Yeah, this hits home for me a lot. (Warning lots of text under cut)
At age 25, I was in the middle of mentally breaking down on over how pathetic my life had been after I graduated (working nothing but jobs OTHER than art, no freetime, fuck all money, blah blah blah), especially compared to a lot of my fellow alum from my alma mater.
It took maybe another year, in which I was losing those jobs multiple times, withdrawing from all my friends and most of my family, suffering a complete mental breakdown (hospital, antidepressants, therapy and who knows what else for at least another 3 months), and had to move back in with my mother in the middle of nowhere, who cares, USA... before I came to the epiphany I’m done comparing myself to others and being a perfectionist. If I’m going to draw a comic until the day I die, I might as well just sit down, shut up, and make more comic, regardless of if everybody hates it/me/whatever else. I tried being something I wasn’t (a “normal” person living up to “society’s expectations”), and I despised every moment of it, hell, in those moments, I nearly decided to say “Game Over” to everything, including life itself. Luckily that also was a complete bust.
So in short, sure, I’m not super popular, and I’m probably the poster child for “the outsider artist/person/whatever” (I mean, my studio is exactly that, “RogueStudio”, I am RogueTheRogue, or just “Rogue”....), grinding and never quite knowing where my future is going.
Despite that, I am always ever the more grateful for the knowledge I earn networking with people in the comics industry, for every page I script, pencil, ink, color/tone, letter, and finish in a printed (digital or dead tree) product. Through it all, being able to tell a story...has been there for me.They might not be the best pages in the world, but for every page I complete, is another period of time in which I’m alive, doing what I actually care about, and, there’s always the next page to do better (and I will do better!).
(oh dear god, spiel of the century, but, sure, that’s what roguestuff is for...stuff....and things....)
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