it’s what we do.”
“We?”
“It’s not just me, Mac,” Dave paused and looked at Robert. “It’s all of us. Ari, Resnik, Kovac. All of us.”
“Family,” the man retorted with a shake of his head. Dave nodded and stood up, indicating Mac to follow him. They waltzed outside and across the yard towards a silver Toyota 4Runner, Dave holding out his hand to tell the guys not to worry as they stepped out of the vehicle. Ari, Resnik, and Kovac stepped out to greet their former team leader.
“Gentleman,” Robert greeted.
“Mac,” Resnik replied. “Pretty good for a dead guy.”
“We all want you to know; none of this is personal,” Dave said, resting his hands on his hips as he turned to face Mac.
“What you do and become is not my concern,” Mac stated. “The world is full of so-called men like you. And in a perfect world, everything we do comes with a price. But this it ain’t a perfect world. People do bad things. If you’re lucky, you get a chance to set it right. But most of the time, it goes unpunished. This ain’t one of them times.” Robert held his head up high as he looked at each of the men. Dave narrowed his gaze at the man, fighting back the urge to kill him right there in the street.
“The mistake you made was you killed my friend. So, I’m gonna kill each and every one of you. And the only disappointment is that I only get to do it once.” The boys looked at Robert, each of them with an unreadable expression.
“Train’s gotta go. Alice has music practice at 7:45. Hey, Ari, fellas!” Carol greeted as she made her way outside with the girls. “Robert, hope to see you again.”
“Nice to meet you too!” he replied. Dave kissed his hand and raised it to the girls, his expression turning dark right after as he looked at Mac.
If we weren’t out in the open, and my daughters were not right there, I would fucking kill you right now, Mac.
“Dave said you could give me a lift to the station?”
“Help and company? Let’s go!” Carol happily replied. Robert grinned at them as he began to back away towards Carol and the girls.
“See? Help and company.” Robert made finger guns at them as Resnik’s eyes flickered to Dave and rubbed his hands. They all watched as McCall joined Carol and the girls, all wondering how this was going to play out. Dave watched as the car drove off, and he kept his composure while the vehicle was in sight. As it turned a corner and left his field of vision, his anger broke loose.
“FUCK!” he shouted, causing Resnik to flinch. “We need to take care of this motherfucker. Kovac, find out where he fucking lives. We are going to take him out tonight. In the meantime, Resnik, Ari, take care of Brian.” Each of the men nodded as they set about with their given tasks. Dave turned on his heel and marched back to the house, seeing you looking out the window.
Fuck, this is not going to be good.
—END FLASHBACK—
Oh god. Mac had found out.
Mac had found out and threatened to kill them for what happened to Susan.
And he had every right to.
Dave felt a numbness crawl up his legs, paralyzing and trapping him, as another cluster of events hit him.
—FLASHBACK—
“What is it? What’s going on?” you inquired, worried about Dave’s state of mind. “Speak to me, Dave. Who was that man?” He looked at you, and his hardened eyes softened. He knelt at your feet and grasped your hands in his before he took a deep breath.
“That man was my old partner, Robert McCall. The boys and I thought he died seven years ago, when a building collapsed on him, but apparently not,” he began to explain, his voice filled with nothing but distaste for the man. “He found out about the Brussels hit and Susan.” Your eyes widened.
“What does that mean?”
“It means that he made it personal and threatened to kill myself and the boys,” Dave admitted, letting out a breath. Your head began to spin. You felt your chest tighten in fear. The uneasiness you had been feeling lately finally coming to the surface.
“What are you going to do?” you whispered out. “Are you going to kill him too?”
“Yes,” he confessed. “I have no other choice. Mac is a loose end, and I have to take him out before he takes us out. Otherwise, I’m going to be looking over my shoulder for the rest of my life, and I don’t want that. Not for the girls. Not for you.” Tears brimmed on the corners of your eyes. You squeezed his hands and nodded, acknowledging that he was left with no other option. He had to do what he had to do. He had to kill someone yet again—one more time. In order to protect himself, protect his family.
“Make sure you kill the bastard and that he stays dead this time,” you said with resolve, and Dave felt his cock twitch at your anger toward Mac and your statement to kill the man. You stood up and went over to the nightstand, pulling the envelope out and walking back over to Dave. You took a seat back on the bed and gingerly handed him the envelope. “But promise me, no matter what, that you’ll come back. Come back to me. To us.” Dave opened the envelope and sucked in a breath. He felt his heart pound in his chest as he gazed down at the little black and white photo he held in his hands. He looked up at you and met your watchful stare, tears now streaming down your face.
“Is this – is it really?” he spoke, unable to get the words out properly. He was in disbelief. He had hoped for this the last several months, and here it was, his hopes come to life, literally. You nodded your head at his question, holding back a sob. Dave got up and pulled your face to his, kissing you, pouring all the passion he had into the kiss. He wiped away your tears as he took a step back, handing you the photograph. You looked at him confused as he disappeared into the closet for a moment. Dave reemerged with his hand behind his back and knelt back down at your feet, this time on one knee instead of two.
“I – uh – wanted to do this at a better time, and I know the timing is probably all fucked up, but I’m going to have to leave tonight to handle things with Mac and me – I want to do this before I go,” he said, voice breaking slightly, his resolve wavering.
I could stay here with her.
Stay with our child.
But Mac will stop at nothing until he kills me.
So I have to kill him first.
He pulled his hands out from behind him, and your breath hitched. In his hands nestled a small blue box, the silver words “Tiffany & Co.” written on it. More tears spilled out as he opened the lid, and you could no longer choke back a sob.
“I know I have not been the best at expressing my feelings for you. I was hoping that the first trip to Brussels conveyed that, but I wanted to solidify it with you and tell you upfront. I love you, baby. I love you so much, and I want to marry you once this is all over. I fucking promise that I will marry you.”
“I – I love you too, Dave,” you sputtered out, letting out another sniffle at his admission. You knew he rarely expressed his feelings like this. He had never spoken the words to you, but you had picked up on his actions over time. He took the ring out of the box and held it up.
“Sweetheart, will you marry me?” You nodded your head vigorously as he took your hand in his, and you watched in awe as he slid the ring on with ease. It was a perfect fit. You admired the giant princess cut diamond that was framed by a pavé set diamond band. This rock is probably at least a two, if not three, carat diamond. You had been admiring rings that were like this one for some time, and now you had one that rested on your finger. One that promised you to Dave, signifying the love you both held for each other. You pulled Dave to you in a heated kiss, arms thrown around his neck as he cradled your face in his hands. You never wanted to let go, never wanted the moment to end.
“You better fucking come back to me, David York,” you demanded with a whisper as you pulled away, resting your forehead against his, eyes pleading.
“I promise.”
—FLASHBACK—
“I would never leave you or the girls,” he replied as he pulled back, not giving you what you desperately wanted. “Or our little one. Ever.”
“Good, because you promised,” you breathed out, wiggling your hips, causing the head of his cock to drag along your opening, just out of reach.
“I did, and I’ll say it again,” he breathed into your ear, gently biting it, before driving himself home with a single thrust. You let out a loud gasp as you felt his girth stretch you out, loving the fullness of it. “I promise.”
“Oh, Dave!” you exclaimed, feeling him pull out of you and slowly push back in. “I love you.”
“I love you too, baby girl,” he groaned, burying his head in your neck. “I love you so much.” He drew back inch by inch and slowly sank into your core. He held your hip with one hand, bracing himself with the other, as he continued his leisurely pace. He loved the tightness of your walls wrapping around him. As Dave sheathed himself fully into you, he stilled, cock throbbing in your heat. Your whimpers of pleasure spurred him on as he unhurriedly pulled out of you and then plunged in with a harsh thrust. Dave never wanted the moment to end. He never wanted to leave the comfort and love that surrounded him.
“I will come back,” he murmured, grinding his hips into yours as he hit deep into your core. “I fucking promise.” You nodded and turned your head to catch his mouth in a kiss. He shifted, so he was braced on both his hands as he looked down at you, love and passion in his eyes. He moved the two of you into a seated position without breaking the both of you apart, a feat not easily done.
His arms circled your back, keeping you close, as he stared deep into your eyes. Dave lifted you off his length slightly before bringing you down, hitting a different spot inside of you, eliciting a loud moan. He repeated the motion, driving himself deeper with each upward push, and then angled his hips, striking that magical spot. His grip on you tightened, and he let out a grunt as his cock throbbed and released his essence inside you, the tightening of your walls pushing him over the edge. If his seed had not already taken root, it surely would have with that.
“I will return,” he vowed, drawing your lips to his as he felt rope after rope of his cum paint your walls. You hummed against his mouth, and he shifted. He pulled out of you, your mixed fluids leaking when he released you and turned you over onto your hands and knees. “I will always come back to you.”
“I –,” Dave cut off your words as he sank into you with a hard snap of his hips, taking you off guard. He had just finished, yet he was still rock hard, body craving more of you. He set a brutal pace, relentlessly drilling his stiffness into you. You gripped the comforter, meeting his hips with yours, as he pounded you from behind. He pushed your head down, cheek resting against the bed, as he slanted your hips up and began to rail harder into your leaking center. The sounds of your bodies meeting, the slap of his balls against your clit, your moans and his groans, the sloshing of your wetness around his cock, filled the room, echoing against the walls.
“Fuck, baby,” he grunted out, feeling his balls tighten as he grew closer to the precipice. “I fucking – *thrust* - promise - *thrust* - that I will - *thrust* - come back and - *thrust* - fucking marry you.” Your eyes rolled to the back of your head at the endless pleasure he was giving you. His words further fueled your desire and need, his continuous onslaught to your pussy overwhelming you.
“Ugh – D – D – Dave,” you cried out as he circled his hips, quickening his pace.
“I promise - *thrust* - I will fucking - *thrust* - put - *thrust* - another baby - *thrust* - into this - *thrust* - perfect cunt.” At his declaration, he sank into your soaked core one final time, pulling you up against his chest, and gripped your breast, emptying the last of his cum into you, some of it dribbling out and down your legs. His climax triggered your earth-shattering orgasm, and you let out a wail, hand grasping his, as your legs shook uncontrollably. An intense flood of pleasure washed over you, and you collapsed onto the bed with a huff.
“I – I – fuck,” you heaved out, struggling to formulate words, your mind in a haze. “I fucking love you.” Dave let out a chuckle, tossing himself onto the bed next to you, and pulled you to his side, placing a tender kiss on your forehead.
“I love you too, sweetheart. And I promise you; I will return,” he vowed. “No matter what.”
—END FLASHBACK—
Holy fuck.
Holy fucking shit.
That was when I proposed.
And found out about the baby.
And I still fucking left!
Dave sat there, rooted to the spot, a crushing weight on his chest as he thought about what he had done.
Then, as he contemplated the rashness of his actions, another stream of pictures appeared.
—FLASHBACK—
“Pull over here,” he instructed, and Kovac turned the wheel to stop the car, Ari and Resnik following their lead. As they pulled off the road, he took out the ultrasound photo, as well as a picture of you that he had hidden in his pocket, and longingly gazed down. I will come back, he vowed, bringing the photo of you to his lips. Before exiting the vehicles, each of the men strapped their gear on, donning bulletproof vests, serrated steel knives strapped to their legs. They each holstered 9mm Glock handguns, grenades, both stun and fragment, and finally their AR-15 rifles, all with extended magazines packed with high-velocity rounds. They were armed to the teeth with all that weaponry that you would think they were going to war. And in a way, they were.
Against Mac.
Against their former friend.
“Clear the alley. Mac’s house is back there,” he yelled as they split off into two teams and began to survey the land and structures. Resnik and Dave walked down the road, Resnik taking point, as Ari and Kovac checked a house. He heard them breach the door and throw a stun grenade inside, a BANG piercing through the gusts of wind.
“Making entry, yellow house,” Kovac said into the radio. Then, a moment later, Dave heard him speak into the walkie again. “All clear. Coming out.”
They kept moving along the dirt road, coming up on more houses.
Where the fuck are you hiding, Mac?
Finally, Resnik and Dave paused at the corner, and Resnik motioned towards a tower.
“Taking high ground,” he said, going around Resnik, through the fence, toward the tower. He arrived at the door and walked up, throwing his weight against the door. It flew open with a thud, and birds flew out, causing him to move and let them out. He ducked inside and began to climb the stairs, two at a time, before reaching the top. He spotted the door that led to the rooftop and scaled the ladder, flinging the metal cover open. He dropped his backpack onto the ground by the opening, climbed up, pulled the bipod down for his rifle, and settled himself into the prone position. He looked through the scope, keeping an eye on the boys, as he caught a figure in the corner of his eye running by them.
“I got movement, 12 o’clock,” Dave spoke into the walkie, alerting the team to Mac’s presence. Kovac turned and fired off two shots, missing McCall as he hit behind a shed. “Kovac, move in.” The man followed his order and pursued Mac.
“Ari, what’s your sitrep?” He asked.
“Locking down, south side,” Ari replied as he knelt by the fence. He continued to watch through his scope as Kovac disappeared around the side of a building.
“Making entry, north side,” the man said into the mic before they heard another BANG of a stun grenade. A moment later, they heard gunfire and then silence.
“Kovac. Kovac!” Ari yelled into the radio as he saw the point of a harpoon break through the wall. “Kovac, come back!”
“Shots fired! Shots fired! I’m going in. Going in,” Resnik shouted as he stood up and approached the building Kovac had entered.
Fuck.
Fuck.
Fuck!
“York, you got eyes on him?” Ari asked.
“I see him,” he answered, watching Resnik through the scope.
“Making entry, north side,” Resnik stated as he followed the path Kovac took. Dave watched as Ari stood up and moved positions to cover Resnik. “Kovac’s down. He’s gone.”
“Say again,” he asked, unable to hear Resnik over the slapping of the wind.
“Kovac. He’s down. He’s fucked,” came his teammate’s reply.
Fuck!
“Push towards the ocean,” he commanded. “Repeat, push towards the ocean.” He kept an eye on the two remaining men as they split up, walking down the alleyways between houses. With each passing moment, his irritation grew, especially when he spotted Mac’s silhouette run past a house.
“Ari. Resnik! Somebody talk to me,” he demanded over the radio.
“Ari’s down! Ari’s down!” He heard Resnik yell into the coms. “And Mac made a fucking mess of him!”
Fuck!
He is picking us off one by fucking one.
His anger turned into rage. He was not going to let Mac take them down.
“There are pictures of Susan everywhere,” Resnik continued, panic beginning to take hold. He could tell that the man was starting to grow frantic, especially seeing the photos of Susan. “He’s picking us apart, man! I need fucking eyes!”
Mac is playing a fucking mind game with us.
Son of a bitch.
He is getting to Resnik.
He watched as Resnik made his way out into the open, and he shifted his position to get a better visual of the last remaining man on the ground. Then, a transformer on a pole exploded in front of him, and he lost sight of Resnik, unable to see through the smoke.
“Goddammit!” he cursed.
Fuck you, Mac.
Fuck you.
“I’m on the southwest corner of the yellow building,” he heard Resnik state. “I got a blood trail. Looks like he’s headed across the main drag.”
“Rear of the bakery!” He yelled out as he stood up and changed positions.
He’s fucking using his dead wife’s bakery.
Sick fuck.
“Copy that.” He watched as Resnik sprinted across the street towards the bakery, checking his corners carefully.
“Move inside, Resnik. Move inside.” A storm of bullets unexpectedly hailed down around Dave, and he ducked, hearing the shots ricochet against the tower railings. Finally, the gunfire stopped, and Dave poked his head up in time to see an explosion rip through the bakery and McCall’s figure run across the street. He trained his sights on the man and fired but missed and instead shattered the truck’s mirror beside him.
Shit!
He tracked Mac’s movements and fired again just as the man ducked behind a building.
“Resnik, do you copy?” Silence greeted him. “Resnik! Come back!” He spotted Resnik’s mangled body on the ground, torn open from the blast.
“Fuck!” Dave knew he had to face Mac alone now.
“Just me and you, Dave. Nobody’s left,” Robert taunted through the radio, probably taken off one of the fallen men.
“Not exactly,” he spat back as he stood up and surveyed his surroundings. “Remember what you taught me. Always have a contingency plan.” He was becoming restless from the cat and mouse game the other man was playing.
He was toying with him.
As if Dave was nothing but a child.
—END FLASHBACK—
So that’s what happened; how they died.
Mac fucking took us out, one by one like we were nothing.
He played us like pieces on a chessboard.
He had us dancing around like puppets on a string.
We walked right into the wolf's lair without even realizing it.
Dave was shocked, not expecting things to have turned out the way they did, but he should have known. Mac had always been better at everything, having taught Dave everything that he knew.
But Dave had been impulsive. Letting bloodlust cloud his thoughts and caused him to make mistakes.
Mistakes that he had gravely paid for.
I should have been smarter. I should have never gone up against Mac.
—FLASHBACK—
“Come on, Mac. Show yourself,” he demanded. He crouched against the railing, using it to steady his weapon. He aimed at the car he had arrived in and fired off a bullet, hitting the hood. “I don’t know who the kid is or if he means anything to you. I took the chance that he matters.” He stared down the scope, keeping his one eye trained on the vehicle, the other keeping an eye out for Mac.
“I’ll make it simple. Step out, show yourself, and I won’t kill the kid.” Again, he squeezed the trigger, this time hitting the side of the car. He let out a sadistic laugh. “The wind makes it interesting!”
Now it’s my fucking turn to toy with you, Mac.
My turn to take what matters to you.
“Side mirror,” he called out, as if it were a game, letting another bullet loose, the mirror shattering from the impact. “Two more. Third one goes to the middle of the trunk.” He paused as he picked his next target.
“Taillight,” he called. Another round fired, this one missing slightly. “I was a hair off on that one. I might have hit the kid.” He looked around the area, trying to spot Mac, but no luck.
Son of a bitch!
Just show yourself, you asshole!
“All right! Time’s up, Mac!” He aimed at the trunk, but as he pulled the trigger, a gunshot sounded, and the car sank; a tire popped, which made him miss, shattering the back window instead.
Fuck!
“Nice move, Mac. But it’s not gonna make any difference!” He got up and began to sweep the town, using his sight to find his intended target.
“Where are you, you son of a bitch?” Suddenly a strong gust of wind took him off his feet, flinging him back, losing the grip on his rifle, and the back of his head hit the railing. He fell and grabbed his head in pain.
Fuck!
He turned over and looked at the sea below him, waves slapping loudly against the rocks.
“Fuck you, Mac!” Fury coursed through Dave as he stood, picking up his rifle, looking through the lens, growing frantic with each passing second. “Fuck you! You couldn’t save your wife! You couldn’t save Susan! And you’re not gonna save this fucking kid!” He attempted to provoke Mac with his words, trying to get his elusive adversary to show himself.
I will fucking kill you, motherfucker!
I will kill you!
“Is that in your playbook? Is that in your fucking playbook?!” he angrily shouted as he continued to sweep the area. “Show yourself!”
Out of nowhere, the barrel of his rifle was grabbed, and an elbow collided with his face, knocking him to the ground.
There he fucking is.
He tasted copper in his mouth, and spat the blood out, and grabbed the knife from his hip. He lunged at McCall, swiping at him, the man easily dodging his advances. He swung up at his former partner’s face, and Mac ducked down, carefully avoiding the knife. Mac landed a punch to his face and knocked him off balance. Dave lunged again, and the other man effortlessly caught his arm, using Dave’s weight against him, and skillfully flipped him onto his back. Dave landed with a thud but rapidly recovered, swiping at Mac’s leg with the blade, finally landing a solid strike. Blood flew out of McCall’s leg, and Dave proceeded to punch him in the face.
That’s right, motherfucker!
Fuck you!
Dave went to jab Robert’s side, but this time the man caught his wrist, grabbing the knife out of his hand, using it to slash at his palm. He let out a scream of pain as Mac discarded the blade, and Dave used that chance to grab the other man by the shoulders and kick his stomach. Mac retaliated by picking him up and throwing him, both men losing their balance and falling to the ground. Their training allowed them to regain their footing swiftly, and they resumed their attacks on one another. Dave was growing tired from the fight, breaths coming out labored, energy slowly dwindling, but his thirst for vengeance motivated him. As Mac kicked his knees and shins, pushing him up against the railing, Dave thought of what was waiting for him at home.
She is waiting for me to come back.
Our baby is waiting for me.
I have a promise to keep, goddammit!
Fucking fight back!
With that thought, Dave managed to push himself away from the railing and grab Mac’s head, pushing the man down as he moved his foot upwards into his ribs. However, Robert caught him in a grapple and launched them both to the ground once more, but this time Dave recovered faster. He punched Mac in the kneecap and speedily moved to get behind him, pulling the man into a tight chokehold. He began to squeeze the other men’s throat, cutting off his air supply. Dave applied more and more pressure as he tightened his arms around Mac’s neck.
Just a little more!
Just a little more!
I have to beat him!
Iam going to beat him!
Dave felt Mac’s hand frantically reaching for his face, and he moved as much as he could from his current position. The technique to immobilize his opponent was an effective one, but it also limited his ability to maneuver his head away from prying fingers. Mac dug his fingers into Dave’s left eye without warning, pulling it out of the socket, effectively gouging him. Dave wailed in agony and released his hold. Mac slammed his elbow into Dave’s face and knocked him back, taking the opportunity to grab the discarded knife a few feet away. Dave was disoriented from Mac’s last attack but pressed on, despite his injury, fury fueling his wrath.
I will kill him!
I will fucking kill him!
He tried to punch Robert, but his arm was caught, and he felt a slash across his chest. Mac continued his assault, slashing and hacking at Dave’s body, a slice here, a slice there until he fell to his knees in defeat. The man used that moment to drive the knife into Dave’s torso, penetrating his chest cavity with little to no difficulty. Dave looked up at his opponent in surprise.
No.
I can’t lose.
Not like this.
Fuck, not like this.
Mac stared down triumphantly at his former comrade, completely emotionless, before sinking the blade into the back of the beaten man’s neck and moved it to the side. Blood spattered out, painting the ground around them, and he hunched forward, struggling to breathe, unable to move.
I.
Have.
To.
Fucking.
Get.
Up!
He thought as he gasped and felt Mac’s foot on his shoulder. His body fell from the tower, landing on the rocks with a hard thud. His leg was contorted into an unnatural position, the bone protruding from the side. Whatever breath he had lingering in his lungs escaped him, and his head throbbed, his ears ringing from the hard impact. Suddenly he found himself floating, peering down at his torn and mangled body that laid bloodied and broken.
He looked up at the dimly lit sky, feeling the cold waves crash over him, numbing the pain that ebbed out from the numerous wounds littered across his damaged figure. Then, as the waves drew out his ragged and battered form to sea, he saw your smiling face, and his heart completely shattered.
I’m sorry. I’m so sorry.
I’m not going to make it home, and I won’t be able to keep my promise.
Please forgive me, sweetheart.
I love you. I love you both so so much…
Those were Dave’s final thoughts as the light gave way to darkness, and the image of you faded away.
—END FLASHBACK—
Dave felt tears well up in his eyes. His throat grew taut, each breath feeling like he was swallowing pins and needles from the revelation that he had put you through so much the last several months.
Yet you had stayed.
You had stayed and suffered in silence.
He loved you but had forgotten.
The mother of his child.
The woman he had planned a future with.
Dave stood up and moved to pick up the picture frame of the two of you. He held it in his hands, stroking the wooden edges, as he finally let the tears fall, the droplets splashing onto the cool glass. A million thoughts raced through Dave’s mind as he soaked everything in, the sudden onslaught of flashbacks becoming almost too much for his psyche. All the lost memories had hit him so fast that only a few minutes had passed, but it had felt like hours. He held onto the frame but moved to pick up the ring and began to twirl it on his finger, sadness filling his heart.
Dave choked out another sob when he realized that you had carried your son alone and had endured it all without him. Every bit of the pregnancy. Every appointment. Every emotional breakdown. Every event that the two of you should have shared. He had missed the first time you heard your son’s heartbeat. He had missed the first kick. The days of morning sickness. The random cravings you would have had in the middle of the night. He had missed it all. All that time had been lost, and he could do nothing to get it back. And for what?
He had left you alone to recklessly pursue a selfish vendetta and had paid the highest price for it. A price that was not worth it one bit.
He pondered how you must have felt when you saw him after all those months alone. All those months thinking he was dead, and he had not even remembered you. Instead, he had asked you who you were and then asked for Carol. He had treated you so harshly and had broken you, and yet you swallowed your despair and accepted that he was lost to you but had decided to stay.
Dave regretted everything.
All the pain.
All the anguish.
All the hurt that he had inflicted upon you.
He then thought back to the day that Frankie was born, and his heart further shattered. He had been there for the birth. He had held his child in his arms. Dave had been there for such a monumental moment and had been utterly clueless about it. It all suddenly made sense why you had been so hesitant to answer his questions. Why you had been so cautious when telling him about Frankie’s father.
Fuck.
I even had the audacity to ask her about that.
He now understood why you had asked him for privacy when filling out the birth certificate.
Dave was devastated. He could not stop staring at the evidence before him, caressing the photo of your smiling face with one hand and fidgeting with the ring in the other. The images of everything that had transpired would not leave his mind, and he felt so many emotions.
Remorse.
Guilt.
Sorrow.
Disappointment.
Shame.
His heart was aching, and he continued to silently cry as he looked over at his son’s crib.
My son.
Our son.
Dave sat there on the floor, chastising himself for everything. He was disgusted with himself for forgetting you. Forgetting the woman he immeasurably loved. If he could turn back time, he would. He would go back and undo all the damage he had caused. He wanted to lash out at himself desperately.
How could he have done all those things without a thought to you and your future? How could he, a man of discipline and meticulousness, have not thought about the possible consequences of his actions? How his decision would affect what mattered most to him, his family?
It all made sense at the time.
I was doing what I needed to do.
At least, what’s what I thought.
Deep down he knew that he was still the same man from before, but the last few months had molded him into someone else. He wasn’t just Dave, the heartless mercenary who was blinded by money, power, and selfishness, killing his friends with no remorse or a without a second thought. He was someone different. Someone who would learn from his mistakes and be better.
I need to be better.
For her.
For my family.
His heart thundered in his chest, nails digging so deeply into his palms that they left indentations, almost deep enough to break the skin. His body quivered with anger, and he grit his teeth, his self-control wavering, and it took everything in him not to bash his head into the wall. Dave could not stop the gut-wrenching guilt that raked through him.
She had done nothing to deserve this.
She should not have gone through any of this.
What am I going to do?
He was suddenly drawn from his thoughts when he heard your bathroom door open and the soft padding of your feet on the carpet.
“Dave?”
You were more relaxed than you had been in a long time. The heat of the water had soothed the tense muscles in your body, and you relished in the peace it offered.
I could stay here forever.
You closed your eyes and drifted off for a moment before you opened them and looked at your phone, noting that you had been in the bath for longer than you had thought.
I should probably get out before I begin to prune.
You sighed as you pulled your body out of the water that had started to cool and wrapped a towel around yourself, using a smaller one to dry your hair. You opened the bathroom door and began to walk out but abruptly stopped at the sight before you. Dave was leaning up against your bed, a picture frame in his hands, silent tears streaming down his face.
Oh, fuck.
“Dave?” you asked in concern, taking an uneasy step towards the man. Something was wrong. Gravely wrong, and you held your breath as you approached him. “Are you alright?” Dave’s head snapped up at the sound of your voice, puffy red eyes greeting you. His tears streaked across his cheeks as he looked away and back at the picture, shaking his head.
“I remember,” he whispered. “I remember everything.”
Your breathing hitched as he spoke, unsure if you heard things correctly.
What?
“Wha-what?” you croaked out, eyes wide, heart loudly thumping in your chest. “Yo-you remember?” Dave slowly nodded as he stood up. He set the picture frame down on the nightstand as he strode over to you, eyes filled with endless amounts of emotion, but one stuck out from the rest, making your heart leap.
Love.
The spark of affection was back, and you gulped, uncertain if this was reality or just a dream conjured up by your mind to cope. While you were grappling with yourself, Dave slowly approached until he towered over you, causing you to tilt your head up so you could meet his eye. He gingerly took your hand, and the warmth that radiated from the contact made your head spin. Your eyes became glossy as he lifted your palm to his lips and placed a tender kiss to the center, making you inhale sharply.
His gaze met yours, and time seemed to slow as he brought the silver band to your finger and slipped it on, right where it belonged. You shuddered at the action, and several tears fell from your eyes as he grasped your hand in a tender but firm grip, as if he were afraid you would withdraw from him and disappear. His eyes glistened as he leaned forward and pressed a gentle kiss to your forehead before drawing you into his arms tightly.
The dam broke, and you began to weep into his chest, body uncontrollably shaking. Dave buried his head into your hair, inhaling your scent, as he let his own tears fall. You fit perfectly in his arms, and he released a heavy breath as he thought of how he had almost lost you. The two of you stood there for what seemed like an eternity before pulling away and staring into each other’s eyes. The air was thick with tension as it eventually dawned on you what was really happening.
He remembers.
Oh, my God.
He remembers!
The waterworks resumed as Dave took your face into his hands, bringing his mouth down to meet yours. The sweet caress of Dave’s lips against yours sent a shiver down your spine, and you grasped onto his shirt for dear life, your knees wobbling from the intense passion behind such a simple act.
Tears streamed down your face and merged with his as you held onto each other, the rest of the world melting away.
In that moment, it was just you and Dave.
A man whose love for you ran so deep that it blasted through the barriers of his broken mind.
A woman whose love for him was so profound that the hope of him remembering was enough to keep the pain at bay.
And remember, he finally did.
Your lost souls had weathered the storm and ultimately found their way back to one other.
Your two hearts that were once broken were now mended and beat as one.
Two halves of a whole reunited at long last.
You fit together like two puzzle pieces, and all the strife and sorrow you had both suffered faded away as you savored the moment.
Dave deepened the kiss, pulling you tighter against his chest if that was even possible. You let out a whimper as you felt his tongue glide across your bottom lip before softly nipping at it, his hand coming to rest against the back of your neck.
Running out of breath, you pulled apart, chest heavily heaving, and you looked up at him. His eyes were blown, pupils dilated, engulfing his irises in black. The look in his eye made you weak at the knees, and as he drew his gaze downward, you were swiftly reminded that you were clad in nothing but a towel.
Oh.
You held the cloth firmly against your body, nervousness suddenly chilling your bones.
What happens now?
You both stood there in silence, watching one another, before Dave’s voice cut through the air.
“I am so sorry, sweetheart. I am so fucking sorry.” His voice quivered, hands steadily shaking at his side, when he unexpectedly fell to his knees, arms circling your legs as he rested his head against your stomach. “I never should have left. I should never have gone after Mac. I should have stayed.”
Sobs filled the room as Dave clutched onto your form. You looked down at him in surprise and sadness. This man was showing you a different side of himself – a side that you had never seen.
Vulnerability.
The man that you knew to be cold and calculating, who rarely showed more than he needed, was at your feet, heart laid out before you. The only time you had seen him in a state remotely close to this was the night he had proposed to you and promised he would return. The night before he had disappeared. Now, he was on the ground, exposed and begging for forgiveness from you. You stood frozen, taking in his current state before you finally moved your hands to run them through his hair.
“I forgive you,” you choked out, your voice trembling with emotion. “Dave, I forgive you.” His cries began to subside, and he glanced up at you, double-checking that you meant your words. You gave him a soft smile and leaned down, planting a reassuring kiss on his lips.
“I know I can’t reverse things, but I swear to you that I will do everything I can to make up for it,” he announced. “I promise you that I will make things right.”
Without warning, the moment was cut short when a shrill cry pierced the room. Frankie had woken up. You took a step forward, going to soothe your son, when Dave stood up and held out his arm, stopping you. You looked at him in confusion before realizing what he was going to do. He gracefully moved to Frankie’s crib and picked up the upset baby, and you turned into a puddle of goo as you watched him begin to rock his son in his arms, softly cooing at the child to calm him.
“Hey, little guy,” Dave whispered as he cradled Frankie, rubbing the baby’s back as he swayed back and forth. “I’m your daddy.”
Then, as if Frankie sensed who Dave was, his wails quieted, and he opened his eyes, looking up at his father. You felt a tingle spread throughout your body as you took in the sight before you, and heat crept up your cheeks. After a few moments, Dave looked at you and motioned to his son.
“I think he’s hungry,” he said as he glanced down to catch Frankie curl his tiny fingers around one of Dave’s. He waltzed over as you took a seat on the bed, delicately passing you the little bundle. You took Frankie into your arms and loosened your towel, exposing your breasts to Dave’s watchful eye. He turned away to give you privacy when you let out a chuckle.
“It’s okay, Dave. It’s not like you haven’t seen it all before,” you teased, shaking your head in amusement. Dave’s face turned red, and he awkwardly cleared his throat, still getting used to the fact that he remembered everything and that you were really there, cradling Frankie against your chest, nursing him tenderly.
Dave felt his pants grow tight as he took in the image in front of him. The fact that you had carried and bore his child did things to him, and his heart began to race at the prospect of claiming you once again. He felt slightly guilty for feeling this way while watching you hold your son, but what could he do. After all, he was just a man, a man with needs and desires, and it had been far too long since he had felt you around him.
After a moment, Frankie had fallen asleep, still latched on to your breast. You quickly removed and burped him before gently handing him off to Dave. He placed his son back in the crib, making sure that the child was fast asleep and would be for the rest of the night before turning to you, catching you wrap yourself in the towel once again. His eyes burned with want, and you gulped at the predatory look on his face.
Dave looked at you before he strode over, taking your hand in his, and pulled you out of the nursery. He tugged you down the hall and flung the door to his room open, kicking it shut behind him before swiftly whirling around and pressing you up against the wall, caging you between his muscular arms. His gaze burned into you, sending a jolt of electricity down to your core as he bent down and captured your lips in a searing kiss.
The room suddenly felt too hot, the intensity between the two of you increasing tenfold, and you gasped into his mouth, allowing him to slide his tongue in and meet yours. Your whole body tingled as your tongues battled for dominance, and you moved your hands to the back of Dave’s head, firmly fisting his hair. He let out a groan at the action and shifted his hands to your hips, pushing his growing erection against your moistening core. You felt wetness pool out as he released your mouth and moved to one side of your neck, grazing his teeth over your pulse. You let out an erotic moan as he began to lap and suck on the spot and maneuvered a knee to spread your legs, loosening the towel on your body.
Then, without warning, a hand grasped the edge of the cloth and was impatiently whisked away, exposing your naked figure to the air. The sudden movement caught you by surprise, and you gasped as Dave grasped a breast in his hand, giving it a light squeeze before he dragged his lips down your throat, leaving a trail of kisses in his wake. As he finally reached where his hand rested, he captured your sensitive nipple in his mouth and gave it a suck, drawing a wanton moan out from you.
“D-Dave,” you breathed out and tightened your hold on his hair. He removed his hand from your breast and ran it down your side until he slipped down to your core. He grazed his fingers over your opening, letting out a hiss as he felt how wet you were.
“Fuck, I’ve missed this,” he growled, the deep rumbling of his voice sending another wave of slick down your thighs. You grabbed his shoulders, head lolling back, as he dipped a finger into your heat. “I’ve fucking missed this pussy so much, baby. I told you I’d come back for it.”
His words sent a spike of pleasure through you, fire flowing through your veins, as he slipped another finger, curling them upwards to hit that sweet spot. You climbed higher and higher as he pumped them in and out of you, the squelching of his digits sliding into your center driving you closer to the edge. You trembled as he switched to your other breast, enclosing the nipple into his wet mouth as he flicked his tongue back and forth over the peak while he pressed the heel of his palm against your clit. You squeezed your eyes shut, letting out a whine, and felt your knees begin to buckle as he sped up and applied more pressure to your sensitive bud.
Dave, sensing your impending orgasm, withdrew his fingers and let go of your nipple before he sank to the floor, placing your legs over his shoulders and settled his hands on your ass, widening your legs in the process. He pressed his nose against your mound and basked in the mouthwatering evidence of your arousal, letting out a groan as he stuck his tongue out and licked a stripe over your opening before leisurely delving inside of your dripping channel. You arched your back, shuddering from the sensation, as he eased his tongue out slowly and began to trace your soft lips, occasionally nipping here and there.
“Ugh – D – Dave,” you whimpered, head thrown back against the wall, fingernails digging into his shoulders. “Please.”
Your begging spurred him on, and he grinned against your pussy.
“Please what?” he teased, slowly thrusting two fingers into your canal as he tantalizingly began to circle your clit with the tip of his tongue.
“Please let me come!” you begged as your legs began to shake and your vision blurred. Dave ceased his movements and pulled away, looking up at you with a smirk.
“Baby, it’s been too long since I’ve tasted this delectably pussy, and I plan on taking my time.”
You looked down at him, eyes pleading, but he shook his head and returned to devouring you, lapping at your juices like it was his last meal. He drove his tongue deeper into you as he pressed his nose against your swollen button, and you braced a hand on the wall while squeezing his shoulder harder. He continued his assault, replacing his tongue with three fingers and wrapping his lips around your clit, and sucked.
You writhed against his mouth, eyesight going fuzzy, sweat beading down your body, as your climax rolled over you, sending a rush of liquid out to meet his tongue. He growled against your pussy, the vibrations reverberating through your body as he carried on and relentlessly charged his tongue into you, setting a quick but rhythmic pace. You let out an animalistic cry, chanting his name over and over, as another wave of pleasure quickly cascaded down your body, sending a surge of ecstasy through your veins.
“You naughty girl. Who told you that you could come?” Dave questioned while releasing his hold on your center, and slowly set you down on the floor as he stood. You struggled to stay upright, chest heaving with each breath, legs weak from the onslaught you had just undergone. And it was just the beginning. You gazed down at the obvious bulge Dave was sporting and licked your lips, anticipation building as you slipped your hand downward to palm him through his pants. Dave sucked in a breath and pulled your hand away so he could swiftly pick you up.
“Not so fast, love,” he tutted, and you pushed your bottom lip out, giving him a pout. He chuckled and leaned forward to gently nibble on your lip before drawing you in for a kiss. You wound your arms around his neck and slid your tongue into his mouth as he quickly strode to the bed and unceremoniously dropped you onto the soft fabric. You scooted up the bed until your back hit the headboard and intently watched as he removed each article of clothing, exposing more skin to your hungry gaze.
In a blink of an eye, Dave was finally naked, cock standing at attention, pre-cum leaking from the tip, and your mouth began to water. You parted your legs, crooking a finger at Dave, and he licked his lips as he stared at your dripping pussy, eager to be buried inside of you after so long. Dave wasted no time and crawled up the bed until he hovered above you, hands resting on the bed beside your head, and he ground his hardness against your slick center, drawing a purr from your lips.
“Fuck, baby, you’re so damn wet,” he grunted as he took his cock and rubbed the tip against your slit. “You all wet for me?” You sucked in a ragged breath and nodded as he teased you, spreading your juices around the head of his cock and down the shaft, coating it until it glistened with your wetness. You fisted the sheets and pushed your hips up, patience wearing thin, but Dave pulled back.
“Dave, please!” you whined and wrapped your legs around his waist, trying to draw him inside of your heat.
“Please what, baby girl?” he taunted, shifted his body to drag his cock against your clit. “What do you want?”
“I want you. Please!”
“You’re going to have to be more specific,” he urged while slipping a hand between your bodies and rubbed your clit with the pad of his thumb.
Throwing your head back, you bit your lip, hissing as he pressed his thumb harder against the nub and eased three fingers into you.
“I want you inside of me.”
“I am inside of you, sweetheart.” Your body was throbbing with want, and your walls contracted around his fingers in earnest. “Tell me what you need.”
“Fuck! I need your cock inside of me, dammit! Please!”
Without warning, Dave replaced his fingers and thrust his hardened member into your drenched canal, driving himself home and filling you to the brim, his balls coming to rest against your cheeks.
“Oh, fuck,” he growled into your ear, feeling your walls welcome him in with no resistance, your pelvic muscles holding his length in a vice grip. “Fuck, you feel so good, baby.”
Dave held himself steady, basking in your warmth, the feeling of your tightness almost too much for him. You attempted to rotate your hips, needing some kind of stimulation, but he sank his weight down on you until you laid trapped beneath him, unable to move. Dave held your gaze as he ever so slowly withdrew from you, and you whimpered at the loss. The whimper turned into a moan when he once again pushed into you, eyes rolling to the back of your head when he bottomed out, his pelvis slotting against yours perfectly.
Fuck.
You squirmed at how full you were; the feeling of his rigid member impaling you caused the blood to rush to your head, and it had only been two thrusts. Dave looked at you, drunk on lust and need, and began to gyrate his hips in a tantalizing rhythm. Your hands flew up to grip his back, running your nails down the taut muscles and keened. Dave reached down and grasped your chin, turning your head to capture your lips with his. His tongue parted your lips, and you greeted him enthusiastically.
As he kissed you, he wrapped his arm around your neck and held you against him as he quickened his tempo, sending sparks of electricity up your body. Dave’s hips sank into yours continuously, in and out, in and out, in and out, and your eyes rolled to the back of your head with each stroke. You were in heaven, the two of you getting lost in each other’s bodies as if time did not exist. Your mouths remained together until Dave shifted his hips, allowing him to slide deeper inside of your aching center, and you cried out as he hit that magical spot inside of you.
“Dave! Oh, God!” His chest rumbled with a primal groan as he sped up, repeatedly striking your g-spot, and you raked your nails down his back, marking the skin with red stripes.
“Fuck, baby,” he grunted, plunging into you feverishly. “I could stay here forever.” Dave trailed kisses down your neck before latching onto a spot and sucking a dark purple love bite into your flesh. The pleasure multiplied, threatening to spill over, as you undulated your hips, meeting him thrust for thrust, releasing wails of satisfaction as your bodies met over and over again. Dave’s pace began to grow erratic, his speed faltering as he quivered above you. Every push of his cock into your dripping heat drove you closer to nirvana, and with one final stroke, your body finally erupted in ecstasy.
You saw stars as shocks of lightning bolting down every nerve, your walls squeezing his rigid length firmly while you tipped over the edge and fell into pure bliss with a wail. You trembled uncontrollably, hands scraping down his back, almost piercing the skin, as a wildfire raged down your body, searing everything in its path. Dave let out a strangled cry as you tightened around him, barreling him into an earth-shattering orgasm. His balls constricted, and string after string of his cum painted your walls with steams of white. He pumped you so full that some of it leaked out, sliding down your thighs and onto the bed, creating a small puddle on the soft fabric.
Your chest heaved as you attempted to catch your breath, but Dave gave you but a moment of respite before flipping you over onto your stomach and suddenly snapped his hips forward, slamming his still hardened cock into you. You collapsed into the pillows from the force of the unexpected intrusion, and you squeaked in surprise. Your hands scrambled to hold onto something, anything, as Dave drilled into your wet center with unrelenting thrusts.
He twisted your hair around his hand and tugged, propelling a blaze of fire through your bones and straight to your core, a rush of pain mixed with pleasure blowing through you. With his other hand, he gripped your hip, digging his fingers into the supple tissue so hard that you knew there would be a bruise there tomorrow. Dave plunged into your pussy, again and again, while your pelvic muscles clenched tight around him. He pounded into you like a wild animal, ferociously claiming your body as his, his movements never ceasing.
“Ah! Dave, yes! Yes! Don’t stop,” you shrieked, the pressure quickly bubbling to the surface, threatening to spill over. You pressed your forehead against the bed as Dave shifted your hips, lifting your ass higher, and slipped deeper into your center. You pushed back against him, meeting him thrust for thrust, as he stretched your walls. He circled his hips once, twice, three times, hitting that sweet spot within you, and you snapped, thrown into another bout of euphoria.
You fell against the bed with a light thud, your mind frazzled from the intensity of your climax, but Dave was not done with you just yet. He propped your hips up, ass in the air, as he grabbed the soft curves and spread your cheeks, watching as he sank his thick cock into you once more. You moaned at the sensation of him parting your folds and let out a string of curses when his hand crawled between your legs, his fingers performing a delicate dance over your swollen and sensitive clit.
“D – D- Dave! I – I can’t handle any more!” you cried; the pleasure so overwhelming that it was driving you mad.
“Yes, you can, baby,” he reassured you, pressing against your button harder. “I know you can.” You shook your head, the overstimulation pushing you closer and closer to the precipice.
“Please, Dave. Ah – ah!”
“Let go, sweetheart,” he cooed into your ear, planting a kiss below it before running his tongue up your neck. “Come for me. Come for me, my love.”
“Fuckkkkk!” His words drove you over the cliff, and you plummeted into another mind-blowing orgasm. Your body glistened with a thick layer of sweat, your hair in disarray, as wave after wave crested over you, drowning you in blistering heat. You were soaring, flitting through the air on cloud nine, and you never wanted to come down.
Dave continued to pound into your dripping slick canal, vigorously chasing his high. He hammered into you, the slapping of skin and your combined moans echoing through the room, and Dave toppled over the peak and cascaded down into paradise with a grunt. You milked the last of his cum from him, draining him dry, and he finally collapsed in a heap next to you.
You both laid there, drunk on each other, basking in the afterglow of your reunion. Dave drew you into his arms, settling you on his chest, and tangled your legs together. He planted a tender kiss on your forehead and began to mindlessly trace patterns on your side, content and happy to have you in his arms once again.
“I’ve missed you so much,” you whispered, breaking the silence. Dave hummed and tightened his embrace, the corners of his mouth turning upward, gracing his face with a smile.
“I promised you I’d come back, didn’t I?” he stated. “It just took me a little longer than I originally planned, and for that, I’m sorry.” You rolled your eyes with an unamused pout, and Dave glanced down to meet your gaze.
“Not funny, David,” you scolded, pinching his side. His expression softened, and he nodded, understanding that this was no joking matter.
“I truly am sorry,” he breathed out, a frown now on his face as he thought of what he had put you through, guilt beginning to seep in once again. “I will be making it up to you for the rest of our lives. That is if you’ll still have me?” You looked at him with large eyes, surprised by his statement and the uncertainty laced in his voice.
“Of course,” you replied with a grin, holding up your ring-clad hand to admire it. “You do have a promise to uphold after all. Flowers, chocolates, and back massages would be a good start to making up for everything, don’t you think?” He chuckled and squeezed your rump before kneading the soft flesh.
“Whatever you want, honey,” he answered, closing his eyes with a shake of his head, and drifted off to sleep. You nuzzled his neck, gently kissing it, before shutting your own eyes and, for the first time in a long time, drifted off into a peaceful slumber.
You were drawn from your slumber when the sun’s rays peeked through the window, flooding the room with warmth. You opened your eyes and found yourself trapped beneath a warm body, an arm slung over your waist and a hand on your hip. You craned your neck and noted that the mysterious figure was faced away from you, but the recognizable mop of dark hair made your heart race.
So, it wasn’t a dream.
It really happened.
He remembers.
Grazing your fingers across your lips, you reminisced about the previous night’s events, and a deep blush spread across your face. Dave had been insatiable, ravaging you like a wild animal in heat, the slight ache between your legs testament to his stamina and hunger. You silently laid there, listening to his breathing, and your mind began to wander.
What happens now?
How are we going to tell the girls?
“I can hear your thoughts from all the way over here,” Dave mumbled, his voice still laced with sleep, as he turned to rest on his side and look at you. “What’s on your mind?” You shrugged, and he brought a hand up to run his fingers through your hair, drawing the tangled locks away from your face.
“Just thinking about how we’re going to tell the girls,” you eventually answered, letting out a heavy sigh.
“Are you worried that they’re going to be upset?”
“No…. I – I don’t know…. I still feel like this is all a dream.”
“I feel the same way, but it is real. I’m right here, and I swear that I’m not going anywhere ever again.” He leaned forward and pressed a reassuring kiss to your lips, while making a silent vow to himself.
Never again.
No matter what happens, I am never going to leave.
I will not make that same mistake twice.
Things have to change.
I have to change.
“The world would have to end before I ever break that promise to you.”
“The first time was enough. My world ended the day you didn’t come home, and we thought you were dead,” you muttered. “So, this time, you better keep your damn promise. Otherwise, I’m going to hunt you down myself.”
“Is that right, sweetheart?” he teased with a wide grin, trying to lighten the mood. “I’m not sure you’re qualified enough for that.”
“Uh, excuse me? I carried and pushed your watermelon of a son out of me, so I’m pretty sure that makes me qualified enough to kick your ass,” you retorted with a glare.
“Whatever you say, baby.” Dave chuckled, giving you another kiss as he slid out of bed and waltzed to the bathroom. Your eyes were firmly glued on his naked ass, the sound of a clearing throat snapping you out of your daze. You met Dave’s gaze and bit your lip, having been caught red-handed.
“Are you going to join me, or are you going just to sit and stare at my ass all day?” Rolling your eyes, you untangled yourself from the sheets and made your way to the bathroom, poking his side as you walked past him and into the shower.
“You’re lucky that you’re cute, David. Now hurry it up before Frankie wakes up and the girls get back.”
“Yes, ma’am.”
The shower ended up taking longer than you planned because Dave had decided to have an early morning snack, defiling you against the shower walls like an uncontrollable beast until the water grew cold. You had chastised him for distracting you from getting things done even though it was still very early, and you had yet to hear Frankie through the baby monitor. Dave struggled to keep his hands to himself as you got dressed, but eventually, you made it downstairs to officially start the day.
Dave was enjoying a cup of coffee at the dining table, Frankie cooing quietly in his arms while you made waffles when the girls came home. They threw the door open excitedly, Mel slowly trailing behind them, shaking her head at how much energy they had at such an early hour, the lack of sleep evident in her eyes.
“Morning,” you greeted her, handing her a cup of coffee as the girls went to greet their father with a hug.
“Morning,” she grumbled, rubbing her eyes, and taking a large gulp of the steaming brew.
“How was everything last night?” you asked, chuckling at the glare she shot you.
“Fine…. Until the three of them decided that they wanted to eat all the sugar right before bed.”
“Oh, boy. No wonder you look so drained.”
“Tell me about it. They didn’t go to bed until midnight and were up at the ass-crack of dawn.” You laughed and shook your head at her, handing her a plate of waffles and syrup as you made your way to the dining table.
“Girls, why don’t you get washed up and have some breakfast?” Molly and Alice nodded, washed their hands, and retrieved plates and utensils as they returned to the table. You held up a warm bottle, motioning for Dave to hand Frankie to you, but he shook his head and took the bottle instead. Mel’s eyebrows shot up, observing the unusual interaction between the two of you, and she gave you a confused look.
You shrugged and sipped your coffee while Dave nursed Frankie to sleep, your heart fluttering at the sight. You grew weak at the knees when Dave set your son in the playpen with a kiss on his forehead, and it took all your self-control to not throw the man down on the ground and mount him right then and there. With a shake of your head, you made a plate of waffles and then moved to sit at the table, pushing those lustful thoughts away.
However, before you could take a seat, Dave grabbed your waist and placed you on his lap with a grin. The girls were too preoccupied to notice the events unfolding before them until you gasped in surprise, and their heads snapped up at the sound.
“Daddy?” Molly questioned, eyes darting between the two of you in confusion. Then, after a moment, you regained your bearings and gave them a soft smile.
“Girls, your daddy remembers,” you slowly said, stomach swirling in anticipation. Everyone in the room froze, taking in the news. Mel was gaping at you, mouth ajar in astonishment, while the girls' eyes widened with excitement.
“Really?!” they exclaimed, hands flying up to their mouths when they remembered that their brother was asleep in the room. The two of you nodded, and the girls beamed, rushing over to hug you.
“I remember everything,” Dave continued. “And I am so sorry that I haven’t been here.” Your eyes turned glossy, tears threatening to spill, and you had to choke back a sob as the girls gazed at you both.
“Does this mean that we’re a family again?” Alice asked nervously. A droplet slipped down your face at her words, and Dave tenderly wiped it away, nodding at her question.
“We are.” They began to cry and tightened their hold, and out of the corner of your eye, you noticed Mel slowly slink away, signaling that she was leaving to give you privacy, and you gave her a grateful smile. After a moment, the girls pulled back and looked up, water cascading down their cheeks, and Dave was no different, eyes glistening with unshed tears. Suddenly, a cry broke through the air, and the four of you glanced at Frankie, seeing him thrashing in his sleep, threatening to wake.
“Go on and finish your food. We’ll talk some more later,” you stated, pecking the girls on their heads while wiping their eyes dry. They went back to their seats, quietly sniffling and resumed eating as you rose and went to scoop your son into your arms, slowly rocking him back and forth. Dave stood and pressed a kiss to Frankie’s forehead, repeating the motion with Molly and Alice, and went to refill his now empty mug.
You watched the scene before you, drinking in the familiarity of it. You took the time to memorize the blissful picture of domesticity, from the way Molly and Alice were huddled at the dining table, chatting quietly amongst themselves, to Dave’s relaxed posture as he leaned against the kitchen island watching everyone. He had a far-away look in his eye, and you caught his gaze, a sea of emotions swirling in the surface, ultimately replaced by the twinkle of his love for you.
You finally had your Dave back.
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The Moment
Chapter Nineteen of Well, This is Awkward
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Rating: 18+
Word Count: 3k+
Summary: Dave tries to find answers and also struggles with newfound feelings. But are they really new?
Warnings: Language, blood, descriptions of torture, ANGST, a little sexual content, soft!Dave
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A month after the first dream, he had another one. However, this one was very different from the first.
―DREAM―
❗VIOLENCE AHEAD❗
Dave found himself standing in front of a man who was tied to a chair. His face was covered in blood, the liquid smeared across his skin, painting it in a bright red hue.
What is this?
Dave watched his hands pick up a knife and hold it to the man’s throat before looking over to a figure in the shadows and seeing them nod. He lightly ran the blade across the man’s neck, just enough to break the skin and draw blood, and watched as droplets oozed out of the small cut. Dave harshly grabbed the man’s hair and pulled his head back, coldly looking him dead in the eye.
“Before I get started, I want you to look into my eyes and know that I will take great pleasure in making you suffer just as much as you made her suffer,” Dave said as the unknown man’s eyes widened. “You’re going to suffer like you’ve never suffered before, and then I’m going to kill you, just like you did to our baby.”
Her?
Baby?
Who?
What baby?
Dave saw himself drive the knife through a finger, severing it from the man’s hand, and he felt a surge of sadistic pleasure course through his body as the man let out a bone-chilling scream. Dave cut off another finger, then another, and then another, each one falling to the floor with a soft thud as the man’s shrieks filled the room.
Then he began to carve into the man’s chest, red fluid rushing out in a steady flow before he moved onto the man’s head and ripped his eye out, letting it dangle over his cheek.
This isn’t a normal hit, Dave thought as he watched the scene unfold before him.
I don’t draw them out like this.
What the fuck is going on?
Again, he looked over at the dark figure and continued with his actions once they nodded.
Why do I keep asking them for permission?
Who are they?
He drove the sharp blade into the man’s thigh, just above the kneecap, and the man began to plead.
“Please, I’m sorry,” he begged. “I’m so sorry.” Dave watched himself continuously cut into the man, slicing and dicing here and there, changing his instruments of torture as he went. A pair of forceps on the man’s tongue, scalpel parting it from his mouth. Then Dave went to work on severing the man’s ears from his skull. One at a time.
Suddenly, the scene shifted. Now, Dave stood behind the mysterious figure as they held a gun in their hand, his hands on their hips. They held the gun up to the mysterious man’s head as the man sat there defeated, accepting that the end was nigh.
“Fuck you, asshole,” the figure in front of him spat out before the explosive force of the weapon’s discharge ricocheted off the walls, and the shell clattered to the floor.
—END DREAM—
Dave had sat up in bed, perspiration covering his shirtless form, the sheets twisted around his waist, drenched in his sweat. His chest heaved as he tried to catch his breath.
What the fuck was that?
There were no faces he could place in that dream, but the setting seemed familiar.
As if he had been there before.
Dave shook his head, clearing the confusion from his mind.
No point trying to give myself a migraine trying to figure this out.
After that dream, the next few months passed in a blur. Dave’s head was stuck in a perpetual haze as if something inside of his mind was shrouding his own memories from him. He kept himself sequestered away in his bedroom or office, and when he could come out, he had a hard time looking at you—a hard time meeting your eyes. The dream he had with your face in it had put him in an uncomfortable situation, and for the last several months, he had been having that same dream occur. Your body beneath him, writhing in pleasure and ecstasy.
No matter how much Dave tried, he could not get the image out of his head. Most nights, he found himself with his hand clasped around his length, imagining you in his bed, drawing sweet moans of satisfaction from you. How could he face you when he thought of you in that way?
She has a baby with another man.
And she’s the nanny, dammit.
Dave had to remind himself constantly, but those thoughts did nothing to quell his desires for you. It did not help that he often wondered if you felt that way toward him. The kiss you had greeted him with would replay in his mind over and over again, and Dave’s lips would tingle from the memory. The softness of your lips against his, the way they molded perfectly to each other, and the passion that was behind it would run rampant in his mind.
What is going on with me?
Dave tried to distract himself as much as he could. During the months of struggle, he kept himself busy trying to piece together what had changed while he was asleep. One day, he had regrettably found that his team had been killed. How that happened was still a mystery to him since the police reports were vague, only reporting the state of each man’s injuries. Dave had tried to get in touch with some agency contacts, and they had given him just as unclear of answers. The agency was unaware of the events leading to the men’s deaths since the team had not been assigned any jobs. However, the agency concluded that they were probably acting of their own volition and chose not to investigate things further. Dave had been upset with the lack of answers and had attempted to reach Susan but was met with another dead end.
Literally.
The agency had reported that she had been killed in a robbery gone wrong and that he had even spearheaded the investigation into possible foul play, but then he too had disappeared. Dave tried to contact Brian for answers, but the man had changed his number and seemed to disappear without a trace, no paper trail, no financial transactions, nothing. So now Dave was left with more questions than answers, and his patience was wearing thin.
What the fuck happened to everyone?
Why can’t I fucking remember?!
Another month and a half passed, and Dave found himself sitting in his office that quiet December evening. He had been hidden away as usual after getting home from physical therapy but had kept a watchful eye on you through the security cameras while going over more files. At one point, Dave had gone as far as going over the security footage from the last few years but had found nothing out of the ordinary, except for large chunks of time missing from the feeds. As if someone had erased them and hidden their tracks.
It had perplexed him to no end, and he had torn the house apart looking for any evidence of the missing material. No such luck. He also noted that the cameras in your room were missing but had guessed that you probably found them and took them down while preparing the nursery for your son.
That is pretty impressive, considering they were well hidden, but then again if she gutted the whole room, it would be no surprise she found them.
Dave had a nagging feeling that he should snoop around in your bedroom but felt like he would be crossing a line if he did that. He respected you far too much to break your trust that way. However, things changed on that fateful December day.
You had been busy all day taking care of baby Frankie, Ems, and the girls, while Mel was working and Dave was at a check-up and physical therapy. That Sunday had been laid back; however, the children had kept you busy all day. And it did not help that Frankie was especially fussy. Anytime you had set him down, he would wail as if the world were falling apart, and he had refused to nap. An upset eight-month-old was difficult to handle, especially when coupled with three rowdy girls. You were exhausted and wanted nothing more than to kick up your feet or maybe take a nap, but no such reprieve would be possible until Mel picked up the girls or Dave got home. Both of which felt like hours away. You were finally able to settle the girls down for a movie and managed to get Frankie to take a bottle when your phone chimed.
Mel: Hey, I’m almost off work. I should be by in about an hour or so to get Ems. How’s everything going?
You looked at Mel’s text and contemplated asking if she could take the girls for the evening. As much as you loved them, handling four kids alone was wearing you down, and you needed a little peace and quiet.
You: Good, they’re all watching a movie right now. Could I ask a favor?
You waited a moment before hearing the phone chime with her reply.
Mel: What’s up?
You: Would you mind taking the girls for the night? Take them to a movie or something. I just need a few hours to myself right now.
Mel: Of course, dude. I’ll take them all for a sleepover tonight. Let you have some downtime with little Frankie.
You: THANK YOU SO MUCH! Omg. You’re a lifesaver.
Mel: Anytime. Plus, that’ll give you and Dave a little alone time. 😉
You scoffed at her statement.
Yeah, right.
As if he could stand to be in the same room with me right now.
You: Hilarious. Absolutely hilarious, Mel. Fucking, he’s still being a hermit.
Mel: Really? Is he seriously still avoiding you?!
You: Yeah. ☹ I don’t know what I did to make him act like this, but it’s getting a little exhausting. The only time he comes out is to eat dinner, and it’s super awkward.
Mel: Damn. That’s fucking shitty.
You: Tell me about it. It’s so hard being under the same roof as him like this. It hurts, Mel.
Mel: I know. I know. I wish there were something I could do.
You: I know. If only there were.
Mel: He hasn’t told you that he remembers anything, has he? I mean, I know he’s been avoiding you, but maybe he’s acting weird because he remembers?
You: That wouldn’t explain his strange behavior, though. If he remembered, then he would be acting completely different than he is now. It’d be pretty fucked up if he just pretended not to remember.
Mel: True. Well, hopefully, he remembers soon. I know how much this is hurting you, but keep your head up.
You: Thanks, girly. Fingers crossed.
Mel: I’m sending good vibes your way. It will all work out. ♥
You: I hope so. Anyhow, I’ll let you get back to work. We’ll see you after. And thank you again for taking the little demons for the night.
Mel: Anything for you!
You set down your phone and let out a sigh, looking down at Frankie as his eyes began to droop.
Finally.
He was just about finished with the bottle, so you brought him to your shoulder to burp him. A few rubs of his back, and you heard the telltale sound of a little belch, accompanied by a wet feeling on your shoulder.
Oh, how lovely.
You carefully stood up, cradling him to your chest, and looked over at the girls, confirming that they were still preoccupied with the movie.
“Girls, could one of you hold on to your little brother for a minute?” Calling him their little brother without Dave’s presence was somewhat soothing, and the speed at which Alice and Molly snapped their heads up made you chuckle.
“Me!” They both shouted, causing your son to shift in your arms.
“Shhh.” You held up a finger to your mouth and gave them a scolding look.
“Sorry,” Molly mumbled.
“Alice, you got to hold him earlier today, so how about you give your sister a turn?”
“Okay,” the girl replied dejectedly, allowing her sister to take the small baby in her arms.
“I’ll be right back. Be careful, okay?” Molly nodded as she took a seat on the couch with her brother, wiggling his hand that was clasped around her finger. The sight made your heart melt, and you gave them another loving glance before making your way to your room to change. Once you got a clean shirt on, you went back downstairs and took Frankie back from Molly. The creaking of the front door drew your attention, and you watched as Dave entered the house. The girls turned at the noise to see him, and Molly and Alice jumped up to greet him. He gave them each a hug before meeting your gaze, and you gave him a small smile. He nodded at you before retreating up the stairs, presumably to his office, and you let out a small sigh.
Well, this isn’t awkward at all.
An hour passed before you heard Mel’s car enter the driveway. You had given the girls a heads up that they were spending the night with Ems and Mel, and they were overjoyed, running to get overnight bags packed in a frenzy. You shook your head as they came barreling down the stairs as you opened the door to greet Mel.
“Hey,” she said, giving you a side hug since you were holding Frankie.
“Hey. Thanks again for taking them for the night,” you replied with a smile. “You’re a lifesaver. Seriously.”
“Of course! Anytime.”
They quickly left, and you were finally able to relax and focus on getting Frankie down for the evening. He had calmed down since his bottle, but at the ruckus the girls had caused, he was fully awake and alert again.
Dammit.
You walked around the house, rocking him as you made some dinner for yourself and sat down to watch a random movie that played on the television.
The Vow.
How ironic.
You rolled your eyes and switched channels a few times but found nothing else of interest, so you resided to watch the romantic drama while Frankie began to doze. The movie was three-quarters of the way through when you finished your dinner and saw that your son had finally fallen asleep, and you did a mental fist pump.
Finally!
You carefully walked up the stairs and into your room, gently setting Frankie down in his crib. You looked around the room, contemplating what you should do to decompress, and you decided on a bath.
Yes.
That sounds so good right now.
Epsom salts and bubbles.
Mmm.
You went into your bathroom and began to fill the tub, pouring in the bath salts and bubble bath, watching the bubbles foaming as steam swirled off the water’s surface. You let out a sigh as you thought of Frankie, hesitant to leave him unattended while you were in the bath, especially if something were to happen and you had to get out in a hurry.
I guess I could ask Dave…
You were nervous about asking him to keep an eye on Frankie while you bathed but decided to give it a try anyway. You cautiously walked down the hall to Dave’s office and knocked. After a moment, you heard him approach the door and slowly open it a fraction, enough for you to see just his face.
“Yes?” he asked, confused with your sudden appearance. You shifted your weight between your feet awkwardly, trying to figure out what to say.
“Um, the girls left with Mel a bit ago for the evening,” you stated. He nodded and kept staring at you, his stare bore into your eyes, and your heart began to pound. “I was wondering if you could keep an eye on Frankie while I took a bath? I promise not to take too long.” Dave continued to look at you wordlessly, and you felt heat creep up your face at the intensity of his gaze.
“Sure,” he replied after a moment.
“Thank you,” you said. “I’ll go ahead and grab the baby monitor so you can hear him in case he wakes up.” Dave once again nodded at you silently, and you turned to retrieve the monitor and return, seeing that he had left the door open and was still standing there.
“Here you go,” you said, handing him the device. He reached his hand out and took it from you, his fingers managing to lightly brush against yours, sending a jolt of electricity through you. Dave slightly tensed, and you withdrew your hand quickly, giving him a tightlipped smile. “Thank you again.”
“You’re welcome,” Dave replied before he shut the door, and you were left awkwardly standing in the hallway. You heaved out a breath and tried to calm the loud beating inside your chest, and walked back to the bathroom. The water had risen and was at the top of the tub, and you shut it off, slowly removing your clothes and sinking into the large basin. The heat penetrated your body, and you felt your muscles begin to relax, the exhaustion of the day beginning to ebb away. You shut your eyes and leaned your head against the tile, letting your mind go blank, releasing all the tension inside of you.
This is exactly what I needed.
Dave had been busy looking through files, trying to uncover more information about what had happened, when the knock startled him. He had managed to piece together some parts of his memory, remembering events up to the middle of 2017. However, everything after that was still missing. When he had approached the door, he was not expecting you to be standing there. He was even more surprised when you asked him to keep an eye on Frankie while you bathed. The mental image of your unclothed body glistening from the water made Dave’s pants begin to tighten, and he was grateful that the door shielded most of his body from you.
He stayed silent for most of your request, unsure how his voice would sound due to the predicament in his trousers, but he managed to croak out an answer. He watched as you went to get the baby monitor and the sway of your wide hips made him harder.
Goddammit.
He wanted nothing more than to grab you from behind and bury himself in your heat, but he restrained himself. His self-control was being tested, and you weren’t even trying to seduce him. It was as if you had placed him under a spell that made him want to unleash his primal side and ravage you mercilessly.
Get a goddamn grip on yourself!
He nearly gave in to his impulsiveness when your fingers brushed, and he tensed, the hardness beginning to grow unbearable.
Once you parted ways, he shut the door and placed the baby monitor on his desk. Dave took several deep breaths, centering himself and pushing all lustful thoughts of you aside, and somehow successfully tamed the beast within him. Running a hand through his hair and down his face, he opened his laptop and continued to scan through the endless files, distracting him from what you were currently doing mere rooms away. Ten minutes had passed when Dave heard stirring through the monitor’s speaker, followed by cries.
He let out a sigh and stood up, making his way down the hall and into your bedroom. He tiptoed to the crib and saw the little bundle shifting around uncomfortably, a pungent smell wafting into his nose. Dave gingerly picked up the baby, maneuvered him onto the changing station, pulled out wet wipes and a clean diaper, and then tenderly unbuttoned the child’s onesie. The sight and stench of feces made him slightly gag, but he continued with the mission of cleaning Frankie and getting a clean diaper on him.
How babies manage to poop out this much when all they do is drink milk is still surprising.
Dave had not changed a diaper in years, and the experience brought back memories of when the girls were little. As much as he loved his children, he did not miss the days of dirty diapers and spit-up, but he would not trade those early days for the world. No matter how unpleasant the experience was, he still cherished those times.
Although Frankie was clean and redressed, he continued to whine quietly, so Dave picked him up and brought the child to his chest, rubbing his back soothingly. He slowly rocked his body, trying to quell the boy’s cries, and after a moment, the cries began to subside to a quiet whimper before finally ceasing.
Oh, thank god.
Dave continued to sway his body, making sure Frankie was fully asleep before placing the boy back into his crib.
As Dave turned to leave, something stopped him and told him to look around the room. He had never stepped foot inside of your domain, respecting your space and privacy, but his curiosity got the better of him. He studied the walls, the shades of purple and yellow complementing each other beautifully, and his gaze continued to wander. As they landed on your nightstand, Dave’s breath hitched, throat growing tight, his heart thumped loudly in his chest.
In front of him sat a frame holding an ultrasound and a photo of you, both very water damaged but the images clear as day.
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The Birth
Chapter Eighteen of Well, This is Awkward
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Rating: 18+
Word Count: 4k+
Summary: The little one finally arrives.
Warnings: ANGST, language, smut, soft!Dave
A/N: Things are ramping up!!!!
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Dave’s eyes widened when he saw you slightly bent over, clutching your hip with one hand, the other braced on the countertop. He felt panic course through him. It had been years since he had experienced this, and his mind went blank for a moment before it was snapped back to reality as you let out a wail, doubling over from a contraction. He rushed to you, helping support your weight as you took deep breaths, feeling the pressure increase. You began to count how long each contraction lasted and the time between them, and your eyes went wide. The gap between contractions was closing, and you needed to get to the hospital.
“We need to go. Now,” you grunted out, pushing through the pain as you waddled to the front door and grabbed the keys. “Could you please grab the hospital bag?” Dave looked at you in shock as you took charge and then snapped into action. He grabbed the bag beside the door and took the keys from you.
“You’re in no condition to drive,” he firmly stated, as you looked at him and grumbled.
“Neither are you,” you retorted, wincing as another contraction hit. Dave rolled his eyes at your stubbornness.
“I’m in better shape than you are right now,” he shot back. “Let’s go.”
You huffed and reluctantly followed, knowing that he was right. Although his leg wasn’t in top condition, it would not take much effort to get to the hospital. Dave held out his hand, assisting you, as you squeezed yourself into the passenger seat of the SUV. Once he had you situated, he dashed to the driver’s side and, within moments, had peeled out of the driveway like a bat out of hell, tires squealing behind you. As Dave sped to the hospital, you managed to shoot a message off to Mel and let her know that the baby was coming. Of all times for your son to decide he wanted to make his entrance into the world, it had to be the day that Mel was working, and Dave had to take you.
A part of you was thrilled that he was there with you, but another part also hurt since he did not know that it was his son. The two of you managed to arrive at the hospital in one piece, and you felt ready to burst. The contracts were now only several minutes apart, and the intensity of each was increasing at a rapid rate. Shortly after a nurse brought you to your private room, nurses hooked you up to an IV and several other machines, monitoring your condition, and your patience was wearing thin.
“Get this baby out of me!” you cried, feeling a particularly painful contraction hit. Dave stood beside you, offering you his hand to squeeze, as a nurse rushed out to get the doctor. The warmth of his body was comforting, and through the discomfort, you felt his thumb stroking the back of your hand, drawing small reassuring circles on your skin.
“Just breathe,” he said, wiping away a strand of hair that clung to your sweat-covered forehead. “Take deep breaths.” You shook your head and ground your teeth. The pain was starting to become unbearable, but you had refused to get an epidural, wanting to undergo the entire experience of childbirth, no matter how agonizing it was. Finally, your doctor entered and began to check your progress, pulling on a glove and delving between your legs to check your cervix.
“You’re about nine centimeters dilated,” she stated, pulling the glove off and disposing it into a waste bin. “We have to wait until you’re at ten centimeters before you can start pushing.” You clenched your jaw as another wave hit.
“I can’t! I want to push! Please!”
“You’re almost there, sweetie,” she assured you. “But you can’t start pushing until your cervix is dilated enough. I’ll be right back to check on you in a moment.”
You helplessly watched as she exited the room, enduring another contraction as she walked away. You were in anguish, your whole body on fire, sweat running down your face. Dave felt an ache in his heart seeing you in such a state, knowing that if he had not been here, you would be going through this alone, without the baby’s father. After Dave had spoken to you about the baby’s father or lack thereof, his heart had softened, and he felt remorseful for how he had initially treated you. Granted, the first encounter he had with you was a shock and somewhat off-putting, but he had taken it in stride.
Dave had seen how you interacted with his daughters as if you were a mother to them, and over time, you had slowly broken down his walls. After he found out about his divorce from Carol, Dave could not help but feel an attraction to you but had put it out of his mind so he could focus on his daughters and getting better. After all, he had several years missing from his memory, and according to the divorce papers, he had not been divorced for very long. At least in his mind.
In a way, he still felt like he was betraying Carol with his attraction to you, even though she had been the one to betray him. One evening, after watching you put the girls to sleep, Dave had a thought that caught him off guard.
I wonder what it would be like to have this with her?
A part of it just feels like it fits.
He had stopped himself before his mind began to wander, and he pushed those thoughts back.
I shouldn’t be thinking this way.
She’s just the nanny.
That would be so cliché if we started something.
But his thoughts began to get away from him once again when he thought of how your interactions with Molly and Alice were too natural and seemed more than you just being their nanny.
What if?
How would the girls even feel if I started something with her?
Dave was torn. Part of him knew that he felt something for you, even if it was just physical attraction, but he was in denial of it being anything more than that.
No!
Snap out of it.
She’s just the fucking nanny.
Now, as he sat next to you in the hospital, waiting for the birth of your child, he could not help but feel like he was supposed to be there.
What if?
Dave was drawn from his thoughts when you let out a scream of pain and clutched his hand tighter, nails digging into his skin, drawing a little blood. The doctor finally returned, and she checked your progress yet again, greeting you with a smile as she withdrew her hand from your nether region.
“You are fully dilated now,” she announced, pulling on a new set of gloves and positioning herself between your legs once more.
“Oh, thank fuck!” you howled. “Now, for the love of God, can I push?!” Dave let out a soft chuckle at your demands, but the look of anger you directed toward him cut it short. He knew it was best not to aggravate an already angered woman, especially one in labor.
“Yes,” your doctor replied. “When you feel another contraction go ahead and start pushing.” You nodded just as you felt the tightening of your muscles, and you sucked in a breath and began to push.
“IT HURTS!” you wailed, feeling your son begin to push through the small opening.
“You’ve got this,” Dave whispered, squeezing your hand. “You’re doing great.” His words spurned you on, and you continued to push as hard as you could.
“I see the head,” you heard from below. “He’s coming out fast! Keep pushing!” You felt like you were being split in two, the pressure from your son’s head parting your folds increasing exponentially.
“His head is almost through. Keep pushing, sweetie. You’re nearly there.” Endless bouts of pain rushed through you as you felt your body give way, and you heard her announce that his head was out. You had a moment of reprieve before another contraction hit, and you let out another roar.
“There are his shoulders! Could you give me one more push? You’re doing great!” Two more pushes and you felt your son’s body finally exit, and you let out a tired sigh, but the silence in the room made your stomach twist. Your son wasn’t crying. He wasn’t making any noise. You turned to Dave, a look of uncertainty etched across his face, and your heart began to race. You tried to lift your head but stopped short when a high-pitched shriek pierced through the air. You began to sob as you heard his cries, and you felt relief spread through you. You watched as his small form was handed off to a nurse to be weighed, measured, and cleaned, and your doctor turned back to you.
“You need to give me one more push to get the placenta out,” she instructed.
Fucking hell!
Another push later, and you were finally free. Dave gazed down at you, admiring your tear-stained face, flooded with red from your efforts, and he felt another tug on his heart. After a few moments, gently placed your child in your arms, and you felt another surge of tears escape.
“Congratulations, you have a healthy baby boy,” the nurse spoke, looking at you and Dave with a smile. You pressed your son to your chest, feeling his soft skin against yours, and you felt joy blossom in your heart. You had finally done it. Your son was here.
“Hey there, little guy,” you spoke softly, tucking a finger into his hand and watched as he curled his tiny hand around it. You looked up at Dave and weakly smiled at him.
“Congratulations,” he said, returning your smile. As thrilled as you were for the birth of your son and Dave being there with you through it, you had hoped that it would trigger his memories, but his reaction was enough to tell you that it had not. He did not react as a father would to meeting his son, but as a friend who was being supportive. The thought caused fresh tears to spring forth, and you choked back a sob. Dave opened his mouth to speak but was cut off when a nurse approached you.
“Does this little angel have a name?” she asked. You looked at her, then at Dave, and he returned your look with confusion.
Fuck.
I can’t.
Not with him here.
He’s going to ask too many questions when she fills out the rest of the birth certificate.
“Um – could you give me a moment?” you finally spoke to him. “I’d like a little privacy for this.” Dave was puzzled but acquiesced to your request and exited the room. He understood that it would probably be painful to put the father’s name on the birth certificate. Once the door had closed, you turned to the nurse and let out a breath.
“Um – yes – I have a name,” you answered. “I just – I just – it’s a little complicated.”
“No problem,” she replied. “Take your time.” You gave her a slight smile and gazed down at your son.
“Marcus Francisco,” you finally stated. “His name is Marcus Francisco.” She wrote his name down and then looked back up at you.
“Last name?” You hesitated for another moment before answering.
“York. Marcus Francisco York.”
“Thank you.” She took a moment to fill out more information before pausing.
“Is there a father I should list?” You flicked your eyes to the door, checking that it was still shut, before meeting her gaze.
“Yes,” you responded. “David York.”
“Thank you.” She continued to fill out the paperwork before putting her pen down. “I’d like to go ahead and confirm the information is correct before we send this off.”
“Okay.”
“Marcus Francisco York, born April 2nd, 2019, at 1:43 PM. Father, David York,” she began to rattle off. You bobbed your head, confirming everything was correct so far.
He and Dave share the same birthday.
You wanted to cry at the thought, unsure if Dave even remembered what today was for him. The nurse carried on, listing off your name, Marcus’s weight, height, and other information until she had finished reciting it all to you.
“You’re all set. The birth certificate will be ready for you when you are discharged. Shall I retrieve your partner?”
“Yes, please.” The nurse nodded and went to get Dave, as you admired your beautiful baby boy. He had a full head of black hair peeking out from his little beanie, and he laid there peacefully dozing in your arms. You heard the door open and saw Dave emerge and make his way to you with a smile.
“How’re you doing?” he asked, the awkward moment of asking him to leave still lingering in the air.
“Good, a little tired. But it was all worth it,” you answered honestly. Even though Dave was unaware that Marcus was his son, you were grateful that he was there to share the moment with you, and you were content sharing it with him as a friend than nothing at all. The two of you sat in comfortable silence for a while longer, watching Marcus sleep, when a knock sounded and a nurse came in.
“We wanted to see if the little guy would latch,” she stated. You looked at Dave, unsure about him being there while you tried to breastfeed your son, but then again, he had already seen everything. Of course, he was not aware of that, but breastfeeding was a natural part of life either way. You briefly pulled your son away from your chest to pull your gown down and brought him to your breast. Without hesitation, he latched onto your nipple and began to suckle. Your heart swelled with pride, and water prickled the edges of your eyes.
I can’t believe how beautiful he is.
Once Marcus finished nursing, he opened his eyes and gazed up at you. Your chest tightened, overwhelmed with how handsome your little one was, and you glanced at Dave. He was looking down at Marcus with an unreadable expression, but his eyes showed a hint of awe.
Is he remembering?
“He’s beautiful,” Dave spoke, meeting your eyes with a smile. You blushed and looked back at Marcus, stroking his hand as he closed his eyes.
“Thank you.” Your eyes began to grow heavy, and you let out a yawn.
“Do you want to set him down for a bit while you get some rest?” Dave asked. You nodded and gingerly handed Marcus off to his father, watching Dave gently place your son into the bassinet. As your eyes began to shut slowly, Dave walked to the door and turned.
“I’m going to grab something to eat, but I’ll be back.” You tilted your chin down, too tired to properly nod, and he exited the room as you drifted off.
Once Dave had returned to the room, he quietly entered and studied your sleeping form. Strands of hair clung to your forehead, the slight shine of sweat glistening in the light, and your lips slightly parted. You were a sight to behold, even though you might have disagreed, and Dave could not help but admire your beauty as you slept. The experience of childbirth was both beautiful and terrifying, and regardless, Dave felt honored to have the privilege of sharing it with you. He took a seat in the chair by your bedside and decided to get a little rest himself, the events of the day finally catching up to him. Just as his eyes closed, he heard a whimper come from the bassinet, followed by soft cries. Dave stood up, looked at the weeping little bundle, tenderly picked him up, and brought him to his chest. He was unsure of the baby’s name, but a glance at the tag on the medical crib stated it was Marcus.
“Hey, little guy,” Dave softly spoke, rocking Marcus back and forth and running a soothing hand down his back. Marcus began to quiet but then grew fussy again, his soft cries increasing in volume. Dave continued to rock him, but his wails would not cease.
Is he hungry?
No, he just ate.
Hmm.
Maybe he’s got a dirty diaper.
He brought Marcus’s butt up to his face and sniffed.
No, definitely not a dirty diaper.
He decided to take a gander and unbuttoned his shirt, placing Marcus against his bare chest and was relieved when the tiny bundle began to calm. His heart swelled as Marcus placed his little hand against Dave’s chest and the steady motion of Dave’s rocking lulled him back to sleep. It had been years since he had held a newborn baby in his arms, and in a way, he had missed the feeling. He felt like a new father, holding their baby for the first time, but he knew that this was not the case.
I feel so bad for her.
Having to raise her son on her own.
Dave thought to himself as he once again looked over at you. He held Marcus for a few more minutes, making sure the child was sound asleep, before placing him back in the bassinet.
Sleep tight, little guy.
Dave reclaimed his seat beside you, tilting his head back, allowing sleep to fall over him.
Two days after the birth of your son, the two of you were finally discharged. Mel had picked you up from the hospital since Dave had gone home the afternoon after your labor to take care of the girls, and you were thankful. You were able to smuggle the birth certificate past him, placing it into a frame and sitting it next to two other picture frames. One frame held the photos Dave had in his jacket the day he left, the ultrasound and picture of you, and the other held a photo of your newborn son, a picture of Dave kissing you, and one of you both in the bed. The image you had gazed at repeatedly while he was missing. The three frames took up residence on your two nightstands and were the only remnants of your relationship with Dave.
Molly and Alice were elated when you brought Marcus home, but you could tell that they were struggling not to acknowledge him as their brother. You were impressed with how well they had been at hiding your relationship with them from Dave and knew that it was just as difficult for them as it was for you. It hurt every time they would call you by your name instead of mom whenever Dave was around, and a few times, they had almost slipped up. Luckily, those times were when Dave was not in the room or paying attention. When the girls met Marcus, they could not stop cooing at him, constantly asking to hold him, and had even begun to call him Frankie, and it had gotten to the point where you had scolded them for arguing over who got to hold him next. It was good to be home, and you were looking forward to bonding with Marcus and watching him grow.
Six and a half months passed, and it seemed like Marcus had sprouted overnight. He had gone from a very quiet newborn who slept, ate, and was rarely fussy into a babbling six-month-old. At twenty-one pounds, Marcus was quite large for his age, and the pediatrician had stated that he was in the 95th percentile. His motor skills were advancing with each passing day, rolling onto his back and stomach with ease, and he would occasionally push himself up on his hands and knees. For the most part, home life was good, at least for you. However, you could tell that something in Dave was changing, but you were not sure what. He often kept himself locked away in his office or room, and when he would emerge, he would look at you with an expression that you could not decipher.
What’s going on with him?
—FLASHBACK—
Five months after you had brought the baby home, Dave had been clearing out things in his closet when he came upon an interesting discovery. Since he and Carol had separate closets, he never cared to look through her side but, one day, randomly decided that he wanted to do some cleaning. He had been mildly surprised to find that Carol’s wardrobe was empty but chalked it up to Carol cleaning everything out on her own after the divorce or even the nanny doing it for her. What Dave had stumbled upon, hidden away in his closet, was a photo. A photo of a woman lying in bed, naked back exposed to him, with only a sheet offering her any sense of modesty.
At first, he had thought that it was a random photograph, but upon further scrutiny, he found that it was taken in his room, in the same bed he slept in every night. However, the woman in the bed was NOT Carol, and the time stamp on the back was after their divorce.
Who could she be?
Dave was puzzled, the photo was very tasteful and left a lot to the imagination, but the mystery woman in his bed was irking him, for he could not remember who she was, or why she was in his bed, in such a state of undress.
Dave had placed the picture aside and continued to rummage about his closet and made another discovery. A receipt from Tiffany’s in Brussels. For an engagement ring.
What the hell?
Dave’s confusion grew.
Was I planning to propose to this woman in the photo?
He pulled out his phone and looked up the ring listed on the paper and how exquisite it was.
Wow.
I must have gone all out.
His curiosity was piqued. Not only had he found a photograph, but now a paper stating that he was proposing to someone. Someone he could not remember. His head began to throb, trying to put too much effort into recalling the memories he was missing. Dave clutched his head as a pain radiated through his skull, and he sat down, the photograph and receipt in one hand, his phone in the other.
Why can’t I fucking remember?!
Once the pain had subsided, he slowly stood up and went to lay in bed, staring up at the ceiling.
She must have meant a lot for me if I bought this ring mere months after the divorce with Carol was finalized, and I got it in Brussels.
Why was I even in Brussels?
Dave’s mind swirled, and he closed his eyes, willing himself to sleep and escape from the real world for but a moment.
—DREAM—
Dave found himself atop a warm body, thrusting into her heat relentlessly from behind. The woman beneath him was writhing in pleasure, and he could feel her walls clenching down around his length. Dave watched himself push her head down into the bed as he slanted her hips up, hitting a new angle and railed into her center harder, drawing louder moans from her lips. He could not make out a face on her from this angle, and he could not recognize the voice, but something about it seemed familiar.
“Fuck, baby,” he grunted out, feeling his balls tighten as he grew closer to the precipice. “I fucking – *thrust* - promise -*thrust* - that I will -*thrust* - come back and -*thrust* - fucking marry you.” His voice and the promise he made confused him.
Why did I promise her I would come back?
“Ugh – D – D – Dave,” the woman cried out as he circled his hips, quickening his pace.
“I promise -*thrust* - I will fucking -*thrust* - put -*thrust* - another baby -*thrust* - into this -*thrust* - perfect cunt.” He sank into her core one final time, pulling her up against his chest, and gripped her breast, emptying himself inside of her as she let out a cry, reaching her own peak.
“I – I – fuck,” she heaved out, “I fucking love you.” Dave let out a chuckle, tossing himself onto the bed next to the mystery woman, and pulled her to his side, placing a tender kiss on her forehead
“I love you too, sweetheart. And I promise you; I will return,” he vowed. “No matter what.” Dave felt her breathing steady as he twirled her hair between his fingers, basking in the afterglow of their activities. His heart felt light but also heavy as if something dark was looming in the distance. The twinkle of a ring on her finger drew his gaze, and he quirked an eyebrow.
So I did propose, he thought to himself. He inhaled her intoxicating scent, and she shifted, pushing herself deeper into his side. Dave felt his eyes drift downward, and the face that greeted him harshly launched him out of his slumber.
―END DREAM—
Dave shot up in bed with a gasp as he recalled the dream.
It felt so real.
His heart was pounding, sweat beading on his forehead, muscles tense, a growing tent in his pants.
What the fuck was that?
He thought.
Was that a memory?
Dave shook his head, trying to regain his bearings, separating the dream from reality.
It couldn’t be.
There was no way.
Dave swung his legs over the side of the bed and looked at the photo he had set down on the nightstand. The face in his dream coming to the forefront of his mind.
Your face.
Who is she to me?
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The Revival
Chapter Seventeen of Well, This is Awkward
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Word Count: 6k+
Summary: Dave is alive, but at what cost? Reader wrestles with reality.
Warnings: ANGST, language
A/N: Just a few more chapters before we come to the end! Ahhh!
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“Who are you?”
The words were deafening, ringing in your ears, drowning out the world around you. ‘Who are you?’ They were haunting, ripping into you like a thousand knives.
He doesn’t remember me…
He doesn’t remember us...
You stood there in shock, unable to speak, your free hand coming to rest on your swollen bump. His eyes followed the movement before returning to your face, eyes narrowing at you. His following three words hurt just as much as the first.
“Where is Carol?”
You held back tears as you slowly pulled your hand away when his grip finally loosened around your wrist. You swallowed before opening your mouth, contemplating how you should answer. Taking a deep breath, you decided to go for the one closest to the truth, now knowing that he did not remember you.
“She’s – um – she’s on a work trip,” you slowly stated, rubbing your wrist where a small bruise was already forming. “I’m the nanny.” His eyebrows raised at your proclamation.
“We hired a nanny?” You nodded as you cast your eyes downward, the ground suddenly looking interesting. “Why did we hire a fucking nanny?” You recoiled at his aggressive tone.
He’s not your Dave anymore.
“Well – uh – Carol thought it would be helpful to you while she was away for work.” You answered, awkwardly shifting your weight between your feet and fidgeting with your fingers. Dave studied you, taking in your appearance, particularly your protruding belly, and recalled the kiss. The kiss had ignited something within him, but he was not sure what.
“So, if you’re the nanny, why the hell did you kiss me?”
Fuck.
“And why the fuck are you crying?”
“Um –,” you stuttered, unsure how to answer that.
I can’t just come out and tell him who I am to him.
He doesn’t remember the baby or me.
But how am I supposed to answer?
“Well?”
“Um – well – you see…I didn’t mean to.” You wanted to slap yourself.
I didn’t mean to?
What the fuck kind of excuse is that?
“I was – uh – just really glad you were alive since the girls have been really sad.”
“That doesn’t explain why you kissed me.”
“I – um – meant to kiss your cheek,” you sputtered out, the fluctuation of your voice making it sound like a question. Dave hummed at you but decided to let the subject slide. He could tell you were uncomfortable, and he felt like there was more to your story, especially since that was more of a lover’s kiss than a platonic one.
Did I have an affair with her? Dave thought to himself. He was confused, head still in a haze, and the more he thought about everything, the more his head throbbed. The two of you heard a knock at the door, and after a moment, Dr. Parker let herself in.
“How are you feeling, Dave?” she asked.
“As good as I can be,” he replied with a shrug. “When will I be released?”
“Right now, you will need to stay for a week, maybe two, for observation. You’ve been through quite an ordeal, and since you just woke up last night, we want to run some tests and see how you are doing.”
“So, a week or two,” he repeated. Dr. Parker nodded, eyes darting between the two of you, noticing your uncomfortable posture and the lack of contact.
“If it’s all right with you both, I’d like to get the ball rolling and get that CT and MRI done. I’d also like to get an x-ray to see how that leg is doing.” Dave raised his eyebrow at her words, unsure why she was addressing you in the matter. As if you were his partner and not Carol.
“That’s fine. The sooner we get this shit done, the sooner I can get out of here,” Dave quipped. “Although, I thought my wife had been called, so I’m not sure why the nanny is here.” His words stung, and tears prickled your eyes once more. Hearing him speak about Carol being there instead of you was like twisting the proverbial knife in the wound he had inflicted, sinking deeper into your heart. If Dr. Parker was caught off guard by his words and tone, she did not show it, instead opting to acknowledge his consent to get the tests done right away.
“I will go ahead and call for a nurse to take you down to the MRI room and see how the results look,” she replied, and Dave nodded before turning to you.
“You can leave now. There’s no need for you to be here, and you should do your job and take care of my daughters.” The cruel way he addressed you further cut into you, and you meekly nodded.
“Miss, I will go ahead and show you out,” Dr. Parker kindly stated, feeling the tension in the air thicken. You mindlessly followed her, refusing to look at Dave as you exited. The moment the door shut behind you, you spotted Mel and collapsed into her arms, unleashing the sobs you had been suppressing.
“He doesn’t remember me,” you cried. “He thinks I’m just the nanny.” Mel attempted to soothe you, running a hand up and down your back as you continued to weep. The doctor looked on, a sad expression on her face, understanding how hard this was for you.
“What’s going on?” Mel asked Dr. Parker, and you paused your wailing to look at the woman. “How can he not remember her?”
“From what I gather, he may be suffering from retrograde amnesia. He can recall long-term memories, but more recent memories are affected,” she began to explain. “Due to the severity of his brain injuries, this response is quite common.”
“Will he get them back?” you managed to croak out, and she sighed heavily.
“Unfortunately, I am unable to answer that,” she answered. “In most cases, patients regain their memories; however, the length of time to achieve that is uncertain. Sometimes those memories never return.” Your tears resumed, unable to fathom the thought of Dave never remembering you or your son.
“Is there some way to help him remember?” Mel asked as if reading your mind.
“In a way, yes. There is no specific way to cure retrograde amnesia, but some people have found that exposing them to certain things or events from their past can speed up the process. Others have even gone as far as recreating those memories in hopes of jogging their memory.” You began to think of significant moments in your relationship, and many came to mind, but you were hesitant to bring them up to Dave.
I don’t want to piss him off again.
His reaction to me was already bad enough.
I don’t want to imagine what it would be like to tell him that we were involved and that this baby is his.
You were conflicted.
On the one hand, you wanted him to remember. You wanted the man who loved you back. On the other hand, you feared the potential wrath he would rain down on you if he thought you were lying. You were not sure what to do or how to fix this situation. Time would only tell, but you were unsure how long it would take for him to regain his memory. Or if he would regain them at all.
After you left, Dave was taken to get an MRI, CT scan, and x-ray. According to Dr. Parker, the x-ray looked promising, which he was happy to hear, but the brain scans were a different matter.
“Your leg has healed quite nicely. However, due to the muscle atrophy, you will have some difficulty walking and will need to come in every other day or so for physical therapy.”
“And how long would physical therapy last?” he questioned, anxious to see how long he would be unable to work.
I can’t rely on the boys to get every job done.
“Depending on your body, it can last from a few weeks to a few months. I’m assuming you were in good shape before everything, so it shouldn’t take too long, but time will only tell. I’m estimating maybe a maximum of six to eight months, especially if you are coming in multiple times a week.”
“Okay, well, I want to go home as soon as possible, doc,” he replied. She let out a sigh.
“Mr. York, although the majority of your superficial injuries have healed, and you are recovering surprisingly quick, your body is still recuperating. Your leg has healed well enough, but we must address your multiple other injuries,” she began. “The multiple stab wounds have entirely healed while you were unconscious, which is good, and your vocal cords do not seem to be in bad shape. You may experience some discomfort talking for extended periods, so please keep that in mind. I can also see that you are straining your right eye, and it will take some time to adjust to the monovision, so try not to overwork it. Your eye is a muscle, and we want to ease you into all of the changes.” Dave took all the information in, attempting to remember how he had come to acquire said injuries, but his mind was drawing a blank.
“Lastly, your brain scans,” she added but then paused, looking at the computer screen. “As I explained last night, the initial brain scans we took when you were brought in revealed massive head trauma, causing your frontal and temporal lobe to swell, and we had to go in and quickly relieve the pressure. As a result, damage to the hippocampus, located within the temporal lobe, most likely occurred, which would explain the memory loss.”
“Memory loss?”
“Yes, it’s a very common result from brain trauma. However, we could not have known how much damage had occurred until you had woken up.” Dave was confused. He knew that some parts of his memory were a little hazy, and he could not recall what happened to him before waking up in the hospital, but he did not think it was this severe. He looked at the doctor blankly, and she pursed her lips.
“Mr. York, what is the last thing you remember?”
“I – I,” he attempted to answer, head beginning to hurt from the strain.
“Do you remember anything before waking up?” He shook his head, struggling for a memory.
The last thing I can remember is fighting with Carol about her being gone so much.
I think.
“Um – the only thing I can really remember is fighting with my wife,” he finally answered, hand coming up to massage his temple.
“Do you remember how long ago that was?” He shook his head again, beginning to grow more unsettled with each passing moment.
“I don’t know.”
“Do you remember meeting the woman who was just here?”
“No.”
“What is the last date you can recall?”
“I don’t know what all this is supposed to do,” he stated, slightly irritated from her barrage of questions.
“If you can remember a date, we can possibly establish a timeline of how far back the memory loss goes.” He nodded, understanding the logic behind it.
If I had my phone with me, this would be so much easier.
“Well, what day is it today?” She looked down at her watch and quirked an eyebrow.
“It’s actually Valentine’s Day.”
“What year?”
Wait, what?
“2019.” Dave sat there blankly, thinking about the large gap in his memory. He struggled to remember something, anything. After a few moments, a clear memory finally came to him.
Halloween.
2016.
“The last date I remember clearly was Halloween in 2016,” he slowly said. “I remember that now. Because that day, my wife and I fought about her frequent absences, and I ended up having to take the girls trick or treating alone. That – that’s the last thing I can remember right now.” The doctor nodded and jotting down some notes.
“I see,” she replied. “I’m sorry that you have a few years that are unaccounted for, but with time, I am sure they will return.” Dave let out a small sigh, the lost time weighing heavily in his mind.
What the fuck happened to me?
—FIVE AND A HALLF MONTHS BEFORE—
Dave regained consciousness moments after he fell into the ocean. He was floating, and all he felt was the chill of the frigid seawater and the throbbing through his body. As his body drifted, he felt weightless, and it took everything in him to snap out of the haze and try to move. However, his form had other thoughts. As he tried to push his arm through the water, he winced, the stiffness of his limb making it nearly impossible. He finally opened his one good eye and tried to lift his head from the water, but abruptly stopped as electricity coursed through him. The unimaginable pain emanating from his neck was causing him a great deal of discomfort, and he resolved to halt any attempts of moving his head.
The waves were also unforgiving, rolling around him, invisible hands snaking over his legs, attempting to pull him under the surface. His tattered jacket was desperately clinging to his body, the ocean making it stick to him like a second skin, and he began to feel the weight of it. After several attempts, he finally managed to maneuver his arms to claw the material off himself, letting the water sweep it away. He let out a ragged breath and continued to float on his back, looking up at the dark and cloudy sky before finally closing his eye and once again imaging your face. The face he would never see again. He knew that his time had come, and it was only a matter of time before he was completely swept out to sea, and his body forever lost to the depths.
The rumbling of the storm echoed in his ears, and he thought of what could have been if he had not let his anger and pride control him, making him go after Mac. He imagined the two of you sitting in the living room with you leaned against his chest, his left hand cradling your plump middle, a book clutched in his other as he read the words out loud. He envisioned feeling your child wiggle around at the sound of his voice and your laughter filling the air at the sensation.
I wonder if it’s a girl or boy, Dave thought as his imagination continued to run wild. He kept on dreaming about what his future might have held, feeling the darkness creep over him once again.
—SHORTLY AFTER—
An older man walked along the sandy shore when he saw Dave’s figure lying face down on the ground. The man rushed to his side, fearing the worst. He was stunned at Dave’s condition, blood covering his body, soaking his clothes, open wounds scattered about, swollen from the seawater. The good Samaritan reached two fingers down to the uninjured side of Dave’s neck, wearily eyeing the deep gash, and looked for a pulse, eyes widening in astonishment at the faint beat he found.
He scrambled for his phone and called for help, informing them that it was an urgent matter, describing Dave’s injuries to the dispatcher. Within moments, the roar of a helicopter thundered through the air, coming to retrieve Dave, and the older man prayed that he would pull through. As they flew away, the paramedics tended to his body, shocked at the state of it, knowing his life was hanging by a thread. A very thin, very fragile thread. They needed to get him immediate medical attention but were uncertain whether he would survive the short trip to the hospital. He was still somewhat stable when they arrived, but he was fading fast, and he was rushed into surgery.
The doctors franticly operated on him, tirelessly working to sterilize and close the countless wounds. While he was on the operating table, his blood pressure rapidly dropped, his body beginning to seize, and they had to find the source of the problem before it was too late. They discovered massive cerebral hemorrhaging, with both the frontal and temporal lobe swelling and pressing up against his skull, and they needed to alleviate the pressure to save his life. After what seemed like an eternity in the operating room, the doctors had finally stabilized him, and he was taken to the intensive care unit to recover. However, after two days, he had yet to wake, and the doctors grew anxious. He did not respond to any painful stimuli, his eyes remained closed, and he was completely unresponsive. The only indicators that he was still alive were the steady beeping of the EKG machine and the slight rise and fall of his chest with assistance from the ventilator.
They kept a close watch on him, checking every two hours, and for two days, all seemed fine. But, one morning, a nurse noticed that he was sweating profusely, had an elevated heart rate, and was heavily breathing. The wound on Dave’s neck had been infected, and he was going into sepsis and needed treatment quickly before he worsened. They administered more antibiotics and fluids into his system, and for a few days, it was touch and go. Dave’s body was working overtime, fighting off a severe infection, while also trying to stay alive and recover from the brain swelling. They had caught the sepsis in time, but Dave would go into septic shock if it were to worsen, which would lead to organ failure and then ultimately death. He was on Death’s doorstep, and it would take a miracle for him to survive.
Several days passed, and by some divine intervention, Dave was once again stable. Although he was still comatose, his body was slowly healing, but it still had a long way to go. Days passed, then weeks, and eventually months, as Dave continued to sleep. Because he had no identification, the nurses had dubbed him Miracle Man, the nickname well-earned since he had battled injuries that would have otherwise been fatal. They tended to him daily and hoped that one day he would wake up, but with how much he had already undergone, they were skeptical that he would ever wake.
But then, after months of sleeping, Dave finally woke up.
The first thing Dave saw when he woke up was a blinding light, the brightness of the fluorescents making him squint. It took a moment before his other senses finally kicked in, and he began to discern where he was. The increasingly shrill beeping of a machine next to him rang in his ears. The material under his fingers felt scratchy and thin, offering almost no protection from the shiver that ran down his spine. The omnipresent stench of antiseptic and cleaning solution tickled his nose, and his mouth was dry. The feeling of something lodged in his throat caused him significant discomfort, and as he tried to swallow, the object remained in place, causing him slight panic. Once he realized it was a tube and he was hooked up to numerous machines, his mind began to quiet, and he felt around for the button to call a nurse. Within seconds, a man rushed in and took in his conscious form, calling for a doctor. Dave laid there, waiting for some time before a doctor and two nurses came in.
“Welcome back,” the doctor greeted with a smile. “You’ve been through quite an ordeal.” Dave attempted to sit up, but she shook her head.
“We need to remove the tube first and assess your condition, and I’m sure you have some questions.” If Dave could move his head, he would have nodded, but all he could do was lay there. The nurses stood on each side of him, and one of them reached over to remove the tube carefully.
“This isn’t going to feel good, but please bear with me,” the other one said as Dr. Parker wrote down notes. The plastic slipped out of his trachea with ease, but the feeling of a long tube being extracted was painful, and he clenched his fist. Once it was entirely out, the doctor came and sat by his side, the two nurses wheeling out the machine and checking the bags hanging beside him.
“We’ll get more fluids for him, doc,” a nurse stated as she took note of the depleted bags, and Dr. Parker nodded. Dave opened his mouth to speak, but the lack of use caused his vocal cords to rub together harshly, eliciting a pained groan from him. The woman held up her hand and cleared her throat before looking down at a clipboard.
“It’s going to be some time before you can speak without discomfort, so please don’t strain; otherwise, it’s going to feel worse,” she instructed before she continued. “Unfortunately, you came in with no identification, but once you feel comfortable speaking, we can get all that information and reach out to your family. I’m going to take your vitals now, and I don’t want you to push yourself, so let’s take it one step at a time, okay?” Dave slowly nodded, and she began her tasks, writing down everything as she went. When she finished, she sat back down and looked at him.
“You must have a lot of questions for me, so I’m going to explain as much as I can,” she began. “A little over five months ago, you were brought in, and the shape you were in was… horrifying, to say the least. You were covered in numerous wounds, and to be honest, we weren’t sure you were going to make it. There were a few close calls, but by some miracle, you managed to pull through. Someone up there must really like you.”
Have I been asleep for almost six months?
Dave absorbed her words as she continued to explain what kind of condition he was in initially. She informed him of his broken leg, the loss of his left eye, and the numerous lacerations covering his body, the most problematic ones on his neck and chest. Time seemed to drag on with each explanation, and Dave began to feel overwhelmed. Sensing the information overload, Dr. Parker stopped and cleared her throat.
“I know it’s a lot to take in right now, so I’ll leave you to get some rest. We can talk some more tomorrow.” With those words, she departed, and Dave let out a breath. His chest and throat were still sore from being intubated, but luckily it had faded to be more of a dull ache. He kept his eye open, adjusting to the loss of the other one, and he began to think. He wasn’t sure how he had ended up in the hospital, much less how he acquired his injuries. He calmed his mind and tried to think of the most basic things. Starting with his name. Relief flowed through him as he remembered who he was.
I am David York.
Born April 2nd, 1975.
I am married to Carol York.
I have two daughters, Alice and Molly.
He let out a breath and relaxed as he repeated those words in his head and thought of their faces. He closed his eye and decided to rest a little before morning came.
I’ve rested enough, but tomorrow is going to be a long day.
Dave woke as slivers of sunlight peaked through the curtain as he opened his eye and sighed. Last night had not been a dream. As he recalled the previous night’s events, a nurse came in.
“Good morning, Miracle Man,” she greeted with a smile.
Miracle Man?
Dave’s confusion must have been evident on his face because she let out a chuckle. “We didn’t want to keep calling you ‘John Doe,’ and the nickname seemed fitting after everything that you’ve gone through.”
“I see,” he hoarsely replied, awkwardly nodding his head at her explanation. She beamed at him as she heard his voice.
“Oh! You’ve got your voice back. That’s good!” she exclaimed. “Though, you shouldn’t push yourself too much.”
“I know my name,” he blankly stated, her quirkiness being too much for him to handle so early in the day. “The doctor said you’d call my family?”
“Absolutely! Let’s get your information down, and we can get them here.” He rattled off his information to her, and she hurried away to call his family. As he waited, nurses rotated through his room, checking on his condition. Dave showed more improvement with each check-in, being able to speak without as much discomfort, and Dr. Parker was impressed. Several hours passed, and Dave was growing antsy. The medication he was on did enough to numb the pain, but he was not a fan of hospitals or being cooped up.
He was snapped from his thoughts as the door to his room slowly opened, and a very heavily pregnant woman walked through. His mind was swimming with confusion as they looked at each other, and then she suddenly threw herself at him, arms wrapped around him, tears flowing down her face. She quickly tugged him into a heated kiss, and he tensed.
What the fuck?
As she pulled away, he brought his hands up to grip her shoulders and pushed her back. He watched as she stumbled and almost fell over, and his gaze hardened.
Who does this woman think she is?!
Dave felt something tug at him from that kiss, but he pushed it away. He could never betray Carol like that. Ever. Conflict swirled within him as he blankly stared at the mysterious woman as she took a timid step forward.
“Dave, are you okay?” she whispered, placing her hand on his cheek. It was soft, and the warmth was comforting, but the image of his wife came to mind and drew him back to reality. He roughly grabbed her wrist and pulled it away, angrily looking at her.
“Who are you?”
Your trip to the hospital had turned out differently than you had expected. Instead of getting the happy reunion that you hoped for, you walked away with a broken heart. It still hurt the second time around, and you weren’t sure which was worse, thinking Dave was dead or him being alive and not remembering you. Mel had taken you home, and you sat on the sofa staring off into space, waiting for her to pick up the girls from school.
How am I supposed to explain this to the girls?
What am I going to do now?
How do I explain to him that he and Carol are divorced?
Question after question ran through your head.
You were pulled from your thoughts as you heard the slam of car doors and the patter of feet on the pavement before Alice flung the door open. She and Molly saw you on the couch, with a forlorn expression, and stopped in their tracks. They slowly approached you and sat down on either side of you as Mel walked in, carrying a tray of smoothies. She gingerly placed it on the coffee table and took a seat on the armchair across from the three of you, and watched.
“Mom, what’s wrong?” Molly whispered with a hug. You let out a sigh as you drew both girls to you.
“Girls, I have to tell you something,” you began, trying to find the right words. “Um – your dad – well – he’s alive.” silence filled the air as they processed your words.
“Daddy’s alive?!” Alice exclaimed, leaping up with excitement. Molly pressed herself against you further, sensing your sadness.
“Yes, but there is something you should know,” you continued, causing Alice to pause and Molly to look up at you. “Your daddy – he doesn’t – he doesn’t remember your baby brother or me.” They cocked their heads in confusion.
“What do you mean?” Molly questioned.
“He doesn’t remember you?” Alice added. You gave them a nod, and tears stung the corner of your eyes, threatening to spill.
“What mommy is trying to say is that your daddy hit his head very hard, and he is having a little trouble remembering.” Mel cut in, knowing you were on the verge of breaking down.
“Will he be okay?” Alice asked.
“We hope so,” Mel stated. “But it is going to be a little tough.”
“Why?”
“Because – “
“Because daddy only knows me as the nanny,” you interjected, finding your voice once again. “So, we are going to have to act like that for a while, okay? At least until he remembers.” The girls looked at you in confusion.
“But why?” came Molly’s voice.
“Because it will make daddy’s head hurt more if we try and make him remember. He has to remember on his own,” you replied. “Think of it like me making you eat your veggies when you don’t want to, but if I don’t make you, you will eat them without a fight, right?” They nodded, understanding what you meant.
“So, when does he come home?” Alice asked.
“In a few weeks, I think,” you answered.
The weeks flew by quickly. Dave was released to go home about two and a half weeks after he woke up, with the stipulation that he return every other day for testing and physical therapy, and the girls could not have been more thrilled. You, on the other hand, were torn. The three of you had picked Dave up from the hospital, and the ride home was extremely awkward. The girls had filled the silence with their never-ending stories of all that Dave had missed, and you could tell that it weighed heavily on his mind that he could not remember the last few years. Dr. Parker had informed you that he had a memory gap of about three years, so he would not remember anything occurring during that timeframe.
During the two and a half weeks, you had moved your things from the master into the nursery, knowing Dave would question why your things were mixed with is, and you were not ready for such questions. Navigating around each other would be difficult, but Dave seemed to brush you off at each turn, only acknowledging you when needed. After all, to him, you were just the nanny. The days you would drive him to the doctor, and you had the girls alone, they would express their sadness at the tense atmosphere between the two of you. They would comfort you as much as they could, but you could tell that it was hurting them as well to see you so broken. Several times they had almost let it slip that you were carrying his child and that you were more than just the nanny to them, but every time you would catch it and shake your head at them. Luckily, Dave had been none the wiser or at least chose to ignore it, and you had been somewhat relieved.
He had asked about Carol several times and had even tried to call her but had noted that her number had changed, which he found to be very odd. You had tried to avoid the subject as much as you could, but one day it was unavoidable. While you were driving Dave to his appointment, he decided to bring her up yet again, and unbeknownst to you, he had found the files and divorce papers the night before.
“So, do you have anything to tell me about Carol? Or are you going to keep avoiding it?” His question had completely taken you off guard, and you knew he had you cornered. “Her number has changed, and she’s been gone on her ‘work trip’ for longer than she usually. What is going on?” You stayed silent while clutching the steering wheel tightly.
How the fuck do I answer?
Oh my god, what do I say?!
You kept your eyes forward and could tell that Dave’s patience was growing thin.
“I would appreciate it if you did not hide things from me,” he added, sensing your unease, and decided to address you more kindly. You swallowed before glancing at him as you reached a stoplight.
“She’s - um – well – you kind of divorced her,” you finally answered, gulping nervously, waiting for a reaction. Dave let out a sigh and shook his head. “She was – um – having an affair.”
“I know.” You looked at him, eyes wide as saucers, at his admission.
He knew yet he had been asking you.
“I saw the photos last night, and I saw the divorce papers on my desk.”
“Oh,” came your quiet reply.
“So, tell me, why have you been keeping this from me?”
“I – uh – didn’t think it was my place to tell.”
“As the nanny, I’d think it was your place to tell me these things. After all, I have been making a fool of myself in front of my daughters, and you let me.” You bowed your head in shame. It sounded like he was blaming you.
“I’m sorry. I – I just didn’t know what to do,” you apologized.
“Don’t let it happen again,” came his short reply, his dismissive and slightly aggressive tone returning. You nodded and continued your way to his appointment in silence.
Several more weeks passed after Dave had confronted you about Carol, and his demeanor had slowly changed. Gone was the brooding man who kept asking about his absent wife, instead replaced with a more attentive father who focused on his daughters. You were happy his mind was no longer on Carol, but that did not mean he would remember you, or his feelings for you would return. To him, you were still the nanny—the nanny who was currently pregnant with his child. You still felt awkward being in his presence alone, but he had gradually begun to warm up to you, acknowledging you more often than not. You could tell that he felt remorseful for how he had treated you initially, especially when he thought he was still married to Carol, but other than that, he did not show any affection besides more kindness toward you. Sometimes he would still respond in a harsh tone, but it had occurred less and less, and you were grateful.
One evening, after putting the girls to bed, you had sat in the living room, quietly reading when Dave entered and sat on the chair opposite of you. You looked up at him before darting your eyes back down to your book, trying to quell the thundering of your heart. He sat there, silently watching you, and you tried not to wiggle under the intensity of his gaze but found it challenging. He softly whispered your name, and you looked up, meeting his eye.
“Something has been bothering me for quite some time,” he began, and you grew anxious.
What could it possibly be now?
“Why do you never go home on weekends?” You froze, unsure why he was asking such questions.
Did he know?
“When Carol hired me, she said it was a live-in position and not to worry about my apartment,” you responded with a shrug. It was mostly the truth.
“I see. And the father?” he asked, gesturing to your bump. Your breath caught in your throat and you darted your eyes down, again caught off guard by his blatant curiosity and the slightly concerned tone in his voice. From what you could guess, he had yet to find the evidence of your relationship, mainly the security footage and photos from your time together. Then again, you had worked very hard to get rid of it all the evidence while he was in the hospital, not wanting to leave any trace, fearing it would upset him. Having a degree in computer sciences came in handy, and you had managed to back up all of the information about your relationship onto a separate hard drive that was secretly tucked away in your bedroom. Dave had been respectful enough not to invade your privacy and go into the nursery, and you were thankful. If he did, he would have found the few photos of the two of you sitting on your nightstand.
“Um – the father?” you questioned after a long pause.
Fuck fuck fuck.
“Yes, is there a father in the picture?” You shifted uncomfortably on the sofa and met his eyes once again, feeling them look deep into your soul as if searching for something.
“Not – not anymore,” you answered quietly, water beginning to blur your vision. “He – uh – he died.”
It isn’t a lie.
Dave sucked in a breath, his eyes softening as he took in your deflated form. This was the first time he had shown some semblance of care toward you, and you were not sure how to handle it.
“I’m sorry to hear that.”
“It is what it is.”
“May – may I ask what happened?” he asked gently. Again, his inquiry blindsided you.
Why does he suddenly want to know?
Why the sudden caring attitude?
“I – um – I’m actually not sure,” you stated honestly. “All I know is he just disappeared the day after I told him, and I never heard from him again.” You began to fidget with the pages of the book on your lap, hoping he would drop the matter.
“I’m sorry that he did that to you,” he said sincerely. “No woman should ever have to go through that. And no woman should ever have to raise a child alone.” You nodded and decided that this heart-to-heart was too much for you to bear, so you stood.
“Thank you, but I think I will be fine,” you stated, giving him a tight-lipped smile as you exited the room and made your way to the nursery. That night you fell asleep, tears spilling onto your pillow.
Dave had been much more kind to you as time passed, and it seemed that the conversation had struck a chord in him because he had been offering to help you with things around the house more. However, due to his leg still lacking the strength it once had, it was a challenge, but he strived to help no matter what. You had also noticed that he sought out your company more often and not, frequently sitting in the same room as you to read a book in silence or even strike up a conversation here and there. It was a welcome change, but you were still wary. Time passed by as it did since he had come home, and that morning you found yourself in a mood.
You were sore, tired, and cranky. Your due date had come and gone, and you were now two days overdue, something that made you nervous, but the doctor had reassured you that sometimes it happened, and to give it another day or two before they would induce you. You were disgruntled about that, paranoid that something would go wrong. Nevertheless, you listened to her suggestion to hold off just a little longer in case your son decided to arrive on his own. It did not help that you had been experiencing Braxton Hicks on and off the last few days, and you were ready for your little one to arrive. You had attempted a manner of all methods to coax him out, even taking a stab at yoga, hoping your son would make up his mind and vacate the premises, but he still refused.
Just as stubborn as his father.
You had asked Mel to drop off the girls at school that day due to the false labor pains, which left you alone with Dave, and the man was unfortunate enough to be subjected to your constant grumbling. He could sense that you were growing impatient with each passing moment and had offered to rub your feet to alleviate some of the pain. You had refused, feeling awkward at the prospect of his hands on you, and instead tried to busy yourself with things around the house. Dave left you to your own devices and sat at the dining table, reading one of his many books while you did the dishes when he heard a groan and then the splash of water hitting the ground.
“Uh, Dave?” you squeaked out, staring at the wet spot beneath you. “I – uh – I think my water just broke.”
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Summary: Reader deals with Dave’s disappearance.
Warnings: ANGST, sadness, some thoughts of suicide, descriptions of gross stuff, language
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Dave never called.
He never texted.
He never returned.
He was just… Gone…
The promise was now broken.
Just like your heart.
You clung to the hope that he would come back.
He promised.
He promised he would come back.
No matter what.
You hung on for days. Days slowly turned into weeks. Weeks into months.
He isn’t coming back...
He isn’t coming back, you began to think to yourself, rocking back and forth on the floor of the bedroom.
Your heart ached.
Your soul was broken.
You had nothing left of Dave save for your unborn child, his daughters, and the ring that rested on your finger. The ring that once made your heart soar now felt like the weight of the world, and you could hardly look at it without breaking down. You spent nights alone crying, wrapped around his pillow, even wearing one of his shirts, but his scent had begun to fade. You tried to spray the cologne he often used on the pillowcase, but even that was not enough. You longed for his arms to be around you at night. You yearned for the warmth of his body. The sound of his voice as he lulled you to sleep, whispering sweet words in your ear.
You could not close your eyes without picturing him there beside you. It tore you apart day in and day out. When you were not crying in bed, you would be curled up in the shower, sobbing while the water rained down around you, muffling your cries of agony. When you weren’t in the shower, you would be sitting at the foot of the bed staring down at the ultrasound photo and a photo of you and Dave. A rare picture that he had let you take one day while you lounged around in bed. He had his head nestled above yours, a soft smile on his face. Your head was buried in his neck, a blissful twinkle in your eye. Tears would cascade down your cheeks as you gazed at the photographs, the salty water splashing onto them. You were emotionless, functioning only on muscle memory to get by. You felt dead inside; the only thing keeping you going at this point was your unborn baby and the girls.
You needed to stay strong for them.
For the baby.
—One Week After Dave’s Disappearance—
13 Weeks/~3 Months Pregnant
It had been two days since he left to kill McCall, and you had heard nothing from him. He still wasn’t home, and you began to grow worried. That evening you and the girls were eating dinner when Alice broke the silence.
“Mama, where is daddy?” Alice asked.
“He is on a work trip right now, babies,” you replied, sucking in a breath.
“Oh, okay,” she said, a sad look on her face. “I miss him.”
“I miss him too, sweetie,” you stated, hoping that the excuse would work to deter their curiosity. “Don’t worry. He will be home soon.” Alice nodded and went back to her dinner. You looked through the agenda for the next day, leaning over the kitchen island when you heard the scrapping of a chair against the linoleum, and then Molly’s head popped up beside you.
“Will daddy be back in time for my recital?” you kept your composure and made a fake thinking face.
“Hm, I’m not sure,” you began, not wanting to get her hopes up. “He might be busy with work, sweetie.” She hung her head with sadness.
“Okay,” came her dejected reply, but then her head snapped up. “Can we call him?!”
Fuck.
“Yeah, we can do that. Give me a second, okay?” she shot up so fast that you were sure her head was going to fly off and ran to the kitchen table, grabbing her sister’s hand and dragging her over to you. You picked up your phone and dialed Dave’s number and then heard his voice.
“This is Dave York. Leave a message.”
“Try again,” Alice said, and you looked at her with a raised eyebrow. “Please, can we try again?” Once again, you dialed, once again, straight to voicemail.
“Maybe his phone is off, or he’s somewhere he can’t get calls,” you reasoned. The girls nodded and slowly walked back to the table, returning to their meal. You turned away, hiding your watery eyes, not wanting them to see the sadness in them. For the time being, they had accepted that he was on a work trip, but if he was not home soon, you knew you would have to come up with a better story. The excuse would only hold them off for so long before they would ask more questions, and you were not ready for that conversation; no parent ever was.
That night, after the girls went to bed, you paced around the kitchen, phone held up, trying to call Dave, even though you knew it would go straight to voicemail.
Did he lose?
Was he dead?
What happened?
Why is he not back yet?
Why isn’t he picking up?
You went to sleep worried sick, and you had thrown up several times due to the stress. Mel had told you that it was not good for the baby, often making soup and giving you supplements to keep you healthy. You were grateful to have a great friend like her, but all you wanted was Dave.
Several more days passed, and he had now been missing for a week. Your distress was starting to overwhelm you, and you had barely slept. Every night you tried to call him; however, each call still went straight to voicemail. You wanted to file a police report and try to get the authorities to look for him, but you weren’t sure that it was the best idea since he did leave to kill someone.
Yeah, probably not the best thing to tell them.
That afternoon you finally gave in and filed a missing person report with the authorities. You were hoping that they would find something, anything, but knew the chances were slim to none. If he had disappeared and did not want to be found, then it would be impossible for them to track him.
Where is he?
—One Month After Dave’s Disappearance—
16 Weeks/4 Months Pregnant
Four weeks. Four weeks he had not come home, and you were more concerned now. It was not like him to go radio silent like this for even a day, constantly checking in with you, but four weeks? Something had definitely happened, and the troublesome thoughts would not cease. That afternoon, while the girls were at school, you sat at the kitchen table staring off into space when the doorbell rang. You jumped.
Dave!?
You rushed to the front door and flung it open. The sight of two police officers made your heart sink.
Oh no.
“Good afternoon, ma’am,” one of them greeted. “Mind if we come in?” You nodded and let the men enter. They took a seat on the couch in the living room, and you took a seat across from them.
“What’s going on, officers?” you asked, stomach swirling with anxiety.
“Ma’am, I’m Officer Smith, and he’s Jones,” the second officer stated. “We are here about Dave York, and the missing persons report you filed.” You were going to be sick. The bile in your stomach began to rise, fear coursing through you.
“What about it? Do you have any news?” you asked with hope but suspected you would get a different answer.
“We were able to track two vehicles on the edge of a town off the coast, and we have some unfortunate news,” Officer Jones replied. Your heartbeat halting. No. Please no.
“We found the bodies of three heavily armed men. We found no identification on them, but we were able to pull dental records and fingerprints. Steven Kovac, David Resnik, and Ari Mikael. From what we gathered, they worked for a government agency, which has made it difficult to get any more information, so that is all we have,” Officer Smith responded, a grim look on his face. “As for Dave York – um – we were unable to locate his body.” Your breathing became heavy, your stomach twisted into knots.
“You weren’t able to locate his body? What do you mean?”
“We were unable to find evidence that he was in the area or fled on his own accord. However, there were small marks of blood on a tower rooftop,” Officer Jones provided. “Signs indicate that he may have been attacked and fallen from the tower, but the hurricane that passed through recently washed away any other signs.”
“We are terribly sorry for your loss.” The words rang in your ears. They sounded foreign to you, not comprehending them.
No body.
They could not find a body.
There is still a chance!
“You said that you weren’t able to find a body, so there’s still a chance he might be alive, right?”
“Um – there is a very small chance, yes,” Smith answered. “However, those chances are very slim if our suspicions are correct.” You fought back the tears that threatened to spill. You watched as Officer Jones pulled out an evidence bag and held it out to you. You hadn’t even noticed that he had it with him, too preoccupied with their presence and the news they had just given you.
“This isn’t typically standard procedure, but we felt that you should have this,” he said, as you hesitantly took the bag from him. “It washed up onshore, and this is the only thing we could find.”
“There’s something in the pocket that we think you should see,” Officer Smith stated. “We’re extremely sorry for your loss, ma’am. We wish we had better news for you.” You shook your head as your hands trembled.
You choked back a sob as they let themselves out, and you sat there in silence, staring at the bag clutched in your palms. Inside was his jacket. You gingerly took it out and sucked in a breath. It was torn all over, rips covering the front as if someone had taken a knife repeatedly to it. You carefully opened the frayed and unkempt piece of clothing, pulling out something from the inner pocket. The same pocket you had tucked the ultrasound photo into. Your hands quivered as you slid the waterlogged paper out and felt a second one stuck to the back. You pulled the two pieces apart, and the tears began to flow. He had tucked a photo of you into the same pocket as the ultrasound—a picture of happier times.
You felt like you couldn’t breathe, your throat felt tight, and your heart loudly pounded in your chest. You felt the bile once again rise from your stomach and let out a sob. You stared at both photos, tears falling on them. The photos were supposed to be a reminder. A reminder of his promise to you. The promise that was now in pieces. You sat and stared at the wall, completely numb, mind unable to comprehend the truth, the photographs clutched tightly against your chest, over your heart. Your broken, beaten, shattered heart.
You felt nothing.
You were empty.
Alone.
The only man who you had sincerely loved, who loved you just as intensely, and the one who promised you forever, was truly gone.
After the police had delivered the grave news, you knew you had to tell the girls. That was a conversation that you were dreading. That evening, Molly and Alice sat at the kitchen table, diligently eating their dinner; the only sounds were the crunches from their chewing and the quiet rumble from the television in the corner.
“Mommy?” Molly spoke as you began to wash some dishes in the sink.
“Yes, sweetie?” you replied, plastering a half-smile on your face as you turned to her.
“Where is daddy?” Your heart plummeted, unsure of how to broach the topic that their father was gone. “When is he coming home from his trip?”
“Um – well – uh – I have to tell you both something,” you answered, attempting to keep your voice steady, lips beginning to quiver. You choked back a sob as you mentally prepared yourself. “Daddy is not coming home.” They looked at you in confusion, not understanding what you were trying to say.
“Why is he not coming home?” Alice questioned. You walked over and sat with them at the table, taking each of their hands into your own.
“Girls, I don’t know how to say this,” you began, voice cracking, “but he’s gone. He’s gone.” Tears prickled the corner of your eyes, realization dawning across their faces. They were both bright girls, understanding the concept of life and death, so it took them no time to recognize what you were telling them. Tears sprang in their eyes as you moved to crouch beside them, pulling them both into a hug. They released wails of sadness, and you felt helpless. How were the three of you going to move on from this?
“It’s going to be okay,” you whispered, stroking their hair, attempting to calm and comfort them. “We’re going to be okay.”
Their sobs grew louder, and you picked both of them up, carrying them up the stairs to their room. You held them until their weeping grew quiet, and they drifted off to sleep. You tucked each of them into bed, placing a kiss on their foreheads.
“We will be okay,” you murmured, struggling to convince not only them but also yourself. “Everything will be okay.”
—One Month After Police Visit—
20 Weeks/5 Months Pregnant
It had been a month since you had gotten the news about Dave’s death. You still held on to the hope that he was still alive, but with each passing day, your hope slowly dwindled. You were now about twenty weeks along, and at Mel’s behest, you had been taking supplements and prenatal vitamins every day. You kept yourself busy taking care of the girls, fully taking on the mantle as their mother. You made sure they did not feel neglected, now that both of their biological parents were not there.
It broke your heart every day, but you always put on a strong façade when they were around. Your little family had fallen into a routine during the last month, and it had helped the three of you somewhat begin to heal after Dave’s passing. The girls missed their father immensely and would often crawl into the bed with you in the middle of the night. They would cuddle up against your side and cling to you in their sleep, sometimes letting out small sniffles before falling into slumber. You knew the baby was getting too big to hide, and with the girls sleeping next to you most nights, they were bound to notice.
“Girls, I have a question,” you stated one morning, packing their lunches while they ate breakfast at the kitchen island. Molly paused her chewing to look up at you, and Alice stopped shoveling cereal into her mouth, spoon halfway there. The sight was a sweet one, and you chuckled in amusement.
“A question?” came Alice’s slightly muffled voice, finishing her bite of cereal, setting the spoon down in the bowl. You nodded with a small smile.
“How would you two feel about having a sibling?” you slowly asked, holding your breath, waiting for their response. They stared at you, slowly absorbing the words.
“Like a baby brother or sister?” Molly finally spoke. You nodded your head and placed your hand on your little bump. Their eyes followed the movement and gasped, hopping up from their seats to run around the island and hug you.
“Can we have a baby brother?!” Alice shouted in excitement. You let out a laugh as Molly vigorously nodded her head, agreeing with her sister.
“You’ll have to wait and see,” you replied, overjoyed that they accepted the pregnancy so well. “I’ll find out in a few days, and when I do, we will celebrate. How about that?” The two of them jumped up and down, cheering with happiness.
“Mommy, can you make sure to order a boy?” Molly asked, eyes pleading, and her sister followed suit. You rolled your eyes at their antics.
“That’s not how it works, sweetheart, but I will ask the doctor. Okay?” She grinned and hugged you tight, nuzzling her face against your stomach, Alice mimicking her actions.
“We can’t wait to meet you, baby brother,” Molly whispered at your belly.
You struggled not to cry at her words.
I wish you were here.
I wish you could see how happy the girls are about our baby.
I miss you.
We all do.
That night you cried in the shower, choking out sobs as you leaned against the wall, the hot spray scorching your back. You were happy that the girls were so thrilled about the baby, but your heartache reminded you that there was still a hole in your family. A piece was missing, and you were never getting it back.
You wept until your tears ran dry, the water turning cold. Stepping out of the shower, you glanced at the mirror, hardly recognizing the woman who stared back at you. You had that pregnancy glow, yes, but an ever-present dark cloud always loomed over. Heart weighing heavily in your chest, you wished things were different, better, but this was your life now, and you had to try and move on. Eventually, you would have to let go of the pain; you just weren’t sure how.
You had scheduled the appointment to take place three days after telling the girls, and you were anxious. Once the day finally arrived, you carefully drove to the hospital and entered, checking in with the receptionist. You bounced your knee from the anxiety, wishing Dave was there to calm you, holding your hand and reassuring you that everything was going to be okay. His absence from these important moments only caused you more heartache, and you took a deep breath to calm yourself.
He’s gone, you reminded yourself, gazing down at your hands where the ring still sat, the metal hurting your finger due to the swelling.
I can’t keep wearing this.
But I don’t want to take it off.
You were pulled from your thoughts when you heard your name and stood, following the medical assistant to the exam room. They did the usual checking of the vital signs and urine sample and then escorted you to the ultrasound room, having you change into a gown before you took a seat in the chair. You waited patiently for the doctor and fidgeted with your fingers, trying not to think about Dave’s absence. You heard a knock at the door before the doctor opened it, glancing at you with a smile.
“Welcome back,” she greeted, walking over to the computer, pulling out the probe.
“Thanks,” you replied, lifting the gown so she could lather your belly with the gel. You had grown used to the cold sensation at this point and patiently waited as she moved the probe over your swollen stomach. After a moment, you heard the fast pounding of your baby’s heartbeat echo through the speaker, and your heart filled with joy.
“The baby has a strong heartbeat; that’s good,” the doctor stated as she took some photos and measured its size. “Looks like the little one is at the perfect angle for us to see its sex. Would you like to find out?” You hesitated before finally nodding. She smiled at you, moved the probe, took a picture, and then circled part of the screen. You looked at it in confusion.
“Congratulations,” she said, “you’re having a baby boy.” You swelled with happiness, and you felt tears run down your face. The doctor handed you some tissues as she took some more photos of the baby. “How many copies of the ultrasound would you like?”
“Um – just the one copy, please,” you awkwardly said, as she nodded, not wanting to pry. She printed the pictures out and placed them into an envelope for you.
“Everything is looking good, so I’ll let you get dressed and just go to the front desk and make an appointment for next month.
You nodded at her instructions and waited for her to exit the room before you got up. You slowly got dressed and made your way to the receptionist, scheduling an appointment for next month, just like the doctor said. The girl at the front desk smiled at you as she keyed you into the system.
“Congratulations,” she said as you walked away.
“Thank you,” you halfheartedly replied, the smile fading on your face.
Once you arrived home from your appointment, you went and sat on the bed, staring down blankly at the envelope in your hands. You seemed to be doing that a lot lately. The engagement ring caught your gaze, and you examined the sparkling diamond seated in the platinum. You had developed a nervous habit of spinning the ring on your finger over the last few weeks, a habit that was now difficult to do. The ring now sat tightly against the skin, having noticed it while at the doctor’s office. You began to tug at it, trying to get the confining jewelry off, the memories it brought forth in your mind too painful to bear. After fighting with it, you managed to yank it off and held it up to the light.
Your eyes welled up, vision beginning to blur, as you took in the beautifully crafted band between your fingers. You wanted to hurl it across the room, bury it, lock it away in a vault, anything to get rid of the constant reminder of what would never be. But you could not bring yourself to do that. Instead, you rummaged through your jewelry box, retrieving a chain, and slipped the ring onto it. You clasped the necklace around your collar, feeling the cool steel rest against your chest. The weight of it, and what it had once represented, caused a droplet to slip from your eye and glide down your cheek.
—Two Months After Police Visit—
24 Weeks/6 Months Pregnant
Two months had passed since the police had stopped by, and one month after, you had found out you were having a boy. You had held off on telling the girls for the last month, telling them they had to be patient and that they would find out when they least suspected it. You wanted it to be a surprise for them, give them some happy news for once. One morning you had woken up, feeling discomfort by your side, originating from your abdomen.
You sat up, placing a hand on your belly, and waited. You felt it again—a kick.
The baby kicked!
You had been waiting for the baby to kick for weeks, and now finally, he had. Tears of joy threatened to spill, and you let out a slight sniffle. Remembering the girls were still asleep next to you, you covered your mouth, trying not to wake them, but it was too late. You looked down, watching two sets of eyes slowly open and stare at you. At the sight of your glassy orbs, Molly sat up in a panic, Alice following her sister’s actions. They hugged you, and you pulled them close.
“What’s wrong, mommy?” Molly asked with a yawn.
“Nothing, baby, good morning,” you greeted with a smile. Molly suddenly broke away, eyes wide.
“Mommy, something moved in your tummy!” she exclaimed. You let out a chuckle at her confusion. Taking her hand, you placed it on your stomach again. You felt the kick, and Molly let out a squeak at the movement.
“That’s your baby brother saying hi,” you explained. The girls quickly snapped their heads up.
“A baby brother?!” Alice spoke with excitement. You nodded your head as you placed her hand next to her sister’s. Your son landed a well-placed kick, causing the girls to squeal at the sensation. Molly pressed her ear to your skin, Alice following suit, and began to speak.
“Hi, baby brother. I can’t wait to meet you.”
“Me too. Me too,” Alice added. You felt another kick, wincing at how hard that one was.
“I think he likes when you both talk,” you spoke. They grinned and began cooing at your belly, and you let out a laugh at their antics. A few minutes passed of the girls whispering, your son responding with strong kicks before he landed one right on your bladder, and you felt a little liquid leak out.
“Oof,” you said, moving to stand. “Looks like baby brother wants to go to the bathroom.” You got up and strode to the bathroom, seeing your disheveled but smiling face. This was the first time you had felt happy in a long time. The first time you had a genuine smile.
Most days were challenging for you. You did not have the best support system, aside from Mel. Your family all lived out of state, and they were too busy with their lives to bother with yours. You had a handful of friends scattered here and there, but you were not particularly close with any of them. They had happy, normal lives with their families. They did not understand that you struggled to get out to bed every morning, that you plastered a fake smile on your face for the girls. They did not know that every time you opened your eyes and looked around the room, your heart tore into pieces.
You were completely alone and had no one there to support you. The pain you were going through was beyond anything you had ever experienced. This was worse than when you were with Tom, when he kidnapped you, and when you miscarried twice because of him. No, this was considerably worse than any of those past traumas. Your depression was immeasurable and was swallowing you whole.
You had sought out professional help, but even that was a dead end. You kept getting the runaround, and each doctor you spoke to was either not taking any new patients, or they did not deem things urgent enough to take you on. They had stated that since you were not a threat to yourself or others, they could not prioritize you. You felt like that was a crock of bullshit and felt tossed aside.
What’s one more person to the endless list of people that can’t help me?
Some days, while the girls were at school, you would lay in bed and think about how you wish you had the courage to make the pain disappear forever. You no longer craved the freedom that life once had to offer. Instead, you would rather vanish into the darkness, into the other side.
I just want it all to go away.
I don’t want to keep going on without him.
Who would even miss me?
Your son’s kick would pull you back to reality, and you would break down into tears. The girls. Your son. You could not let your selfish thoughts take hold and abandon them. No, you had to fight; you had to get better.
If not for me, then for them.
For my family.
You refused to put the girls through the same heartbreak that you were currently going through. You would not take the life away from your son before he took his first breath. Every day, you would have that internal struggle, and every day the thoughts of your children would push you through. Thoughts of them would give you the strength to endure the hardship, and you would do everything to make sure they would live happy lives, even if you could not have that yourself.
—Three Months After Police Visit—
28 Weeks/7 Months Pregnant
You woke with a start, awkwardly sitting up, as you felt a kick from your son. At seven months pregnant, your belly was making it difficult to move around. Molly and Alice had taken up permanent residence in the bedroom with you, and you hoped that your sudden movement did not wake them. Glancing down, you were relieved at the sight of the two girls still sound asleep. You attempted to stealthily get out of bed, which was quite a task, padding over to the bathroom when you had successfully untangled yourself from the girls.
You shut the door and flicked on the light, your eyes meeting the mirror. Your hair was tousled and all over the place, and you had some dark circles under your eyes. You heaved out a breath, your lack of sleep making it difficult even to stand up. You crept out of the bathroom then the bedroom, tip-toeing down the hall of Dave’s office. You looked around, imagining that he was at his desk, sipping a glass of whiskey as he wrote up a report. You moved to sit on the couch in the corner, holding a pillow to you, the faint smell of him that still lingered there filling your nose. You inhaled his scent and closed your eyes, drifting off.
—THE DREAM—
You were sitting in the living room, curtains open, as the sunlight peeked in, filling the space with the summer warmth. You had your feet propped up on the coffee table, a book resting on your stomach, as your eyes followed the words on the page. On occasion, you would look up from the novel, catching the way the breeze gracefully swept through the trees. It was nearing the end of summer, going into fall, your favorite time of the year. The sight of the leaves turning from green to orange or yellow would paint a beautiful picture in your mind, and you wished to capture it forever. You set your book down and walked to the backdoor, silently sliding the glass open, and you stepped out into the yard.
The grass tickled your feet as you sauntered over to the hammock nestled between two tall trees. After maneuvering into it, you felt the cloth sides embrace you, offering comfort from the whisps of air. You turned your gaze upward, staring up at the blue sky, mesmerized by the clouds that floated by. You closed your eyes and focused on the world around you, silencing your thoughts. Birds chirping to an imaginary song, tree branches loudly knocking against one another, wind swirling through the crisp air. A gust would stroke the greenery loosely hanging on the wood, making them break away and fall to the ground. The rustling of the foliage, and the swinging of the hammock, made your eyes heavy, and you drifted off to sleep.
You were roused from your slumber by the feeling of someone’s hand on your feet, lovingly massaging the aching soles. Your eyes flew open in panic, the sudden burst of brightness blinding you. It took you a moment to adjust and focus, and your heart pounded as you looked at the culprit cradling your feet.
Dave.
You blinked once. Twice. Three times. There he still stood. You shook your head, unsure if you were dreaming, but when you looked up, he was still there, smiling at you as he continued to knead your feet. You attempted to sit up, but the depths of the hammock pulled you back in, restricting your movement. Your mind was hazy as you watched Dave release your feet and move to stand beside you, offering his hand. You nervously took it, feeling your weight shift as he tugged your body out, catching you before you fell. Astonished, you awkwardly stood there, struggling for air.
He’s here.
Is he real?
“Hi, sweetheart,” he spoke, in his gruff yet soft tone that you deeply missed. You had almost forgotten what it sounded like, and you choked back a sob. You threw yourself at him, pushing him back, and he let out a laugh as he steadied your bodies.
“Please tell me you’re really here,” you begged, as you cried into his chest, hands clinging tightly to his shirt. “Please tell me you’re real.”
He stroked your hair as he kissed the crown of your head, tilting your face up to meet his eyes. His brown eyes met your shocked stare, and he leaned down, capturing your lips with a searing kiss. Your breath caught in your lungs, your knees grew weak, your head spinning. Pulling away, he rested his forehead against yours and smiled.
“I’m really here, baby,” he whispered, his own tears escaping, further wetting your cheeks. “I’m here, and I’m not going anywhere.” You wept with joy, turning around as his arms circled your frame, pulling your body against his. Laying his chin on your shoulder, hands placed on the bottom of your belly, he tenderly caressed the exposed patch of skin.
“How are my babies doing?” he softly spoke into your ear, sending a shiver down your back.
“Better now that you’re here,” you answered with a sniffle.
“I’m glad,” he said, tightening his arms around you. “I’ve missed you so much, baby. You and the girls.” You leaned your head against him, and he began to rock the two of you back and forth.
“We’ve missed you too. So much.”
“I know, and I’m sorry,” he apologized. “I know I’ve been gone a long time, but I’m here now.”
“Good. I don’t know what I would do if you left again.” He continued to rock the two of you, moving his hands to cup the sides of your swollen bump. Your son kicked against his hand, and you felt a smile spread across his face.
“Did you find out if we’re having a girl or boy?”
“We’re having a baby boy,” you replied. “And the girls are so excited to have a brother.” He turned you around and looked into your eyes.
“We’re having a boy?” he asked, a giant grin on his face. You nodded, watching him kneel, cupping the side of your stomach, and kissed it.
“Hey little guy, I’m your daddy,” he softly spoke, earning him another kick. Letting out a laugh, Dave stood back up and resumed his position behind you. Cradling you in his arms, he kissed your neck and whispered, “I love you.”
All of a sudden, the air shifted, growing bitter and frigid, and you shivered at its bite. The sky grew dark, clouds above you twirling menacingly, wind harshly whipping against your skin. The arms around you turned frosty, as cold as ice, the warmth having suddenly disappeared. You tensed, unsure of what was happening.
“Dave?” you spoke as the world around you went silent; the only sound that could be heard was your labored breathing. “Dave?” You got no response. You slowly twisted around, fear gripping you, and you released a blood-curdling scream. Where Dave once was, now stood a rotted and decaying corpse, eyes missing, skin melted away. Its limbs were shredded, skin holding onto the muscles by a thread, chunks missing in some parts. Its legs were at awkward angles, and the skin color was a dark shadow of blue and purple. It was like a scene from a horror movie. You took a step back from the decomposing body, a shriek escaping as it held its arm up, going to grab you, fingers curling around nothing.
“What’s wrong, baby?” it spoke in Dave’s voice, but it was not him. “It’s me.” It was an empty shell, and you felt sick. You took another step back, then another, straining to stay out of its reach, you tripped on your own feet and fell to the ground with a thud. The horrifying carcass approached you, and you let out a cry, holding your hands up, trying to shield yourself from it.
“Go away!” you shouted, shutting your eyes, attempting to will away the ghastly vision. You could hear its footsteps stomping toward you, and you recoiled, crawling backward, struggling to escape. You felt a prick on your hand, accompanied by a string of searing pain. Lifting it to your face, you saw blood dripping down the middle, a large cut across your palm. The terrifying figure continued toward you, and you scrambled back, ignoring the discomfort coming from your hand. You felt your back press up against the fence, and you stilled, rooted to the spot in terror.
Without warning, you felt a sharp pang emanating from your lower back. Another twinge, and you yelped, clutching your midsection.
No, no, no.
Not now.
Oh god, not now.
An intense pressure pushed against your pelvis, your back seizing up, a rush of liquid running down, soaking your pants. Your insides felt like they were twisting, pulled in every which way, being squeezed by an unknown force. You felt trapped, as if you were caught in the undertow of a wave, being dragged under, drowning you. You looked down and saw red seeping through your clothing, painting your limbs with a dark shade.
Oh my god.
Please no.
Another bout of pain coursed through you, and you gripped the sides of your belly, howling in agony. You could see something push against the skin of your stomach, trying to break through the barrier, and you threw your head back from how badly it hurt.
You spied the form of your dead fiancé advancing before it finally stood above you, grabbing your arm. The sound that ripped out of your throat was piercing, almost inhuman, as the membrane that kept your child inside tore, and a hand reached out. Eyes wide with fear, mouth hanging open in a silent scream, all you could do was watch as your son reached out, with his blood-coated fingers, to wrap around the finger of his deceased father.
Then you saw black.
—END DREAM—
You gasped for breath, opening your eyes in panic. It took you a moment to remember where you were.
I’m in Dave’s office.
It was just a dream.
You held the pillow to you and began to cry.
The dream felt so real.
As if it was happening.
Letting out a whimper, you tried to wrestle back the scenes from your nightmare. No matter how hard you tried, the appearance of Dave’s mangled body, and the visual of your son’s bloody hand, stayed in your head. You tried everything to erase the images, but nothing worked. You were terrified to go to sleep. Every time you shut your eyes, the horrid visions would reappear, and you would jolt awake.
Will this pain ever stop?
—Four Months After Police Visit—
32 Weeks/8 Months Pregnant
It was now four months since Dave died. You had finally started to heal with each passing day, and as you drew closer to your due date, you felt more joy than sadness. Something that you never thought you would have again. The nightmare you had been plagued with had now ceased, and you were finally able to get some rest. Today you were sitting in bed, your laptop in front of you, as you scrolled through social media. Browsing through Pinterest, you began to get ideas for the nursery.
You only had a short while before the baby came, and you wanted to get things prepared sooner rather than later. You pinned some of the things you saw, saving them to browse through later. You were planning on getting the room painted this afternoon and had enlisted Mel’s help, entrusting her with the responsibility of painting the designs on the walls due to her talent. Yesterday, you had ordered a crib and rocking chair, as well as a changing table. The furniture was scheduled to be delivered this weekend, and you were anxious to get things set up.
Several hours passed, and you heard a knock on the door. You waddled down the stairs and greeted Mel and the girls. She had been nice enough to pick them up from school since you were too exhausted from chasing around the girls last night. The three of them walked in, carrying buckets of paint and supplies. The girls were bouncing with excitement as they scrambled up the stairs to unload everything in the soon-to-be nursery.
What had once been the guest room, turned into your room, before you had moved into the master, was now where the nursery was going to be. The trio began to set things up, and you stood there as moral support, unable to do much heavy lifting in your current state. They began to hustle and bustle around the room, putting down plastic sheets, taping over outlets, and setting up fans before they set about painting. Once preparations were complete, Mel popped open a bucket, and a calming shade of yellow greeted you. Another container was opened, this one with a deep rich shade of purple.
“We picked out the colors, mom!” Molly shouted, picking up a paintbrush and dipped it into the yellow. You shook your head and chuckled, knowing things were about to get messy, but the sight of your daughters painting their brother’s room warmed your heart.
“They’re very pretty colors,” you replied, taking a seat by the doorway to avoid the fumes. Mel dipped a roller into the yellow, rolling the liquid on the top parts of the walls, as Molly and Alice got to work on the lower parts. Once all surfaces, including Molly and Alice, were covered in yellow, you deemed it break time so the paint could dry, and you could all eat. While they were hard at work, you had ordered pizza, and the girls consumed it in a frenzy. Making your way back to the nursery, it had been enough time for the first coat to dry, so they applied another coat while you read a book in the doorway. While waiting for the second layer to dry, the girls decided they wanted to watch Moana. You and Mel got them situated in the den while the two of you sat in the kitchen, you crunching on goldfish, Mel on some jalapeño chips.
“Sooooooooo how’s it going?” she asked, in between chips. You shrugged, stuffing your face full of goldfish.
“I’m doing fine; I guess,” you answered. “Can’t wait ‘till this baby is out, though.” Mel laughed at your words.
“The little demon having too much fun playing soccer with your bladder?”
“A little too much fun,” you said, as you felt a strong kick right at that moment. “He knows that we’re talking about him.”
“What a little creep,” Mel joked. “Have you picked out a name yet?”
“Not yet,” you replied, shaking your head. “I can’t seem to settle on one I like.”
“What names do you have in mind?” You pulled out your phone and opened the note containing the list of names.
“I’m torn between Marcus, Timothy, Benjamin, Joseph, Liam,” you listed off, “Jack, Peter, and Francisco, after my grandfather.”
“I like Marcus,” Mel suggested, “and you should definitely name him after your grandpa.”
“Marcus Francisco?” you clarified, and she nodded.
“Yeah, though what about last names? Are you going to give him yours or Dave’s?”
“I – I –,” you stammered out; the thought hadn’t even crossed your mind. “I’m honestly not sure.”
“I mean, it’s up to you,” she said. “Though, in a way, if you gave him Dave’s last name, you’d have a part of him with you, more than just the girls and your son.”
“That’s true,” you agreed, “especially since we were going to get married, and I would have taken his last name anyways.”
“See,” Mel replied, “it just makes sense to give him Dave’s last name.”
“So Marcus Francisco York then?” you asked, the name already growing on you.
“Yeah, I like that,” Mel stated, nodding her head at your decision.
“Marcus Francisco York, it is,” you said with a smile, rubbing your round belly. “I can’t wait to meet you, Little Frankie.” You felt a kick against your hand and grinned.
“I think he’s going to be a soccer player or even a cross country runner,” Mel joked. You guffawed at the jest.
“I mean, if he ends up being a track star, then he would have gotten that from me,” you threw in. “You never saw Dave run, but his form was absolutely horrendous.” The two of you began to cackle at the thought, and for the first time, in a long while, you could think about Dave without your chest tightening from grief.
Maybe you were really starting to heal.
—Four and a Half Months After Police Visit—
34 Weeks/8 ½ Months Pregnant
You were in a nesting phase now. All you could do was clean the house, as best as you could at eight and a half months, and get things ready for when the baby would come. That morning, after dropping the girls off at school, you found yourself surrounded by a pile of baby clothes, many of which were purchased by you or from acquaintances. Mel was also responsible for a good chunk of them, having splurged on clothes for her ‘nephew’. It had taken you about three loads of laundry to get all of those clothes cleaned, and you were glad to finally start putting them away. Halfway through your task, you decided you wanted some company and gave Mel a call.
“Hey, girly, what’s up?” she answered.
“Are you doing anything right now?” you asked, not wanting to inconvenience her in case she was busy.
“Not right now. I just got done taking a shower.”
“Do you want to come over and help me put stuff away around the house?”
“No, not really, but I guess I can do that,” she replied sarcastically. You rolled your eyes at her and chuckled.
“Thank you, I’m just really bored right now and would like some company.”
“No worries. I’ll be there shortly,” she stated.
“Oh, could you stop and get me a smoothie on your way over?” you added. “Your nephew is craving a fruit smoothie right now.” You heard Mel let out a sigh and mutter under her breath.
“You really had to pull the nephew card, didn’t you, bitch?” You laughed at her fake grumpiness, picturing her sitting in her room, doing nothing but stare at the ceiling.
“I mean, since you’re already going to be out, might as well make yourself useful,” you quipped back. “Besides, I’m pregnant. What do you expect me to do? Teleport?”
“That would definitely be a good start,” she threw back. “I’ll get your damn smoothie on the way over. Did you want anything else, your highness? Oh, I’m sorry. I mean did my nephew want anything else?”
“Well, now that you mention it, maybe a cheeseburger and fries while you’re at it?” You heard another grumble on the other end of the phone.
“Fine,” she replied, and then the line went dead. You sent her a text, thanking her for being such a great friend and aunt, laughing the entire time.
You: Thank youuuuuuu for being the best auntie and friend ever.
Mel: Yeah, yeah. Fuck you.
You: I love youuuuuuuu. <3
About a half-hour later, you heard a loud knock, signaling her arrival. As you opened the door, you caught sight of the smoothie and a whiff of the cheeseburger and fries. You snatched the food out of her hands, aggressively waddling to the kitchen, as you pushed some fries into your mouth. You let out a moan at the taste since you had been craving fries all day. Mel walked into the kitchen, rolling her eyes as you ravenously devoured the food.
“Here’s your smoothie, clown,” she said, setting the cup on the table next to your almost finished food.
“Fank you,” you managed to say, mouth full of fries and a bite of the cheeseburger. She took a seat next to you and pulled out her phone.
“So, you wanted help putting stuff away?” You nodded, wolfing down the remaining pieces of food. “What exactly do I have to do?”
“If you could just fold some of the blankets and help me put the rest of the baby stuff away, that would be awesome,” you said, now that your mouth was not full. The two of you retreated into the nursery and began arranging things in the drawers and closet. You folded the clothes, handing them to Mel, and she placed them into the dresser.
“So many clothes for such a little person,” she spoke, holding up a little Captain America onesie. “Seriously, I don’t think I even have this many clothes.”
“Well, he’s going to be spitting up on himself and whatnot, so of course he’s going to need lots of clothes.”
“I suppose so,” she replied. “Speaking of which, do you have an outfit picked out for him for when you bring him home?”
“A what?”
“A bring your baby home outfit!” You shook your head, having no clue what she was talking about.
“It’s the outfit that you bring the baby home in when you get out of the hospital,” she explained, a look that said ‘duh’.
“Oh, what about these clothes?” you asked, gesturing to the pile that still needed to be folded. She shook her head.
“No no. It’s supposed to be a super cute and special outfit since it’s the first one that he gets to wear home.”
“Why does that matter?”
“Because it just does!” she retorted. “If you don’t have an outfit yet, then we better go get him one.” You heaved out a sigh, not liking the prospect of going out and walking around, much less shopping.
“I guess we can do that,” you mumbled.
You hated walking around Target. You hated it even more now that you were almost nine months pregnant and could no longer see your feet. The entire drive to the store, you were whining to Mel how you didn’t want to go, but she insisted on it. ‘My nephew is not coming home in some random ass outfit that he’s going to wear again.’ You rolled your eyes at her, thinking that the concept was utterly ridiculous, but suffered through it, nonetheless.
As she pushed the cart around the store, you toddled after her as best as you could. She stopped at a rack that had baby outfits on it, pulling some off to show you.
“What about this one?” The outfit was a sailor outfit, complete with a little sailor hat. You scrunched your nose at it.
“No.”
“What about this?” This outfit looked like a mini suit—a newborn-sized button-up paired with newborn-sized pants that looked like jeans.
“Absolutely not.”
“Here!” She held up another outfit, this one less dramatic than the others but still over the top.
“I am not dressing my son up in a Batman outfit that has a mask and beanie with it,” you proclaimed. She huffed, placing the clothes back on the rack.
“Fine, you killjoy,” she mumbled. “Oh! How about this one?” You took your time to look at her and were surprised at the low-key outfit she had in her hands. It was a set of baby pajamas with a Baby Yoda design on it. The words ‘The Child’ were written in a cute font and muted colors under the graphic. Nothing over the top, just like you wanted.
“That one is perfect,” you said with a grin. She was placing the clothes into the cart when your phone rang. She handed you the buzzing device, but you did not recognize the caller ID.
“Hello?” you answered.
“Hello, is this,” the voice paused, paper shuffling in the background, before finally saying your name.
“Speaking,” you said in confusion.
“Yes, this is Mary from Boston Memorial Hospital giving you a call,” the voice identified themselves. You looked at Mel, bewildered with the call.
This is so random.
“I’m calling because you are listed as an emergency contact.”
“Emergency contact?” you questioned, nobody coming to mind who would list you as their emergency contact.
“Yes, your name is listed here as the emergency contact for a Mr. David York.” The phone slipped from your quaking hands.
This must be a joke.
It’s a fucking joke.
Mel picked up the phone and handed it back to you.
“Hello? Hello?”
“Ye – yes, I’m here,” you stuttered out. “Dave York?”
“Yes,” she confirmed. “He is currently being treated here at Boston Memorial.” Your hands were trembling, head spinning, chest seizing up.
“Um – is he – is he alright?” you inquired in disbelief.
He’s alive?
“For the most part, but I think it is best if you come, and we can go over all of the details with you.” Mary rattled off the address and where to go once you arrived and then hung up. Your knees were weak, and you held onto the cart to stay steady.
“What was that?” Mel asked, concerned at your change in demeanor. You opened and closed your mouth, speechless from the news.
“That was – uh – they said,” you struggled to formulate the words, “they – they – it’s about Dave.”
“Dave?” Mel’s eyes went wide.
“He-he's – he’s,” your words were cut short with a sob, “they said he – he – he’s alive.” Mel gasped, hand flying to her mouth in astonishment. Tears were streaming down your face, and you fought to breathe through your nose as you tried to speak.
“We – we have – we have to go there,” you choked out. “Now. We – we have to – go there – now.” She nodded her head, supporting your body as you exited the store and got into her car, shopping trip forgotten.
“Where are we going?” You were catatonic, frozen, mind empty. “Hey, where are we going?” You blinked, focusing on her words.
“Boston – Boston Memorial,” you sputtered out. Mel put the car into gear and drove off. As she navigated to the hospital, all you could think about was Dave.
He’s alive.
He’s – he’s alive.
They said he’s alive.
But how?
Mel was driving as fast as she could to get you there, and you were sure she was breaking a few traffic laws on the way, but you did not care. You were going to see him.
Mel pulled into the parking spot with a screech, flying out of the car to open your door. You mindlessly followed her as she guided you. Crossing the threshold, reality finally hit you.
This is real.
He’s really alive.
You managed to compose yourself as you walked through the building, following the signs to the unit Mary had told you to go to. You approached the receptionist there, patiently waiting for her to get off the phone. After a moment, she finally hung up and greeted you, taking in the very pronounced belly.
“Hello, how can I help you?”
“I – um – I got a call from Mary about Dave York?” you stated, the words coming across more as a question. “I’m his fiancée.” She clicked a few things on her computer and then nodded.
“One moment. I just need to alert the doctor that you’re here,” she said as she picked up the phone and dialed a number. “Doctor Parker, I have someone here for Dave York. It’s his fiancée.” She nodded her head as the person on the other line spoke and then hung up.
“Doctor Parker will be with you in just a moment,” she stated. “You can take a seat over there, and he’ll be here in just a few.” You nodded, and Mel helped you to the chairs. You sat and waited for what seemed to be an eternity. You saw a woman with a doctor’s coat come down the hall and met her eyes.
“Hi, I’m Doctor Parker,” she greeted once she stood in front of you. “You’re here for Dave?”
“Yes,” you softly answered, nodding your head, and looked down at the ground. “I’m his fiancée.” She sat down in the empty chair next to you and took a deep breath.
“Dave York has sustained a large number of injuries,” she began, “and he had just woken up from a coma last night. When he arrived, he had no form of identification on him, so we could not reach out to you until today when he told us who he was, and we were able to pull up his records. I’m sorry about that, and I’m sure you’ve been very worried.” You snapped your head in her direction when you heard her words.
Injuries?
A coma?
“What kind of injuries?” you squeaked out.
“When he was brought in, he had a broken leg, which has since healed, multiple stab wounds on his legs and chest, a larger one located just below his heart, barely missing it. His neck was slashed so severely, a little too close to the brain stem, that it is a miracle he even survived. He is extremely lucky to be alive, especially from the multitude of injuries.” You were slowly absorbing her words. Multiple stab wounds.
Neck slashed.
Miracle.
Lucky.
Alive.
“In addition to those injuries, his left eye was badly damaged, and unfortunately, we were unable to save it. Furthermore, his head has undergone massive amounts of trauma and damage, so it often goes into a coma to heal itself. We are not sure how extensive the damage to his brain is, so we will have to perform an MRI and CT scan later today, but he fully aware and cognitive at the moment.”
“Can-can I see him?” you stuttered out, heart beating heavy in your chest.
I just want to see him.
Doctor Parker nodded and stood up.
“Of course. However, he may be a little hazy from the medication, but otherwise, I can bring you to him.” You nodded your head, and Mel squeezed your hand, helping you stand up to follow the doctor. The three of you walked down the hall, stopping just outside a door.
“He is just through here,” she said, pointing to the door. “I’m sure you’ve been looking forward to seeing him. I’ll give you all some privacy.” With that, she walked away, and you stood there with Mel, staring at the door. You took in a large breath as you gripped the door handle, unsure of what awaited you on the other side.
He is alive.
That’s all that matters.
“I’ll be right outside,” Mel whispered to you, squeezing your shoulder reassuringly. You gave her a slight nod as you began to twist the door handle.
Your heartbeat loudly rang through your ears as you slowly pushed the door open, bracing yourself for what lay on the other side.
There he sat.
He was there
He was alive.
Oh my god.
You paid little attention to the bandages adorning his head, neck, and chest. You could only see the man you had grieved for the last several months. The man you thought was dead now sat in front of you, very much alive. Happiness surged through you at the realization that this was no trick.
It was real.
“Thank god, you’re alive!” you exclaimed, rushing over to his side, throwing your arms around him, and unleashed a flow of tears. Tears of joy. He was back. He had come back. Just like he promised. No matter what, his voice echoed in your mind.
I promise.
You pulled his face to yours in a fiery kiss, pouring all the pent-up passion into it. You felt his body tense, slightly pulling back, and he gripped your shoulders tightly, hard enough that you knew a bruise would be there tomorrow. He harshly shoved you back, paying no attention to your large round belly, and almost knocked you to the ground.
Your heart stopped. You stood there frozen, looking at the man that you were hopelessly in love with. The man who had promised you forever. The man whose baby you were carrying. What you saw in his eyes made your blood run cold, freezing your bones running straight to your core. His eyes lacked that tender spark he once carried for you. His gaze held no gentleness or kindness, nothing but darkness and anger. It did not hold the love that he had for you. In its place was a vacant expression, cold and calculating eyes glaring at you.
You took a tentative step forward, hand outstretched, trying to understand what was happening.
Maybe he was just confused.
The voice in your head spoke, but your gut told you differently.
The doctor said his brain was injured, so maybe that’s why?
You reached his bedside, biting your lip anxiously.
“Dave, are you okay?” you whispered, placing your hand against his cheek. He unkindly grabbed your wrist, ripping your palm away from his face, his hold so strong and bruising that you thought he might snap it.
The look he gave you penetrated the deepest parts of your soul, like a fire racing through, ravaging everything in its path, only pain and anguish left behind.
The words that sprang forth from his lips decimated your very being, the world crumbling down around you, breath catching in your throat.
The words hit you with the force of a thousand sledgehammers, smashing your heart to pieces and cruelly tore apart your spirit.
With those words, the love within you was shattered entirely, with agony and sorrow taking its place.
You never thought that three simple and plain words held such power, and yet, they did.
Three words that changed everything.
“Who are you?”
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