RoyE Man of Merlin

The Observations of a Spiritrual Journey from the male perspective

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"From RoyB to RoyE: The Journey of the Man of Merlin"

For those seeking masculine healing, sovereignty, and spiritual depth, this blog is part of my evolving journey as a spiritual mentor for men.

There comes a moment in every man’s path where the old skin no longer fits.

For years, I walked under the name RoyB Man of Merlin—a name that served a chapter of my life that was still in the process of awakening. It was a time of remembering, of reclaiming lost fragments of soul, of learning who I was beyond what the world told me to be.

But names carry energy. And as I’ve grown into deeper truth, my path demanded a new embodiment—a refined identity that speaks to who I am now:

RoyE Man of Merlin.

“E” for Edward, the guardian. The Red King. A bloodline of sovereignty, vision, and deep responsibility to both men and mystics. This evolution isn’t about rebranding—it’s about remembrance. A return to essence.

The Merlin within me is no longer hidden in shadow, nor silenced by systems. He walks now in full presence, voice, and purpose. The RoyE you meet today is not a performance—it is a becoming.

So if you've known me before, welcome again.

If you're just discovering this path, step forward. You’re not late. You’re right on time.

You’ll find more of my work, sessions, and teachings at https://iammerlin.org—the online home of RoyE Man of Merlin, your guide for intuitive healing and sovereign embodiment.

✨ — RoyE Man of Merlin Spiritual Mentor | Intuitive Healer | Sovereign Guide https://iammerlin.org

Originally published at iammerlin.org/blog

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The Timeless Guardian

Prologue

Sometimes I wonder if I’ve always been this... wandering soul. Not tied to one place or time, but drifting between worlds. Maybe that’s why the name Merlin fits me so well — a guardian of secrets, a keeper of forgotten paths.

Before I get too mystical on you, I should say my wandering hasn’t just been through magical forests or alien planets. I wandered the real world too before really walking the spiritual path, through football grounds, following United wherever they took me. It was part of the same journey, really. There is a deep connection there too within dimensions of my own personal journey. I was called Eric from my time in the Navy, and of course Eric brings to mind 'Le King' Eric Cantona, the legend himself. It aligned perfectly, since Roy means king in French and red in Old Nordic. I was also a big fan of another realm - The Discworld - and the first book I ever read of that series was the one entitled 'Eric' where he wandered in the under realms on the Devil's Trail, just like the Red Devil on the badge of Utd.

My first and middle names Roy Edward, is also layered with meaning to my mission and journey in life, as though the universe saw fit to provide a cryptic clue to who I was: Edward means guardian. So I am a born Kings Guardian and for me the most famous of all Kings Guardians is that of Merlin to Arthur.

Another version, and another attachment to my first love, football, provides the 'Red' as Roy means Red in Nordic, which brings me to the “Red Guardian.” It’s not just some meaningless title. It’s the echo of my own story of escapism through my favourite worlds in my downtime. These places are wrapped up in loyalty, battle, and protection, whether that’s fighting the dragons in Skyrim, walking the shadowy lands of Oblivion and entering the realm of demons, or defending a settlement under siege in No Man’s Sky from the haunting brood or the red sentinels of Atlas.

Different worlds, sure, but somehow they’re all connected. I’ve walked with dragons, faced sentinels, and in all of it, I’m part of something bigger within the real world having faced many of my own inner demons and helped others face theirs too. A journey I am thankful that I am skilled in life to help anyone looking to awaken their own inner guardian.

If you want to see where your story goes, pull on the threads of your own tapestry, to find out how your dimensions are linked, or maybe find a little of that guardian spirit inside yourself, you might want to check out iammerlin.org. That’s where I share my real-world journey, helping others tap into their intuition and their own inherent power.

This is just the start. The multiverse is vast, and I’m only beginning to understand my place in it.

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November 19th and Raising Awareness

There is shockingly not enough awareness of this day where we get to celebrate and support 50% of the world's population which, in this supposed modern age of equality, is quite frankly shocking. I've included wiki's description and list of the 6 pillars for IMD.

International Men's Day (IMD) is a global awareness day for many issues that men face, including parental alienation, abuse, homelessness, suicide, and violence, celebrated annually on November 19. The objectives of celebrating an International Men's Day are set out in 'All the Six Pillars of International Men's Day'. It is also an occasion to celebrate boys' and men's lives, achievements and contributions, in particular for their contributions to nation, union, society, community, family, marriage, and childcare.

Six pillars:

International Men's Day objectives are given as:

To promote positive male role models; not just movie stars and sports men but everyday, working-class men who are living decent, honest lives.

To celebrate men's positive contributions to society, community, family, marriage, child care, and the environment.

To focus on men's health and wellbeing: social, emotional, physical, and spiritual.

To highlight discrimination against men in areas of social services, social attitudes and expectations, and law.

To improve gender relations and promote gender equality.

To create a safer, better world, where people can be safe and grow to reach their full potential.

If you require support and guidance please reach out here :- www.iammerlin.org

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Seeing beautiful things grow...

I’m not a gardener or green fingered, and I prefer to leave all that up to nature seeing as it’s far better at growing things than we are, especially when it comes to plants and forests etc. 

What this particular post is about though is seeing your own child blossom based on your teachings from a young age, and seeing years worth of theory, and not knowing if you were doing the right thing turning out to being the right thing.

I’ve seen some very beautiful things in my life, and these days I find beauty in the most simple things as I marvel daily at natures beauty. Mother Earth has really got it nailed, and I'm not talking about the obvious beautiful things like peacocks, butterflies, sunsets over the ocean or even rainbows. I marvel at the beauty of random sticks on the floor at my feet, strange bugs in trees, and the way the coffee flows into the milk like Guinness from the Lavazza pod machine.

I have been lucky to see some super beautiful things such as a herd of buffalo at the base of Kilimanjaro at 6am, where there were so many it seemed darker than it actually was, Robin’s on a snowy branch at Christmas time in England, just like a real life Christmas card, and realising how big the Colorado river really was as I descended onto the banks in a helicopter during a flight through the Grand Canyon on my birthday.

I never want to stop seeing amazing beautiful things in life, and just recently I have begun witnessing something I never expected to be perceived as beauty. For many years I’ve taught my son about life, and how to avoid pitfalls that I fell into, how to love yourself from within, how doing what you love for a living is important, and how to own your inner stuff so you don’t dump it on others. Teaching those things is kind of done in faith as you never really know if they are listening or taking it on board, or if they are just thinking it’s a load of hokum. 

But recently, as my son fast approaches 17yrs old, I have noticed the amazing beauty of him starting to mature and really understand all those things I have taught him, and hear him talk about how he is seeing those things from his perspective. I get to see how he’s enjoying creating art and starting to follow his passion with purpose and intent. I get to hear him talk about that passion and about artists who influence him, like Keith Haring, who is some cartoonish pop art guy. I’m seeing the most precious flower in the world start to open up and influence the world according to his view, and I'm responsible for that, and I'm proud that I've had influence on my son choosing courage, integrity, joy, self love, fun, strength, and with a special twist of doucheness which is our thing.

So you can offer me the best sunsets in the world, or the most awe inspiring eclipses, and even the rarest bird in the world, and they wouldn’t compare to the beauty I'm witnessing right now watching my son blossom into being himself.

So if you’re reading this, over the next week or so take some time out just to observe your children being themselves and know that is one of the most beautiful, if not the most beautiful thing you’ll ever get to see, and in that moment know with a smile that it’s your creation, and just like Mother Earth know that you’ve got it nailed too!! 

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Inspiration

We all get inspired by many sources of many differing topics, and many different kind of people. I am inspired by my dad and I don’t actually know the reason, well now that I think about it I do know, he is a good man, and he inspired me to be a good man too. My son also inspires me, I’ve taught him to be a good man also, and he inspires me to remain a good man otherwise the teachings would become hollow. My dad is also a funny man, and inspired me to be funny, and according to my son I'm not that funny, but his actions of hiding and supressing his smiles and laughs suggest otherwise, as I always like to point out, which he denies, but then he his 16 and there is some mystical being that inspires all 16yr olds to argue just for the sake of it... I am still inspired by that being too come to think of it!

I’ve also done the cliché thing and was inspired by sports stars, soccer players from Bryan Robson, who I was fortunate enough to play in front of many years later, to Ryan Giggs, I was a winger too, and to CR7 due to his total commitment to being the best at his craft. Natural talent only gets you so far.

Now I am the same for my craft, I am blessed to have the born talent of my psychic/energy abilities, but I've worked at honing them, and growing them, and using them for service and for good over a long period of time. 

So now I can happily say I inspire others due to this, and I am utterly blessed to have been told this randomly one day. It surprised me as it came from an unlikely source, but it did make me feel warm and fuzzy inside, and proud that I have a passive positive influence on someone for basically being myself.

I intend to get to a position where I can inspire a great deal more people to hone their craft no matter what that is, because you get great joy in it, and it’s effortless, I mean you still put the hours in, but it never feels like hard work, and when you find your true craft you are essentially being yourself, which surprisingly takes far more work than it should. You would think being yourself would come easily but we all spend most of our lives trying to be someone else, and that IS hard work wearing that mask everyday.

So my inspirational speeches, that I will share with the world when I’m speaking in front of large crowds, will be how to to be yourself, and by being yourself you will inspire many others, and I'm sure one day some unlikely person on some normal day will tell you that you inspire them, and you’ll get to feel warm and fuzzy inside too. 

P.S If you do have teenagers though, don’t ask if you inspire them, they’ll grunt or say ‘No, you’re a douche” (although you probably do, they just won’t admit it)

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We are creation

All atoms contain 99.999999999999% space, emptiness, nothing, so essentially we are mainly comprised of nothing, but I like to feel this isn't nothing but creation energy instead waiting for an imprint from our thoughts. Our thoughts create our reality after all. So we are 99.999999999999% creation energy awaiting further orders.

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Self Love is tough

Learning self love is primarily what we are down here on mother earth to do, to accept ourselves as a human being human. As energetic beings we are challenged to accept ourselves as a lower vibrational being that is more often than not at odds with ourselves, and that is the experience we sign up for. The mastery of self love has many challenges, the act of surrender, self forgiveness, being compassionate rather than self critical and a whole host of others that we all recognise within ourselves when we have those moments of observing ourselves from a non critical space. 

So you can see why self love can be such a challenge to us because as human beings we all make mistakes in every area of our lives and often condemn ourselves for what is simply us just being human, and humans learn and grow through making mistakes.

The initial energy of consciously choosing self love, whether we finally start to honour our boundaries in relationships, or we finally stop accepting crappy jobs and go for what we feel we are worth, is the energy of push, we have to push through the old habit of feeling guilty or not wanting to upset others for fear of rejection or ridicule, but to self love through that energy we must push, and doing this is strangely physically tiring even though it’s an energetic exercise, but the old adage is no pain no gain, and once you have done it for the first time each time after that gets inherently easier.

So next time you feel yourself about to shrink back by not saying what you feel, or only looking for jobs far less than your worth, in your mind stand up to yourself and say no, go ahead and say what was needed to be said (albeit with compassion and love) and keep looking for the job that is closer to your worth, or start the first step towards your dream career, as the very first step puts you on the road and means you are one step closer than you were the day before. Afterwards you’ll feel so much better and more empowered which will create the energy within to continue doing those things, and that is how you SELF LOVE. 

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Failure is not an option

This sounds like a classic business motivational line, and one we’ve heard said in a similar way many times in Hollywood films, and all the associated cliches like “there’s no turning back” or “you have what it takes to be a success”

But the angle i’m coming from is the deep connection we have with the universe (or whatever name you use for the infinite source) and our own internal habits. The universe loves us unconditionally as we are simply an extension of it, we are a minuscule part of the grander universal energy that permeates through our whole being everyday, and because this energy loves us unconditionally then it is always allowing us to be happy no matter what that is. 

Very often within our own subconscious is a habit running where we are happy being a failure, this happened and was created from one insignificant moment in our lives that we held onto and repeated over and over until it became an automatic, and therefore, subconscious habit. This then starts to create our outer reality and we automatically fail at everything we try and achieve, and we often drop into thinking we just aren’t very good at things and accept our own created fate! Horrible and vicious as that sounds ultimately it was of our own choosing, even if we didn’t realise it was a choice at the time.

so here’s the upturning kicker in all of this and why failure isn’t an option even though failure is what i’ve been talking about. Because we are choosing to fail, and initially it was a conscious choice, then we are actually succeeding, albeit succeeding at failing. What this means is the first thing we ever do at any supposed negative trait is succeed at it, therefore we always succeed first, the energy at the beginning and threading through any of our ‘failures’ is the energy of success!!

So that is why failure isn’t really an option, it’s just something we are choosing to be successful at, and as every choice begins from a singular moment that we repeat to become a habit, then we can change our choice in any given moment too, therefore we can choose to be successful at success instead, and we already instinctively know how to be successful as we are successful at everything we choose to do ;-)

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"Every time you smile at someone, it is an action of love, a gift to that person, a beautiful thing." Smiling a positive emotion is almost as fundamental as breathing, but you need to remind yourself to do it more often. I came to know this information from "Daily Mudras" application. I share this useful information with you. You also read and also follow it.

Daily Mudras - Free Android app Useful for you & your family - https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.coderays.mudras

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The 2 Tribesmen

In life there is always a choice, and at the very root of all our choices it only ever comes down to a choice of two things. Some of you may know that choice already, and some of you may think you know, but for those who don’t think they know let these two tribesmen help.

In a village deep in the forest many years ago there was a tribe where the men went off each day into the jungle to find food for their family, and often the women would go too, but for this story at the time they were heavily pregnant and chose not to go.

we’ll call the two men Rafe and Velo, and each day it started out the same way, they would meet up and walk to the edge of the jungle in front of their chosen path to go and find food whether that was berries, big spiders (it was the jungle after all) or even big game like deer or monkeys (again it was the jungle and food meant survival)

Rafe was a very cautious man, always worried about what might be on his path that day, and he always worried that he would get eaten by the shadow panther while looking for food, and he wanted to make sure he could always provide for his family especially now a child was due, in fact he was always so worried that he rarely ventured into the jungle at all and would scrape berries from the edge of the jungle or sit and wait for hours for the odd spider to come along, he knew he’d always be safe that way. To him the jungle was dark and full of scary things that would take him at any given notice as he knew he couldn’t see all around him while he was searching for food and he knew he would be easy prey for a host of things lets alone the shadow panther they knew stalked the jungle. Because of his worry his family only ever had enough to get by and some days wouldn’t eat at all as he never dare enter the fruitful abundant jungle due to the ever present danger he perceived to be there.

Velo on the other hand was full of joy and happiness, he truly enjoyed walking his path through the jungle and every time he went into the jungle he had amazing experiences of the sun filtering through the trees creating incredible colours, hearing the birds and the frogs, and on one occasion even caught a glimpse of the shadow panther, well he thought he did and that’s what he told everyone. Velo was never scared of the jungle but he always respected it as he, like Rafe, knew the inherent dangers lurking within, but despite those he knew the importance of feeding his family and having a healthy child, and had faith that the jungle would provide all he needed, he was grateful for all it contained, even the things that would kill him, it was only nature after all and he was an integral part of it. So everyday he would stand at the edge of the path and let the jungle decide if he would venture in or not, he believed the jungle was wiser than him, and if he felt the jungle say no then he would go back to his house and spend a day with his family while Rafe sat at the edge of the jungle everyday waiting for a tiny meal that rarely came. Velo knew he always had enough to survive a day or two and the jungle rarely if ever said no for more than 2 days straight, and that when it said yes there was food for a whole year to find let alone a couple of days, but he was just a man and couldn’t carry more than 2 days worth of food anyway. So each day the jungle said yes he would happily walk in without a care safe in the knowledge he would walk out again with a feast for his family. For him there wasn’t really a shadow panther it was just something he may have glimpsed once, but for Rafe it a was big monster just waiting for him to walk along and get eaten.

After a month or so Rafe (who was very hungry by that time) asked Velo why he didn’t worry about what was in the jungle, how do you protect yourself while foraging or hunting? Velo told Rafe that he spoke with the jungle and asked it’s guidance to walk his path that day, and if it said yes he walked in and if it said no then he trusted that answer also even if his family was hungry. “The jungle knows my path better than me, I only walk the path, but the jungle is the path” he said. “But it’s always full of danger” Rafe replied, to which Velo said “Clearly it is not dangerous everyday or I wouldn’t be standing here, and the jungle knows this”, “I trust the jungle and the jungle trusts me, and we have balance and harmony and a respect for each other, and I only ever take what the jungle gives to me” he continued. “But what about the shadow panther?” Rafe asked

Velo said that the panther also has it’s path in the jungle and there is plenty of food for us both without the need for those paths to ever cross, and if there is ever a day our paths cross and I fall prey to the shadow panther then on that day it’s needs were greater than my life, and the jungle deemed it so, and because I trust the jungle then I will be happy to be part of the shadow panthers path.

“but what about your family?” asked Rafe, “I trust the village to provide, and they too walk different paths with different endings, ones I cannot walk for them” Velo replied.

So another week passed with Velo and Rafe making their choices of trusting the jungle and being scared of the jungle, and on one particular day Velo didn’t come back out. Rafe told the village and the next day they went searching and sadly found Velo’s remains with all the hall marks of the shadow panther being the reason he never came back that day.

Rafe went and spoke with Velo’s family and asked them how they’ll survive without him, his wife responded by asking Rafe how he and his family survived despite Rafe barely bringing back anything each day, she reminded him that they would often share as Velo would always bring back plenty to go around. “Velo trusted the village would provide, as the jungle always did. He was always happy to share as he believed that was why the jungle always gave him more than we could eat. He believed the jungle saw all and he saw you struggle at it’s edge everyday Rafe so it provided for both our families.

Rafe slowly started to understand what Velo had been talking about all along, and asked how he could help. That’s easy said Velo’s wife, “you only ever have 2 choices, one of fear and one of love, and for a long time you have chosen fear which has kept you in struggle and away from your family everyday”, “now it is time to choose love, and time to trust the jungle just like Velo did”

The next day Rafe stood for a few moments at his customary path of fear and the jungle only spoke of what could eat him, so he decided to change his choice to that of love and the path that Velo chose every day, and this time the jungle only spoke of what could feed him, and it said “Yes”. 

At the end of the day he walked out with enough food to feed both families. At dinner he spoke fondly of Velo and he even claimed to have glimpsed the shadow panther that day in the jungle and he was full of joy and happiness, and he truly understood the path of Velo, or Love as his wife called him.

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WHAT IS YOUR EARLIEST HUMAN MEMORY?

When I was 5 talking to my mum about my birthday

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Being an Energy Intuitive is Challenging!

What is an Energy Intuitive? That particular question would be more easily covered in a whole tome of a book as it is all about emotions on a moment by moment basis, and as we live and grow in our daily lives we come to understand the enormity of the challenge when it comes to handling our own emotions, and with the ever increasing talk around depression and anxiety in society only highlights the issues. I’m not here to cover that topic though, and having suffered (still suffering?) through both I understand awareness still needs raising more.

What I am covering in this particular post is the gifted side which blurs into anxiety and depression and that is the ability of the Energy Intuitive. Let’s not confuse being an Energy Intuitive with empathy, empathy is having a similar experience and comparing your experience to that of someone else and knowing roughly what they are going through while an Energy intuitive directly takes on board the energy and emotion of another persons situation feeling it as if it’s their own, and 99% of the time they do not realise it has even happened. EEnergy Intuitives are becoming more and more commonplace and are mainly known as Empaths, as that is the beginning state of the journey, and it isn’t a new thing as 45 years here on Earth can attest to that and i’m sure there are older people than me with the same gift. I truly believe that the more people who recognise their Energy Intuitive ability and learn how to control and embrace it the more society will grow and potentially the rate of depression and anxiety cases will drop. I’d like to point out that I am not simplifying real issues here as everyone has their own struggles, but from my experience my struggles are more to do with the ability to take on the emotions of others rather than struggling mentally, and i’m certain there are many others out there with the same problem.

So why would i consider this a gift rather than a curse? Any great thing has it’s challenges and requires consistent effort for it to become great, and the gift of an Energy Intuitive has a league of it’s own due to it being centered around the hardest thing as humans that we deal with on a daily basis that has so many variables that we often shut down because of it. Dealing with our own emotions is challenging, and dealing with many peoples is often near on impossible, more so if you don’t recognise yourself as an Energy Intuitive and you are still in Empath state (Em-bodying path-etic. Allowing others energy to affect you rather than you transmuting the energy)

Strangely enough though Energy Intuitives don’t deal with emotions but rather the energy of them, and their purpose is not to deal with the emotions at all but to transmute them back to energy and help that person release what they are carrying unnecessarily. All emotional stuff is only meant for moments, to be recognised honoured and then surrendered, but we often carry them for days, years, and even lifetimes and this can even cause physical ailments as the energy of the emotion becomes stuck in one certain part of our physical body. We are energetical beings after all and stuck energy stops the flow of chi.

So the hardest part of an Energy Intuitive is first recognising they are one, and then learning how to initially block incoming emotions so they instantly know their own base energy, only then can they gradually open up to the powerful energy of other peoples emotions, and then it’s the journey of knowing how to release and cleanse their own body from that kind of energy. This can and will probably take years and not much is known about it so finding guidance out there is very rare. But know this, it is a gift, we are here as an Empath to help raise the vibration of the planet and it’s population by removing, releasing and transmuting fear and leaving only love in it’s place, and when more of the world is in the vibration of love then the world will be a much better place to live in.

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Love is real not magic

We often say love is real but what do we really mean by that? Hollywood falsely portrays love more often than not, but then it rarely portrays real life anyway!!

I’ve just entered into a relationship and after many failed ones including a failed marriage i’m kinda over them in a way, in a way where i’m over the bullshit, the false reality we put ourselves in when we first enter into one.

I want to get real to begin with and by that i mean experience the dark side of your partner, the tantrums, the fears, the mistakes, the things that frustrate you, and everything in between. It doesn’t mean i don’t want to experience the beautiful, the laughter, the joy, the romance or all the good stuff, just that I don’t want to shy away from any of it. 

For me that’s what real love is, experiencing everything as it comes and not delaying it to create a honeymoon period. If you want to truly be in love with someone then join into the flow of their life no matter where it sits, no matter how it looks, no matter whether you perceive it to be good or bad, and that is how you can tell what the relationship will be like, that is how you can tell how real the love will be because you start as you mean to go on, in the reality of love not just the magic of it. 

By doing that when the magic comes it is real and not a created illusion because you’ve had the moments of your partner being their real selves, the side they usually hide in public or the side they so often hide at the beginning of a relationship, then you know when you are feeling love in the magic moments it has the backing of the real moments too and nowhere in your brain are you thinking or wondering how long the falseness will last because you haven’t seen them after a stressful day, or an off day when their fears have played havoc.

My advice to you is get real straight away, act like you’ve been together a couple of years, act like they are the norm in your life and then when the magic moments come they are real and not false, they are more powerful and more memorable and a better platform to build any relationship from, and also a better guide on if you’ll last or not. 

For me that is real love, for me that is also the magic within love, for me true love is getting down and dirty in more than just a sexual sense from day one. Making love is supporting each other from day one, facing your relationship fears to give it a much better chance of survival. Show all of your sides from day one and not just your best one because all of your sides together is always going to be your best side anyway. If by doing that they walk away pretty quickly then there was never going to be any love, real, magic or otherwise in the first place and you haven’t lived in any illusion of what it was either.

By simply always being yourself real magical love is always more likely to find you anyway because real magical love starts from within and you can’t hide anything from yourself.

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Getting my Wolverine on! #wolverine #xmen #antihero #claws #indestructible

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Fear keeps you running

So i’ve been ‘chasing’ a spiritual career for many years now, in part because nearly every reading from the age of 18 I have had the reader ask why i’m not doing what i’m supposed to be doing!!, and my gifts have expanded year upon year along with opportunities to work in the field, such as being a regular reader at the Mind Body Spirit Festival. Another aspect i’ve put it down to is timing, universal timing that is, and having found out a big past life block, removing that too (that story is for another time). Now that is out of the way I am still waiting for universal timing to catch up, and to be honest i don’t know how long that is meant to take, and i’m also fully aware that our timing is far far different to that of the universe!! 

So what is it then that I am potentially still running from? For over 20 years what is it that i was supposed to be doing? Looking back I suppose there may have been a few pointers, but it’s fear that has put them to the back of my mind, the memories of things happening through different sources all pointing to the same thing. Even writing this those memories have had one big common theme that i’ve simply missed, or fear has intentionally made me block out.

I’ll explain, I run a workshop about how to see guidance from the universe, and one of the key elements to that is to keep it simple, Occums Razor- the most obvious hypothesis is usually the right one. Here follows a list of things i have been given from about the age of 12… A small notebook from my Dad (I filled it with my own made up jokes, bad ones!!) every birthday and Christmas from about 20 onwards my Mum bought me the latest Terry Pratchett novel, A Christmas gift from a friend in 2009 was a book about being a freelance writer, a random gift from a forklift driver was also a book, this time it was about Healing Juices. 

The simplest most obvious theme here was that they were all books, and i tended to look into the meaning of the book rather than the simplest option being that they were all books. Don’t get me wrong, I love the spiritual work I do and the way it helps people, but maybe that 20+ year purpose was as simple as writing a book, or becoming a writer, and maybe the fear I have been running from was as simple as not feeling good enough to be writer and make a living from it, after all those that know me know I can be an opinionated bugger who likes to get my point across without too much response, and the best way to do that is to write them down!