very Important adam/ronan things to take away from the cdth sampler:
ālike the other lynch brothers, he was a regular churchgoer, but most people assumed he played for the other team.ā i am SCREAMING. top tier gay joke. well timed.
everyone: ronanās eyes arenāt pretty. adam: mhmm Ā e y e l a s h e s
much to say about the revelation that ronan is partly at the barns to keep his dreams hidden and in check, and how much he relates an inability to change and be like everyone else to having to stay there. almost like heās stuck huh! iāve been saying!!
of note that words used to describe ronanās existence are BORED and MALINGERED.
fingers crossed he finds some balance between his dreams and his wants/needs that allows him to leave the barns and grow but after the Great Crab Disaster IāM WORRIED.
fire imagery EVERYWHERE. iām WORRIED again.
āthere are stains that spread faster than you drive. if you drive, itāll take fourteen years to get there. seventeen. forty. one hundred. weāll be driving to your funeral by the end.ā good to know ronan is still the most DRAMATIC boy in the whole of virginia. absolutely no chill.
dont like the possible foreshadowing of that driving to your funeral by the end, though. must leave lynches alone!
āitās very safeā asjkajjka DECLAN PLEASEĀ
āronan kicked one of the volvoās tiresā asjkajjka RONAN PLEASE.Ā
ronan trying to act nonchalant by cramming chocolate covered peanuts into his mouth and choking a little is Peak Disaster Gay.Ā
matthewās music must be awful if ronan and declan are in agreement over it, must have playlist.Ā
ronan who lives to pretend he doesnāt care wondering if his brothers didnāt say anything about his moving because it didnāt make a difference to them is huhhh. donāt like it, take it away pls.
iām sorry, ENTIRELY WRAPPED UP IN! ENTIRELY!Ā
shut up!!!! shut upppppp!Ā
āis there any version of you that could come with me to cambridge?ā tbh nothing would have readied me for this. adam i-can-do-everything-alone asking ronan if he could go with him. so much growth, too much pride, nowhere to put it, send help.
the fact that ronan doesnāt stay in cambridge when he visits adam because of plausible deniability, that if he doesnāt try thereās no evidence he canāt make it there. rip.Ā
ronan! missed! him! like! a! lung!Ā
dramatic again, but entirely relatable bc damn, same ronan, same.Ā
a) ronan thinking about how his heartbeat is the same as everyone elseās so he wasnāt that different and b) JUST LIKE ADAMāS HEART WHEN HIS HEAD WAS RESTING ON HIS HEAD = much too much to think about. need to lie down for a bit.
he could move to follow the guy he loved!! we all knew it was love, weāve always known it was love, but! the words. the words!!!!! brb sobbing.
i have only had jordan for a day and a half but if anything happened to her i would kill everyone in this room and then myself. 11/10 would marry.
art forgery plot confirmed!
THIS WAS HOW IT HAD BEGUN
bitch fkajdkajksja GIVE ME A WARNING.Ā
still canāt compose myself RE the info that ronan saw adam and immediately sent a desperate prayer up to godĀ
will the word please ever be the same again? definitely not!
adamās arms adamās hands his lovely! boyish! hands!
the description of his expressions with all its contradictions and multitudes is just my favourite thing ever. it encapsulates everything i love about adam fucking parrish.
and the fact that ronan instantly recognised all those multitudes in him. there was always a level of understanding ronan had for adam throughout trc that no one else did and this tells us he had that before he even met him, he justā¦ recognised something in him i justā¦ ;______;Ā
ronan knowing all the harvard stats because he was the person adam could crow to, how he takes on that adam that is still full of contradictions and multitudes, how he finds it hard but he absorbs all the facts and all of adamās anxieties, even in the face of his own anxieties about adam leaving and falling in love with the shining, educated people that ronan thinks are better than him. that absolute, unwavering support ššš
tbh thereās a whole ass lot to unpack in this section so imma try and do it briefly (she says!)
ronan lynch is a romantic cdth confirmed:Ā
he could have texted adam but he liked the soft surprise of it
over the past few days ronan had played his reunion with adam over in his head MANY TIMES
adam i love you but that outfit sounds awful. you are a student, itās a friday night, put some sweats on and stuff some cheetos in your mouth.Ā
the sweet nervousness of their reunion, how they walk past each other and both seem so uncertain. theyāre a year into dating and the still get nervous and unsure after a few weeks apart and itās CUTE and definitely speaks to their excitement/anticipation levels.
THE WATCH. big time softness.Ā
they hugged hard ;_____;Ā
im just so relieved that theyāre allowed to touch each other and be intimate and arenāt consigned to the āboys in love arenāt like that boring boringā corner.Ā
the way ronan thinks about how adam fits as he remembered. huh. youāre really gonna do this to me.
his hand still pressed against the back of ronanās skull the way it ALWAYS did when they hugged.Ā
you smell like home. you smell like home!!!!!! brb ive gone absolutely fucking feral.Ā
i both want to play repo because it sounds fun and donāt want to because it sounds complicated and i fucking hate instructions. much confusion.Ā
adam pressing his shoe hard against ronanās and then his leg and then breathing in ronanās ear I AM HOWLING. ronanās nerve endings being made a marvel of I AM SOBBING. itās very important that m/m ships are afforded the same level of explicit attraction as m/f (and i donāt mean explicit as in nsfw, i mean as in obvious)
no offence because i love them but all of adamās friends sound Extraā¢
āto the outside eye, ronan lynch was a loserā pls ronan, you are giving me an ulcer.
scary spice i asjkjdkjskdjak
queer crying club! i stan!!
also adam saying in the epilogue of trk that he wanted to save all the adamās hidden in plain view and then going to college and scooping up all the criers and giving them something to do is far too much to handle.
donāt think about that and the time he thought about how he used to spend his nights crying on the trailer steps and wondering why he bothered until gansey came along and offered him friendship. dont think about how heās essentially paying that forward DONāT THINK ABOUT IT.
hand holding, arms around each other, hip to hip walking, canāt wait anymore kissing, I MISSED YOU. love that for me!Ā
but also the fact that adam reaches down for ronanās hand and its so natural. ronanās hand is there so he just. takes it.Ā
hearing ronanās thoughts on what happened with robert at last is A Lot. the way itās still happening, always happening, kept fresh and savage shows how affected ronan was by it all and still is and i think its so important that heās not just. angry and hot headed. thereās more to it than that. its painful, it makes him feel sick, its unending and it really speaks to how much adam means to him.Ā
adam thinks he has no one BITCH YOUāVE GOT ALL OF US.Ā
but. how he feels like he has nothing still. the way his voice hitches on ābecauseā because itās all still so painful. i wanna wrap him up. i wanna take everything that hurts away. i wanna tell him heās so loved. guess iāll just have to sit back and watch him work his way through it all I GUESS. no but i am looking forward to his growth in this trilogy, especially considering how much heās grown already. adam parrish invented character growth lets š be š real š
it had never been a fight between them/it was a fight between adam and himself, between adam and the world/for ronan it was a fight between truth and compromise, between the black and white he saw and the reality everyone else experienced. i LOVE this. it so well encapsulates them. and itās so important that they can realise their differing world views and their complexities and meet in the middle somewhere.
āronan put his lips on adamās deaf ear, and he hated adamās fatherā FUCK ME UP. my absolute favourite bit 103930%. absolute incoherent mess over here. not! okay! see other post for more coherency because i only had it for 5.7 minutes.Ā
frowning, guarded, crumpled adam who iāll literally. never be over in all of my life. 38983/10 will love him until the end of time.Ā
i want it too much. !!!!!! going feral again over here. WHAT DO YOU WANT ADAM? I WANT IT TOO MUCH. definitely will never shut up about this.Ā
scared adam is going to be a visionary so pretending chapter 6 doesnāt exist.Ā
i CANNOT believe that ronan is being dream invaded and challenged and heās over here like hmm nice bike ELEGANT and ROUGH and READY like ADAM asjkasj please ronan you are so embarrassing!!Ā
also. ronan thinks adam is elegant and rough and ready so! thereās that!
i literally. cannot. cope with the HILARITY of chapter 8. the whole thing is a complete and utter DISASTER. itās absolutely gone off in adamās room after all his work at constructing a well put together boy. ronan comes for a night and everything goes BONKERS. amazing.Ā
(really worried about what this means RE ronan being able to exit the barns and grow and change and not be bored and not feel like a loser so weāre focusing on the hilarious disaster of it all.)
p.s. adam sleeping slotted between ronan and the wall OKAY. THIS IS FINE!Ā
p.p.s. adamās bed hair is WILD.Ā
p.p.p.s i have missed adam and ronan so so so so so much and im an emotional fucking wreck
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