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stinkfist can be about pussy if yr rank enough

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i never thought my time here would be long

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he can flirt with me and kiss me all he likes but no matter what everything is temporary

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i feel like a traumatized man in a nervous woman's body

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men see sex with women as them taking woman's virginity so the closest thing i'll ever have to taking a mans virginity is introducing him to music he's never heard of

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right now i cant even think straight and you read what my bio says this doesnt even matter but i just wanna forget all the problematic things that come with misandry and never talk to a man ever again. i lied it actually comes with the idea that trans women arent women iirc i dont know this isnt thought out. regardless i never want to be friends with a man ever again right now. i want to stop talking to every guy i know because i feel hurt. angry. used. and im tired of the same patterns repeating. i just want to be seen as a person. as a person, really, and not as a walking talking sex doll. im tired of being nice. i gave it all i could. i tried. i want to live a life that is me centered and community centered.

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i feel like i relate to rose quartz in the sense that i have power and i have influence and im like pearl because i dont realize how my actions can impact other people and what i do doesnt feel significant and i try not to be significant by hiding myself away and never telling anybody anything because they wont understand they never will understand and why would i want them to think i want them to carry my baggage when its obvious they have their own problems so why would i add to that and make things worse, and i think its comfortable and better to keep it all to myself because if i do then it all stays the same and nothing changes or gets worse because of me, especially if the situation is already bad and as usual my circumstances are better, i dont understand why my mind works the way it does (i never want to leave the city, i never want to leave my room, i want to sleep and have it all be quiet, i dont want to die, i want to lay in the sun) when i have life handed to me, so i should be happy; then again, rich people dont want responsibilities, they dont want to contribute to society, they just want to lay in the sun in their place far away from working people and surrounded by people working hard to build their homes and feed their children and bring them drinks and massage their feet that they dont wash because they dont shower, they think they are clean people, which is why i as a girl born to a rich parent am never going to live a life where i dont see myself as not living up to my own morals unless i make it known, make everyone know, that i am always going to be a symbol of a stain of capitalism and i will always be flawed. its inevitable that people find my flaws, that im in the eye of everyone on earth, and that i will hurt everyone i love until they break

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i hate to be a hater but oh my goddd bruh will he shut upppp that shit is sooo corny and annoying lowkey

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like bro talks about nothingggg and i mean nothinggggggggg else 😭

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having one of those moments where i can’t stop shaking my head

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AND NOW HES TELLIN ME bruhhhhhhhh

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update i think i cursed them on accident uh

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you know you’re down bad when you find out that the girl you got a crush on vapes and you still find her attractive

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i think that being invisible would be the best power because imagine a world where you could go wherever you wanted without you being there. i could go out in public with no clothes, listen in on important people's conversations about their affair, or experience a party uninvited, or sit with my friend and their friends without anybody being uncomfortable with the fact that i exist

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to the tune of dmx party up: yall gone make me KILL MYSELF up in here up in here

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i am damn sick and tired of this yelling dude hanging around my college campus with his megaphone talking "lowkey" bigoted bs like you aint got anywhere else better to be on a mf wednesday afternoon than here talking ab "why do" man stfu

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i think i should be able to look up "why does it feel like im watching me through my own eyes" and "why does my body not feel like mine" without getting results for depersonalization disorder cause who tf has time for that

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now i’m angry and evil

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sometimes it feels like i need to yell at the top of my lungs just for people to notice my presence