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[ruuuue]

“ you didn’t come out of the womb an evil person. “

independent & selective rue bennett of euphoria penned by eimi previously found on sanmen tw: drug use

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hey everyone. been busy. but ill be online a little bit more now. 

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skoolbully​:

it’s   georgia   peachy   of   her   to   accept   being   a   loser   ––   not   that   he   was   offering   /   not   that   it   was   voluntary.      the   label’s   already   stamped   onto   her   forehead   like   thread   embroidered   into   fabric.      he   knows   this;      real   recognizes   real,   after   all,   and   he’s   got   the   same   damn   brand   burned   into   every   letter   of   the   nickname   ‘ JIMBO ’.      he’d   spit   in   his   palm   and   shake   her   hand   in   solidarity   of   being   losers,   but   a   dude - bro      …      (   on   god,   man?      do   i   look   like   ––   )      he   shrugs,   water   off   a   duck’s   back.   pulls   a   face   /   wrinkles   his   nose   ––   as   if   the   mere   idea   of   her   words   offends   him   on   some   personal   level.      ❛      no   peace,   chick - sis.      humanity   ain’t   shit.      ❜

she   ascends   from   her   crow’s   nest   and   he   watches,   skeptical   /   bites   back   a   laugh   as   he   goes   from   looking   up!   at   her   to   looking   down.   (   that’s   order   restored,   baby.   )   with   the   heel   of   a   scuffed   sneaker,   he   kicks   the   board   toward   her   ––   mostly   just   to   see   if   she’ll   stop   it   or   catch   it   on   her   ankle.   everything’s   a   social   experiment   if   you’re   chaotic   enough.      ❛      nah   ––   i’m   a   busy   guy,   y’know?      daytime’s   for   school   and   extra - c-oo-rriculars.      ❜      earnest   lies   come   naturally   when   they   need   to,   but   most   often   he   speaks   in   a   way   that   gives   the   whole   game   away.      (   as   if   to   say:      call   my   bluff!      i   dare   you.   )      ❛      maybe   if   you   went   to   school,   your   brain   could   handle   …   all   this.      ❜      a   shit - eating   grin,   all   bared   teeth   and   quirked   brows,   as   he   lifts   a   hand   to   gesture   from   his   head   to   his   shoes.

“ oh, you’re one of THOSE guys, huh, “ eyes rolls with an exasperated laugh. she thought she had left behind these kind of guys in california, but then again, probably wasn’t giving this kid with MAD STONER VIBES a chance ( but didn’t she give off those same vibes HERSELF ? ). “ no peace among humanity is completely different from the fact that you’re just being loud man. i probably sound like a fucking KAREN right now though so i’m gonna shut myself up. “ the more she spoke, the more she hated herself. where did FUN RUE go ? probably away like all the drugs that made her that way.

rue’s eyes follow the board and imagines it slithering over to her like a snake ( man, she really did need something in her SYSTEM to make her feel a little less insane ). she lifts her right foot, putting it down on the edge of the board as it reaches her to push the other side off of the ground. all those years skating in circles in her basement seemed to prove helpful in this one specific moment. “ what kind of extra curricular activities do you get yourself into ? i can’t really see THAT, “ she squints. “ seeing that you may not be as bad as me, but still slightly on this side of the CHAOTIC SPECTRUM. “ rue keeps her squinted expression as he gestures to himself, crossing her arms across her chest. she couldn’t tell yet if she found him ENDEARING OR ANNOYING. “ i go to school. but i’m here because school wasn’t good for me. so i’m about to go to this school, and it’s already pissing me off. get on my level, BITCH. “ her tone hints at a joke, but it’s hard to tell. that’s just how she is. “ so, who the fuck are you then ? “

[evilvarric666-archive]

"Weird energy in here today" I say, referring to the inside of my brain.

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sensesdialed​:

  PETER QUICKLY REALIZES THEY’RE REACHING THE SCHOOL’S ENTRANCE, and prepares himself for another frantic excuse that most of his classmates have come to expect of him, before awkwardly leaving to find a place to change into his suit. Except, she smiles at him, and he’s left still at the top stuff, tugging the strap of his backpack with slight confusion. The last thing he anticipates is Rue genuinely wanting to hang out with him ( most people aside from the Decathlon team- excluding Flash- either think he’s weird, or don’t notice him at all ). 

   “Wait- REALLY?” For a moment, he considers telling her he has his internship, but he finds himself too surprised to try. “I mean– I…guess not, uh…there’s this really great sandwich place not too far from here? And like a million options for pizza. You’re…actually sure you want me to come, though?”

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“ if i didn’t want to hang out with you, i wouldn’t have asked. WEIRDO. “ she cocks her head to the side as she looks up at him from the bottom of the steps. the shock in his voice tells her he doesn’t get this very often, which doesn’t turn her away; NO ONE really asks her to be around as well. “ people don’t like you or something ? should i be WORRIED ? “ rue walks back up the steps to stand in front of him, sticking her hand out to him. “ show me the sandwich and i’ll be your BEST FRIEND or something so you won’t sound so freaked out the next time i ask you to go somewhere with me. DEAL ? “

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@naivefell​ said: ❛❛ Please stay with me tonight. I don’t want to be alone. ❜❜

“ uh, yeah, “ she props herself up for a moment, having been UNAWARE of cass’s mood. she’s mentally SMACKING herself for not having grasped it sooner. she lowers herself, letting the situation sink in.  “ of course. yeah, definitely. i’m here with you dude. not like i have ANYWHERE BETTER TO BE anyways, “ she offers a sheepish smile. “ you all right ? do you want to talk about it ? “

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@namedbear​ said: ❝  let me help with that.  ❞

if there was anything rue hated, it was asking for HELP. though that anger was directed at herself more than at anyone trying to help, she wasn’t the best at displaying gratitude. “ dude, i got it, all right ? I FUCKING GOT THIS. “ she tries to stand, her scarped knees and palms aching as she attempts to push herself up. the failed attempt makes her body HOT with embarrassment. she lowers herself back down, her body hitting the ground almost as hard as when she fell off her bike. she curls her body up, knees touching her chest with her arms wrapped around them. even this STUNG to do. it was a bad day. it was when EVERYTHING bad about her hit her. then the cement hit her. “ okay, maybe i don’t, “ she finally releases the words with a sigh. tears threatened to rolls down her cheeks. “ i don’t mean to sound like an asshole. it’s just NOT MY FUCKING DAY. “

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dumbthink​:

nadine didn’t really mind being new that much. sure, the beginning part kind of sucked, because she knew nothing, but everyone else knew absolutely nothing about her! and that was always fun. she’s kind of stuck at the point where she still knows no one, so she’s a little surprised by the random offer to be partners from someone she’s pretty sure she’s never spoken to before.

“well uh, sure. just gotta warn you, rue. i’m kind of like… a huge dumbass.” what a great introduction. “oh, and my name’s nadine.”

“ oh, yo, that’s perfect. SO AM I. “ she nods her head once, taking a seat on the stool next to the girl and putting her backpack onto the table. putting one foot up onto the seat to hug a knee to her chest ( her usual sitting position ), she turns her head to look the other in the eye. “ nadine. cool name. nice to meet you. i’m assuming you HATE IT HERE already ? “

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timidstrcngth​:

“ it is a—alr—alright , s—some—sometimes it is o–okay to n—not h—have an i—idea of w—what to do. “ valerie is still smiling , thinking that if she does , she will come off as non threatening , and like the woman could be assured that she is safe , and she is not being judged , and she never will be when valerie is involved.

she does what she can not to stare , though when the woman fidgets , valerie observes the movements , mirroring her own most of the time ;

she is very much active in her anxiety.

she hopes her expression is not too intimidating , like she is being overbearing and exaggerated , or come across like she is being condescending to the pain of others. she just wants to evoke as much calming feelings as she can. 

as the woman reacts to what is being inquired of her , valerie ponders if she should withdraw this and not ask too much of the woman ;

it is not her place to know anyway.

it is more to keep herself from comforting the woman , staying in her place.  she really did not wish to crowd her , though she did have to hold herself back a tiny bit from giving physical gestures of assurance. 

valerie tracks her with her hazel hues as the woman goes back and forth in what could mimic pacing.  in concern , valerie’s eyebrows furrow and her head tilts as she wonders if she should say anything else on this.

“ it is no p—prob—problem , m—miss. “ valerie tucks some of her hair behind her ear that has fallen into her vision. she scoots over so that the other has room to settle down so she is comfortable. “ if y—you n—-need to t—talk , i w—will l—list—listen. no j—judge—judgement. “ she states simply.

now that the woman is right next to her , she turns her head to the side to regard them so that she knows that she has all of valerie’s attention.

“ i j—just t—thou—thought that you n—need—needed s—-some—-someone , miss. e—every—-everyone does s—-some—-sometime. “ she adds , trying to not give too much consideration and make her feel uncomfortable. “ my a—apolo—apologies. my n—name is v—valerie. “ she raises her hand to wave , though then sets it down , feeling foolish. “ a—and you ? “ she returns , though she did not speak to many people , so she did not know if it was too ….

… intrusive ?

“ huh. i wish that logic worked most of the time, but seeing as i am CONSISTENTLY fucking up my own life and i’m only 18, i think some general idea of what to do would be nice. “ if it were possible to SLUMP your shoulders even more than rue already does in her natural stance, she would. her gaze looks the other dead in the eye until her voice stops, only to look in any other direction. EYE CONTACT was not easy for her when she isn’t speaking. “ thing is, though you’re being super nice and stuff, i don’t really know what to say or what i can say without coming off like a TOTAL DICK. no offense. “ a stranger asking her to talk about her feelings ? as nice of a gesture as it is, and as much as she appreciates it, rue barely speaks to her own family about what is running through her mind. this could take some TIME. “ valerie ? “ rue lifts her hand to return the sheepish wave. not waving, just holding her hand up. “ i’m RUE. it’s cool to meet you. “ she looks around them, noticing that the hall had become VOID of people. in the time they spoke, everyone went home. not that that was where she was planning on going after school anyways.  “ you NEW here or something ? “

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gonna try to answer asks and replies today. im terrible lol. but dm me if you wanna write on discord or something too

[memesrusrpr]

soft caring sentence compilation

❛❛ I took your hoodie and I’m not giving it back. ❜❜ 

❛❛ Please just… just hold me. ❜❜ 

❛❛ C’mere. Lean on me. ❜❜

❛❛ You look like you need a hug. Come here. ❜❜ 

❛❛ I’m never leaving this blanket nest ever again. ❜❜

❛❛ I know you don’t like hugs, but… I could really use one right now… ❜❜

❛❛ Just stay a little longer. Please. ❜❜

❛❛ It’s so cold outside, but you’re so warm… ❜❜

❛❛ I’m sorry. I should have asked first, just… it reminded me of you. ❜❜

❛❛ Let me hold you for a while. ❜❜

❛❛ It’s okay. I’ve got you. ❜❜

❛❛ Everything hurts. Being with you is the only good thing in the world anymore. ❜❜

❛❛ Hey, hey, don’t cry. It’s okay. C’mon, come sit under the blanket with me. ❜❜

❛❛ All I want to do is sit and eat cookies and watch cheesy romcoms right now. But I’d love some company. ❜❜

❛❛ I brought blankets, takeout, and your favourite movie. I know it won’t fix everything, but it might help. ❜❜

❛❛ Please stay with me tonight. I don’t want to be alone. ❜❜

❛❛ I made some tea. Now, do you need to talk? Or should I just put on some music? ❜❜

❛❛ I’m not going to leave. I’ll stay as long as you need me to. ❜❜

❛❛ Your hair’s soft… I just want to pet it until I forget everything but how soft it is… ❜❜

❛❛ Shh, shh. It’s okay. You’re alright. You’re safe now. ❜❜

❛❛ I know you’re hurting right now, and I’m so sorry. Tell me what will help and I’ll do it. ❜❜

❛❛ I just want to see you smile again. ❜❜

❛❛ This is stupid but… could you sing to me? You have such a nice voice, and I think it might help calm me down… you don’t have to, but… ❜❜

❛❛ Lay your head in my lap and try to get some rest. ❜❜

❛❛ wait , did you just say you love me? ❜❜

❛❛ i’m so happy! ❜❜

❛❛ is this a gift for me? ❜❜

❛❛ hey! i’ve got something for you! wait right here! ❜❜

❛❛ i love you. ❜❜

❛❛ wow … your smile is breathtaking. ❜❜

❛❛ let me take you out on a date. ❜❜

❛❛ so what will it be tonight? ❜❜

❛❛ you know , you’re really cute. ❜❜

❛❛ shh … don’t cry. ❜❜

❛❛ so … do i get a goodnight kiss? ❜❜ 

❝  i’m here for you.  ❞

❝  let me help with that.  ❞

❝  i’m here.  ❞

❝  nothing’s gonna hurt you.  ❞

❝  if they do it again, you tell me.  ❞

❝  i’ll protect you. ❞

❝  i’ll make sure nothing bad happens to you.  ❞

❝  let me take a look…  ❞

❝  i’m a phone call away.  ❞

❝  you should have called me.  ❞

❝  here, sleep.  ❞

❝  if you wanna talk, i’m here.  ❞

❝  hey, shh, it’s okay.  ❞

❝  i’ll never let you go.  ❞

❝  you’re with me now.  ❞

❝  nothing’s gonna take you from my side.  ❞

❝  i’ll do what i have to.  ❞

❝  i need you to stay here, okay? i got this.  ❞

❝  it’s safe here.  ❞

❝  i’m fine, let me see your face.  ❞

❝  we’re gonna have to keep ice on that.  ❞

❝  i like seeing you smile.  ❞

❝  you’re so beautiful.  ❞

❝  you don’t have to talk, we can just sit together.  ❞

❝  i miss/missed you.  ❞

❝  let me do this for you.  ❞

❝  i’m on your side  ❞

❝  i’ve got your back, okay?  ❞ 

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ayo i been busy. 

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“ you didn’t come out of the womb an evil person. “

independent & selective rue bennett of euphoria penned by eimi previously found on sanmen tw: drug use

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skoolbully​:

he   hears   her   before   he   sees   her   ––   a   disembodied   voice   descending   from   a   night   sky   bathed   in   streetlights   ––   and   thinks   huh   .   .   .   god   really   is   a   woman   .   (   that’s   dope   .   )   he   grinds   to   a   stop   ,   plywood   scraping   along   weather-beaten   asphalt   /   the   flat   of   his   left   foot   catching   the   ground   .   a   puzzled   look   to   the   stars   ,   replaced   by   something   more   indignant   as   the   realization   dawns   on   him   :   this   isn’t   divine   intervention   .   (   it’s   just   some   other   kid   that’s   got   nowhere   better   to   be   at   a   time   when   anybody   worth   a   damn   is   tucked   away   under   300   thread-count   sheets   .   )

❛  you know only squirrels and ,  like ,  loser skids sleep in parks .  ❜     odds   are   she   probably   does   know   ,   because   most   people   who   eat   shit   can’t   get   the   taste   out   of   their   mouths   .   (   all   he   does   is   spell   it   out   for   them   in   bold   .   )   jimbo   cants   his   head   to   the   side   ,   squinting   brazenly   into   a   void   he   can’t   quite   see   .     ❛  ––––do you have to sit in a tree right now ?  right near where i’m trynna boardslide ?  ❜

her eyes shut tightly with the GRINDING of the board against the concrete. if she wasn’t feeling this stupid withdrawal right now, it probably would not have sounded like nails on a chalkboard, but it does. rue relaxes her face. she didn’t want to be a DICK so immediately, but it was hard to not be one right now. especially when upon opening her eyes, she sees he’s looking at the sky as if an ALIEN had just spoken to him rather than some JUNKIE. there is temptation to laugh, to call out and disappoint him with the bland fact that it truly was not alien or god speaking to him. JUST RUE. she doesn’t have to - his gaze finally lingers her way. “ losers ? i’ll take that, “ eyes roll with a shrug.  “ better than being some DUDE-BRO on a fucking skateboard disturbing the minuscule moments of PEACE humanity gets in a day. “ rue places her hands on both sides of herself, allowing her body to lower itself down to stand in front of him. he was tall. SHE HATES THAT. hands in her pockets, a glare that can only be described as lazy stares at him. “ in fact, i do. i do have to sit in a tree right now. while you’re tryna ‘ BOARDSLIDE ’ or whatever that shit means, “ she almost snickers at the name. “ don’t have time to do this during the day ? i probably would be nice to you if it was during the day when my brain can HANDLE IT. “

[acescaped-a-deactivated20220104]

there’s bound to be a ghost in the back of your closet, no matter where you live. THERE WILL ALWAYS BE A FEW THINGS, ( maybe several things ), that you’re gonna find pretty difficult to forgive … there’s gonna come a day when you feel better. you’ll rise up free and easy on that day. float from branch to branch, lighter than the air, but just when that day is coming, WHO CAN SAY?

an original character, written by sage. template credit.

[incorrecteuphoria]

Rue, throwing rocks at Jules' window:

Jules, shouting from her room: YOU HAVE A PHONE FOR A REASON

Rue: *throws her phone instead*

Jules: BITCH

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in need of more interactions with rue. like this for a starter?