back in time
whatever was on my mind xix
this sticks because for one moment i thought i'm in this world, and not on a dream.
the dream is basically me going back in time, to tuguegarao 6 years ago.
i don't go out often when i was younger. i only hang out with friends every weekends and that's that.
i, now, am more outgoing and wanted to go out and experience the outside world. so i did.
i dreamt up this scenario where there is a color festival at ugac highway, and many people are celebrating there. it's not the afi festival, it's just something else.
i went there and had the best time of my life - joyously raving on the streets, conversing happily with strangers, hugging random people while colored powders scatter around us. my plain white shirt turned into a rainbow.
this was the happy part.
the festival wound down. it was now around 0530 in the afternoon. my first thought was to go to the office of my mom, as that was were i usually go after school. i then walked routinely towards my mom's workplace.
but by the time i stepped foot into the back entrance, i realized... oh god, i'm not supposed to be here.
i tried to go out, but the security guards let me in, and my mom saw me. she didn't seem bothered about me growing about 5 feet suddenly because she immediately questioned me about why my body is dirty and full of powder.
i just told the truth - that i went to the festival. she then said "ahh gege" like she thought it's ok to skip school and join in some outdoor celebration. (yes, it was a school day)
this also implies that the me at that time did not yet come back. i was in a space-time dilemma.
see, this is why i thought for a second that this is reality. i thought i will be some lunatic time traveler who unknowingly went to a crack in time and just realized it too late.
i entered the office. and it was the usual office of my mom, nothing special (except the clocks were absent). she was busy with the tellers, so i excused myself... and ran.
i just ran.
i went to citimall, divine mercy, footstep, anywhere around the block in a helpless state. i legitimately thought i was stuck and was starting to contemplate having to watch me and my friends at the time in their filthy grade 9 versions.
then, i saw my mom. she was finding me, and running towards me. i guess the guards told her i left for seemingly no reason. i ran more, she ran more, she then held me, and i was crying profusely. it was a telenovela scenario.
we then went to jollibee for dinner. she asked why i was in a panicked state. i didn't know what to say, so i told everything - i was suddenly thrusted into this period in time, and i'm her son in the future.
sheeeeeeeeee was confused. yet she tried to understand. i can ses in her expressions. she then asked like how are we in my timeline.
i told everything that would happen after 2016 (which by time travel logic will not happen anymore because i have interfered with the past events). and then we conversed like family, then we laughed, and then like... it was surreal...
i don't have any idea were my other self went to the office. i rendered it irrelevant. the fact is, this is the most vivid dream i have ever dreamed so far in my dreaming experience.

















