Seigfried @ryyzzy - Tumblr Blog

I’m alive. I’m just as surprised as you are.

#me #life #california

Less pain

More growth

Less hurt

More jokes

Less grind

More folks

Less fights

More hope

Dating makes me so stressed. I thought I hit it off with this girl just for her to go ghost on me. I asked her in person if she’d wanna go out again & she said yes. Then gave me a really tight hug goodbye, but now she’s just never responded to me since I told her I made it home safe. Like that’s so confusing. WTF. I’m just mentally exhausted.

ryyzzy

I will never forget the time I came home & the imprint of you two was still embedded into the bed. I wanted to fuckin kill myself in that moment. Idek how I managed to stay calm. Well relatively. I was pacing the apartment wondering how fuckin evil you could be to leave me with that. Life is always.. hard to face when it comes to the memories of the past. Reality sets in and I have to force myself to press on.

ryyzzy

No wonder I instinctively wrote this yesterday. Yesterday was 2 years since I confronted you about your sneaky lyin ass.

I will never forget the time I came home & the imprint of you two was still embedded into the bed. I wanted to fuckin kill myself in that moment. Idek how I managed to stay calm. Well relatively. I was pacing the apartment wondering how fuckin evil you could be to leave me with that. Life is always.. hard to face when it comes to the memories of the past. Reality sets in and I have to force myself to press on.

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Fin du jour, détente...

urbnite

dankomaksimovic

ph. Danko Maksimovic - Bochum, Germany 92024)

Film: Kodak Portra 800

Happy Belated Birthday. I don’t know whether or not I still love you anymore. I don’t know if it will ever leave me. The pain still resurfaces. I’ve never had to survive anything like this before.

I hope you think of me and remember all the good times we shared.

Our love exceeded a lifetime. If I search again I will always find you.

It’s hard to wish anything positive for you, but I do hope overall that you are healthy. I hope you achieve personal goals. Maybe I’ll see you again someday. Maybe I won’t. I send my love to you & you only.

Anything else is a facade.