[A large gift box, along with a letter are delivered to @angelreports on the morning of their wedding by Roza’s mom.]
Today’s the big day, and I’ve got to admit that I’m feeling pretty nervous. It’s the good kind of nervous, though. The kind that makes all the butterflies swarm around the pit of my stomach. I never thought I’d actually be sitting here, writing this letter on the morning of my wedding. I always figured that I’d either be freaking the hell out, or crying and screaming at my mom and dad to let me go to jail instead. But you came along and changed everything, didn’t you?
I read your piece in the paper last night, and I’m embarrassed to say that it reduced me to tears. They were happy tears, though. There wasn’t a hint of sadness. It was a little overwhelming to read how you feel about me, knowing that the whole of New York is also going to know by today. It’s the sweetest thing in the world, and the grandest gesture. Like I told you before, I’m never sure how to respond to compliments, or huge declarations of affection. I’m pretty much an awkward mess.
But you make me feel a little braver than I usually am, and like I can express myself freely to you with no judgement. I know that whatever I say to you will make sense to you, even if it doesn’t to anyone else, or even myself; because you understand me. You get me.
Words are your forte, not mine – but regardless of that, I’m going to try and express in the best way I can how I feel about you. So, buckle up, sweetheart, we’re going to take a ride on the emotional rollercoaster of life.
Meeting you was like...I can’t even explain. It was like walking into a room filled with millions of people, but you were the one who stood out. It was like a little voice in my head said, ‘Oh, there they are. This is the person you’ve been looking for your whole life.’ Talking to you was refreshing, and you were like the brightest star in the darkest sky. I felt like dirt when I saw you, because of my letter. But you made me feel better, because you felt the same, and you understood. We’ve done everything pretty backwards, haven’t we? We fell in like at first sight, slept together, then tried to hate each other, because we discovered we were each others matches. I’m sure it was supposed to be the other way around. But how very us, am I right? Never sticking to the norm, and being different from everybody else.
When I’m around you, everything feels alright, you know? Even if I’m worried about money, my parents, or just life in general, being around you makes me feel like it’s all okay. You don’t even have to do anything but sit there and smile, and I feel like the luckiest person in the world, because I get to be with you.
I’m not sure if I’m in love, because honestly, I have no idea how that’s meant to feel. I have nobody to compare you to, and I’m glad about that. I’m glad that you’re the first person I’ve connected with emotionally, and let myself fall for. You are one hell of a person, and I’m not quite sure I’ll ever deserve you. We fit together, though, like puzzle pieces.
The way I feel about you simply can’t be summed up with words, or even actions. No sonnet, poem, song, or ring will ever be able to help you understand the deep affection I feel for you. I think that maybe only I will ever be able to understand it, but I kind of like that. It’s special to know that only I will ever be able to feel this way about you, and nobody else will, because it’s just such a unique thing.
You make my heart feel full, and bring so much happiness and excitement to my life.
I think I’m beginning to feel what Shakespeare always wrote about.
One half of me is yours, the other half yours.
Mine own, I would say; but if mine, then yours,
And so all yours.
Happy wedding day, Angel.
NOTE ON THE GIFT BOX READS:
I had these made weeks ago, when we first started planning. The first bauble for our tree together, along with matching key rings for our first apartment together.
The sneakers are for after the wedding, because who wants to wear heels all night in the cold, and snow? Not US, because I also have a matching pair. We’re going to look so fly at the gym.