EXCUSE MY CHARISMA

EXCUSE MY CHARISMA

[rkjxy]

life inquiries

[rkseungyoun]

rkjxy: 

it’s almost embarrassing the immediate sigh of relief that went past her lips the moment she’s heard of his reassurance. it evidently put a halt to the growing mental breakdown that’s starting to brew as a small smile finally cracks its way to her features. she can breathe normally again.

the friendship that has been built between the two trainees over the course of the months meant so much to the younger enough that his thoughts and feelings worry her. after all, seungyoun still comes off as a mystery to her sometimes. there’s still a lot about him that she doesn’t know – aspects of his life she’s too afraid to ask about and things she feels she has no role in knowing. it hurts to think about but it’s not as though she’s poured her secrets to him, has she?

he probably feels the same thing except that she’s much of an open book than he will ever be.

she nods in understanding even while the kind of surprise either feels must be on varying levels and not at all the same. “they’re all being so annoying about it, though.” the younger trainee almost huffs, taking his side over anyone else’s, always. “i know that it’s another thing altogether but i don’t understand why they have to look at you like you’re sprouting wings behind your back or anything like that.” her rant continues and she stopped only for a couple of seconds to drink a gulp of her water. then when it materializes that she’s talking a little too much, she laughs a little shyly. “sorry, i should shut up.”

even though he feels a strange sense of bitterness within, seungyoun still cracks a smile at her relief.  “ were you really that worried about it?” he asks with a raised brow, leaning back in his chair.  the bitter feeling has his shoulders sinking, and though it isn’t projected at joy herself, he can’t help but feel like the day has taken a very wild turn that he hadn’t really looked to.  he can’t tell if he’s bitter that people found out, or that none of them came to ask him directly like joy had.

but such is the way of the world.  people would rather listen to rumour than to confront the source of it.

he’s sure that joy has a lot of questions; with this kind of news, he’s sure it’s hard not to.  after all, to learn that the friend you’ve made for over a year had a secret such as a famous brother hidden like a skeleton in the closet - if it were him confronting someone else, he’d certainly have questions.  but seungyoun does not really talk about himself or his past, and he thinks in some ways, joy knows that and maybe it’s why she falls silent at the news instead of asking the questions he knows are surely running through her head.

still, seungyoun finds himself grateful that she doesn’t ask because he wouldn’t know how to answer the difficulty that is the strained relationship between him and his brother.  “ yeah ...?” he trails off, looking around the cafeteria with a half smile - one not as bright as usual, but he just rests his chin in his palm with a heavy sigh. “ well, people talk.  i kind of expected it out of them, anyway.” his eyes trail over to her and he stares for a moment.  honestly, this kind of news in this kind of crowd is basically like saying seungyoun had sprouted wings.  “ it’s cool.  you can say what you want to.”

[rkseungyoun]

fairy lights `

he likes little moments at home like this, where gaia curls in between his feet while he stands at the stove and junhong is next to him cutting vegetables at the counter.  seungyoun barely moves so that he doesn’t disturb gaia and her slumber, but bumps him with his hip, eyes staring with amusement. “ so is there a reason i’m not allowed in the other room yet?” he quips, looking down at the sizzling meat in the pan before him, gently moving it around with a fork.  “ i pay for the apartment and you won’t even let me go where i want.” he clicks his tongue and snorts, lips curling into a smile at the thought of junhong starfishing in front of him when he made his way into their apartment with the groceries as if to ward him off of any room but the kitchen. 

moments like this between them are easy, and seungyoun finds he wouldn’t change them for anything in the world.  “ what’s so secret that you’ve got to hide from me, huh?”

[rkseungyoun]

hey friends uwu this is a plot call for the april evaluation - i was thinking of having seungyoun perform block b’s be the light but i’m going to need some people to perform with him. <: so if you’re interested in taking up a slot, please message me or like or ... comment ... idk just get at me somehow and we’ll work things out cc: i don’t mind if this is a mixed group or all male, so if you’re interested just lmk ~

zico / seungyoun kyung / junhong taeil / ukwon / jaehyo / yixing bbomb / p.o / eunae

[rkseungyoun]

adorabilis `

[rkseungyoun]

rkxiao: 

the worst part of eating was when the food came to an end. the first bite was always the best, and then the last one was the saddest. cheng xiao still had a few more to go, but few enough for her lips to grow a pout. not only would it be upsetting because of a lack of chicken, but also because she knew it very well that they’d just have to jump back to practicing right afterwards. the food barely had any time to give them energy before they were already wasting some. “ah, why do i have to be the one who’s wrong? maybe you needs some glasses, and not me.”

she started poking at her food, not having the courage to eat them up and then not having any more to enjoy. xiao rested an elbow on top of the table, her chin on top of her palm. “but isn’t that a little bit too mean?” she changed her sight towards the boy with a skittish look, slightly squinting in his direction. “i’d rather not explode on a fine day like this. and, also, wouldn’t dying because someone threw too much food down your throat be the saddest death possible? killed by the thing you love.” and so the girl finally gave in, putting another piece of chicken inside her mouth and making sure to enjoy every bite on it. how they had traveled from a cute octopus to killing each other was quite impressive.

he looks up to see the pout on her lips and snorts - seungyoun already knows what she’s disappointed about without having to say anything.  it’s in the way she’s looking at her food and the dwindling amount of it, because he’s the same way when his own is almost gone.  staring down at his plate, he sighs and tosses a piece of chicken to her - just one - he can’t be seen as too nice to the hoobaes.  then they’ll all come asking him for food.  “ you’re wrong because i say you’re wrong.  i told you, i’m just as, if not cuter, than this octopus and you can’t tell me otherwise.” pretending to flip his hair, he takes a sip of the water sat before him.  “ i still don’t know how you don’t see it.” 

seungyoun looks at her incredulously because clearly they have different ideas about the difference between a sad and a happy death.  “ really? i think i’d rather die by eating too much than not eating enough.” he clicks his tongue and shakes his head as if in disapproval of her statement - mostly because he is. “ like, look - if eating makes you happy, why not die doing what makes you happy? anyways, it’s not like i’d really throw the food down your throat anyway.  as far as i’m concerned, you’re happily smashing on that chicken without my help.” he laughs, a loud sound that is probably a little too obnoxious for their neighbours but - again, seungyoun isn’t the kind of person to care about that.  “ i think you’re the only one here who looks at it as a sad thing.” 

[rkseungyoun]

spring by chance `

“ i feel like the warm weather came too quick this year.” or maybe they just haven’t been out of doors long enough to notice the changing of the seasons.  that too.  seungyoun shifts uncomfortably in his heavy hoodie, looking over to junhong now that they’re out of trc for the weekend afternoon and still have the entire night ahead of them.  his gaze softens a little as he looks on his boyfriend, biting the inside of his cheek in thought.

he’s been missing him of late, and he knows junhong has been feeling the same if their little dates at home have meant anything at all.  but anywhere, anytime is good for him - as long as seungyoun is spending time with junhong, anything can be a date, right?  even if it means just getting a bubble tea and sitting at the park.  “ wanna go get bubble tea? my treat.  honestly, who cares if we’re sweaty -” seungyoun grins and leans in to whisper in his ear, “ let’s go on a date.”

[uniqace]

[fancam] Seungyoun speaking cutely | vid by Lizzy

[rklandon]

░▐ ★_go team go 、

[rkseungyoun]

rkzyx: 

if he could be pinned down to one single item in the entire world, turned into an inanimate object infused with life like beauty and the beast, yixing would be a bouncy ball, bounding here and there across the room. in this state, he’d even accept being accepted to the dog that transformed into an ottoman because of the curse. too much bark because he can’t bite just yet. “when you first open your eyes in the morning? when you’re about to jump into the shower? aaa, wait, i got it! when you’re on the toilet. no one’s ready then.” it’s either pride of a sense of stupidity that leads to answers like what yixing offers and the truth is that it might be an odd combination of both. “that might apply more to me. teach me your ways!” he laughs brightly, his mood picking up even more, dangerously so as he smiles broadly. “i was going to ask if you meant me or you by flower boy but i’m just so handsome. i already know you mean me.” 

at the suggestion to chill, he turns to seungyoun in bewilderment, clutching at his chest dramatically, leaning back as if the shock has sent him off-course. “me? chill? i thought we were friends. it’s like we’re suddenly strangers! aa, my heart…”

perhaps this is why they get along so well.  yixing is a bundle of energy and seungyoun can never keep still; it’s a kind of kindred spirit that allows them to get along with ease.  maybe that’s why samsung stuck them in a group together, because they’re both little, happy energy pills - maybe they just wanted to see this commercial ignite.  still, seungyoun doesn’t pretend he really understands samsung at all - because he’s still, and always will be, confused about why a phone company is trying to become a superpower in the world but maybe that’s just him.  instead, his focus falls back to yixing and he can’t help but pull a face, to crinkle his nose and give him a look.  “ these past two months obviously did nothing for you.  even when i’m asleep, i’m ready.” his voice takes on a scoff and seungyoun flips imaginary hair, grin slipping onto his features with the jest.  “ i don’t know if i can teach you.  maybe i was just born this way.” he pokes yixing’s side.  “ i take it back.  you’re not a flower boy, you’re a narcissist.  that’s gross.”

the overacting towards the suggestion makes him laugh; seungyoun can’t help it.  “ see, this is why i told you to chill.  you’re overacting and you’re gonna get in trouble on set.”

[rklandon]

░▐ ★_go team go 、

《 ★ rkseungyoun 》he didn’t know anyone on his team and it should’ve placed him in a state of unease. a bundle of nerves on the dance floor in practice as he contemplates the endless possiblities of what #becloser will mean. but it doesn’t. yixing’s been more of a bundle of excitement since he grew up in the meng household and it hasn’t changed since. meeting his teammates only tripled his excitement, even if his confusion didn’t fade until the reveal. the concept was cute, he loved it and to pretend that seungyoun was one of his best friends in this small group was easy. the other made it easy for him. “are you ready? our world traveler is waiting for us to come back after our own travels! these new phones are nice. i wish we could keep them? aa, can you tell i’m impatient? i hope i won’t overdo it when the camera starts filming.” 

[rkseungyoun]

it honestly seemed like they were all a mess of confusion.  

maybe it’s because samsung wanted to keep the group on their toes, but literally none of his group knew what be closer could have even meant before the big reveal in march.  but that’s the thing, maybe they wanted just that - for the group to be closer before they even started filming for the commercial.  seungyoun makes friends fast, or tries to in spite of the way he tends to say what he wants when he feels like it and meeting yixing for the first time led to something .. well, easy.  they were able to fall into their roles rather well, maybe because they complement each other or maybe just because they both needed someone to rely on in the group but seungyoun, in the past two months, has grown to like spending time with yixing more and more.  even now, with the constant questions, yixing gets him to laugh.  “ when am i not ready?” he raises a brow, eyeing yixing with a slight smile on his face. “ maybe you should ask samsung.  pretty sure they’d let a flower boy keep advertising their phone on the streets.  just chill - it’s gonna be fine if you’re acting natural.”

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[rkseungyoun]

cold blooded `

[rkseungyoun]

rkyeri: 

( * she buttons her peacoat, then unbuttons it, looking with a small pout at his coat. ) i just love puffy coats, i don’t know. ( * she’s not upset, not really. her peacoat is pretty, and she felt lucky that the stylists dressed her in something nice for the cf, but puffy coats always had a certain charm to her. ) it’s fine though. you look good in the jacket, so i wouldn’t take it away from you anyways. you suit it. ( * a smile comes on her lips, looking up at him, then the jacket, then back at him. but he’s right — the weather had been getting warmer, and maybe a jacket that thick wouldn’t be practical. ) just take it off for now if it’s too hot.

( ` his smile turns amused and he leans back against the wall of the set for now, still keeping his coat off his shoulders in an attempt to keep a little cooler. ) really? probably because ads make them look so comfortable and cozy or something in the winter ... i mean, i’ve got one at home but not for weather like this. ( ` he looks up at the ceiling for now even though he knows that they’ll be outside a little later on and the coat will definitely cause some overheating. but he turns to her in amusement with his eyes twinkling, signature crooked smile seemingly glued on his lips and says, ) does it now? is it just my style? ( ` he looks around at the workers on set and shrugs, keeping the jacket on but still low around his elbows. ) probably shouldn’t set it down.  it might miraculously get lost in this chaos.

[rkjxy]

life inquiries

[rkseungyoun]

rkjxy: 

suddenly, her food had gone cold as she waits his response to the question. it’s a feeling that has never come to her before – that apprehension of what his response may be and the nervousness that she might have offended him. she wouldn’t know exactly what to feel, except that she notices her palms had gone clammy. 

it’s not as though she’s afraid that seungyoun will unleash a side of him that she never knew existed and walk out without answering her question. her nervousness stems from the fear that she must’ve offended him or at least made it look as though she’s imposing on his personal life. he has never exposed this issue to her in all the times that they’ve spent together so surely he must have wanted to keep it a secret. and with the obvious discomfort that fleets across his features was definitely enough to solidify her initial assumption.

his response made her want to react in a comical way that is normally expected of her ( jaw dropped, eyes wide.. the usual). but the pointed looks they’ve been getting were enough to force her to do otherwise. she would not want to feed into the gossip frenzy despite her surprise wanting to be let out. she’s one-hundred-percent certain by now that’s the least of what seungyoun wants.

“oh, wow…” she breathes out, leaning back on her seat in an effort of nonchalance. “was my question offending, though? i didn’t want to impose on anything, you know i would never do that to you.” her words dripped with sincerity and her eyes reflected as much. “you don’t have to tell me anything else if it’ll make you uncomfortable. i mean, i understand why you don’t like talking about it.”

he’s picking at his food and seungyoun knows he’s probably making joy nervous - after all, this is a tense situation and they’ve never been in one such as this before.  they’re all quiet understanding and sunny smiles, but it seems that even some things could get the two of them anxious around each other.  the contemplation rolls around in his head - if he tells her, what would she think? if he doesn’t tell her, would she think he doesn’t trust her?

it’s a mess of emotions, and seungyoun picks at his food rather than shoveling it into his mouth like usual.  but nothing about this situation is, again, normal.  perhaps it’s about time someone put two and two together.

seungyoun rubs the back of his neck when the truth is finally out in the open. inwardly, he can’t help but think that the people who know by now are probably judging him for his relation to someone already in a group, or if they’re not - thinking that he could get them an in with someone already debuted.  this is exactly why he was trying to keep this on the down low, because seungyoun barely even talks to his brother as much as he’d like to and people are just going to judge him and think he’s using connections anyway.

all of it just makes him sigh.

scratching his cheek, seungyoun can’t help but wonder what joy is thinking about it - what kind of person she thinks he is for keeping it secret, or if she’s silently judging him.  this isn’t the joy that he knows, but when it comes to these things, a lot of people - even the ones you least expect - could become an enemy in a heartbeat.  “ offensive?” he asks, mildly surprised.  was it offensive? he falls quiet for a moment, then shakes his head. “ nah, i guess i’m just .. you know, surprised.” that people found out.  that you knew.  about everything. “ it’s cool.  pretty sure that people would have found out at some point.”

[rkahnso]

inhale ;

[rkseungyoun]

rksohee: 

she grins, giving seungyoun playful eye roll. “there’s no way someone would think i’d ever have a thing with you.” it’s light teasing. sohee’s heart tugs and she realises that she’s missed their playful banter in the meantime. it feels like it’s been ages since she’s seen him. sohee didn’t like that feeling.

she examines his hair, taking in his words. her eyebrows furrow. “well, i mean maybe. but–” she lifts her own hair. before this commercial, it’s been its natural colour. of course at times she’d style it differently but other than that, she never touched her hair. “in my group i’m the only one with normal hair. so what does that say really?” who would pay attention to the girl with the boring brown hair when there was another with pink. it wasn’t a note of jealousy – just the truth.

there was no need to discuss the matter further (she wasn’t upset that she was the only normal one anymore) and it would only veer them off the topic. “i’m not complaining though. this colour is big enough for me.” sohee merely shrugged.

she knows she’s easily excitable. maybe it was too evident that she was excited to get something that’s similar to modelling. when she initially gave it up, she didn’t expect to miss it so much. the commercial wasn’t the same but it was close enough.

“be closer? what’s the plot line of yours then?” it was only when seungyoun returned the question to her that she realised that she was subconsciously avoiding having to talk about her own project. of course the ‘what about you?’ was common courtesy in conversation. yet the smile slips right off her face and for a moment, she’s hit with too many thoughts and emotions with what’s been going on outside the commercial that she’s almost physically winded.

sohee attempts to not let the falter show. instead she brushes over his question and jumps to the next. she can manage a smile at this. it’s playful and vibrant as usual. “of course i am! if i want you, no one can replace you, duh!” she nudged his side. “besides, getting to know new people is mentally exhausting. sometimes you just want the comfort of someone familiar, you know?”

“ are you really sure about that?” seungyoun snorts, the smile on his lips turning more and more crooked by the moment as he teases sohee.  “ are you trying to tell me i’m not cute or something because then i’d know you’re lying, ahn sohee.” he clicks his tongue as if he’s disappointed, reaching up to flick her forehead - and still, seungyoun never stops smiling.

running a hand through his hair as they talk about it, he can’t help but shrug.  “ i dunno, i just almost wish they would have given me something more ... popping than just a subtle change. or let me keep my black hair, even.” he lets out a sigh, staring at her with a deadpan look and reaches out a hand to pinch her nose with his fingers. “ don’t you dare.  you’re pretty, you’ll stand out in a crowded room even with your brown hair.  you’ll make the pink hair look like it’s dull.” 

he scratches his cheek then, eyeing her in curiosity. “ what do you mean enough for you? you don’t dye your hair often or something?”  it’s true though, in all the time that seungyoun’s known sohee, she hasn’t once changed her hair colour and they’ve been friends since before even getting signed to trc together.  he would say this is unexpected, but maybe it was a signature from her modeling days.  regardless, it makes sense that it’s enough of a change if she’s barely changed it before.

seungyoun leans back against a desk then, letting out an ahhh sound from the back of his throat. the concept of his music video was both one that surprised him and didn’t surprise him at all. “ a friend comes home from a trip abroad expecting to see her friends at the airport to pick her up, but doesn’t until they pop out from behind a pillar. turns out they were making plans to surprise her from the different places in their lives.” he eyes her, leaning in with curiosity.  “ why didn’t you tell me what your concept was though? don’t like it?”

a playful oof sounds from his lips as she nudges him, bending over like she actually managed to hurt him - but she didn’t.  “ i mean i get that, i’m irreplaceable after all.  but i guess that means i gotta make sure to check in on you more often, huh?”

[rkseungyoun]

seungyoun spends a lot of time trying to piece together a jigsaw puzzle of the meaning be closer.  the concept itself is left a mystery for a month and as soon as march rolls around and the filming is rumoured to start, he spends more and more time thinking about what it could be and it ends up filling the spaces of his mind like a growing sponge.  soon, the only thing that he’s thinking about is the commercial, and seungyoun supposes that was part of samsung’s point - to make everyone curious, no matter who they are.

but the day soon comes, and seungyoun finds himself excited to learn about what be closer will actually mean for his group - because there are so many ideas swirling around in his head that he’s not quite sure if he’s right on the mark or way far off.  will they be romantic? friendly? family? it’s all a blur, but heading into seocho will surely clear things up for him the day that they’re to find out what each concept means.

( if he’s honest, seungyoun just hates it when anything is vague. )

when he’s finally gathered with the other trainees around the announcement of what each hashtag really means, seungyoun finds that he wasn’t really out of the ballpark imagining the concept with friends.  it’s just that the situation is one he doesn’t expect - traveling to the airport for a shoot seems far more professional than anything he’s ever done, besides the music video not too long ago.  even the domino’s cf contest he’d entered into and won didn’t really hold a candle to the idea of this shoot. 

but still, acting out friends coming together after a long time apart seems fun - interesting even.  and that’s when he knows that this is really starting.  

it’s really time to begin.

[rkseungyoun]

cold blooded `

( ` the weather outside is getting warmer, and yet - here he is in this giant, puffy jacket.  it’s a bit uncomfortable, especially because seungyoun is always moving around, always tapping his foot - so it makes the temperature inside the jacket ten times warmer.  he slips it off his shoulders and lets out a long sigh, staring around him and finally turns his eyes to yeri with a small, pouting frown.  )  i don’t get why you’re so jealous of this coat.  it’s too hot outside for this.  ( ` the words come out as a grumble, but even though he sounds annoyed - he isn’t, not really.  just a bit uncomfortable - but still, excited. ) i’d switch with you if i knew the stylist wouldn’t have a fit.

[rkseungyoun]

this isn’t the first time he’s dyed his hair, and with the profession he’s getting into, seungyoun is highly sure it won’t be his last.  

the colour brown isn’t something too drastic of a change from his current black though, and the trainee almost finds himself wishing that if he was going to change his colour that it would be very different in comparison.  he’s had different shades of hair before; blonds and browns and duo tones.  when he first signed to trc, he had a style much different and certainly more eye catching than the natural black he fell into after finding less and less time to manage the upkeep of duo toned hair.  but the current situation with his commercial leaves him with a more neutral, muted brown.  he doesn’t mind the new hair much or the idea that he has to change it, it just .. isn’t much of a change at all.

seungyoun likes to scream when he makes changes.  

but perhaps this is for the better anyway, regardless of the muted change.  after all, who knows the amount of damage his scalp will take later when and if he actually manages to debut under trc.  for now, seungyoun thinks he can rock the brown - just like any other style he’s worn, he just manages to grow into it and again, it wouldn’t be the first time.  

hair colour aside, at least he’s getting some exposure with the commercial and that’s more important than even a muted change could ever be.

[rkcyj]

secrets.

@rkseungyoun

he always feels bad about taking up any of seungyoun’s precious time.

youngjae knows from experience that it’s impossible to juggle a social life with a trainee’s schedule, on top of trying to get a decent amount of sleep and eating regular meals. still, he made a promise not to disappear again, and so here he is, demanding that his friend make time for him to catch up.

days seem to fly by so quickly. was it really nearly three months ago, on christmas eve, that youngjae had made amends for his sudden and unexplained disappearance from the face of the earth? a new guilt claws at his belly, sorry that he’s taken this long to hang out with his buddy again though he knows it’s realistically not his fault. it’s no one’s fault, they’re both perfectly aware that they’re busy people. seunyoun with training and whatever else he does, youngjae with classes and babysitting his niece and learning how to cope with allergies as a new cat owner.

he has pictures to share on his phone, and he shuffles through them to find just the right one of the kitten looking into the camera with eyes that still contained the faintest hint of blue, though that’s faded away by now. “isn’t she precious?” he holds his phone out to seungyoun, a happy father bragging about his child. “she still makes me feel like i’m dying when i pet her but she’s so cute.”

[rkseungyoun]

if there’s only one thing that he hates about being a trainee, it’s the fact that he’s losing touch with the people he once knew.  this was a known variable though, and seungyoun long since accepted it before he even made the attempt at joining trc - after all, he watched junhong’s time be sucked away often enough that it came as an expectation.  it still doesn’t necessarily mean that he enjoys watching the things that he used to enjoy or the people he used to call friends slip through his fingers.

youngjae though, is different.  the third of member of their friend group in sopa, he, seungyoun, and junhong were often inseparable.  despite a few setbacks recently, their relationship remains as solid as ever, and seungyoun doesn’t think that will change anytime soon.  youngjae is the closest friend he has besides junhong.

and that’s why he feels bad for keeping secrets.

although it’s not something that he’s been intentionally keeping from him, they always manage to just miss each other - whether it be because of their respective signing, or youngjae falling off the face of the earth, it just seemed like never the right time to tell him about his and junhong’s relationship.  and this is exactly why he hates the idea of losing out on time with friends, because so many things that he doesn’t mean to slip through the cracks.  he’s absolutely certain that youngjae won’t take this well at all.

but he’s jarred from his thoughts when youngjae speaks, now in front of him - he’s been dwelling a lot, trying to find the right moment but there’s no way that seungyoun will let today pass without telling him that he and junhong are dating.  and / or engaged.  one of the two, at least.  “ yeah, you have to bring her over to meet our cats.  i mean, we have a whole entire zoo by now but it’d be cool to see them get together, right?” he grins slowly, tapping his foot against the floor because seungyoun has never been known for being able to keep still.  

he’s searching for the right time, it’s just not yet.

[uniqace]

“僕は Seungyoun です. 私は idol です..”