✪-sam-✪

i love two time platonically! i am not yumeshipping with them ^_^ i dont have a phone, dont expect pictures to look good sometimes i post suggestive stuff. if i didnt tag it correctly PLEASE tell me

[s1llys4mmyyy]

Intro post!

⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘ creds to @ringsang-archived for theme!

⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘ anything in red text is very important

warning! i am a minor! (early teen)

˚₊‧꒰ა ꥟ ໒꒱ ‧₊˚

my name is Sam, Aetherius, Daniel, or Ivan/Иван!

pronouns are he/him, they/them, it/its, pup/pups, and azure/azures

suspected DID, suspected Autism, diagnosed Major Depressive Disorder, diagnosed Generalized Anxiety Disorder

i am a darkshipper, i do not support child x adult, abuser x abused, family x family relationships outside of fiction. if you are in a relationship like this in real life please get help.

i am NOT radqueer but i dont mind them

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discord is s1llys4mmyyy

⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘ xeno/neogenders: numasc, filthangelic, fallenseraphmascic, attackhelicoptergender, charicflux, gorething, impureangelic, techoric, gunmasc, calculatoric, aggressivedoggender, ushankhatic, meatmutt, monsterpupenergyic, boypup, multigender, russiacharic, telamoncharic, azurecharic, soviettankgender

⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘ transIDs: trans-russian, trans-german, trans-cig-smoker, trans-7ft, trans-american-ww2-soldier, trans-1930s-1940s, trans-left-lower-leg-amputee, trans-anthro-borzoi, trans-narcolepsy, trans-aroace, permatired (transitioning to!)

⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘ cisIDs: permaconfused

⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘ nullIDs: agenull (meaning my age is nonexistent but still present in some way)

⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘ sexualities: bijectum (objectum but includes humans), bisexual, fictophile (i mostly like fictional characters rather then humans)

⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘ other: polyyume, multiname, polyamorous, and yumeflux (f/o's are chance, mafioso, 007n7, russia, guest1337, and private daniel jackson!), coyote and dog therian. map, aam (ANTI CONTACT DONT EVEN TRY)

⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘ fandoms are: forsaken, hwwhp, die of death, madoka magica, roblox admins, maymadness2012, andrewgames722, the last guest, jims computer, let him go, drawnout, regretevator, wings of fire, warrior cats, the untitled roblox show, hetalia, bad things, a nostalgic hangout game, verity, dex's party, buckshot fantasy, law of talos, endzone

⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘ sometimes i refer to myself as female, this does not mean i identify as female or use she/her pronouns! only me and my alters can refer to me as female

⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘ Alters:

Komandir - russian, war vet, 34 years old, male, he/him, red army soldier (i do not support the soviet union, i dont know why he is in the red army), disciplined, serious, brainmade. blog: @komandir-journal

Asher - angel, ageless, formal, british, wears a suit 24/7, he/they, demiboy, apothisexual, flamboyant, brainmade. blog: @asher-blogs

Chance - gambler, alcoholic, he/they, nonbinary, cool, chill, cant take things seriously, has a continental giant rabbit named spade, 25 years old, fictive

Franz - male, bisexual, 30s to 40s, pervert, map, german, brainmade. blog: @permafreakfranz

⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘ special interests: military and ww2

⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘ byi: i am pretty awkward so if my responses are short or plain its just because i dont know what to say! i act on impulse, i struggle to think before acting, and im quite blunt at times, if i say anything rude, insensitive, or just something that would be inappropriate to mention i am extremely sorry and please inform me of what i said that was wrong so i can learn from my mistakes. i am a stupid kid, i often find something funny without realizing its offensive, if you see this its very likely i didnt realize it was offensive. i block people for the most random things. i post about politics, often in sudden spurts

⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘ boundaries: you can DM me, just dont expect me to talk much. if you are an adult (chrono) who follows me do not be weird in a sexual way for fucks sake, THATS ILLEGAL.

⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘ ask boundaries: you can say whatever in my asks but please DO NOT send gore or porn. bells, hospitals, police, diapers, and cancer make me anxious so please do not send anything related to them or mention them unless i do first. romantic and sexual asks are okay, just keep in mind im a young teen (im saying this in a "hey....im a minor...nothing too crazy okay? and dont say sexual stuff if ur an adult.." way)

⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘ taken anons: 🧊⛓️

⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘ stances: anti contact for pedo, zoo, necro, anything unconsenting. anti harrassment. pro recovery. anti harm to self or others (unless its self defense). anti MAGA. anti trump. fuck i.c.e. kids cant consent, animals cant consent, dead bodies cant consent. proship. all system origins are valid. pro abortion. pro choice

⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘ please DNI if: MAGA supporter, anyone under 10, abdl/babyfur, xenosatinist, transnazi (theres only a few exceptions, tbh im chill with y'all as long as u are nin), cisnazi, permamonika and their supporters/friends, anyone who makes jokes about the epstein files, zoosadists (i fucking love animals and it pains me to see that), pro contact.

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minor flash warning for blinkies under cut and bright colors!

[s1llys4mmyyy]

today i have my first day of school im so scared

[s1llys4mmyyy]

vent about depression

something i hate about depression...well i hate it all is just most people do not understand it.

they either think its just feeling sad all the time, or your edgy

like no, for the most part i just feel empty and my happiness only lasts for a bit

and my dad wont allow me to take meds for it and i kinda want to but im scared of pills

im just SO DESPERATE to feel normal

to have long lasting joy

to not be bitchy

to be confident in myself

to be able to do the things i love to do

why cant i just be a dog and run around and go "wrruff! awuf!"

[s1llys4mmyyy]

things that give me euphoria for my transids!

transnarcolepsy: staying up late and taking naps

transanthro: wearing a collar (i dont have a fursuit or ears/tail for it yet)

transmasc: wearing masculine clothes and getting referred to as male

transcigsmoker: holding pens when im just fidgeting between my pointer and middle finger

(special mention) agenull: listening to music from around 30 years ago but also new music

transrussian: using this ))) instead of :))) and my irl friends thinking i am russian

transgerman: knowing a bit of german

transamericanww2soldier: listening to music an american soldier in ww2 would listen to, knowing alot about ww2, and having the uniform

transaroace: this one is kinda weird but telling my stepmother that just because i said someone was attractive does not mean i like them romantically and pretending to be disinterested in sex

permatired: pretty much same thing as transnarcolepsy

trans1930s-1940s: listening to music from that time

[s1llys4mmyyy]

theres a dictatorship or a dictator ship

this is referance to the art i saw of mussolini x hitler

[s1llys4mmyyy]

warning! suggestive kindaa? plus mentions of smoking

a submissive partner who smokes cigarettes, and their dominant partner who smokes cigars.

the dom partner blowing the strong cigar smoke in the subs mouth, making them cough a bit at the flavor

the dom partner jokingly making fun of the sub for smoking cigarettes

the sub trying to take a drag from the doms cigar but immediately coughing since they cant handle it

[s1llys4mmyyy]

MY DAD JUST GAVE ME THIS IM SO HAPPY IGNORE SHIT QUALITY BUT NOW I HAVE 11 CALCULATORS IN MY CALCULATOR COLLECTION

[s1llys4mmyyy]

FUUUUUCCCKKK MY BACK HURTS

maybe i should fix my posture...hhmmmmm NAHHHHHHH

[s1llys4mmyyy]

Hey I really don't know why you followed me, I am pro paraphilia for all paraphilias including consensual incest between adults, I also support non contact zoosadism/masochism and diaperfurs, if you still want to support me you can if you want, but if you want to unfollow me or blocked me I won't mind either.

sorry i didnt notice! also i dont mind zoosadism or diaperfurs its just i relate it to trauma

[s1llys4mmyyy]

am i the only one who listens to the music of the skeletons running around the tree over and over because its actually calming to me

[bunnyivanstrikesagain]

we need to get more normal about rejecting people who want to be friends with you at any degree. no the person who turned your friendship down politely isn't an asshole you just werent compatible. it's completely okay to tell you I Don't Want To Be Your Friend or Hey I Won't Be That Close To You. i refuse to have new friendships where we talk daily and respond immediately and i shouldn't have to excuse that with anything but I just dont like you that way

[s1llys4mmyyy]

anyone else used to be in the kit community? I mean younger me was fucking obsessed (i still kinda like it) but holy shit theres drama ALL THE TIME. mika-kit killing videos, everyone being *blank*-kit, A FUCK TON OF COPIES. god this community is a mess

[s1llys4mmyyy]

help i followed a new person and then i checked what their blankqueer meant, this is pretty much what happened

"huh, supportive of all transIDs! thats cool :D.....pro consang.....ABOLITION OF THE AGE OF CONSENT???"

*unfollow and block*

[s1llys4mmyyy]

anyone else see blogs thats like "no dni, follow ur own!" and you (with a dni) think "...wow....i must be a horrible person"? i lowkey get that but then i remember "oh wait! im allowed to have boundaries! yippie!!!

[permaspringlocked]

bro do I have to sell my soul to get interact on here or what🫩

pssst pssttt radqueers.. come closer… please i love making friends.. pssst….

[s1llys4mmyyy]

warning! mentions of zoophillia and nsfw

uuhh guys am i fictozoo if i really like feral furry porn

preferably when they just truly act like an animal instead of just a furry on all fours

im already a one of the big 3 (map and a special mention to aam) siiiggghhh

[s1llys4mmyyy]

warning. death of parent

nothing can match the pain of seeing the thing your parent gived you and you know its useless but putting it in the trash made you panic so you had to take it out and hold it tight to make sure it was still there

i hate organizing my room because of this, i always find things my mother loved that she can no longer us and that i have no purpose for, caused me to hoard things