This was a nightmare, a horrible nightmare, how could this have happened? All he wanted was to help people and he had ended up hurting the one person he love the most. Rob was still struggling for air, the blurriness of his vision had not disappeared, his head was pounding, every noise seemed so distant. He hadn't felt like that in years, the panic of his world crumbling down taking hold of him. And then he felt her hands. He had missed her touch, after everything he had done to her, there she was, she had always been the strong one after all. For a brief moment it was as if nothing had changed, for a brief moment he was back in time, in those moments when Faye had been the one to pull him back, to help him get through it all. And she had done it again, after everything she was still the one pulling him back, anchoring him. His vision focused and now all he could see were her eyes. As he stared at her he wondered why life had been so cruel, to have offered him those numbered days of happiness with her, only to turn everything and force him to gave it all up. Before he knew what was happening Faye was kissing him, he had dreamt about kissing her again, when they were young he had often told her that if he could spend his life kissing her he would. But he didn't deserve this, not her love, not her forgiveness, not her kisses. All he deserve was dying for the cause, it might be the only way he could ever atone for his sins.Â
Just as quick as it had started it ended, he had barely had time to react, maybe it was better this way, he didn't the deserve the chance of ever kissing her again. Then he heard her apologizing, and this time he was going to interrupt her, "Faye no... hey hey please listen to me..." he tried to speak over her words. "Please don't... please don't say sorry... don't apologize, you don't... you did what you had to do" he finally said, what had been in his mind since she had told him what had happened. It's what had gotten him through almost everything, lying to his parents, betraying the trust the few honest people at the castle, endangering his friends, endangering strangers who later became family, lying to the citizens, breaking Faye's heart... it's what had to be done. He knew that nothing compared to what Faye must had felt, to what she had gone through, but deep down he knew it was because of him, he had forced her to make that hard choice. "You are right... I broke your heart... I wanted you to hate me... I never imagined, I never wanted you to... please I know you could never forgive me for that for our" he could not bring himself to say the words our baby, "I am sorry... I truly am..." And now all that was left was to wonder if he could go back in time would he make the same choices. The answer was a painful yes, he would still do what needed to be done for the greater good. After all the needs of the many outweigh the need of the few. "I could never hate you" he added almost as an afterthought, "I told you once I will love you for the rest of my life..." he told her with a sad smile, "and that's one promise I will never break."
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