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[ryancrossfield]

356. shared space

When a relationship ends, a space opens between two people. Not empty, but inhabited by something only they can recognize.

It isn’t longing or regret. It’s heavier than nostalgia, quieter than grief. A private place that belongs solely to them — the place where their shared memories continue to live, untouched by time or new lives.

The moments they created don’t dissolve. They settle here, in this invisible but very real space that exists between them. The same laughter in the same kitchen, the same late-night drives, the same whispered vulnerabilities. All preserved exactly as they were, viewable only from inside that space. Even if they never speak of it again, the same memories remain in both minds, held in parallel, like twin echoes of a single life.

There’s an ache in knowing this exclusivity will never be replicated. But there’s also a strange tenderness in knowing that what they built was real, finite, and theirs alone. The space honors that without demanding anything. No contact. No explanation. No reopening of what once was.

They move separately through the world now, yet carry traces of each other in subtle, unspoken ways: a song that skips the heart, a street that feels layered with old footsteps, a habit that once belonged to “us” and lingers in “me.” Small proofs that the version of themselves they became together still exists somewhere inside.

They are linked forever, not by unfinished business or hope, but by the simple fact that there was once a shared life, and only the two of them fully witnessed it. The space between them holds that witness. It doesn’t ask to be filled or explained. It just quietly endures. Sacred in its existence. Intimate in its permanence.

[ryancrossfield]

unfinished…

You did not love me quietly.

You told me who I was to you. You said it without hesitation. You looked at me as if the truth of it surprised you.

That kind of love doesn’t vanish on its own.

Nothing happened that would justify its erasure. No betrayal. No fracture. Just time, familiarity, and two people slowly mirroring each other’s distance.

I don’t believe you stopped feeling. I believe you stopped staying.

I believe silence became easier than contact. I believe finding someone else made the question quieter, but still unanswered.

There are moments I know I cross your mind. Not dramatically. Not enough to act.

Just enough to be inconvenient.

I don’t think what we were is gone. I think it’s unfinished.

And I don’t know how to live as if something real was disproven when it was never tested to its end.

So I stay where I am. Not claiming hope. Not pretending finality.

Holding the knowledge that some loves don’t end. They’re carried forward, leaving the future unfinished too.

[ryancrossfield]

354. questioning bias

Most of us are searching for the right answers because being right helps us orient our lives. Certainty allows us to believe we are making the best possible decisions with the information we have. We want to know the right way to eat, the right way to think, the right way to live. We want to believe that if we gather enough information, follow the right people, or listen to the right authorities, we can arrive at conclusions solid enough to stand on. In a world that feels increasingly unstable, certainty functions like a handrail. It gives us something to hold onto so we can keep moving forward without the constant feeling that everything might fall apart.

The problem isn't that we want answers. The problem is how quickly we forget where those answers come from.

We grow up in a culture that teaches us there are right and wrong answers. In school, in work, in law, and in medicine, the world is presented as something absolute, something that can be mastered through accumulation. Learn enough. Study hard enough. And eventually, you will know enough to be right. That framework works well in certain domains. For example, take a stop sign. If we don't collectively agree to stop, people get hurt. The exact duration of the stop can be debated, but the rule itself must be shared, enforced, and largely unquestioned for society to function. In those cases, certainty isn't just helpful. It's necessary.

But once we move beyond basic coordination, certainty becomes harder to justify and easier to misuse. Questions about health, politics, morality, identity, or meaning don't submit to the same kind of clean resolution. They are shaped by experience, environment, incentives, and the information ecosystems we inhabit, most of which we didn't choose. Yet we often hold our personal conclusions in these areas as if they carry the same weight as collectively agreed-upon rules. We defend them with the same confidence and moral force, as though disagreement can only mean ignorance, irrationality, or bad faith.

That assumption starts to break down when you spend time with the ideas in How Minds Change. One of the book’s most useful contributions is not telling us what to think, but showing us how much of what we think is formed before we ever become aware of it. The world we experience isn't a direct, one-to-one copy of reality. It's a working model built by the brain, shaped by past experiences and used to make sense of incomplete information. Our expectations quietly guide what we notice and how we interpret it, long before we form conscious beliefs about what we're seeing.

The example that makes this hard to ignore is the image known as “the dress,” where some people saw white and gold while others saw black and blue. What made the moment unsettling wasn't simply that people disagreed. It was that each side felt certain. There was no sense of ambiguity. No awareness that interpretation was happening at all. Just the strong impression that the truth was obvious, and that anyone who saw it differently must be mistaken. The same image entered everyone’s eyes, yet different brains arrived at different conclusions based on past experience with lighting conditions, all without conscious awareness. What felt like objective perception was, in reality, interpretation doing its work quietly and convincingly.

Follow-up research showed that people who spent more time under artificial lighting were more likely to see the dress as black and blue, while those more accustomed to natural daylight were more likely to see it as white and gold. The brain wasn't simply receiving information. It was adjusting what it saw based on what it expected the lighting to be, filling in gaps automatically. No one experienced this as guessing. The uncertainty never reached conscious thought. By the time awareness showed up, the conclusion already felt settled.

This example matters because it reveals something uncomfortable. If our brains routinely resolve uncertainty for us without letting us know, then confidence isn't evidence that we are right. It's often just evidence that our mind has landed on an answer and moved on. Once that happens, we stop looking. We stop asking what else might be true. We stop noticing the assumptions built into our conclusions. What feels like clarity is often just the relief of having an answer.

This is where ideas like these are often misunderstood and reduced to the phrase “everyone has their own reality.” On the surface, it sounds compassionate. But taken too far, it becomes a way to excuse intellectual laziness or justify disruption without responsibility. Societies can't function without shared structures. We can't all decide independently what a red light means. We can't coordinate complex systems if every disagreement is treated as equally valid simply because it feels sincere. Subjectivity explains why people disagree. It doesn't erase the consequences of what we choose to challenge or uphold.

The more honest position lives in the tension between these two truths. We need shared agreements in order to live together, and we also need humility about how our personal convictions were formed. Bias itself is not the problem. Bias is unavoidable. It's how we orient ourselves in a complex world. The problem is forgetting that our bias is doing that work at all, and then mistaking that orientation for absolute truth.

This is where the ideas in the book become unintentionally revealing. A framework designed to show how flexible belief can be can quietly create the illusion that once you understand it, you have somehow stepped outside of it. When we learn how beliefs form, it becomes tempting to think those forces explain other people more than they explain us. But recognizing a tendency doesn't remove it. Understanding how beliefs take shape doesn't place us above the process. In some cases, it simply gives us better language to defend what we already believe.

That doesn't make the framework useless. It makes it human. The moment we try to explain anything, we adopt a perspective. And perspective always carries authority. This isn't a personal failure. It's structural. But noticing it matters, because it prevents insight from quietly hardening into another unquestioned certainty.

What all of this leaves us with isn't the idea that nothing is true, but the responsibility to examine how we arrived at what we believe. You're allowed to have opinions. You're allowed to believe some explanations are better than others. You're allowed to act on those beliefs and advocate for them. What you can't do, if you take this seriously, is pretend that your certainty arrived untouched. There is a difference between a belief shaped through lived experience and reflection, and a belief held simply because it was repeated often enough or delivered by an authority and never questioned. A belief may still be useful, but usefulness is not the same thing as understanding.

The harder work isn't eliminating bias. It's staying curious about it. Asking why a belief feels non-negotiable. Asking what would feel threatened if it turned out to be incomplete. Asking whether a disagreement is really about facts, or about identity, safety, and the need to feel oriented in the world. Some disagreements should be challenged because they undermine shared structure or cause harm. Others should be tolerated because they represent different ways of making sense of the same uncertainty. Knowing the difference requires more than information. It requires restraint.

The goal isn't to live without bias. That is impossible. The goal is to hold our bias lightly enough that it doesn't harden into dogma, and firmly enough that it still allows us to act. Certainty will always be tempting because it makes life feel manageable. But if there is one thing worth carrying forward, it's this: feeling right is not the same as being right, and the moment our certainty feels most obvious is often the moment it deserves the most scrutiny.

[ryancrossfield]

I’ve been in relationships for most of my life, or at least moving toward them. I enjoy companionship. I like sharing space, sharing days, sharing the small moments that make life feel ordinary. In practice though, I spend most of my time alone. When I’m not in a relationship, my life contracts. I don’t have a wide social circle. I don’t spread myself out across friendships, routines, or communities. I move through my days quietly, waiting. Solitude is familiar to me, but it has never felt like home.

When I do find someone I can center my life around, everything consolidates. That person becomes my world. Friend, lover, confidant, emotional anchor. I don’t feel lonely then, even if from the outside it might look like my life has narrowed. With my person, I feel safe. Life makes sense. I have direction. Without them, I feel untethered, not because I don’t know how to be alone in a literal sense, but because aloneness has never felt like a place where I fully belong, even though I spend so much of my time there.

When I am in a committed relationship, I don’t necessarily feel more like myself in someone’s presence, but I feel accepted. I feel allowed to exist without bracing. And if I’m honest, I don’t just wake up in that presence. I slowly disappear into it. Not intentionally, not in a way that feels dramatic at the time, but through a quiet drift. Feeling seen is the deepest form of relief I know. When someone reflects me back to myself, when my presence is noticed and responded to, the attachment deepens. Over time, I start placing more and more of myself there, until their attention becomes the place where I locate my sense of being real.

Over time, I’ve started to notice that my sense of self has never lived entirely inside me. That doesn’t mean I lack an inner world, personal values, or interests of my own. I do. Parts of me feel alive in isolation. But life itself feels hollow when it isn’t shared with someone. The parts of me that feel most coherent, most grounded, most oriented don’t stay fully accessible on their own. They tend to come online in the presence of another person.

When there is mutual attention, curiosity, and responsiveness, something in me settles into place. I don’t have to search for myself. I don’t have to perform. I feel alive without effort. Oriented. There’s a felt sense that I’m landing somewhere, that my presence is registering. I don’t just understand that I matter. I feel it in my body. And when that mirror disappears, it isn’t that everything goes quiet. It’s that something essential slips out of reach. The loss isn’t only of the person. It’s the loss of access to myself.

This way of being is often misunderstood. In a culture that treats self-sufficiency as maturity, it can look like dependence from the outside. From the inside, it feels less like neediness and more like regulation. My nervous system settles through emotional presence, choice, and reciprocity. When those are there, my body relaxes. When they’re gone, the absence doesn’t register as ordinary sadness. It feels like threat. Not dramatic threat, but something physical and disorganizing. The kind that makes it hard to care about things that once felt important. It isn’t that I suddenly stop valuing certain things. It’s that without grounding, they lose their magnetism. I feel unanchored, and without that footing, I don’t know how to stay engaged.

When access to myself can vanish that completely, the risk becomes impossible to ignore. Over time, I started trying to outrun the pain that came every time connection disappeared. If being chosen felt like safety, then the obvious solution was to become as un-leavable as possible. Self-improvement, discipline, emotional insight, generosity, competence, fitness. These weren’t aesthetic pursuits or ego projects. They were attempts to stabilize connection. If I could become undeniably great, maybe the ground wouldn’t drop out from under me again. If I could remove reasons someone might leave, perhaps connection would finally last.

And in some ways, this worked. I’ve become very good at attracting people. I know how to show up. I know how to listen, to care, to be present. Where things tend to fall apart is not at the beginning, but later, when safety settles in. I lose a part of myself inside the security of another, not because I stop caring or stop trying, but because I don’t actually know how to grow with someone once safety is established. I know how to become better for myself. I don’t know how to integrate that growth into a shared life. When I struggle, the other person often leaves rather than staying long enough for us to figure out a way through it together, and while I understand that it isn’t anyone’s responsibility to save me, it still hurts. Often, it’s devastating. My attachment bond runs deep. Deeper than anything I’ve experienced mirrored back. I would do almost anything to help the person I love through a challenging moment, and I keep hoping to find someone whose bond runs just as deep. The problem is, you don’t find that out until you’re already in it, no matter how well you show up at the start.

The strategy of becoming exceptional works until it collides with reality. No amount of excellence can override incompatibility, values, or another person’s limits. And when a relationship ends for those reasons, my system doesn’t experience it as a neutral mismatch. It experiences it as failure. Not because that interpretation is necessarily accurate, but because when safety is tied to being chosen, loss gets translated into inadequacy whether it belongs there or not.

What makes this especially destabilizing is that my identity itself is relational. When I’m with someone, I feel alive, capable, generous, and grounded. There is structure, orientation, an emotional gravity that pulls everything into alignment. When that bond disappears, the collapse isn’t gradual. It’s abrupt and total. The scaffolding goes all at once. Not just the relationship, but the role I was inhabiting, the feedback loop that quietly said: "I exist, I matter, I’m good." Endings don’t feel merely sad. They feel existential, because I’m not only grieving someone else. I’m grieving access to the version of myself that felt most alive, the version that laughed more easily, moved more freely, and felt more free to walk through the world.

This pattern shows up in how I relate to intimacy and meaning as well. My attraction to being deeply attuned to another person’s experience, to finding purpose in responsiveness, trust, and connectedness, isn’t incidental. It’s just how I organize significance. I feel most myself when someone feels seen and safe with me, when their experience is in dialogue with my presence. Not through control. Not through power. Through resonance and choice. When that loop is active, I know who I am.

The danger doesn’t seem to be this orientation itself. It’s how singular it’s been. When one person becomes the sole mirror, the sole place where that version of me can exist, there is no fading out when they leave. Everything just goes black.

This is why advice like “learn to be alone” or “learn to sit with yourself” has always felt trite. Being alone doesn’t feel neutral to me. It feels like falling out of coherence. I don’t calmly reflect. I don’t rest. I search. Compulsively. For connection, for stimulation, for anything that restores the feeling of being seen. Reading feels pointless. Working out feels empty. Eating feels irrelevant. These things don’t regulate attachment. They don’t mirror me back to myself. So my system rejects them, not out of laziness, but out of disorientation.

I don’t know exactly when or how this formed, but when I look back at my upbringing, some threads start to make sense. I don’t think I ever really learned how to be alone without interpreting it as abandonment. I don’t think I learned how to feel separate without feeling unsafe. My mother was anxious, emotionally consuming, often positioned as the victim, and I learned early how to adjust myself to keep her regulated. I wasn’t mirrored. I was needed. I wasn’t seen. I was tended to. I learned how to be good, how to be accommodating, how to earn calm by managing someone else’s emotional state. That kind of environment doesn’t teach you how to merge with another adult in a healthy way later. It teaches you how to perform for safety, not how to grow alongside someone who already loves you.

And there’s a paradox here that still confuses me. When I finally feel deeply loved and accepted, my nervous system settles. The frantic searching quiets. But instead of that safety becoming a foundation for shared growth, I often don’t know how to integrate my inner world with another person’s life. I keep growing independently. I read books. I eat well. I work on myself. But I don’t know how to weave that growth into the relationship. I think this is part of what happened in my past relationships. We didn’t grow together. We grew apart. Not because I didn’t love them or didn’t want to try, but because I didn’t know how to integrate myself with someone else once the chase for safety was over.

That’s led me to another uncomfortable truth. Because being chosen feels like safety, I’ve often been willing to look past incompatibility in the past simply to preserve connection. I’ve stayed longer than I should have. I’ve softened my edges. I’ve tolerated misalignment because the alternative felt like disappearance. Being chosen mattered more than being matched, and by the time I could see that clearly, I was already deeply attached.

I don’t think the universe is telling me that I’m broken. I think it’s showing me a pattern that can no longer be ignored. My sense of safety has lived inside singular relationships for a long time. When they disappear, I collapse, not because I’m incapable of being alone, but because too much of me has been living in one place. That makes sense when I look at where I came from, even if I don’t know exactly how to change it yet.

I don’t know what’s going to work. I don’t know how to build a life where connection still matters deeply, but isn’t the only thing holding me together. I don’t know how to remain myself when connection is interrupted rather than disappearing until it returns. What I do know is that I don’t want to become less relational. I don’t want to harden or detach or pretend I don’t need people. I want to understand how to stay present with myself so that connection can enrich my life instead of being the sole source of it.

I’m not broken because something is fundamentally wrong with me. I’m undone because my capacity for connection is large, and right now it doesn’t have anywhere sustainable to land. I don’t yet know how to distribute that capacity differently. I only know that pretending it doesn’t exist hasn’t worked, and neither has giving it entirely to one person at a time.

This isn’t a conclusion. It’s a starting point.

[ryancrossfield]

352. what i lost, what i found

This isn’t a story about blame or loss alone. It’s an attempt to understand what was revealed when something I didn’t know was missing finally appeared, and then disappeared.

I didn’t just fall apart because a relationship ended. I fell apart because I finally learned what it felt like to exist without fear, and then I didn’t know how to move through the world once the armor that had always protected me fell away.

For most of my life, connection came with effort. I learned early that closeness required adjustment, that needs had to be managed, that belonging was conditional. I didn’t think of this as deprivation. It was simply how the world worked. You adapt. You carry yourself. You don’t ask for more than what’s available.

Then, without realizing it, I entered a relationship where something different happened.

I didn’t have to monitor the room. I didn’t need to perform to be seen. I didn’t need to adapt to stay connected. I didn’t have to explain myself into safety.

My body stopped bracing.

That was the part that changed everything. Not the romance, not the plans, not the future I imagined. It was the quiet relief of realizing I didn’t need to fight to earn my place next to someone.

When you’ve never been accepted without effort before, something strange happens when it finally occurs. My system exhaled, because the fight was finally over. I felt seen, and I relaxed into who I was being accepted as. But because fear of loss and the pursuit of acceptance had always been the engine behind my growth, once that pressure dissolved, I didn’t yet know how to move forward without it.

So, in hindsight, it may have looked like I stopped trying. Like I became passive or complacent. But what actually happened is that the old software that pushed me forward, one programmed by fear of loss, quickly became outdated in an environment it wasn’t designed to operate in, and I didn’t yet have the awareness to build a new one grounded in choice instead of survival.

I didn’t know that state existed. But it was something I had always wanted without the language to even define it. A quiet, lifelong search for acceptance and belonging. What I was actually searching for was a place where my nervous system could stand down.

With her, it did.

What I didn’t understand at the time was that safety didn’t automatically bring skill with it. Fear no longer drove my growth, but it still governed my voice. I felt free from pressure, yet unsure how to move forward without it. I wanted to grow, to show up more fully, to become someone she could be proud of, but I didn’t yet know how to do that without the same mechanisms that had always kept me braced.

It felt simple in a way love had never felt simple before, unfamiliar but unmistakably right, like finally standing somewhere I didn’t need to justify.

That doesn’t mean the relationship was perfect. It wasn’t. But mostly because I didn’t know how to articulate what I needed. I didn’t know how to say I was struggling. I didn’t know how to ask for help without feeling like I was a burden. I carried things internally, the way I always had, until the weight of it all showed up as distance.

Objectively, that may sound confusing, but internally it wasn’t. I felt safe enough to stop protecting myself, but not yet skilled enough to translate that safety into words. Safety arrived before I developed the language to live inside it.

And by the time I found the words, the ground was already giving way.

This is the part that’s hardest to hold without turning it into self-blame. When I finally relaxed into being myself, I didn’t yet know how to grow inside that safety. I stopped seeking guidance elsewhere because her presence felt like everything I had been searching for. That safety was real, and it mattered, but it was not meant to replace my own movement forward. Without realizing it, I unconsciously leaned on her presence to replace forward motion.

Without that continued growth, the weight of what I hadn’t yet learned to carry myself began to surface, and the relationship couldn’t hold it. I didn’t realize how much I had quietly and unknowingly begun to rely on her to hold what I was only just learning to carry myself.

From the inside, this feels indistinguishable from conditional love. It feels as though acceptance existed only while I remained a certain way, and disappeared the moment I needed more.

What I’m slowly learning to see is that the safety was real, but the capacity to hold everything that surfaced once I stopped moving forward had a limit. That distinction matters, even if my nervous system still struggles to feel it.

When it ended, the loss didn’t feel like heartbreak in the traditional sense. It felt like disorientation. Like gravity had shut off. Like the internal compass I had just discovered no longer pointed anywhere.

I didn’t just lose a person I wanted a lifetime with. I lost orientation.

This loss doesn’t live in a memory or a place I can avoid. It lives everywhere, altering the background of everything.

It isn’t something I carry through life. It’s something life is now carrying through me.

My entire existence feels the loss.

That’s why the grief feels all-consuming. I’m not mourning what was. I am mourning the first experience of belonging that didn’t require effort. I’m mourning the version of myself that existed when my body believed it was allowed to rest.

What makes it harder is the silence. There’s an echo that reverberates through the space where connection once lived, and I’m left alone with its absence. It doesn’t just hurt. It makes you doubt your own memory. It makes you question how something that felt so real could end, how two people could stand in the same depth and leave it carrying different weights.

Nothing was owed. Still, the loss sharpens in the quiet, not because of what was taken, but because of what was never spoken. I still don’t understand what happened. I was willing to stay with the discomfort long enough to understand it, to fight for clarity, to try to make sense of what was breaking, to remain present long enough for a different ending to become possible. When that willingness wasn’t shared, the devastation didn’t come from rejection alone, but from being left to carry the meaning of what we were without a shared closing.

I know better than to turn that into blame. And, any silence can likely be attributed to overwhelm, not cruelty. But, my body hears something older. It hears absence where there was once presence. It hears abandonment in a way that feels older than thought, even when my mind knows better.

I’m trying to tell this story honestly, without turning her into a symbol or myself as a victim.

What she gave me was not something she owed. What I felt was not a mistake. What I lost was real.

The work now isn’t to recreate the relationship or erase it. The work is to learn how to become a place my own system can stand down, so that belonging is not borrowed from another person, but shared with them. Safety does not mean stagnation. If I am ever to feel this kind of belonging again, I know now that rest cannot replace growth, and acceptance cannot stand in for the ongoing work of becoming who I want to be.

I don’t regret loving deeply. I don’t regret being changed by it. I only regret that I didn’t know sooner how to hold myself with the same care I was learning how to feel.

And it felt like home.

This loss doesn’t mean I missed my only chance at home. It also doesn’t guarantee I will find it again. But it does mean I finally learned what home feels like.

And learning that, even through grief, is not nothing.

[ryancrossfield]

351. you’ll be all right

She said, “you’ll be alright.”

But what she really meant was that she needed to believe I would survive without her, so she could leave.

I nodded as though her reassurance hadn't punched a void straight through me.

What she couldn’t understand is that something inside me didn’t just break. It vanished. And what vanished wasn’t just her. It was the life that had already started forming around us.

The truth is, I don’t want to be all right. I want the place inside myself that finally stopped bracing. I want the version of me that existed when belonging felt possible.

I move through the world imitating someone unbroken. I answer emails. I stand in line. I nod at strangers. But inside, everything is screaming.

There is a constant pressure in my chest, like something is trying to claw its way out. I can’t breathe deeply anymore. My body doesn’t remember how. The ache is so constant it feels like a second heartbeat.

I don’t miss her the way you miss a person. I miss her the way you miss oxygen. Like something essential was removed and now every breath is shallow, conscious, and incomplete.

I don’t know where to put myself. Every place feels wrong. Every room feels temporary. I sit down and immediately want to stand back up because nothing feels like it belongs to me anymore.

I didn’t lose a person. I lost the gravity her love provided, and now everything in me drifts, panicked, reaching for something that no longer pulls back.

My body keeps asking the same question my mind can’t answer: where is home?

This pain doesn’t come in waves that crash and recede. It just an endless swell that keeps building. Each moment adds more weight, more pressure, with no release. Just more and more and more.

I hold it together until I don’t. There are moments when my body collapses into the grief without warning. In the car. In the shower. Standing still with nowhere to go. I don’t plan it. It just happens.

There’s a hollowness underneath all of it. Not loud. Not sharp. Just empty. Like something fundamental was removed and nothing was put in its place.

I gave everything I had. I didn’t hide. I didn’t blame. I didn’t demand. I spoke the truth with my whole soul.  And the silence that followed didn’t just hurt. It erased.

I hate that the silence makes me doubt my own memory. Like the safest place I’ve ever known was never real enough to deserve a “goodbye.”

Silence is not neutral. Silence is a message your nervous system interprets as abandonment. It tells you that your pain has nowhere to land, nowhere it can be explained enough to rest.

I walk around carrying something unbearable, while everyone else keeps living like breathing is automatic. Like home is still a place you can return to.

I am not all right. I am not healing. I am just surviving minute to minute inside a body that no longer feels safe to inhabit.

This is not a breakup. This is the loss of the only place I ever truly felt safe.

And I don’t know how to build a life when the thing that made it finally feel livable is gone.

[ryancrossfield]

349. drift

Every so often life delivers a shock to your system. Not the kind that comes from a single random moment, but the kind that exposes the slow drift that has been happening underneath. We like to believe we stay the course, yet the truth is less flattering. We drift. We get complacent. We overlook the small cracks because they don’t announce themselves. And they widen quietly.

Emily Dickinson once wrote that “crumbling is not an instant’s act,” and she was right. Collapse is never sudden. Things rarely fall apart all at once. It happens in the unnoticed space between intention and action, between what we meant to do and what we allowed to slip. Then something breaks the momentum. A jarring moment cuts through the noise and forces you to see what you ignored. It can feel like hitting the brakes too late, or realizing someone had been hurting long before you ever thought to pay attention. In the end, it’s recognizing too late that the distance between where you started and where you ended up has grown larger than you ever meant for it to be. Without that disruption, many of us would keep moving on autopilot, convinced that everything is fine because nothing has exploded yet.

Awareness lives on the other side of that disruption. It’s uncomfortable, but it’s honest. When the pattern shatters, you can’t pretend anymore. You see what your habits protected you from seeing. You also see that what feels like a sudden collapse is almost never sudden at all. It’s the final expression of everything you ignored along the way. And once you see it, you cannot unsee it. Responsibility begins here, not in shame, but in understanding how you lost your way and how easily it can happen when you stop tending to what matters. Once the awareness arrives, you have to face the distance that grew while you were not paying attention.

And some distances are harder to face than others. When you end up farther from the person you intended to be, the space between who you were and who you became can feel impossible to close. Some rifts run too deep for repair. Yet others split open just enough to teach you something, the kind of detour that becomes the catalyst for the clarity you were missing. The hope isn’t to return to how things were. The hope is to return changed, with a better understanding of what matters so you don’t lose your way in the same manner again.

All this makes me think about a Japanese tradition called kintsugi. It’s the art of repairing broken pottery by rejoining the cracks with gold. The piece doesn’t return to what it was, but becomes something shaped by its history. Our own breaks work the same way. The lessons that come from those moments become the material that strengthens the weaker parts of our character. They reveal what we overlooked and what can no longer go unattended. And when you look closely at what the break exposed, you begin to understand how to move forward with more clarity than you had before.

And perhaps the hardest part about breaks is when they involve another person… the rules change. It’s no longer you holding a mirror up to yourself, it’s seeing your reflection in someone else’s pain and realizing what you missed. Some fractures reach a point where repair is no longer possible, no matter how much clarity is found afterward. The break can be so severe that no piece of the mirror is large enough to hold the two of you anymore. Others crack just wide enough to repair, if both people still see a way back. The distance revealed in those moments determines whether something can be mended or whether the lesson is all that remains.

The uncomfortable truth is that something has to give before awareness can surface. Things break because people lose their way, and in the aftermath comes the choice of how to move forward. Real growth is rare and often painful because it forces you to confront the gap between who you were and who you want to become, and that mirror is never easy to face. But that confrontation is often what breaks you open. The pain and the understanding arrive together, each shaping who you become next. You cannot predict where it will lead, but you can choose what you carry forward. In that choice, something better becomes possible.

[ryancrossfield]

349. crisis & clarity

Every so often life delivers a shock to the system. Not the kind that comes from a single dramatic moment, but the kind that exposes the slow drift that has been happening underneath. We like to believe we stay the course, yet the truth is simpler and less flattering. We drift. We get complacent. We forget to pay attention to the small cracks because they do not announce themselves. They widen quietly.

Crumbling is rarely sudden. It happens in the unnoticed space between intention and action, between what we meant to do and what we allowed to slip. Then something breaks the rhythm. A jarring moment cuts through the noise and forces us to see what we ignored. It can feel like hitting the brakes too late, or realizing too late that the distance between where we started and where we ended up has grown larger than we ever meant for it to be. The shock hurts, but without it many of us would keep moving on autopilot, convinced that everything is fine because nothing has exploded yet.

Awareness lives on the other side of that disruption. It is uncomfortable, but it is also honest. When the familiar pattern shatters, you cannot pretend anymore. You see what your habits protected you from seeing. You see the part you played. And once you see it, you cannot unsee it. That is where responsibility begins. Not in shame, but in understanding how you lost your way and how easily the drift can happen when you stop tending to the things that matter.

There is a distance that becomes dangerous. If the drift goes too far, the gap between who you were and who you became can feel impossible to cross. Some breaks are so severe that repair is no longer an option. But not every fracture reaches that point. There is a space where things split open enough to teach you something, but not so violently that you cannot trace your way back with new clarity. The hope is not to return to how things were. The hope is to return wiser and more intentional, carrying the awareness that the drift does not have to happen again.

I keep thinking about the idea of Kintsugi: the art of repairing what has cracked and sealing it with gold. The beauty is not in avoiding the break but in honoring what it revealed. The repaired piece does not hide its history. It wears it. It becomes stronger because someone cared enough to mend it. That kind of repair is not guaranteed in life, but the lesson is always available. You learn where the weak points were. You learn who you were when you stopped paying attention. And if the distance is not too great, you learn how to build something sturdier than what existed before.

This is the uncomfortable truth of growth. Things break. People lose their way. Patterns collapse. But sometimes those moments are the very thing that wakes you up and shows you who you want to become. The shock may hurt, but the clarity that follows can be the beginning of something better, if you choose to let it reshape you.

[ryancrossfield]

348. work more?

The other day I was at home, enjoying a moment of stillness. My girlfriend paused in the middle of her busy work-from-home day and asked why I wasn’t working. I told her I didn’t have any work to do. Without hesitation she said, “maybe it’s time to get another job.” She didn’t mean it harshly, but it gave me pause.

We aren’t facing financial issues. We live in a spacious apartment in one of the most expensive counties in the country. We can afford high-quality food for ourselves and our animals, and we still have enough left over for going out or traveling now and then. My work sustains my part in this lifestyle, so why would I take on more just to fill time? She didn’t suggest a hobby or some creative pursuit, her first instinct was to recommend more work. That response made me wonder how we’ve come to see work, and why our views of it can feel so different.

Her situation is different than mine. She doesn’t like her job, it takes up most of her time, and it still doesn’t pay enough to support the lifestyle she has. That lifestyle is propped up by her parents, who cover the gap. What struck me as ironic was that she has criticized capitalism and the grind that comes with it, yet she was the one telling me to take on more work. That contrast sharpened when I thought about my own perspective. I lean more conservative, working in an industry where outcomes are tied directly to effort, and yet I’m the one asking why I should chase more if I already have enough. That tension between us reflects something much bigger.

For most of human history, work was never treated as the centerpiece of life. In many societies, people worked until their basic needs were met and then stopped. If the harvest was good or wages were sufficient, there was no expectation to keep grinding simply for the sake of it. Leisure, reflection, and creativity were not seen as wasted time, they were the point of living.

The Greeks captured this most clearly. Work was considered a burden, something endured so that higher pursuits could be possible. Aristotle believed the money-making life was unnatural, a distraction from what truly mattered: contemplating one’s place in the cosmos, seeking wisdom, and cultivating expression. To him, flourishing came not from endless labor, but from the freedom to think and create.

That perspective carried into early Christian thought, though framed differently. Work was treated as duty, but in a limited sense — enough to sustain oneself, family, and community. Genesis cast labor as punishment, a consequence of Adam’s fall, while St. Paul warned that idleness was shameful: “He who shall not work shall not eat.” Thomas Aquinas added that labor was necessary only “by natural reason” to support survival. In all of these cases, the point was not to glorify work in itself, but to keep life in balance: contribution without obsession.

The great shift came during the Protestant Reformation. Luther and Calvin recast labor as a “calling,” where pouring yourself into your work became a sign of faith and a way to honor God. For the first time, labor itself was elevated as a measure of moral worth. This gave individuals freedom from the authority of the Church to mediate their relationship with God, but it also introduced a new kind of anxiety: when life’s meaning became tied to work, there was never a clear way to know if you were doing enough.

By the mid-20th century, Erich Fromm noted how deeply this change had taken hold. In Northern Europe, he observed, people had developed an “obsessional craving to work” — something unknown to free men before the Reformation. In a sense, people had traded one master, the Church, for another: their vocation. Along with greater self-determination came the insecurity of never knowing whether one’s labor was sufficient or worthy.

That anxiety hasn’t disappeared. Over the centuries, the religious frame has faded, but the expectation has not. The religious language may have faded, but the pressure to work never eased. Today, we still hear its echoes everywhere. Some voices preach duty in the form of hustle: wake before everyone else, work into the night, make work your identity. Others frame it as destiny: discover your personal calling, throw yourself into it completely, and let it define who you are. Either way, the conclusion is the same, work is the organizing principle of life, the thing that gives it meaning.

We may think of hustle culture as modern, but history seems to explain why her reaction felt so natural. She was giving voice to a worldview we’ve all inherited: that more work is always the answer. I guess I missed the memo! My work is enough, and I’m comfortable letting free time be free. She, on the other hand, may feel trapped by a job she doesn’t like and a lifestyle she can’t fully afford, so more work seems like the only answer. The paradox is that her critique of capitalism doesn’t release her from its logic, while my supposedly more conservative outlook lets me embrace a sufficiency that feels almost rebellious. It leaves me asking not why I don’t work more, but why we’ve been conditioned to believe that constant work is the only path to a meaningful life.

[nevver]

Once upon a time in the West, Hayley Eichenbaum

[nevver]

Orange you glad, George Townley

[ryancrossfield]

The Protocols of Social Fitness

As a means to improve social connectivity, I have assembled a social fitness regimen. Many of these practices may seem very simple, however, the net impact is inestimable.

Five minutes every day: In 1987, AT&T released a commercial set to the jingle, “Reach out and touch someone.” Billy has gone off to college and is feeling lonely and nostalgic. He pecks out his home number on the analog keypad and his mother picks up. Billy is lighthearted, but his mother senses his wistfulness. Billy feels heard and seen.

Take five minutes every day to connect with a relative or friend. Like the vegetables in your garden, your relationships cannot thrive unless they are nurtured. If needed, you can set an automatic reminder on your incredibly smart phone.

Answer the phone: Pick up when a loved one rings even if you “can’t talk.” Instead of exchanging an endless stream of texts, tell them that you’ll return their call as soon as possible.

Forge in-person connection: Don’t mistake virtual connection for the real thing. Despite the ever-increasing opportunities to connect online, Americans report having fewer friends than they did decades ago. Connection relies on more than the content of what someone is saying. We evolved to “dance” in conversation. We read body language and vocal intonation. We connect through eye contact, mimicking body movements, nodding along, and, of course, through offering each other touch and physical affection.

Practice Random Acts of Kindness: These acts are spontaneous and unpremeditated gestures of friendliness and generosity. They are often simple. A smile to a stranger, public recognition of a co-worker, picking up litter on the street, or leaving a good tip. These deeds may seem small and token, but what is the human condition except an aggregate of billions of small actions?

Cultivate compassion: Identify someone else’s suffering as your own and actively work to alleviate that pain. Compassion is an experience of interbeing. When you viscerally feel someone else’s pain, you transcend self and feel connected to something bigger.

Empathetic joy: Experience joy solely for someone else’s joy without envy or jealousy. When we witness the achievements of others, we often project our feelings of our own unfulfilled potential onto that person. This results in envy or resentment. Don’t compare. Celebrate the accomplishments of others.

Serve: Service to others through volunteering or providing assistance plays a crucial role in social fitness. Serving others can increase empathy and understanding as it often involves interacting with individuals who may be different from us or in situations unlike our own. We can find deep satisfaction in knowing that we are making a positive difference in the lives of others. Service activities often involve collaborating with others, which can create opportunities for social connection. This can help individuals feel more connected to their communities and can foster a sense of social belonging.

Build communication skills: In my 20s, I ran a record label, and our music was big in Japan. I traveled to Tokyo many times for business. My trips were packed with meetings with record executives. I would ramble on and on, passionately extolling the virtues of a new record or signing. When I finished, there was nothing. Silence. Of course, at first, the lack of response was discombobulating, and I felt the need to awkwardly fill the emptiness. Eventually, I learned that the pregnant pause was actually an indication of respect. My counterpart had listened thoroughly and was now processing an appropriate response.

The Japanese listen to understand, not to respond. When someone else is talking, we tend to formulate our rejoinder and only partially listen. Try to pay full attention to others without any compulsion to reply. Show others that you are invested in their feelings through active listening.

At the same time, when you do speak, practice clear, assertive, and respectful communication. This includes both verbal and nonverbal cues, such as body language and tone of voice.

Foster conflict resolution skills: You can practice the middle way by bringing opposing positions together. Reframe the concept of “winning” away from trying to elicit an admission of defeat and toward fostering compromise and cooperation. Admit when you’re wrong and say you’re sorry. Learn to forgive and move on.

Give the gift of presence: In the age of the attention economy in which everyone and everything is vying for your conscious attention, the most precious gift you can give anyone is the present of presence. Be all there.

Teach through example: While our children and loved ones may never listen to us, they rarely fail to imitate us. Oftentimes, we want our influence to be explicit and direct but never underestimate the immeasurable value of just being there every day, of leading a life of example, of walking an honorable, if occasionally jagged, path such that there are footsteps in which to follow.

Solitude: Ironically, deliberate solitude is a means to social fitness. The French philosopher Blaise Pascal wrote, “All of humanity’s problems stem from man’s inability to sit quietly in a room alone.” So many of us are simply not comfortable alone. We immediately fidget or grab our phone. However, connection to self is a bridge to social connection.

[ryancrossfield]

347: paradoxical pyramid

We’ve all seen Maslow’s hierarchy of needs: food and shelter at the base, relationships somewhere in the middle, and “becoming your fullest self” at the top. On paper it makes sense, because if you were stranded on an island, survival would come first. But none of us live on islands. We're born into families, raised in groups, and sustained by communities. We didn’t stumble into existence alone; we were carried here by others. That’s where a paradox appears: Maslow was both right and wrong. His order works in isolation, but being human means we are never only individuals. At every moment we are both selves and members of groups, and the tension between the two never goes away. Sometimes we put ourselves first, sometimes we put the group first, but the real challenge is that we are always balancing both.

Culture, however, has leaned heavily into the individual side of the equation. The pyramid itself teaches us to see personal growth as higher than relationships, as if the individual were more important than the community. But that’s a distortion. Growth shouldn’t be thought of as outranking connection. A better way to see it is non-linear: the point of developing yourself is not to climb past relationships, but to cycle back to them with more depth. When we treat the pyramid like a straight staircase, people end up chasing improvement as if fulfillment will finally arrive at the “top.” But the higher you climb in isolation, the more you risk cutting yourself off from the very relationships that make life meaningful. That’s why so many overachievers grind endlessly, delay joy, and keep promising themselves that tomorrow they’ll feel complete. Yet tomorrow never comes.

If you need proof of how vital connection is, consider this: no one takes their life because they’ve missed a meal, but countless people have because they were lonely. Hunger may weaken the body, but loneliness starves the spirit. And what’s the point of reaching a peak if you sever the ties that give it meaning?

That’s a paradox we often overlook. We are never only individuals who sometimes come together, nor are we just members of groups who occasionally break away. We are both at once. The task isn’t to choose one or the other, but to move between them — sometimes tilting toward self, sometimes toward others, always finding rhythm in the tension. Growth matters, but not as a solitary summit. It is part of a cycle: self into community, community back into self. The pyramid itself suggests a straight-line ascent toward a pinnacle, but life rarely works that way. Growth doesn’t progress linearly, it moves in cycles. We return to the same themes of belonging, purpose, and joy again and again, each time at a deeper level. To confuse growth for a ladder is to miss how it really works: we rise by returning.

Where does that leave us? Well, the first step is awareness. We can only act differently once we recognize the paradox we’re living inside. Society tells us growth is about rising above, climbing higher than others, chasing meaning as if joy can wait. But nature reminds us that growth is cyclical, it's about bringing what we’ve gained back to the circle, and about refusing to sacrifice joy along the way. Becoming your fullest self isn’t a prize at the top of a pyramid. It’s the horizon we share, visible only when we walk toward it together.

[ryancrossfield]

346: trust people to be themselves

We spend an enormous amount of energy trying to predict people. We analyze motives, rehash past actions, and play out scenarios in our heads, hoping to anticipate what someone will do next. It feels like preparation, but in reality it is misplaced focus. The truth is often simpler: people show us who they are through their actions. Trusting that reality frees us from the endless work of trying to decode them.

DMX once put it bluntly: “Always trust people to be themselves, and trust in the fact that you can see them well.” Maya Angelou echoed the same principle with different words: “When someone shows you who they are, believe them the first time.” Both cut through the fog of appearances and promises. People’s words may sound convincing, but their consistent patterns of behavior reveal the truth of their character.

I’ve seen this firsthand in my coaching practice. Clients will come to me with passion in their voices, swearing they’ll do whatever it takes to reach their goals. Yet week after week, the habits they need to practice — nutrition, movement, consistency — are left undone. Their actions tell the story far more clearly than their words. The same lesson showed up in my personal life. I once kept trying to reconcile the words of someone close to me with the reality of how she behaved. I thought if I just pointed out the contradictions, if I proved that her actions didn’t align with her public image, she would change. But that was my ego speaking — wanting to be right, wanting to control the outcome, wanting the satisfaction of exposing the inconsistency. In truth, I was blind to the obvious because I didn’t want to accept that her actions revealed her true self.

This is why we so often resist believing what’s right in front of us. Ego gets in the way. We want to prove someone wrong, to reveal them to the world, or to ourselves. Control plays a role too. We want to fix people, to mold them into the version we believe they should be. Sometimes even our hope blinds us. We want someone to live up to their words because it would be easier for us if they did. In all of these cases, we spend our energy entangled in their contradictions, when the simpler and saner path is to accept their behavior at face value.

Ignoring this principle comes at a cost. We waste time and energy building stories to explain motives, and the more we invest emotionally, the deeper the disappointment when words don’t match actions. The only way out is detachment: stepping back, observing clearly, and finding liberation in seeing things as they are. The Stoics understood this centuries ago. Epictetus advised listening like a stone — unmoved, unaffected by insult or deception. Marcus Aurelius described it as being the rock that waves crash over, standing firm as the sea rages around it. The lesson is the same: don’t get angry at the snake for biting, nor the politician for lying. That’s what they do. Don’t let misplaced trust break your peace. Observe, accept, and respond accordingly.

Of course, people can change, but true change is far rarer than most of us want to believe. Change is not proven in apologies or declarations of intent. It is proven only through consistent, sustained action over time. In fact, the only way to be fully certain is to look back over the arc of a life and see how it was lived until the end. Sometimes dramatic events — failed relationships, health scares, personal losses — can shift someone’s trajectory. But until those shifts show themselves in steady, lived-out behavior, change is only an idea, not a reality. To treat it otherwise is to set ourselves up for disappointment.

The wisdom here is patience and vigilance. Trust people to be who they are now. If they evolve, you’ll see it in the patterns of their actions. Do not become attached to their promises. Do not invest in their words. Remain steady, like the rock on the shore, unmoved by the waves.

Life simplifies when you stop trying to outthink people and just trust them to be themselves. Observe with clarity. Accept without ego. Adjust without anger. Free your energy from the drama of contradiction, and put it back into what you can actually control: your own actions, your own character.

[ryancrossfield]

345: borrowed goals

Our goals are often not our own. They’re borrowed from the expectations we imagine society has for us. From childhood, we watch our parents, friends, mentors, and later celebrities or cultural icons striving toward something, and we quietly take note. When they achieve, we don’t just celebrate them, we often internalize their achievement as an implicit instruction: that is what I should want too.

The French philosopher René Girard named this phenomenon “mimetic desire.” His claim was simple but unsettling: we rarely want things in isolation. Instead, we want them because others around us desire them. Our goals become copies, echoes of what we see others reaching for.

As a personal trainer, I’ve seen this countless times. Clients walk in and tell me they want to look a certain way, lift a certain weight, or achieve a certain milestone. But when I ask the follow-up question — why? — their answers often fall flat. They’ll point vaguely to a celebrity physique, a friend’s progress, or even just say, “I don’t know, it just seems like what I should do.” Their vision of success is not born from their own reflection but borrowed from someone else’s story.

It’s tempting to assume some goals are universally desirable — health, wealth, status. And to some degree, that’s true. But even these broad categories are deeply personal in practice. Health might mean dropping twenty pounds for one person and building joint resilience for another. Wealth might mean erasing debt for one, accumulating assets for another. Status might mean recognition in one’s profession, while for another it’s simply being respected within their family or community. The numbers attached to each — body fat percentages, bank balances, titles — are unique, but we often don’t take the time to define them for ourselves.

Why? Because asking, What do I really want? is hard work. It forces us to confront uncertainty, to wrestle with questions that don’t have easy answers. Borrowing someone else’s goal spares us that burden. Mimicking the visible markers of success gives us the illusion of clarity. It feels safer to chase something already validated by the world than to sit in the discomfort of designing a vision from scratch.

And it’s not just about the thing itself. We also mirror what appears to bring admiration, respect, or attention. If someone is celebrated for their fitness, wealth, or achievements, we unconsciously conclude that having what they have will bring us the same reward. We rarely stop to ask whether their recognition comes from that attribute at all, or if it comes from something deeper, or even unrelated. Still, we latch onto the surface-level marker and pursue it, hoping to inherit the admiration attached to it.

The problem is that these borrowed goals rarely unfold as we expect. They look straightforward when observed from the outside, but the lived reality is messier. And when obstacles appear, as they always do, borrowed goals lack staying power. Resolve falters, because the desire was never truly ours to begin with. We abandon the pursuit and interpret it as failure. But how do you truly “fail” at something you didn’t authentically want in the first place?

Perhaps this is where failure needs rethinking. What feels like falling short is often just the unraveling of imitation. We follow someone else’s map, hoping it will lead us to the same destination, only to realize the terrain doesn’t match our steps. It’s not that we took the wrong turn, it’s that we were never meant to take their path at all.

This isn’t a tragedy; it’s an inflection point. We should follow others only until their path no longer makes sense for us. When the steps you’ve been copying stop lining up, when the trail disappears, when the “why” behind the goal no longer holds weight — that’s not failure. That’s the moment imitation ends and originality begins. That’s the signal you’ve stepped off the borrowed road and onto your own.

[ryancrossfield]

344. passing moments

Life is a series of fleeting moments, each destined to be experienced for the "last time." The last visit to your childhood home. The last swim in the ocean. The last time you see your parents. Most of the time, we don’t realize these moments are "lasts" until they’re gone forever, leaving us with the bittersweet truth that we can never get them back.

This inevitability — that every moment will pass — ought to make each one precious. Yet we treat the present as nothing more than a stepping stone to an imagined future. We’re consumed by what’s next, blind to the irreplaceable value of now. As each moment slips away, our finite supply grows smaller, and still, we willingly trade them for the pursuit of distant, uncertain goals.

Our culture glorifies chasing the future — achieving goals, hitting milestones, or finding happiness "someday." But this fixation blinds us to the richness of the present, to the beauty of simply existing instead of endlessly striving toward a future that may never arrive.

It’s not entirely our fault. We live in a system that reduces everything — our time, our energy, our lives — to tools for tomorrow. The present is stripped of meaning, valued only for what it might produce. And the irony? Those who’ve “succeeded” most in this system often find themselves empty. They’ve mastered turning time into profit, but they’ve spent their lives treating the present as a means to an end. Happiness, forever over the next horizon, remains just out of reach.

What if we chose a different path? What if, instead of obsessing over what’s next, we embraced the here and now? What if we savored each hug, each laugh, each sunrise as if it were the last? The moments we dismiss as ordinary are, in truth, the essence of life itself.

As the Russian philosopher Alexander Herzen once said: "Because children grow up, we think a child’s purpose is to grow up, but a child’s purpose is to be a child. Nature doesn’t disdain what only lives for a day. It pours the whole of itself into each moment. Life’s bounty is in its flow. Later is too late.”

Much like that child, our purpose isn’t to achieve this or that in some uncertain future — it’s to embrace life as it unfolds in front of us.

Life is short, and the future is never guaranteed. The only certainty you have is the moment you’re in right now. To treat every moment with the reverence it deserves — not as a stepping stone, but as life itself — is to truly live. Every moment is irreplaceable.

[ryancrossfield]

343: greatness cannot be planned

My take-a-way after reading, Why Greatness Cannot be Planned by Kenneth O. Stanley and Joel Lehman.

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We're all chasing something, yet very few of us truly know what it is. Influenced by those who seem to have it all figured out — CEOs, coaches, entrepreneurs, and visionaries — we idolize their journeys, believing their paths serve as perfect blueprints for our own. This perspective leads us to believe that greatness is the result of a clear, deliberate plan, but what if that isn't the whole truth?

The reality is, life often doesn't adhere to strict plans. True greatness — whether in life, innovation, or personal growth — is rarely the product of rigid objectives. Instead, it emerges from the unpredictable interplay of exploration, curiosity, and stepping stones we didn't anticipate. These unexpected discoveries, far removed from our original intentions, often lead to horizons we couldn't have imagined.

The very act of chasing what we think we want may limit our potential. When we overly focus on a single objective, we risk becoming blind to the detours and creative opportunities that could lead us to something even greater. As "Why Greatness Cannot Be Planned" argues, progress is not a straight line; it's a dynamic process shaped by exploration and adaptability. The stepping stones we encounter — the novel ideas, experiences, or people — are often far more valuable than the destination we originally envisioned.

So, while it's tempting to chart a rigid course toward a specific future, we should remember that the most transformative journeys are often the ones where we allow curiosity and the present moment to guide us. By embracing uncertainty and following the trail of what feels novel or promising now, we open ourselves to futures that surpass anything we could have planned. Greatness, it turns out, thrives not in certainty, but in the willingness to wander.