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Morpheus & Matthew THE SANDMAN [2022-2025]

sylvernights

Gwendoline Christie as Lucifer Morningstar

shisasan

September 1, 1937 The Letters of Vita Sackville-West to Virginia Woolf (1924-1941)

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He needs a napkin

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The hard cut to the berry massacre is just killing me

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Bruce is so friend shaped and so good :D

amandaherzman

fungi of the forest 🍄✨

I feel as though I'm losing my grip on all of the things I have started over the last year and a half. The part of me that would silence such slander lies dormant amidst the swirling echoes of what is amounting to be an empty life, void of even a hint that success is to be had in any endeavors. I can no longer deny the hollowness in my soul or the ache in my chest where a heart should pound out a steady rhythm of life and emotion. In its stead sits only a cavern of missed opportunities and a history of deep, catastrophic wounds. I used to believe, foolishly, that I was not always such a decrepit husk. Yet looking back through the pages of my anthology, at every brisk turn of the parchment... there is still more pain. It is remarkable to even consider that I am still here among the vegetation of this world and not merely a part of it. Oh, but it calls to me. The soil itself knows that I am not destined to soar among the clouds with the beings I now hold - nay, cling to - with a desperate need and urgency just to stave off my own apocalypse. The ground clings to me just as fervently. It wants me back, you see? The only purpose that I have left is to return to the roots of Yggdrasil and let it retake what fragments of life still reside within me. Then I won't have to feel the magnitude of my sorrows bearing down on me like otherworldly shackles. Then I'll be free of all the torture I've endured from people who falsely convinced me that they gave a damn. At least if I become part of the Tree, my body only a memory to a select few... at least then my astral body can depart and seek the knowledge of this world. Then my mind, and all of its curses, can be rid of the nightmarish filth it has drowned in for all my life. Only then will the real me be able find the peace I so thoroughly deserve. Only then can I say the chains are lifted. Only then... but for now, I remain.

#my thoughts #depression #anxiety #regret #pain