American Blind Final Thoughts
Well, this was a whole journey.
I'm really proud of the final results, even if I would've liked to make it a bit longer and expand on some things, but most fanfic readers don't want to read about OCs and lore that doesn't directly affects the main (canon) characters.
I don't regret the decisions I made, those that were necessary to tell this particular story. I was lectured for it, I think I lost a friendship because of it.
I don't know, I think the biggest lesson is, as much that you can love a friend, maybe not all of them are the right choice for sharing some stuff.
I shared it with them because I was excited and proud about my work, but I was left with a bitter taste and it ruined the experience of writing for a bit.
On other aspects of this whole experience, I keep battling with expectations and disappointment.
I'm a really lonely person, I don't really have much in my life and I'm on the older side already.
Because of the circumstances of my life, I've never worked and I've never been to college.
I have no real family or irl friends, when my father dies someday, I'll be completely alone and without means to defend myself of anything.
I'll possibly die alone too, it's to difficult for me to be social and people just don't like me, lol.
I'm mostly fine with it, it is what it is.
But, I want to leave something behind, I want to write something that's going to be remember as an important or relevant part of something.
Of course, that never happens, I just don't have the luck, the talent or I don't write what people wants to read, I guess.
I understand all of that, I'm ok with it, I still enjoy writing the same. But I can't but get a bit depressed every time that my work flops and I don't know how to really handle that.
I think I have to just live with it and accept that my mind is weird like that.
Oh, and I'm making my own Q&A because people didn't ask anything and I need to explain some things 🤣
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