Rixen | 2000-Born | Asian | She's a SHE | Skz•Zb1•Svt•Atz | Blog best viewed in Goth Rave mode | Minors and Ageless blogs that interact with my content will be blocked, 18+ ONLY ALLOWED (also that's my found family in the Background 💛)
Something something Shane folding his clothes not only because he’s compulsively neat, but also because his clothes are the one thing he can control in that situation, and folding them and neatly putting them away prolongs the moment before he has to come face to face with Ilya, and the thing he wants so much but doesn’t really understand. Something something Shane being unable to let go of Ilya even after six months of silence because Ilya is the only person he’s ever felt real desire for and he would rather Ilya just use him than not speak to him at all. Something something Shane wanting more than Ilya can give him at the moment and feeling like a burden for wanting anything at all. Something something Shane’s anxiety controlling parts of his life without him even really realizing it. Something something Shane wanting to be perfect at everything immediately because you can’t hate someone that’s competent.
