Last thing you texted me was that you stupidly said something you shouldn't have, and that you hurt me. But, here's what I have to say: you didn't say anything stupid or hurtful, Baby.💛 That may get redundant to hear, "Oh, it's not you! Please don't feel like it is." because I say it quite often and I'll admit that it's not always true (doesn't matter who's fault it is though, ever!), but this is true: You didn't hurt me, at all, no matter how much you feel like you did! :) It was just feeling that I wasn't helping and that welled up inside of me part of the phone call, and at the end that I only made things worse when that's not what I should have done💜 I don't know why I acted like I did before we hung up, and I'm SO sorry for it!! When I said it was something you said, it was "I'll be okay." that made me feel like I wasn't helping or that it was something that I said wrong, andd it was all just a whole big misunderstanding I think and just messing up on trying to encourage you that made me feel that way. There wasn't hurt involved at all, it was just feeling down and wishing I could help! And whatever you feel like you did, it's okay, I forgive you and all is well.💛💛💛 But guess what?💙 It doesn't matter who is at fault!c: We tried as much as we could.💚 And that's amazing because not everybody does.💛 You asked repeatedly if you could help, and so did I, and That's positive, that's best friends looking out for each other no matter what even if we feel like we've done something wrong. We're always there for one another to do our best to fix one another and comfort each other. I know that through thick and thin, I can depend on you forever, you're the girl that I can count on to be there for me, and truth is: I want you to be there for me EVERY second! There's not a thing that I ever want to keep from you, when I'm happy and when I'm sad. I want us to freely call each other at 4 am if we have the slightest frown or miss each other in any way.💛 I want to know you inside and out, and I want you to know me inside and out to the point where we can tell what we're thinking (I think we already can!! XD)💛 And my greatest desire that overshadows all others, from my dreams to my own personal desires, is for you is to grow closer and closer to The Lord every day. For you to be full of Him constantly, completely consumed in His love, wisdom, peace and joy so that you will lack nothing! And I will give up anything if I have to if it means you (or me, because He is first!) growing closer to Him.💛 But we both know that after Uganda, we'll never have to give each other up again.<3 Minus little fasting times here and there.c; Uganda is going to be amazing with you and The Lord, and that time away from one another is something to look forward to, it'll be a beautiful experience missing each other every day, welling up all this love that we get to pour out when you get back.💛 I'M SO LOOKING FORWARD TO IT!!💛💛💛 And most of all, you'll be closer to God than ever before!!c: I want to do absolutely everything with you, and someday, we will💛 And I want to remind you that I'm Yours forever and that we'll always continue to live a life together FOR God, glorifying our God and spreading the Good News, and enjoying the beautiful love that He gave to us.💛:)) And also that I'll probably never stop using unmanly emoticons.💛❤💚💙💜💕💖💖💖💕👠🎀👓👛💋💗💗❤💛 And finally, this.. Shannon Kathleen Merritt, You are The love of My life, and never anything less. I'll remind you as much as I can every day. And I'm beyond blessed over the fact that God's will is for YOU to be the one that won't ever leave me alone, as God created us for one another because He saw it wasn't good for us to be alone.<3 I couldn't have ever imagined a girl like you to be my helper, but God blew my mind with you.💛 He's shaped us to be like twins, and I clearly remember a prayer I said a couple weeks before we met- "God, please send me a friend who will understand me just as you do." And little did I know, you were right around the corner, Beloved.💛 You understand me completely, you're the friend I prayed for, and ALL of my dreams too, You are the BEST for me.💛 And almost a year later, here we are!c: What we have is indescribable, don't even know where to start, and what's even better is that GOD created it! :) And everything He does glorifies Him.💜 I Love You, SO Much, I can't put it into words.💛 And when I say "I love you" it means I've already decided on forever, that my commitment to you isn't at the altar in a year or two but it was the night that I verbally told you I love you and every time I say it now is a reminder.💛 (On another note, I just now got a smell of you, and it made my night😊) I pray for you, and I appreciate your prayer for me too, it's so powerful.💛 Looking forward to every second of our lives together (this season right now and our entire future) and loving everything that God has given us in the past and now.💛
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