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back in time

whatever was on my mind xix

this sticks because for one moment i thought i'm in this world, and not on a dream.

the dream is basically me going back in time, to tuguegarao 6 years ago.

i don't go out often when i was younger. i only hang out with friends every weekends and that's that.

i, now, am more outgoing and wanted to go out and experience the outside world. so i did.

i dreamt up this scenario where there is a color festival at ugac highway, and many people are celebrating there. it's not the afi festival, it's just something else.

i went there and had the best time of my life - joyously raving on the streets, conversing happily with strangers, hugging random people while colored powders scatter around us. my plain white shirt turned into a rainbow.

this was the happy part.

the festival wound down. it was now around 0530 in the afternoon. my first thought was to go to the office of my mom, as that was were i usually go after school. i then walked routinely towards my mom's workplace.

but by the time i stepped foot into the back entrance, i realized... oh god, i'm not supposed to be here.

i tried to go out, but the security guards let me in, and my mom saw me. she didn't seem bothered about me growing about 5 feet suddenly because she immediately questioned me about why my body is dirty and full of powder.

i just told the truth - that i went to the festival. she then said "ahh gege" like she thought it's ok to skip school and join in some outdoor celebration. (yes, it was a school day)

this also implies that the me at that time did not yet come back. i was in a space-time dilemma.

see, this is why i thought for a second that this is reality. i thought i will be some lunatic time traveler who unknowingly went to a crack in time and just realized it too late.

i entered the office. and it was the usual office of my mom, nothing special (except the clocks were absent). she was busy with the tellers, so i excused myself... and ran.

i just ran.

i went to citimall, divine mercy, footstep, anywhere around the block in a helpless state. i legitimately thought i was stuck and was starting to contemplate having to watch me and my friends at the time in their filthy grade 9 versions.

then, i saw my mom. she was finding me, and running towards me. i guess the guards told her i left for seemingly no reason. i ran more, she ran more, she then held me, and i was crying profusely. it was a telenovela scenario.

we then went to jollibee for dinner. she asked why i was in a panicked state. i didn't know what to say, so i told everything - i was suddenly thrusted into this period in time, and i'm her son in the future.

sheeeeeeeeee was confused. yet she tried to understand. i can ses in her expressions. she then asked like how are we in my timeline.

i told everything that would happen after 2016 (which by time travel logic will not happen anymore because i have interfered with the past events). and then we conversed like family, then we laughed, and then like... it was surreal...

i don't have any idea were my other self went to the office. i rendered it irrelevant. the fact is, this is the most vivid dream i have ever dreamed so far in my dreaming experience.

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some weird journey within

whatever was on my mind xviii

where did this dream happened? it's kinda complicated, but they are like the hong kong version of tuguegarao (before all of the turmoil)

from what i can recall, it started at a class. my class was the rowdiest of all there. i attend their classes, but, technically, i am not their classmate (go figure). so, i am more of the liberty to roam and get out and do other things.

this time, we were doing arts. i was on my way, sitting there doing nothing, while seeing one of my classmates (who is someone i don't wanna say who she is) putting makeup on her face. someone else then asks, "paano mo ginawa yan?". then, she puts away her mirror, to reveal her face to be some purple-esque being, idk. i just saw what i saw.

then, as i near the teacher's table, our adviser (who is also a teacher irl), went and tried to tell us something. but, we were all too rowdy, and that tipped him off. he then scolded us big time.

weirdly though, i didn't hear much of the shouting, cos weirdly also, i was still roaming around, and actually left the room with ease. the teacher didn't even tell me to sit down, and listen.

the literal place outside our classroom was my porch. yeah, my porch... of my home.

in that place were several old men, and one of the people who work at our farm. they proceeded to talk with me about my class, and how childish they are. i just brushed it off, and told them that "well, life is life, sometimes we are just like that, and it just was too much."

but then, while we were talking, i noticed one person at the back sharpening a butcher knife. i then saw slight clues that they were about to ambush our class and kill us all. including me.

so, i ended our group talk, and walked into the kennel of our dog.

inside the kennel... is a computer area.

i did not see any weirdness at that time. i just went to a bench there, and stayed there. at the area. throughout the night.

i haven't heard about what happened at my class. i hope they weren't murdered.

but i guess they weren't murdered because one of my classmates (who is one of my friends in shs irl) came, and just sit there, next to me.

we then hugged. we hugged, apparently until the very next morning.

that next morning, we were at a block next to the building of the school. we hugged, and slept while hugging. weird, when you think of it.

but, we woke up. we were fully dressed, and went straight towards the mall about 10 blocks north.

while we were walking, i then imagined some tourism advertisement on that road. the place i dreamt was scenic as an urban landscape. it showed a girl (who looked like a girl i knew before, but now don't really talk to), smelling a rose with its thorns removed, becoming ecstatic from its fragrance, and handing it to someone who is offscreen, but you just know is older than her.

it then showed some chinese and english slogans about "the beauty of hong kong" (but, the place was in manila). wth.

i then stopped imagining that ad, and looked at my side. i saw the girl i was with before, along with another girl, who is petite, and my cousin. the latter two were apparently best friends.

we then proceeded to the mall, but then realized that many people were coming also. not people who usually go for mall reasons, but those who expect, like, a celebrity to go out of there.

we rushed towards the entrance, trying to find out what the fuss this was all about, then immediately saw... my senior high school principal, greeting the random people she meets. the principal was the celebrity. yes.

we then just said "meh" to each other, and went to the elevators.

the elevators were really unique. they were gold and silver-laden, had to be opened from bottom to top, all of them have to move in one direction, and they are small. to the point were i am the maximum height of one of its doors.

now, my cousin is taller than me, so he had the crouch in a door, meaning he was the only one inside a compartment. us three, we crammed inside another. the other two were empty.

my head was about to reach the ceiling, which led me to discover something. the top of the compartments were open, meaning i could just glance at anyone on top, like some grimy comfort room, and had to ability to converse with people on the other side (lest you are less than halfway the height of the elevators).

so i shouted my cousin's name. he can't hear me. i just called him until the elevators dinged, and we went upward.

i don't know what happened after that because i had to wake up to pee.

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the hatch

whatever was on my mind xvii

the school i was attending in this dream is a pure modern one. it's one huge building. the lobby was akin to a hotel, and there were stairs leading up to every single wing of the establishment. there was a kitchen, which you could see from the security desk. there were many fixtures of art everywhere. however the last one didn't really matter because the whole lobby wad almost pure white. you can see the edges and dark spaces, but still, white all over.

the wings however were polished wood. the interiors resemble a mix of british private school and philippine public school. at least, that's what i felt.

my class was on the third floor, the third room on the right facing the over easing for this floor. i asked the teacher for recess, and he said i may.

i went to the ground floor, and into the direction of the kitchen (because that's where the cafeteria is located, duhh). however, as i was on the final steps, i saw a security guard (who looks a like a teacher who i know, but won't mention) pressing a button from her key (which looks like a car key). that action led to something that i apparently haven't seen before.

the button opened up a huge hatch from the huge remaining floors, and led to some wicked good mancave / party floor / prison.

i immediately snuck inside the hidden floor, and the first thing i saw was students being confined in a small cell, begging for release, while the security personnel were partying to eurodance. and yes, the party floor is like that of the music video to pulp's "common people". it was that 90s.

one of the security guards was about to go out of the room, so i had to bail. i rushed upwards, hoping that i wasn't in the line of sight of the officer, and just sprinted back to class.

*insert montage of classes up until dismissal*

by the time class was over, i was stopped on my tracks by the officer whom i saw open the hatch. she directed me to the hidden room. she didn't say why, but i figured it was either because someone told security, or the man before saw me, or hidden surveillance was just everywhere.

i was accompanied by my closest friends, and we went straight to the hatch, unblinking and unfazed.

the opening of the hatch was seen by almost the entire studentry, and we were just pushed towards the room.

however, instead of the hidden cell, i was directed to the party room. i was about to party with the personnel.

and yet, i didn't get to enjoy that party, because voila, my eyes went open, and i had to take my daily routine.

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does light have color?

whatever was on my mind xvi

i can't believe this took a more, what should i say, creatively scientific angle.

i dreamt of an interview and a feature about the theory of light having color. hear me out. hear me out.

basically, it has been known that light emits color. however, scientific observations suggest that the color does not come from the light itself, but rather comes from external factors which then is put through the light via some prism or funnel or something. my memory is a bit hazy, just, this hahahahahahaha.

the feature was john oliver-like, while the interview revolved around a scientist, who displayed the facts, and another scientist, who showed the speculations, and whose voice is that of sharon osbourne.

the first part is about the facts. standard affair. the images are that of lights and neon and flashes of color. nothing significant when compared to real life.

the second part, however, sticked out to mw, because mrs. osbourne here talks about "you know the soviet union has experimented with light over the past years, and they wanted to know also, does light produce color, or are they just there as a vessel for color?", all while showing random industrial videos set in some one-color lens - purple or yellow or green, whatever.

and then, she says this.

"but whatever happens, a debate like this may boil down to like the espn spontaneous channel talking to the bibble network."

the john oliver host then explains that the bibble network is a channel for children, and the espn spontaneous channel is a sports channel specializing in fighting sports.

recognizing the lunacy of this, the show actually tried to do an interview with the people from the spontaneous channel and the bibble network, talking about light and color.

i didn't follow that bit, because i turned off the tv, and woke up.

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that thing at hollyoaks

whatever was on my mind xv

this dream, the beginning i can't fully remember. why? because it is "multi-faceted" - there were many introductions to this story.

one gets me into some montage of chicago while on various train stations.

another has me at some uaap basketball game where everyone was cheering, while i was the only onw not giving a damn to the whole back and forth.

the other one, i completely forgot.

it's just... the dream just sorta went like, put an intro, reset, put another intro, wake up to go to the bathroom, another intro.

but once that was all over, the story went on as usual.

i was in a mixed-use building situated in manila. it was huge, like interior-wise, it was massive. i didn't realize how big the building was until the next act.

i was hiding, i was at stealth here. i was supposed to retrieve something on the top floor, and i must do it by physically hacking into a software box. the problem is there were guards, guard robots, and motion sensor alarms, while was only equipped with an emp gun. it was sorta like gameplay for watch dogs 2.

i went through the emergency staircase to gain a headstart without dealing with much of the security, until i was almost caught by the door by a motion sensor. you see, when an alarm goes off, all are alarmed, and all would know where i was at that point.

i attempted to time my escape from the sensor, since it only deactivates for a short time. i timed it, did it, and missed it by a hair's breadth.

i then stealthed through the hallways and elevators since i have no more emergency staircase to help me (somehow), and managed to hide from all of them.

that is until the top floor.

the top floor is just one huge room filled with all sorts of security, almost guaranteeing full surveillance. it was unforgivingly cold, but i can understand that since most of the servers were actually situated here also.

i thought of a plan to go to the center undetected, and proceeded to use my emp gun to shut down each robot, creating somewhat of a road to the center.

once i entered through a glass door, the software box was hard to open but easy to hack. so, i went to the back and hid in a small comfort room (yeah, apparently nature calls while keeping the servers).

i then opened my laptop, and proceeded to hack the software, and got the data. i don't know how i did it, i just did.

i opened to door to get out of the building, when suddenly a robot went towards me and detected me. all alarms went off. the guards are running towards the room, and i ran as fast as i could towards the exit.

i saw a metal door and went through there. little did i know that it was the wrong way and got lost on my way out.

at this point, i had no idea where i was. i proceeded to check every room without knocking because at that moment i thought there was no one.

the first room i saw, i almost tripped and fell. i realized it was a bathroom, and someone who taking a bath there. i figured the person was a girl. she never noticed someone suddenly came in. i immediately and without a second thought went away, making sure that i was quiet and all.

i then went to the adjacent room, and saw a huge darkly-lit modern bedroom, with an aquarium, flat-screen tv, and a queen-size bed. i then peeped at the portrait situated at the shelf, and realized that this belonged to someone i knew (i won't tell her name here).

i uttered "oh, damn." and left the room in a bit of a hurry. i then roamed around the corridor to find out that this is a connection to the industrial building. this is a home, and it is huge. like it almost had five floors.

i rushed towards one of the hallways until i saw someone (i also won't tell her name, but magkakilala kami), and asked her "hello, san ang exit dito?". she then pointed the way out. i said thanks, and proceeded to her directions.

during my way out, i peeked through a window and managed to see the signage outside. the building is apparently named "hollyoaks", with the letters hand-painted like those that can be found on local businesses (the color and font is like that of wil-lys trading, if you know that place). (also, yes apparently i don't know the name of the building, yet just went there)

i then stumbled with another one, this time a guy, whom i know (i also won't tell his name). he asked me if i wanted to see his room. i reluctantly agreed.

once we entered, his room was enormous, yet longer than what i expected. the walls were foam beds, the floor was smooth cement, the bed was situated at the far end, the air conditioner was next to it, and there was no lighting whatsoever apart from the natural light outside. and yet despite all of that, i was amazed that he called this his room.

he then closed the door, and let me leave. i left, but i never knew what happened outside...

cos i woke up at that time.

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saule

whatever was on my mind xiv

saule, saule, saule...yeah i still keep on thinking about this. this is one of those things were a word just lingers, made up or otherwise.

i was studying in a relatively old wooden room in a relatively old concrete building in a modern research university. there were 32 students in that room, and three teachers. one was doing the teaching, while another two were supervising in a small shack situated at the back of the room, used for monitoring purposes.

it was math class, and we were kind of rowdy. the teacher at the front was calming all of us down, while the other two didn't do a thing. i was quiet almost the entire time, until i just left and wandered around the corridor.

the outside was full of trees, and a modern building for the school of technology is seen next to them. while i was wandering outside, i peeked on every classroom along that floor. there was nothing significant on my exploration, until i found and gazed at a beautiful girl (i thought of her as a combination of two people. i can't remember one of them, but the other one is a friend whom i will not mention here).

she was at the room next to the stairs, and they were studying english there. they were quiet and disciplined at that room. once she looked at me, she immediately smiled and gave a wink.

i signaled to her if she wanted to come with me. she nodded, and excused herself from her class. once she went outside, we held hands, and went to my class.

she didn't mind the slight rowdiness, becuase she realized that many of the noise was just academic. we went at the back, and just sit there (oh btw, at that time, the two teachers were gone).

we talked for a bit, about the class, the math teacher, the other kids, everything we saw there. then i asked her if she wanted to join us. she almost immediately agreed.

once we got on our seats, the math teacher conversed with us, about random things idk. the only seat she could find was at the side, while i was kinda far away. but, as she went to her chair, she gazed and smiled back at me.

we then go from that scenario to a place were we were all grown up and me i and the girl were about to be married. yey.

there was a room with cliché wedding paraphernalia, along with a king-size bed draped in white comfy sheets. i walked into it, and saw the girl, her mom, and my mom chatting about some stuff.

once i entered the picture, the conversation then became about the wedding. i put my head on my girl's lao, while my mom looked proudly at me.

the other mom was leading the conversation, about the kids, how things would go, etc. etc. until she realized that we didn't really like a white wedding.

she asked "wait a minute, hindi naman white ang gusto nila eh. tell me, what color do you guys want?" we immediately said, "purple", at the same time, while also gazing at each other.

it then went into a full on pop song ending. the lyrics went along the lines or scats of:

"and we end in a move giving a happy ever after

et la étan'a'du saule,

when we give up the words of our neverending love

we see that we go on to,

i love you"

the final note goes, and i was subjected back into reality, or at least a simulation of reality. it was like, i realized i was in a dream, but i was still in the drem. here's what happened.

i immediately searched for her profile on social media to see if she is real. absolutely nothing came up. i tried remembering her name, but i cannot recall anymore. i even tried searching on youtube, yet there were no results. i then recalled the word "saule", so i searched for it. no lyrics existed with that word.

that name was lost in time. and i woke up feeling a bit low, while that word "saule", i immediately searched. i found that it is some kazakh name or something. so that word doesn't even really exist.

yet i still remember that word. it still lingers. this is a phenomenonal dream tbh, yet i can't remember all the important details.

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get it on

whatever was on my mind xiii

a weird dream for me isn't some random imaginative adventure, nor involves some juxtaposition of sugar, spice, and everything dark. rather, it should involve, well, let's sayyyyyy getting it on.

the girl i was in cahoots with in this dream, i won't tell her name. i'll just explain what happened.

this dream happened at high school (yeah, at school, again at school, why do i have such an affinity at my school?). there was practice everywhere because we were about to have our foundation days.

we were practicing. i was more on the literary side, while she lead on dance. we had spritely yet scattered conversations during the day, until rather suddenly, i started flirting with her. irl, she would call bs, but in the dream, she responded positively. like she liked me back.

it would turn into me and her locking eyes, and we were in a position were our chins are pressed towards each other, along with our noses, and we were touching each other really, good, and we were about to kiss.

well, the thing there was we were doing that just outside a room on the third floor, so we knew we would get into trouble. so, the only way we thought to do to carry this on is to find a hidden spot.

we wandered, side by side, across the entire school. and there were many outside, like many - it was crowded (to those who know what it's like to be there, you know what i mean). along the course, we met many people who were asking for help, or just wanted a little chitchat. after a few minutes of all of that, we either cut the conversation off or did the deed quickly.

along the way, we were really close. like, i was holding her by the trunk, while she gazed intently at me at many points of time.

finally, we arrived at a locked part at a building. there was a room that is unlocked, and it was obvious that it's seldom used. no other person got there. we figured this is where we stay for the afternoon.

i told her i would ready it. after finishing it, i went back, and saw her teaching a kid about her routine. i stood back, whatching them two, especially my girl. after finishing the deed, she went to me, and asked if her dancing was any good. i immediately told her (ofc in a flirty way) that she was the best i've ever seen.

and we went to the room, and did some action for the whole afternoon. then, i suddenly conjured up that we were also doing some action in my room. at night. with the lights dimmed.

we didn't go on full rockin' mode. it only reached the "about to be wild" section.

that would have been the end had it not for some sort of epilogue, i guess.

the next day, we wanted to go on foreplay again. we went searching for one, until we remembered that there was a hidden room that could only be accessed through the main tle room, and it looked like a dance gym (we don't have that irl, i thought that one up).

we immediately ran through there. the door to the tle room was open. but as we were about to open the dance room, we saw three high school students - all girls, wearing in uniform.

we struck up a conversation about umbrellas or something, but then they played dumb, like that conversation wasn't about umbrellas. it was a mess of a conversation.

during the talking, my girl just rolled the door and told me to just come in. once i cut it off, we just went, and who knows what we did there.

i don't know if i would be weirded out by what i'm dreaming, or really pumped. there's more of this stuff. you'll see after some things.

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bleeding love.

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a tornado

whatever was on my mind xii

i was with my mom, driving home. the road was straight, and the sky was colorful (red, orange, violet, blue, black). we were talking about an award ceremony i must attend to, however the venue and date was not yet announced, so, we just talked about what may happen during that time.

by the time we came home, we were about to clean it up cos the living room was a bit of a mess. random things everywhere, on the side, on the tables, etc.

my mom told our helper (who exists in the dream) to give us cleaning materials. and we cleaned for a while. mom gathered the still useful things around the house, while i just swept the floor.

another while goes by, when i received a text message saying that the event will be held on the 26th of march. the dream day was the day before.

i panicked for a second, cos we only have one day to prepare for the ceremony. i rushed to my mom, who was at that time at the kitchen teaching the helper about fixing the shelf, about to tell her about it, when a text came by her. she then said to me that the ceremony will be held at the mountain of pines in las piñas (yeah, it makes really good sense).

she assured me that it will be fine, and we can get there. so, i continued sweeping the floor.

once that was all done, i noticed that it may start to rain. i looked at the window behind me, and yeah the weather was bad, but not "about to rain" bad, more like "something catastrophic is about to happen, maybe because i see a lot of purple in the sky" bad.

the clouds began to rapidly move in a spiral manner, and i quickly realized that there was a tornado coming. and then for another moment, i saw the tip of that tornado...on our yard. it was a bit small when i first saw it, but it was quickly gaining momentum.

once it passed our yard, the tornado became a catalyst of disaster. mind you, we don't have a cellar or a basement. we just hid beneath our tables and hoped for the best.

the table that i hid in hasn't yet been cleaned by mom, therefore, i saw erasers, pencils, brooms, a calculator, pamphlets, mugs and other stuff.

the tornado was enormous, what you expect from an f3 to f4 tornado (we rarely get tornadoes in the philippines, so i based this entirely on the fujita scale). the sky was mainly purple, with a bit of red and orange there. weirdly though, there was no external damage to the house, and other houses for that matter. but, the inside turned into a mess again, an even bigger one than last time.

the dream ends with us cleaning that entire thing up, until i woke up to use the bathroom.

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studying and running

whatever was on my mind xi

the dream took place around manila. like, there were many places i visited, whether present irl or notes, but i just considered it all around manila.

i was first at my home (which looks like a combination of an apartment and an old family home - or for those who know me, my old house in manila, and my cousin's house in cagayan). we were preparing for a huge quiz contest there.

i was walking around, hanging out with other people who were part of this huge team of 5 sub-teams (yeah, that's how big and competitive it apparently is). two were studying in the living room, one was at the dining room, another was in a room at the second floor, and the last one, our team, was in the bedroom on the first floor.

after my roundabout, i went to my team, and studied with them. the professor (he is my mentor in journalism irl) also walked around, and chatted with all of us. he also taught us some questions and whatnot.

i cannot remember the questions we studied, i'm sorry.

after a lengthy discussion, i left...for something. i then proceeded to the kitchen, which was located after the dining room (ofc). while that, i saw one of the teams really busting their asses on this competition, and i decided to help them.

there were five people there (all of them have faces of people i know, but i won't tell them here). i was chatting with them, they were roaming around memorizing mnemonics or something, it was more chaotic than usual, but well it's fine.

this was another lengthy discussion. after typing this, i honestly couldn't believe i dreamed about studying, let alone without remembering any single question i thought of there.

after all was said and done, someone called me outside. i followed, and apparently the professor asked me to accompany him to the manila bay. i agreed.

the manila bay in the dream is not the manila bay irl. yes, there is a body of water that looks like the bay, but in the side, there is a track stadium. this is important in the story.

we went to the bay, along with other adults (none of which i know, i just made them all up). and we first went to the bay. it was pristine. we all just soaked in the atmosphere you usually get from a serene beach.

while they stayed there, i walked right. there were rocks, soil, all of that. there were also trash, which did not spill over to the bay. in fact, they were all segregated by color and one-by-one placed side-by-side in an orderly fashion.

i smiled, knowing that they could actually do that here. then i ran with joy towards the right end, towards the track stadium.

once we reached the stadium, i first overheard the adults (who were suddenly present inside the place) talking about the duterte administration, specifically how this is the only thing they did right - like, the stadium is the only good project they did during their years in government,and the rest is *blowing raspberry*.

i just kept it in myself, and again walked right. the trash was also present, also placed side-by-side and segregated, this time it's not just in color, they were presentably painted pink, green, blue, red, like an outside school project.

i then saw two men wearing all black, with the one of the left holding a white flag. i immediately ran once i saw them. i just followed them at the oval, not really knowing what this was all about.

then, another person came in, a girl this time, wearing a black shirt, but with white pants. the man on the left gave her the flag, and she took the lead from then on.

during the run, i thought of whether or not she looked like someone i know. it's filled with as much sentiment as curiosity.

we both ran from the track straight towards my home where we studied for the contest. the adults were again suddenly present, at the entrance.

once it was completed, i did not feel exhaustion. i just focused on who she was. she turned, and proceeded to run back to the stadium, when we locked eyes. she knew me, i knew her. we both expressed some realization, and in her part, some disgust.

sure enough, she looked like my cousin (i won't tell her name here, though).

i then passed by the adults, and my professor, and opened the gate to my home, and that was the dream.

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my old house

whatever was on my mind x

at the time i dreamt this, i was a young boy. i was at my old home, and the setting of the dream is at that home.

i woke up. falsely ofc. it is normal - just the usual six-thirty in the morning. i got out of bed, left the room, and...

the corridor was dark. it's like eleven o'clock in the evening. the only light i could see came from downstairs. it was pure purple. i went to the stairs, and out of curiosity, explored the ground floor.

i jumped and went down via a pole (yes, it should be stairs, but come on, it's a dream). and once i landed safely, i saw a whole bunch of adult men and women, and they're having a beach party inside the house. and there's no beach outside, it's just pitch black outside. the purple light emanating is just like the theme of the whole party. they're all bikini clad or had only their trunks.

i walked past them, and made it to the dining room, when suddenly they were talking about me. they gossiped like i was the odd one out (which frankly i was), and then they proceeded to approach me like zombies.

i quickly darted to the stairwell, which at that time the actual stairs appeared, and just sprinted to the first room upstairs.

that was my aunt's room irl. it still is in the dream. by the time i went there, the background consists of blinding shades of white, along with the usual things in there. it's like if three o'clock in the afternoon got sunbleached.

i immediately went to the bathroom, and the white glare seemingly came from the window. i then climbed to it, seeing only white, and...

i may have had the entry to my paranormal eye. maybe that's why i sometimes see shadows darting at the side of my eyes.

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a three-parter

whatever was on my mind ix

there are three parts to this dream. there are no clear and fluid transitions, just nearly sudden transfers from one part to another.

the first one has me parkouring on an expanded version of my school.

at first, i was running around the corridors of the elementary building and the college building next to it. just running fast, then suddenly i was making moves. complex ones which i cannot do irl. and i was doing it with confidence. like rly climbing up the fences and walls.

i then ran towards the back of the buildings. this is usually where old crap and some industrial things are kept. but then, i saw there was like a huge wind turbine in the middle of it all.

so i ran towards it, and climbed it. then i gazed over the turbine, and saw the outside like it's foe the very first time. i wondered in amazement. then i suddenly fled, and just ran.

next thing is i was in my classroom (this is still the first part btw). it was styled differently than the average room - tbh it was designed like a mini fashion show. there is a podium in the middle, and a platform in front of it. then the seats are both placed on the sides in an ascending form, like bleachers, or below the platform.

then one by one, it is filled with people i missed as of the time i dreamt this (it's quarantine, and they're all friends). one by one i would also come a greet them the way i used to greet them, and they will always respond. however, something is a bit off - about them. their personalities were the polar opposite if who they are irl - the irl shy became the loudmouths, the irl troublemakers became reserved, etc.

the last one i met (i won't tell her naman here, but she's my sis basically), i totally hugged her like we have never seen each other in a long time. she rose her arms to signify she wanted a hug, i immediately ran towards her, and then stayed in a hugging position for a long time. then, she went to her desk, un-irl-characteristically acting all uppity, when usually she'll just sit there while interacting with people sometimes.

the second part has me at my bedroom at early morning. i was apparently with my brother (which didn't show up in this dream), my parents somehow went to a vacation themselves, and it was pitch black outside. the only lights i had come from a lamp by the bedside.

so, given that situation, i spent that dream watching matthew santoro videos. i somehow decided to do it on a mattress on the floor, despite having a full bed with pillows already.

but whatever, i just watched matthew santoro vids on my mini laptop with headphones. the videos went from usual jovial entertainment to lists tackling scary topics. nothing unusual there.

until i suddenly remembered a video of his which is deemed super scary. you see, back then, when he makes vids about scary stuff, there was always an effective jumpscare on the vid. and that carried on in the dream, because the super scary vid is said to have a psychotic jumpscare at the end.

and wouldn't you know it, the next video i'm about to watch is that super scary vid. i can't remember the topic or the contents of the video, but what i can remember is the video was about to end, and i had a sense of terror in me.

i called my brother through the closed door, asking for help. he rudely declined, and just said "you can do it."

so, i just came to my own devices and watched the vid.

the ending has matt with blue sharp-edged crosses on his eyes, while psychedelic swirls and colors surround him. the music is like from staggering beauty, but with children screaming interspersed along it. it lasted 9 seconds.

it didn't terrify me, just startled me, yet entranced me.

the third one revolves around a team wrestling-boxing fusion fight.

i was with my mom, and we were watching the fight, literally both live and at the tv. the live broadcast was about to start, while the television showcased some highlights.

they included a battered red team member being embraced by her sister from the blue team after they won a match, a man jumping from the ropes and towards the face of his opponent, massive pummelings, etc.

after that display, me and my mom are suddenly in the ring, in our home clothes, but with red and blue gloves (red on the left hand, blue on the right). my mom was ready to rumble, but i was still comprehending the situation. the bell signalled go, and...

that's when i woke up.

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departure.

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school in hell

whatever was on my mind viii

this is one of the earliest dreams i can remember.

it was in my school. it is a catholic private university.

the road going to the school is full of flames. and the façade is super hot and pure fire, almost like hell. i can feel the extreme heat, but my body does not have burns and somethings. just like that.

i calmly went to the gate, and into my class. once the teacher came, their greeting was opposite. instead of "peace be with you", it was "war be with you". i know it's kinda cheesy, but i was eight years old, so. antonyms are cool.

i didn't know what was going on, and did not utter the greeting. no one really cared that i didn't greet. so, that's that.

then once i settled down, the teacher suddenly turned and stared at me at a medically inappropriate amount of time, and my classmates followed suit.

why?

cos apparently i was daydreaming about what happens if the opposite is true - like the ordinary catholic private university you will see irl.

then the teacher simply said, "that will never be true."

i left and ended up thinking of what happens if my school is not the hell it is.

what a weirdly prophetic dream, come to think of it.

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the basketball store

whatever was on my mind vii

i sometimes revisit places in my dreams.

one of those places is an emulation of tuguegarao city, but in the style of a typical american city. the malls are where i usually go in these dreams. there's a "star mall" in the middle of the city, with a "philadelphia" subway station, and two huge malls in the outskirts of the city.

the dream is on the star mall.

before i went inside the mall, i heard the news that a certain mad scientist (i won't tell who he is, but he is a teacher) who aims to destroy thd city by way of a water machine - like typhoons and floods and tsunamis and stuff. one said that the only safe place to go to once that happens is at the philadelphia station. i heard all that, but i didn't rly mind.

i went inside and to the nba store. i was walking ang running down the aisles, with the jerseys and whatever, when i saw a pokémon table at the edge of the store, where random fictional basketball players (who look like my friends) are playing.

i was starstruck, i guess, and shook hands with one of them, but then as that happened, a sudden earthquake wrecked the whole store, and i fell into a wooden shack, with a window showing the chaos outside. the water machine is real, and the tsunami went by i think 20 feet.

i was stuck there, with other players. from what i can recall, they're not all rl ball players, but the names were christian fraser, chris pine jr., stephen jackson (rl), and luol deng (rl). i don't know why i conjured that up, but that's that.

we had two chairs, two boxes, and lots and lots of white garments on the shack. so i had an idea. we stacked those garments on the boxes to create a tower, so that one by one we get out, and into the nba store (which was still intact and standing for some reason).

but, once we finished, we realized that there's not enough garments and boxes to make a tower tall enough to get out safely. so we had to use our upper body strength.

stephen went first, then luol deng. chris just sit at the chair, contemplating about something, while i went next, with the assistance of fraser. i struggled the first time, but in the next attempt, i had good form, and was about to take stephen's hand, when that tsunami raged again, and i stumbled and fell.

i woke up once i hit the wooden floor, with my spirit suddenly regaining consciousness, and cramps in my left arm and left leg.

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i just made a phoenix, sorta.

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the hospital visit

whatever was on my mind vi

i was in a hospital for some reason. just a check up tho. it was a reasonably calm trip to the doctor's office.

checking vitals. examination from the doctor. parents at the desk waiting. yadda yadda yadda. it was an ordinary check up.

it's a boring dream. the end.

if it weren't for what happened after all that. we were getting out when suddenly a slew of people with unusual conditions walked and wheelchaired left and right, with other doctors being frantic.

i can't remember their specific anomalies, except for one. it was a girl, on a wheelchair, moved by a unnervingly calm doctor - a hunchback, with eyes stiff and unblinking, and with hair growing on only her front left side, while the remaining skin for the scalp has jagged hedgehog-like spikes that just gradually kept on rising.

i shivered in horror. and i almost turned white whn she suddenly twitched.