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personal/system blog ☆ follow back from cherry-blossoms

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Hey, my name is Sea and this is just our personal blog to post about whatever/our art

Not going to argue about our existence with anyone, if you fakeclaim or send hate you'll be blocked.

💌 - Aerith

🌼 - Asriel

💜 - Scara

🌊 - Sea

💕 - Maizee

🖤 - Nico

🤍 - Lev

👽 - Hayden

🐺 - Hunter

💙 - Connor

🩶 - Dakota

🎄 - Noelle

(more to be added)

🌸 - Flower

🎆 - Jubilee

[s-e-a-s-l-u-g]

hi and welcome to I am having. one of the worst times of my life and I feel absolutely alone.

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Tw vent

Headsup don't overdose on a medication you like because they will take you off of it :(

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Tw vent

I'm just. So angry. I'm angry at myself for failing my suicide attempt, I'm angry that I gained weight, I'm angry that the psych ward made me worse and I just want to scream and break things and rip myself to shreds. I have an appointment with my med management tomorrow and I have to try to convince her I need stronger meds and I already know she's not going to want to do that and I'm going to cry because I'm so frustrated.

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hahaha I feel not good

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The pysch ward made me worse ♡

[schizospecblog]

A thing about schizospec people is disorganized thoughts and speech. For example I can’t normally think straight, it’s hard to describe but it’s like my mind is underwater and you know you can’t see straight underwater and everything is blurred? My mind gets like that. My speech dosent coordinate with what I’m thinking either and I stutter, my words get mixed together, sentences only get partially said, it’s a mess. Now I’m not saying that every schizospec persons thinking and speech are like that because each one of us have a different experience. It’s hard for us so please be patient when we get like this. It is frustrating and we are trying our best.

[schizophrenicmushroom]

“You’re so normal you can’t have psychosis” babe I don’t think I’m human.

[schizoetic]

Just because something you experience in psychosis isn't happening in reality, it doesn't mean it wasn't real to you. The trauma you get from those experiences is real.

[schizodiaries]

The thing about psychosis, in particular the delusions, is that in the moment, the beliefs are our reality. A delusional person doesn’t just believe they’re the reincarnation of Christ. To them in that moment, they are the reincarnation of Christ. They don’t just believe the cops are after them, the cops are after them. They don’t just believe their family members have been replaced by aliens, their family has been replaced by aliens.

This is one of the reasons psychosis can be so traumatizing. We don’t just believe in bizarre and unusual things, we’re actively experiencing them. We’re prone to such outrageous and scary beliefs that are out of our control, and to us, they’re as real as the air we breathe. Keep this in mind when considering the mental state of someone in psychosis.

[only-knives]

it's never too late to start brushing your teeth again. i basically never brushed my teeth for a whole 10 years. a decade. A DECADE. i still struggle to brush my teeth once a week, but it all started with brushing my teeth once every few months. so i mean it when i say brushing your teeth once a week, a month, a year, or even a decade, is better than nothing.

and still, nothing is not shameful. it is not immoral to struggle with self care. and it is also not pointless to keep trying. anything you can do, even if its wiping plaque off with a towel, is enough. it is good to take care of yourself however you can, even if it's just trying to muster the will to. reading this post is good, too.

i believe in you and i am proud of you, even in the smallest of steps. it's okay. you can give yourself grace.

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Don't know what I mean.

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Yeah I'm not. Doing great.

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Vent

I just want to be so mentally unwell, I want to scream and break things, I want to claw at my skin until it bleeds, I want to absolutely lose my shit. I feel so fucking unhinged. Im.so angry. I have medication, I have therapy, why do I still feel so fucking crazy why do I still feel like I'm screaming and no one can hear me no matter how loud I yell and its exhausting and I'm exhausted and I'm so so so tired of myself and my life and everything I just want it to go away I just need it to go away.

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crashed so hard from my manic episode and now I just feel like shit.

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still feel the sting.

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I have barely slept in 3 days, I'm in so much pain everywhere and I'm out of most of my medications!! Yay! I'm so tired that I don't really care ♡