Of Melancholy Burning

@rotting-sword-maiden

+18/ Mag/ in my early 30s/ Not Intererested/ "I have no name. I am as the fresh breeze of the mountains. I have no shelter, I am as the wandering waters. I have no sanctuary, like the dark gods. Nor I am in the shadow of deep temples". The Song of Life, Jiddu Krishnamuti.

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Often, I've wanted not death, but disappearance, evaporation, a bloodless self-banishment.

— Maya C. Popa, from "Duress," Wound Is the Origin of Wonder

#this!!!#this speaks to my soul and bones

talesfromthecrypts

Oh my god, Dani! May Queen!

Midsommar (2019) dir. Ari Aster

utwo

Forest House

Ok I need to confess something: I took a ride on a motorbike and I had never evee done it before. I was so anxious about it but I totally liked it and I felt amazed like a kid. I really enjoyed the wind and the (moderate) speed to the point I want to learn how to drive a motorbike ☺️

Sometimes I feel that I missed out on so many things during my youth because I was on survival mode and now, past 30, I must admit I feel younger and more lively than I was in my twenties (when I was literally struggling to stay alive) and I am happy and grateful I get to do the things I shpupd have done back then.

And I felt like sharing this because of the excitement I felt and also because I hope it can inspire someone, anyone, who is fearing of missing out. You will get there, I promise.

In my 20s I wouldn't have believed that I would live past 30. And yet. Staying alive was the hardest but best choice I ever made ❤️

#personal #motorbike

classic-art-favourites

Sailing Ship on a Calm Sea by Moonlight by Ivan Aivazovsky, 1897.

existential-celestial

“I will love you if you don’t marry me. I will love you if you marry someone else…and I will love you if you have a child, and I will love you if you have two children, or three children, or even more…and I will love you if you never marry at all, and never have children, and spend your years wishing you had married me after all, and I must say that on late, cold nights I prefer this scenario out of all the scenarios I have mentioned…I will love you even as the world goes on its wicked way.”

— The Beatrice Letters, Lemony Snicket

Iringo Demeter

Hakone

May arrived with a loss; a grief now has a name but unlabelled; June left with papa's funeral; there's no pyre, just the traditional comatose of 30K burial unplanned; July is burning every hole in my pockets; left one job two jobs down & I have no remorse, no regret, no words implying for pity; it is what it is but it has also set the new standard of existence, truly you got my back I got yours, if you got none, do not expect the extension when it's your turn; my loss & not yours & this too will not organically pass but it will be forced to pass -

D C de Oliveira | Grief as a shape, Triangle July 07 2026, Tue, 10.11am

#grief #loss

ddestroyangels

Saint George and The Dragon by Gustave Moreau, c. 1889-90

National Gallery, London

plushefemme

not to be a hedonist but. pleasure IS the whole point, my loves. we are made for pleasure. humans have not survived out of spite or sheer grit or simply to make more humans. we live for pleasure. the pleasure of licking the last delicious crumbs off your fingers and feeling sunlight on your skin and massaging a loved one's shoulders. we're made to fill our bellies with delicious food, to nap in soft grass, to touch each other in joy and comfort.

there is no shame or guilt in our bodies doing what they were made to do. and we are made for pleasure.