a diamond in the rough

this is my life. these are my intimate, raw, and naked emotions.

[roughcutdiamond]

The ghosts of us.

“From strangers to friends Friends into lovers And strangers again?”

-Strange by Celeste

[roughcutdiamond]

“Why did this have to happen?” I ask the universe, with eyes full of tears.

“Your world had to be set ablaze and completely burnt to ashes in order for you to be reborn,” you tell me with all the tenderness in the world. “Don’t you see that all the pieces of your life are coming together? Isn’t this what you asked me for?”

[roughcutdiamond]

ex lovers

I loved you. The universe knows I loved you. And it was beautiful. 

The highs were high. My head fit perfectly in the crook of your neck.

But the lows were low. You never heard a thing I said.

I’ve never been in love like I was with you.

A lover and a best friend all wrapped up in one.

The day you left me I saw only red and the end.

But I now see that you were only mine to keep for a season.

I can feel the weather changing.

Thank you for doing what I could not. What i would not.

Goodbye to what once was and can never be.

[ninamorozova]

[roughcutdiamond]

On this day I think I have grown out of my ACOTAR phase. SHOCKER i know.

I’ll say I do love the ACOTAR friendships and dynamics more. Nesta will forever be my girl and reign superior to all of SJM’s characters but the storyline and the epic of TOG is the one I will be praising.

Thank you for these magical worlds that will forever have a spot in my heart <3

[sydneymack]

Main Couples of Throne of Glass

Artist: @giannyfili

[roughcutdiamond]

I have officially finished this book series and I am unwell. Time to look at all the fanart that i avoided in case they contained spoilers! :(

[witching-by-the-willow]

A hundred years she’d had with Asterin. She’d always thought they’d have a hundred more.

You know what the worst, most tragic thing is? That in the end, she didn't. She didn't get a hundred more years with any of her Thirteen.

[roughcutdiamond]

“Live, Manon”

“Live”

“Bring our people home, Manon”

I can not express the pain and heartache I felt from this scene. The love they had for their Crochan/Ironteeth Queen. They world they knew she would be able to build. The sacrifice they knew they had to make. The home they would never see.

None of the deaths compared to these ones for me.

[booksmadeofvelvet-deactivated20]

you must be brave a little while longer, my fireheart 🗡

[roughcutdiamond]

Today is the day I decide to break my heart and finish the series </3

[sydneymack]

Lorcan and Elide - Throne of Glass

Artist: @celinelavenart

[roughcutdiamond]

If Elide and Lorcan have a million fans i am one of them. If Elide and Lorcan have ten fans i am one of them. if Elide and Lorcan have only one fan it’s me. if Elide and Lorcan have no fans that means i’m no longer on this earth.

[roughcutdiamond]

And just like that my season working here in Yellowstone is almost over. Who would have thought that I would have had an experience of a lifetime here in the United States… not me. I’m using this time to reflect on the beauty of the world and the beauty of love and friendship that comes at unexpected times and fills you until you overflow. The things you can feel when you open yourself up and let them in. Thank you, Yellowstone.

Yellowstone National Park, September 30th.

[roughcutdiamond]

I read somewhere that this was the Switzerland of North America. I would not compare the two, but that doesn’t make this place any less wondrous. Now I’ve been to 5 National Parks and I am understanding the thrill of them. I can’t wait for the road trip home and to stop and see the the ones I can and experience them alone. 

Glacier National Park, September 9th

[roughcutdiamond]

love is him

Love is a sweaty boy with crooked teeth and smelly feet. A butt chin. And greasy hair. 

Love is a boy who sleeps in the crack of the two twin beds you pushed together so that he can cuddle up next to you. Love is a boy who sweats in the corner of the bed so that you can have the fans on you. Love is sharing his twin sized bed because now you have a roommate. 

Love is a boy with long hair and a beautiful face. With delicate hands. And pretty eyes. A scent that consumes you. Love is a boy who sees you and not your scars.

You knew you were in love when you were able to look him in the eyes and smile as he was passionate and gentle with you. When he wanted to tell you something and you knew it had to be that he felt the same way but you were scared. You did feel the same way. You should have just said it so that he didn’t have to feel so scared. You didn’t. But in that moment you loved him more for not saying it, for thinking about how you might feel and respecting the possibility.

To know him is to know love.

[roughcutdiamond]

It's now July. A year ago we weren't talking. A year ago I never knew you were coming my way. A year ago I never knew you meant the world to me. And now I'm hopelessly in love with every inch of you.

Twitter

[roughcutdiamond]

Hey um it appears that you forgot how easy to love you are. And I'm sorry that the person you loved made you feel like you weren't

tik tok

[roughcutdiamond]

Just a hop and a skip away. Another treasure that I never thought i needed to see? I was blind before but now I see. 

The fires have not been good to us this season and we are seeing the effects from our inability to see or breathe. I see the mountains but not as clearly as it could have been. 

Camping in this park was a first and not a last. Looking over at my tent mate and crying because I know how this will end. I don’t like to think far into the future but with seasonal jobs you can’t help the inevitable. I love this world and I learned at that moment in my tent that I really like that boy too.

[roughcutdiamond]

I will not take this place for granted. I lived in Bavaria before this and I didn’t appreciate the outdoors until it was too late. I will not make that same mistake with Yellowstone. Once I’m gone, I want to be able to say I did it all.

Fairy Falls/ Grand Prismatic Overlook - YNP, July 2nd.

[roughcutdiamond]

I understand why people feel so alive from hiking mountains. You go through so much mentally and physically. You push yourself to your limits, you can’t breath, you’re tired, exhausted, and you feel like like giving up. But if you make yourself keep going and make it to the top and you see that view? Breathtaking. A revelation I have discovered: I am here and I am alive, my body has not failed me and she deserves so much more love than I have given her. 

Avalanche Peak - YNP, June 26th.

[roughcutdiamond]

My favorite view of Yellowstone. Everyone comes for the thermal features and Old Faithful but this is the hidden gem. I was lucky to have one of my friends visit and be able to show him this. I’m so grateful for all the friendships I have made over the years and how even when it’s been a while, it feels as though we had just seen each other yesterday.