𐔌 . 𖹭 rowin ᐟ｡୧ ꒱

𝄞 ✦ they/she, phannie + shadowcadet ⸝⸝⸝ ╰┈➤ lesbian, 13 🐞 --- ౨ৎ ⋮ 'despite everything i've been through, right now, i'm swimming' ao3: ldshadowladies

[rowinisnotonfire]

Woah, I've been gone for a hot minute! Sorry, guys! I took a hiatus from writing, but I'm back! I'm also on twt now (femmes4dnp)! And I'm back writing. I'm gonna see how I feel about SIMSILTWYG but you can maybe expect a new chapter soon!

[rowinisnotonfire]

I so need a dan vs phil where they battle each other in champions, but I just know they'll be so shit because they know nothing about competitive pokémon battling.

[danielhowell]

omg phresh phontent!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[rowinisnotonfire]

I will be taking another week off due to jetlag!! You can expect at least the next chapter of SIMSILTWYG next Friday and I have absolutely started working on some of those oneshot ideas 👀

[rowinisnotonfire]

I wrote more phyuri awhh I think its kinda cute lol first chapter is a little short but there will be longer ones i promise

https://archiveofourown.org/works/81958521

[dnp-as-posts]

[rowinisnotonfire]

Writing more phyuri 👀👀 gonna be a short chaptered au this time

[rowinisnotonfire]

Plsplsplspls pleaaaase give me oneshot ideas in my asks my friends are sick of me asking 🙏🙏🙏

[rowinisnotonfire]

Supposed to be on break but I wrote Phyuri anyways oops

https://archiveofourown.org/works/81842381

[rowinisnotonfire]

As a Scottish person, when Dan Howell says taties in the way he does (like in the massive pizza mukbang 2) I feel like my culture is being appropriated.

[rowinisnotonfire]

Hello, phandom. I don't know if anyone will read this, but here we go anyway.

It is my 5 month phanniversary and dnp have finally gone from a hyperfixation to a speical interest for me so I thought it's finally time I share my story instead of just telling y'all fictional stories about dap.

Fair warning this contains mentions of sh and suicidal thoughts.

I got into dnp by my only friend, at the time, mentioning them to me a lot because they were freaking out about tbv. I try to indulge in my friends' interests, so I decided to watch tbv on the 21st of October. Then I watched Phil's coming out video and had a giggle. Then I watched Basicsally, I'm Gay. I cried. A lot. I related to Dan so much that I was left a crying mess by the end of the video.

Even earlier that day, I had cut. I was deep in a depressive episode and had been for about a month at that point. To make matters worse, I was suicidal for the first time in my life, and I was deeply suicidal.

I found dnp in a time in my life where I really needed comfort. Then I realised that I heavily related to both of them. Slowly but surely, they helped me out of that pit. I read ywgttn and I watched wad and daniel and depression.

I found friends and community in spaces filled with amazing people who also found this comfort in dnp. Now? I'm doing better. It'll take a lot more than comfort and some good advice for me to get better, but I am receiving professional help.

They saved my life. On many occasions, and I'm sure they will save my life many more a time, too. I don't think there's anything I could ever do to say thank you enough.

Now, I just need to remember. Embrace the void and have the courage to exist.

[rowinisnotonfire]

1 MONTH UPLOAD BREAK. It is highly likely there will be NO ao3 uploads from me for a full month. Thank you for understanding 🫶

[bugsummoning]

trans person: im trans

society: ok

gay friend youre really trying to ignore: so basically they're these youtubers that came out in 2019 but came out again recently as a couple and they called it the hard launch and they made the hard launch podcast and

[rowinisnotonfire]

[lesbiphannie]

did you guys know that dan and phil once had INDIVIDUAL youtube channels called danisnotonfire and amazingphil and they used to post SOLO content. unthinkable i know

[rowinisnotonfire]

Omg i am SO sorry for no chapter yesterday along with no confirmation that there would be no chapter i had a DAY yesterday omg. Chapter 12 will be out at some point this week!!

[rowinisnotonfire]

Okay so update that DAY turned into a WEEK so Chapter 12 will be up on Sunday sozzzzz

[rowinisnotonfire]

Omg i am SO sorry for no chapter yesterday along with no confirmation that there would be no chapter i had a DAY yesterday omg. Chapter 12 will be out at some point this week!!