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Things I forgot about being in the depths of a restrictive ed while in recovery (feel free to add your own):

How much lying is involved (and that it can genuinely hurt to lie to your loved ones so much)

The ✨️bowel movements✨️ once you do eat something e.g. explosive diarrhea that is extremely painful

How excruciatingly exhausted you are all the fucking time

That it goes hand in hand with my depression and I just bed rot for days on end

DISGUSTING and I mean ABSOLUTELY DISGUSTING breath

Crying even though you stayed within your calorie limit for the day

Instant regret after eating ANYTHING

Constipation turning into liquid shits

To be continued....

#angelbonez bs #tw ed ana #4n@diary #4nor3xia #ednotedsheeran

frogdadmechsuit

I love explaining myself further even tho no one asked

Why is there so much male/masc thinspo on my feed?!! I dont like or reblog it but it just appears?????!!!! AAAAAAAH beside the point but I haven't felt masculine in a while... my boyfriend really got me in that feminine energy (what a fucking scam)

Never went to that reunion i posted about a while back btw.... I've been stuck at my current weight for literally 4 months wtf is wrong with me.... have been locking in pretty good tho.... 70s jail is a whole different kind of hell that I never thought I'd have to see let alone escape from.... ugh everything sucks rn but I'm starting a new job soon (after a job search from hell) so yay me.... uni will kick my ass this semester though.... trying to stay positive is pretty damn difficult sometimes but things are looking up

Life update ramble I guess... no one will see this anyway lol

#angelbonez rants #angelbonez bs

the-trag1c-art-of-starving

How stupid and insignificant this whole ed thing feels we are literally on a floating rock and God doesn't care what bmi I am....

....I'm still gonna do it tho

despazito

freakparadise

i hate gym guys trying to mansplain calories to me… my culture is NOT your costume

aftonrexia

i wish i had something interesting to post about but unfortunately im fasting so my days are uneventful. all ive been doing is laying in bed and listening to music this is so boring

PSA: Do not take slightly too many laxatives on an empty stomach.

(It was an oil I usually take in capsule form but I could only find the bottle of oil at the store.)

(This was not for harmful purposes btw I've been constipated for days bc of my relapse to the point it was genuinely painful)

#angelbonez bs #tw ana ed