Love Letters To Myself

[rubieffect]

The X-ray world

Just graduated and got my ARRT certification. Officially a radiographic technologist. Applied to lots of jobs but seems to me like you have to know people these days in ordered to be considered 🤨. Any recent rad tech graduates wanna network? 😁 send me a message.

[rubieffect]

Emotional post from a random girl on tumblr

It feels so comforting to know that someone you love would pick you out of everyone and everything. That the love is so strong he is willing to fight anyone in order to be with you. I always brace myself for the worst. My body and mind have formed an armor. Be ready for the worst, so the pain would at least be bearable is the motto. I honestly was not ready for the love he has shown me today. He has picked me, chosen to love me... no matter what....

[rubieffect]

Before anyone asks

I'm ok...

It's ok

It's fine don't worry

These are the things I say to make us both feel better.

I used to deal with depression in a different way.

I used to lay in bed for days, that was my talent.

A talent, that had me living a happier reality.

Now I'm trying something different.

I'm trying to face my fears, to finally get over you, to be happy, to be able to be alone again.

People say things happen when you least expect them.

True loves shows up unexpected.

See I never saw us coming, we started out as friends and we grew into something worth looking up too.

"The power couple".

Always communicating with each other, never going to bed mad at each other, laughing and loving on each other... being brutally honest with each other.

We were so much alike as we were different.

You got to know the raw me, the so private and protected me.

You meddled your way into my heart.

I was always the girl who didn't believe in fairytales.

I didn't believe in marriage. It was just a piece of paper, a waste of time.

If someone was committed they didn't need all that.

But little by little you filled my head with fantasies.

I love you's, I would do anything for you's... forever's.

You had me spinning and believing that I had finally found the one.

That the universe had finally decided it was my turn to be happy.

After all those years being shy, scared, and lonely.

Lonely because I would always offer the best parts of me to people. Only for it to end in "I'm sorry, it was never supposed to be like this" friendships.

Disappointment and myself are in a relationship.

I neglected her while I was with you. Only to come back crawling to her, knowing she was loyal.

You were everything I ever wanted.

No… You were more than what I wanted... you were my best friend.

I must have never saw it coming. "I can't do this".. "I want a break" ... "I'm sorry you were right, you love me more than I love you" "it's over".

The one person I thought was going to be there walked out.

Hitting the bottom of the ocean.

I laid there.

You leaving me to drown when all I wanted was a life jacket.

That hurts to no end.

Having known what you knew…

Having known that I can't swim.

It's hard to breathe now.

You end up throwing a hook.

Hooking into my chest you try to pull, only to find you teared into my flesh.

Having claimed me as your's, my first time..

Not knowing whether to keep me or to throw me back into the ocean.

Wanting me not hate you for tearing into my flesh.

Making it hard for me to breathe.

Scared this will haunt you, but yet, not fighting to save me from drowning.

Saying your goodbyes.

I love you, but I can't be with you.

Me trying to wrap my head around it.

I finally give...

I will try to breathe with a tear in my chest

You say "I'm sorry it was never supposed to be like this"

As you leave me lying on the cold floor.

I’m stuck between wanting to be in your arms and hitting the bottom of the ocean

As you walk away I lay there on the ground, with one final breath I say:

“It's ok, It's fine, don't worry I'm ok.”

-Retro

[rubieffect]

Hello love,

You have no idea how happy I am to finally meet you, formally.

I say formally because I have known you throughout my lifetimes.

Did you know I used to write you love letters? Always daydreaming about how you would look.

Would you be close to me?

Would you be half way around the world?

Could I have already meet you, and I just didn’t recognize you?

Would you be wishing upon a star to meet me as I was?

In my love letters I always wished for your happiness

Though wishing for time to pass to finally meet you

Would you confuse me for another?

Would you curse me and shut me out because of it?

In the back of my mind I knew that life was preparing us for one another.

You see life is all about choices and time.. and our time has finally come.

My choice is you. It’s always been you.

After all these years, the wait was worth it.

Here you are.

Finally.

-Retro

[mysilentconfessionstoyou]

It wasn’t a 3AM booty call. It was a 3AM drunk confession of all the things I couldn’t say sober.

-“Come over so that I can tell you that I love you in person.”

-m.t.t.

[sprmint-bkgsoda]

LP (Laura Pergolizzi) 

Lost On You - live session

[its--5am-deactivated20190318]

[topshotpicks]

Tumblr needs more of this….whatever this is.

[cannedviennasnausage]

Is this the same artist who made the original for this

[crybourg]

how women actually are

[ginjaninja3716]

OH MY GOD IF I DON’T EVER REBLOG THIS IT’S PROBABLY BECAUSE I’M DEAD

[aragorn1379-deactivated20150216]

mother fuckin macys sale

[writebastard]

Her name is Doris. Here’s the artist. And here’s more Doris:

[mrs-jamie-wellerstein]

I have a physical need to reblog this every time.

[4am-reflections]

“voicemail one 11:47am// Hey dude, it’s me. Are you on your way? If not, can you stop by McDonald’s and grab me a burger? I’ve been craving one all morning and I really don’t feel like getting out of my pjs. See you soon! voicemail two 1:15pm// Where the hell are you? You were supposed to be here at 12 and it’s after one now! Get your ass over here dude! Call me back! voicemail three 4:21pm// Tell me this is a joke! I swear to god this better be a joke! Your mom just called me… You have to be okay, please be okay… I’m on my way! voicemail four 11:55pm// Its been a week since you left. I didn’t get there in time to say goodbye.. I hate myself… I haven’t been able to leave my room since.. My mom, she’s worried about me. And… I don’t know how to tell her that I’m not okay… that I can’t be okay without you here.. Please just come back… It doesn’t even really feel like your gone. I keep waiting.. waiting for you to walk through the door. But your not… and you never will again….. I miss you… voicemail five 3:10am// Soooo… I’m drunk annnnd I cut my hair. Don’t really know why, but I did. I think you’d like it. You always used to say that I’d look good with short hair… Fuck my moms gonna freak. Her angel of a kid, drunk… I just can’t deal with this anymore… I don’t know how I didn’t notice, I should have noticed.. Why didn’t you talk to me? I could have helped, I could have done something… Was it my fault?.. Di-did I do something?… Why would you ever do this to yourself?! There are so many better ways to deal with things! Why just why! - I can’t do this… I can’t… I don’t know what- *beep* voicemail six 1:42am// Why the hell did you do this?! Did you not think of me you asshole! What this would do to me! Did you really think I’d be okay? Well surprise I’m not okay!… What about your parents? What this would do to them?… I just need to know why… I can’t, I can’t breathe.. Just please come back. I’ll do anything, I’ll never leave your side… Just please come back… voicemail seven 12:03am// I finally know how you felt.. The overwhelming sadness… Your funeral was today.. When they lowered you into the ground I broke down.. I couldn’t breathe, I couldn’t think, I couldn’t see… My brother had to carry me out of there… All I want to do is sleep… It doesn’t hurt then… I just can’t take it… If you felt like this before…. I am so sorry… I honestly don’t want to do this… I miss you… I need you here.. voicemail eight 8:17pm// I actually got out of my bed today. I got a cup of coffee and sat outside. It was so nice to feel the wind against my skin. It reminds me of you, the wind. It’s so free, I hope that’s how you feel now. I hope that you aren’t in pain anymore. I don’t even know why I keep calling. It’s been over a month now… I know you’re not gonna answer… I hope you know.. that you’ll never be forgotten. I’ll always remember you. voicemail nine 6:12pm// My mom’s making me see a counsellor. I know what you’re thinking. I’m turning into the people we used to make fun of. It turns out that not all people who go to shrinks are crazy. I actually think that it’s going to be good for me. You have to work to get better and I know that’s what you’d want for me. voicemail ten 10:17am// So I’ve realized that I’m gonna be okay. Maybe not now but eventually. I want to feel better, not feel this sadness anymore. I’ll always miss you and I’ll always think of you, but i will get through this. I hope you know- *beep* voicemail eleven 10:20am// *This number you have reached is not in service. This number you have reached is not in service* voicemail twelve 10:21// This number you have reached-”

— 4am

[medschoolgeek]

This is how heart works <3 <3 <3

[simzart]

Sailor Moon

[firenationroyalty]

“Fire is the element of power.”

[alwaysbacktoblack]

[togetherlovingly]

[roseydoux]

Great Expectations (1998)

[spaceeblack]

[loco-ruso]

Daddy, take me. I’m ready.

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