sighhh realizing i'm too selfish, possessive and hateful for darlings, idk anymore if my "love" for anyone in the romantic sense can be genuine
if i don't own them, if they don't experience obsessive behavior half as much as i do, i can't feel attracted to them for long. clearly that's not the right way to love..
don't know if i'm a real yan anymore when i want someone to hurt without me more than i hurt without them. i admire yanderes whose obsession lives on for long regardless of everything, though i don't envy them with how bad it must feel sometimes
























