I like how Hua Yong said he was NOT Shen Wenlang's friend as if he hasn't been hanging out with that loser man for close to a decade, knows his whole tragic family history because he was right there living it with him, bankrolled his promising business, schemed together when he wanted to snag his S-tier Alpha, roasted him for being a virgin in love with his bestie, and called him all the time including when he had to go to the hospital TWICE.
Like . . . bitch, that's your motherfucking worstie for life!
Shen Wenlang is not Hua Yong's friend because he is that little freak's soulmate. Who else would learn that Hua Yong had to see multiple doctors to learn how to cry and just *shrug* about it? In fact, Shen Wenlang thought that shit was funny! That's a worstie! They aren't trying to change each other for the better. Shen Wenlang probably immediately assumed Hua Yong killed those kidnappers and isn't surprised since he probably knows where Hua Yong buries most of the people he kills. I want to be sad about the possible separation between Shen Wenlang and Gao Tu, but Hua Yong's stalking ass will know exactly where Gao Tu is because Hua Yong is fucking batshit crazy!
Prapai really does notice everything about Sky. A single offhand comment by Prapai of love makes him blind sends Sky into thinking about his past with his ex. It was only a slight change of expression and while people wouldn't notice it, it was enough for Prapai. When Rain mentioned Sky's ex Sky got angry and told Rain to never mention his ex again.
But with Prapai Sky got caught off guard and Prapai saw something he wasn't meant to see which was Sky's sad expression due to a flashback of his time with Gun. It lasted a second but it was enough for Prapai to notice it. Prapai knew Sky wasn't as okay as he pretended to be to his friends. Prapai noticed it because he is so observant of Sky.
So I ended up writing a whole thread on how Prapai and Sky changed from episode 8 to episode 11 because I love these characters. I just want to talk about how Prapai noticed the small details of Sky right from the start. I also talk about how Sky slowly warms up to Prapai and learns to let himself love Prapai. They both changed so much for each other especially Sky.
I'm going to do the rest of the episodes on another thread because this is too long. I have so much thoughts about them. So if you decide to keep reading I hope you enjoy it. If not then no bad feelings about it at all because this a whole essay.
Even on their breakfast date (I'm calling it that) Prapai lists off what he likes about Sky. He comes on a little strong depending how you look at things. How he likes Sky how he looks with his pretty eyes, beautiful nose and soft cheeks. Prapai not knowing when to stop tells Sky he likes his sleepy eyes and messy bed hair. At this point Prapai just wants a repeat of their night together and cranking up the charm to do it. But it doesn't work on Sky who points out he knows he looks different to what Prapai is saying and brushes off his compliments. Sky really thinks Prapai is forcing himself to praise Sky so he doesn't believe a word from Prapai. But Prapai just looks amused by Sky through their whole conversation. He has clearly never been rejected the way Sky is rejecting him before and he is loving it. But Prapai refuses to give up. Sky really cant understand why Prapai likes him and wants Sky to know more about him.
Even at work Prapai is thinking about Sky telling Namtan about Sky. Details like how Sky is sometimes sexy, occasionally sad and mysterious at times. He is also agonizes about what flowers to buy for Sky when he should be working and leaving Namtam a very confused woman in the process. She needs a pay rise for dealing with shit from Prapai. He barely even knew Sky at this point and was already noticing just how sad Sky was feeling inside. He really wanted to get something that he thought suited Sky's personality. Sky really just consumes all of his thoughts. He pays so much attention to little details about Sky and obsesses about them all day and night. He still doesn't give up even after Sky rejects the sunflowers. Anyone else would walk away but Prapai isn't one to give up so easily.
He barely even knew Sky at this point and was already noticing just how sad Sky was feeling inside. Even when Sky told him to not waste his time with him anymore, Prapai still didn't give up. He even let Sky know he would be away for a whole week for work and to not miss him too much. But then Prapai spends his week away thinking about Sky and his sad expression. Sky just read the text, smiled to himself and wondered why Prapai would tell him he was away for the week.
Sky shuts down and then tells himself its best to keep Prapai out of his life since he will lose interest eventually. Sky even tells himself to listen to head not his heart. In his heart he wants Prapai but his head tells him to keep Prapai out of his life so he doesn't get hurt again. So he listens to his head and continues to push Prapai away. Even after Prapai tells him he wont give up. Sky is just so afraid to let anyone into his life. He knows Prapai will just get bored and leave so why take the chance in getting to know him. Its safer to push Prapai away because he will give up eventually. Sky is just protecting himself from getting hurt again. After all his parents abandoned him when he was 15 and his first relationship was all physical and mental abuse. Why let history repeat itself which is why Sky is pushing Prapai away.
But Prapai doesn't give up. When Prapai looks after Sky when he is sick he notices more about Sky just by looking at his eyes. Sky is a people pleaser and helps his friends out all the time at the expense of his own feelings and his own deadlines. His friends never question their over reliance on Sky because Sky is just so helpful he wont say no. Sky looks after everyone but never himself and no one ever looks after Sky. His friends think he is standoffish and sarcastic. It gets him taken advantage of a little but no one ever notices just how sad Sky is all the time. Either his friends don't care enough to notice or they are just too busy with their own lives and deadlines. Also Sky is just really good at hiding how he really feels from people.
Prapai notices every little detail about Sky and wants to help him and look after him as much as possible. Prapai knows Sky doesn't look after himself so brings him food, medicine and tries his best to get Sky to rest and eat some food. This is when Prapai's feelings start to change from just wanting sex with Sky to wanting to get to know Sky. He even admits at first he wanted sex but his feelings became deeper for Sky the more he got to know him. Prapai even begins to question why he wants to help Sky. It's becoming more then just sex for Prapai. He even wonders why Sky's eyes cry for help all the time.
Prapai stays long enough to witness one of Sky's nightmares. Sky wakes up begging for Prapai to not let him go. Even when Prapai goes to move away Sky clings to him not wanting him to leave. Prapai reassures Sky he wont leave and he isn't going anywhere even though he is confused. Even the next morning when Sky tried to make Prapai leave Prapai tells him he may be shameless but his heart is fragile. Prapai admits he is happy once Sky doesn't block his number and answers his calls and texts. He even tells Sky not to run away from him and let him pursue him but since Sky is sick he'll back off for now. Even Sky brushing him off with I'll never be interested in you doesn't have any effect on Prapai. Prapai just keeps coming back because he likes Sky even though he doesn't know why yet.
He helps Sky at the First Cheer night and just lets Sky use him as a human pillow. He knows Sky doesn't believe him so reminds him he is serious about their relationship. Sky is either too tired or sick to care but he is just glad Prapai showed up for and thanks him for coming to him. Sky is really starting to see Prapai as someone who will show up when he needs someone.
Prapai even notices just how sad Sky is but then at this point Sky is letting Prapai into his world a lot more than his friends ever get to see. Sky puts up a pretence of being okay and happy with the way his life is and that he doesn't need anyone but its a surface level keeping his friends at a distance front. Sky's friends just see him as cold and snarky and don't look past the defensiveness. But Sky spends a lot of his private time in his dorm with Prapai who sees Sky in a different way. Prapai sees Sky in the privacy of his own dorm where he can be himself away from the eyes of other people. Where he can let his guard down and be himself knowing he will never be judged by Prapai. Sky feels comfortable around Prapai and keeps letting him a little bit more as time passes.
Prapai makes a big effort to come over to Sky's dorm as much as he can in his free time. Sky also behaves differently around Prapai than he does with his friends and Rain. It takes him a while to thaw out but he warms up to Prapai slowly over their time together. To the point that he calls Prapai to come over a lot. He starts to rely on Prapai because Prapai always makes time for him and wants to be there with him too. Sky never relied on anyone but he is learning he can rely on Prapai to help him when he needs help. He is warming up to Prapai and slowly starting to let him into his life. It helps that Prapai keeps showing up in front of him every day of the week.
Even after their misunderstanding in ep 11 when Sky calls Prapai to come over his dorm room. Sky really couldn't believe someone would actually be worried about him. You just have to look at his face to see that he really didn't believe Prapai would actually be worried about him and he feels a bit bad over it too. Sky's self esteem and low self worth stops him from thinking Prapai really does care what happens to him but it doesn't register in Sky's mind. Why would it when Gun used him as a toy and demoralized him any chance he got so in Sky's mind Prapai doesn't care. He just wants sex. But Sky slowly realizes that maybe Prapai really actually does care about him and he is surprised by it. Which leads to Sky pushing Prapai's boundaries and trying to get him to go away. It's classic self sabotage.
lt is only when Prapai gets closer to Sky he learns more about Sky. To the outside world Sky is cold, prickly and sarcastic but will also do anything for his friends and those who need his help. But when he is alone with Prapai he becomes softer, more quiet and affectionate. He also starts to open up to Prapai and enjoy their time together. To the point he stays awake just to let Prapai into his dorm. He starts to want Prapai in his dorm because he enjoys his time with Prapai. Prapai knows that underneath it all Sky is lonely and just wants to be loved. He notices Sky smiles more even when Sky thinks Prapai hasn't noticed it.
As their relationship develops Prapai learns of Sky's fears of abandonment such as Sky asking when he will get bored and leave. Prapai never questions him on it. He also notices the way Sky's prickly responses to him don't really mean anything anymore and sees them for they empty words they are. He knows Sky cares for him but is just afraid to care for him or to show it but he just doesn't know why Sky is this way. He knows something happened to Sky, has thought about it a lot but never pushes Sky on the issue. He just stays by Sky all the time. He knows Sky will tell him in his own time.
This scene of Prapai losing it over Sky hugging him when he thinks he is sleeping and thinking about him all the time is just so cute. Sky is quite abrasive towards him in a playful way. But you just know Sky would resist hugging Prapai in bed. He would probably have a brush off comment to make about it. But there is something in the way that when Sky thinks Prapai is asleep he willingly hugs him to sleep. Sky only really feels safe to hug Prapai when he is asleep because Prapai will never know about it and there is less chance of him being verbally abused for a hug. Sky's ex probably verbally or physically humiliated him for wanting something like a hug or any form of PDA.
Sky really wants to hug Prapai but is afraid to ask or just do it. He is afraid if he does then he will be cruelly rejected the way he was rejected by his ex. What Sky doesn't know is that Prapai loves it when Sky hugs him when he thinks he is asleep. Prapai is just head over heels for Sky at this point. The person he was before Sky no longer exists. Even Prapai questions just how much does he really like Sky when Sky asks when will you get bored of me. And Prapai doesn't even lie. He gives Sky the option of an honest answer or sweet words. Sky is afraid of the answer. He falls into his defence mechanism of sarcasm telling Prapai when have I ever wanted sweet words from you. Prapai knows Sky wants an honest answer and he gives him the best answer possible in that he wont know until that day comes. Prapai knows Sky is afraid and scared of something, something happened to Sky to make him this defensive. So he asks what are you afraid of. Even though Sky is defensive you can see he just looks so vulnerable and scared.
Sky has always kept Prapai at a distance but over time he slowly lets Prapai in past those walls he built to protect himself after what happened with his ex. He slowly warms up to Prapai over time. He uses his prickly nature as a defence knowing Prapai will get bored and leave. So why not make it happen sooner like he made him clean his whole dorm room in ep 11. Sky was testing Prapai and Prapai knew it too. His test didn't work so Sky finally caved and asked Prapai when would he get bored and leave. Prapai asks Sky what is he afraid of and realizes Sky is afraid he will get bored leave and tells him he wont leave him. Even when Sky initiates sex Prapai knows something is wrong. Sky is just using his past behaviour of sex to appease his shitty ex on Prapai. But Prapai isn't having any of it. He knows something is wrong with Sky. Prapai is clear about his intentions even to go as far as to say he will have both Sky's body and his heart.
Considering how Gun used Sky in the past. For Prapai to say this to Sky it must have meant everything to him. Gun only wanted him as something to play with, something to use and abuse to throw away when he got bored. To share with his friends for entertainment. Called Sky boring just because he wouldn't do what he wanted him to do to. Wouldn't allow himself to be brainwashed by Gun.
Here is Prapai getting closer to his heart by the day and Sky is letting it happen. Sky first thought Prapai only wanted sex but he made it clear he wanted Sky for his body also his heart. Prapai really loves Sky as a person and his actions proved he does care about Sky a lot. Sky must have been terrified of it. To be seen as an actual person and not a toy to be played with or to be used and abused and then thrown away. That someone like Prapai actually desired him and was attracted to him in every way possible and not just for sex.
But is Sky is still so scared. He still pushes Prapai away saying please get bored of me soon. He thinks Prapai will get bored of him soon. He says those words while hoping Prapai doesn't get bored of him. He wants Prapai so badly not just physically but also emotionally and he cant resist him anymore. I mean its Prapai who couldn't resist that man. He really wants Prapai to stay in his life but is so afraid of it at the same time. He doesn't want Prapai to get bored but does he even notice the way Prapai looks at him. Probably not because he thinks so little of himself that he doesn't notice the way Prapai looks at him like he is his whole universe. Prapai will never get bored or leave. The lovemaking scene was so tender, loving and intimate. Sky is stuck with Prapai forever. And I will never be over that scene. It was everything.
Even after Sky self sabotages their relationship Prapai refuses to give up on him because he knows something is wrong. He knows Sky would never say anything like that and mean it. Sky projected his own fears onto Prapai. Sky accused Prapai of doing what Sky was afraid Prapai would do to him. Prapai knows Sky has given up on himself because of his insecurities but he wont give up on Sky. He knows Sky loves him. What they have and share is real. He knows Sky is scared of his feelings so he tells him he loves him first. He breaks through Sky's walls and helps him admit his feelings but putting himself out there first. He was forceful about it but an intervention was needed. I will defend Prapai over this, he did the right thing because Sky would have just self destructed even more. Sky needed Prapai to do what he did to see the truth. To realize that Prapai really did love him so much. Sky needed someone to fight for him and Prapai really fought for Sky and their relationship. Even though Sky gave up on them because of his insecurities. Prapai never gave up on Sky or their relationship not even for one second.
By episode 13 Sky is just so soft with Prapai. He feels so safe that he just admits he wants to hug Prapai to sleep. The way Prapai takes care of him and cleans him up after they make love is just so tender. Sky even looks a little shy about how tender Prapai is with him because he is not used to it. Its a clear difference from his relationship with his ex who found his love and affection boring. But Prapai just takes it all from Sky and gives that love and affection back to Sky in so many ways. Prapai loves his adorable, affectionate boyfriend who just wants to hug him to sleep. Prapai is just as clingy and affectionate and hugs Sky back as they cuddle in bed together.
They both really changed each other for the better. Sky was able to learn how to trust someone again and it paid off. He got himself a person who will do anything and everything for him. He found someone he can love and adore and love him back just as much. He can be as clingy and affectionate with Prapai all he wants and Prapai just takes it from him and gives it back to him in spades.
Its a long way from the person he used to be when he silently hugged Prapai when he thought Prapai was asleep. He wanted that warmth and comfort so badly but he couldn't ask for it. Felt like he wasn't allowed to have it or that Prapai would give it so willingly. Even though Sky slightly hesitates in admitting to Prapai that he just wants to hug him to sleep. He still isn't afraid to say it out loud and when he does Prapai just hugs him tightly and looks so happy about it. When Sky tells Prapai he just wants to be with him, the look on Prapai's face says it all. I've written a whole other thread on this so I wont repeat it here. But it's in the link below if you want to read more.
This whole conversation with Prapai taking care of Sky is just so soft. Prapai's sweet words and the way Sky looks at Prapai like he is his
Sky just wants to love Prapai and he gets loved and adored by Prapai in return. He has so much love and affection for Prapai even after everything he had been through and he could have closed himself off to Prapai. It would have been easy to do it, to shut Prapai out of his life forever. But Prapai didn't give up on Sky. He takes all of Sky's love and affection and gives it back to him in so many ways. Prapai was quite happy with his carefree life but meeting Sky made him so much happier. They changed each other's life for the better. They are just so happy with each other.
I will end it here because its too long. If you made it to the end of this thread thank you for reading it all.
Prapai really does notice everything about Sky. A single offhand comment by Prapai of love makes him blind sends Sky into thinking about his past with his ex. It was only a slight change of expression and while people wouldn't notice it, it was enough for Prapai. When Rain mentioned Sky's ex Sky got angry and told Rain to never mention his ex again.
But with Prapai Sky got caught off guard and Prapai saw something he wasn't meant to see which was Sky's sad expression due to a flashback of his time with Gun. It lasted a second but it was enough for Prapai to notice it. Prapai knew Sky wasn't as okay as he pretended to be to his friends. Prapai noticed it because he is so observant of Sky.
So I ended up writing a whole thread on how Prapai and Sky changed from episode 8 to episode 11 because I love these characters. I just want to talk about how Prapai noticed the small details of Sky right from the start. I also talk about how Sky slowly warms up to Prapai and learns to let himself love Prapai. They both changed so much for each other especially Sky.
I'm going to do the rest of the episodes on another thread because this is too long. I have so much thoughts about them. So if you decide to keep reading I hope you enjoy it. If not then no bad feelings about it at all because this a whole essay.
Even on their breakfast date (I'm calling it that) Prapai lists off what he likes about Sky. He comes on a little strong depending how you look at things. How he likes Sky how he looks with his pretty eyes, beautiful nose and soft cheeks. Prapai not knowing when to stop tells Sky he likes his sleepy eyes and messy bed hair. At this point Prapai just wants a repeat of their night together and cranking up the charm to do it. But it doesn't work on Sky who points out he knows he looks different to what Prapai is saying and brushes off his compliments. Sky really thinks Prapai is forcing himself to praise Sky so he doesn't believe a word from Prapai. But Prapai just looks amused by Sky through their whole conversation. He has clearly never been rejected the way Sky is rejecting him before and he is loving it. But Prapai refuses to give up. Sky really cant understand why Prapai likes him and wants Sky to know more about him.
Even at work Prapai is thinking about Sky telling Namtan about Sky. Details like how Sky is sometimes sexy, occasionally sad and mysterious at times. He is also agonizes about what flowers to buy for Sky when he should be working and leaving Namtam a very confused woman in the process. She needs a pay rise for dealing with shit from Prapai. He barely even knew Sky at this point and was already noticing just how sad Sky was feeling inside. He really wanted to get something that he thought suited Sky's personality. Sky really just consumes all of his thoughts. He pays so much attention to little details about Sky and obsesses about them all day and night. He still doesn't give up even after Sky rejects the sunflowers. Anyone else would walk away but Prapai isn't one to give up so easily.
He barely even knew Sky at this point and was already noticing just how sad Sky was feeling inside. Even when Sky told him to not waste his time with him anymore, Prapai still didn't give up. He even let Sky know he would be away for a whole week for work and to not miss him too much. But then Prapai spends his week away thinking about Sky and his sad expression. Sky just read the text, smiled to himself and wondered why Prapai would tell him he was away for the week.
Sky shuts down and then tells himself its best to keep Prapai out of his life since he will lose interest eventually. Sky even tells himself to listen to head not his heart. In his heart he wants Prapai but his head tells him to keep Prapai out of his life so he doesn't get hurt again. So he listens to his head and continues to push Prapai away. Even after Prapai tells him he wont give up. Sky is just so afraid to let anyone into his life. He knows Prapai will just get bored and leave so why take the chance in getting to know him. Its safer to push Prapai away because he will give up eventually. Sky is just protecting himself from getting hurt again. After all his parents abandoned him when he was 15 and his first relationship was all physical and mental abuse. Why let history repeat itself which is why Sky is pushing Prapai away.
But Prapai doesn't give up. When Prapai looks after Sky when he is sick he notices more about Sky just by looking at his eyes. Sky is a people pleaser and helps his friends out all the time at the expense of his own feelings and his own deadlines. His friends never question their over reliance on Sky because Sky is just so helpful he wont say no. Sky looks after everyone but never himself and no one ever looks after Sky. His friends think he is standoffish and sarcastic. It gets him taken advantage of a little but no one ever notices just how sad Sky is all the time. Either his friends don't care enough to notice or they are just too busy with their own lives and deadlines. Also Sky is just really good at hiding how he really feels from people.
Prapai notices every little detail about Sky and wants to help him and look after him as much as possible. Prapai knows Sky doesn't look after himself so brings him food, medicine and tries his best to get Sky to rest and eat some food. This is when Prapai's feelings start to change from just wanting sex with Sky to wanting to get to know Sky. He even admits at first he wanted sex but his feelings became deeper for Sky the more he got to know him. Prapai even begins to question why he wants to help Sky. It's becoming more then just sex for Prapai. He even wonders why Sky's eyes cry for help all the time.
Prapai stays long enough to witness one of Sky's nightmares. Sky wakes up begging for Prapai to not let him go. Even when Prapai goes to move away Sky clings to him not wanting him to leave. Prapai reassures Sky he wont leave and he isn't going anywhere even though he is confused. Even the next morning when Sky tried to make Prapai leave Prapai tells him he may be shameless but his heart is fragile. Prapai admits he is happy once Sky doesn't block his number and answers his calls and texts. He even tells Sky not to run away from him and let him pursue him but since Sky is sick he'll back off for now. Even Sky brushing him off with I'll never be interested in you doesn't have any effect on Prapai. Prapai just keeps coming back because he likes Sky even though he doesn't know why yet.
He helps Sky at the First Cheer night and just lets Sky use him as a human pillow. He knows Sky doesn't believe him so reminds him he is serious about their relationship. Sky is either too tired or sick to care but he is just glad Prapai showed up for and thanks him for coming to him. Sky is really starting to see Prapai as someone who will show up when he needs someone.
Prapai even notices just how sad Sky is but then at this point Sky is letting Prapai into his world a lot more than his friends ever get to see. Sky puts up a pretence of being okay and happy with the way his life is and that he doesn't need anyone but its a surface level keeping his friends at a distance front. Sky's friends just see him as cold and snarky and don't look past the defensiveness. But Sky spends a lot of his private time in his dorm with Prapai who sees Sky in a different way. Prapai sees Sky in the privacy of his own dorm where he can be himself away from the eyes of other people. Where he can let his guard down and be himself knowing he will never be judged by Prapai. Sky feels comfortable around Prapai and keeps letting him a little bit more as time passes.
Prapai makes a big effort to come over to Sky's dorm as much as he can in his free time. Sky also behaves differently around Prapai than he does with his friends and Rain. It takes him a while to thaw out but he warms up to Prapai slowly over their time together. To the point that he calls Prapai to come over a lot. He starts to rely on Prapai because Prapai always makes time for him and wants to be there with him too. Sky never relied on anyone but he is learning he can rely on Prapai to help him when he needs help. He is warming up to Prapai and slowly starting to let him into his life. It helps that Prapai keeps showing up in front of him every day of the week.
Even after their misunderstanding in ep 11 when Sky calls Prapai to come over his dorm room. Sky really couldn't believe someone would actually be worried about him. You just have to look at his face to see that he really didn't believe Prapai would actually be worried about him and he feels a bit bad over it too. Sky's self esteem and low self worth stops him from thinking Prapai really does care what happens to him but it doesn't register in Sky's mind. Why would it when Gun used him as a toy and demoralized him any chance he got so in Sky's mind Prapai doesn't care. He just wants sex. But Sky slowly realizes that maybe Prapai really actually does care about him and he is surprised by it. Which leads to Sky pushing Prapai's boundaries and trying to get him to go away. It's classic self sabotage.
lt is only when Prapai gets closer to Sky he learns more about Sky. To the outside world Sky is cold, prickly and sarcastic but will also do anything for his friends and those who need his help. But when he is alone with Prapai he becomes softer, more quiet and affectionate. He also starts to open up to Prapai and enjoy their time together. To the point he stays awake just to let Prapai into his dorm. He starts to want Prapai in his dorm because he enjoys his time with Prapai. Prapai knows that underneath it all Sky is lonely and just wants to be loved. He notices Sky smiles more even when Sky thinks Prapai hasn't noticed it.
As their relationship develops Prapai learns of Sky's fears of abandonment such as Sky asking when he will get bored and leave. Prapai never questions him on it. He also notices the way Sky's prickly responses to him don't really mean anything anymore and sees them for they empty words they are. He knows Sky cares for him but is just afraid to care for him or to show it but he just doesn't know why Sky is this way. He knows something happened to Sky, has thought about it a lot but never pushes Sky on the issue. He just stays by Sky all the time. He knows Sky will tell him in his own time.
This scene of Prapai losing it over Sky hugging him when he thinks he is sleeping and thinking about him all the time is just so cute. Sky is quite abrasive towards him in a playful way. But you just know Sky would resist hugging Prapai in bed. He would probably have a brush off comment to make about it. But there is something in the way that when Sky thinks Prapai is asleep he willingly hugs him to sleep. Sky only really feels safe to hug Prapai when he is asleep because Prapai will never know about it and there is less chance of him being verbally abused for a hug. Sky's ex probably verbally or physically humiliated him for wanting something like a hug or any form of PDA.
Sky really wants to hug Prapai but is afraid to ask or just do it. He is afraid if he does then he will be cruelly rejected the way he was rejected by his ex. What Sky doesn't know is that Prapai loves it when Sky hugs him when he thinks he is asleep. Prapai is just head over heels for Sky at this point. The person he was before Sky no longer exists. Even Prapai questions just how much does he really like Sky when Sky asks when will you get bored of me. And Prapai doesn't even lie. He gives Sky the option of an honest answer or sweet words. Sky is afraid of the answer. He falls into his defence mechanism of sarcasm telling Prapai when have I ever wanted sweet words from you. Prapai knows Sky wants an honest answer and he gives him the best answer possible in that he wont know until that day comes. Prapai knows Sky is afraid and scared of something, something happened to Sky to make him this defensive. So he asks what are you afraid of. Even though Sky is defensive you can see he just looks so vulnerable and scared.
Sky has always kept Prapai at a distance but over time he slowly lets Prapai in past those walls he built to protect himself after what happened with his ex. He slowly warms up to Prapai over time. He uses his prickly nature as a defence knowing Prapai will get bored and leave. So why not make it happen sooner like he made him clean his whole dorm room in ep 11. Sky was testing Prapai and Prapai knew it too. His test didn't work so Sky finally caved and asked Prapai when would he get bored and leave. Prapai asks Sky what is he afraid of and realizes Sky is afraid he will get bored leave and tells him he wont leave him. Even when Sky initiates sex Prapai knows something is wrong. Sky is just using his past behaviour of sex to appease his shitty ex on Prapai. But Prapai isn't having any of it. He knows something is wrong with Sky. Prapai is clear about his intentions even to go as far as to say he will have both Sky's body and his heart.
Considering how Gun used Sky in the past. For Prapai to say this to Sky it must have meant everything to him. Gun only wanted him as something to play with, something to use and abuse to throw away when he got bored. To share with his friends for entertainment. Called Sky boring just because he wouldn't do what he wanted him to do to. Wouldn't allow himself to be brainwashed by Gun.
Here is Prapai getting closer to his heart by the day and Sky is letting it happen. Sky first thought Prapai only wanted sex but he made it clear he wanted Sky for his body also his heart. Prapai really loves Sky as a person and his actions proved he does care about Sky a lot. Sky must have been terrified of it. To be seen as an actual person and not a toy to be played with or to be used and abused and then thrown away. That someone like Prapai actually desired him and was attracted to him in every way possible and not just for sex.
But is Sky is still so scared. He still pushes Prapai away saying please get bored of me soon. He thinks Prapai will get bored of him soon. He says those words while hoping Prapai doesn't get bored of him. He wants Prapai so badly not just physically but also emotionally and he cant resist him anymore. I mean its Prapai who couldn't resist that man. He really wants Prapai to stay in his life but is so afraid of it at the same time. He doesn't want Prapai to get bored but does he even notice the way Prapai looks at him. Probably not because he thinks so little of himself that he doesn't notice the way Prapai looks at him like he is his whole universe. Prapai will never get bored or leave. The lovemaking scene was so tender, loving and intimate. Sky is stuck with Prapai forever. And I will never be over that scene. It was everything.
Even after Sky self sabotages their relationship Prapai refuses to give up on him because he knows something is wrong. He knows Sky would never say anything like that and mean it. Sky projected his own fears onto Prapai. Sky accused Prapai of doing what Sky was afraid Prapai would do to him. Prapai knows Sky has given up on himself because of his insecurities but he wont give up on Sky. He knows Sky loves him. What they have and share is real. He knows Sky is scared of his feelings so he tells him he loves him first. He breaks through Sky's walls and helps him admit his feelings but putting himself out there first. He was forceful about it but an intervention was needed. I will defend Prapai over this, he did the right thing because Sky would have just self destructed even more. Sky needed Prapai to do what he did to see the truth. To realize that Prapai really did love him so much. Sky needed someone to fight for him and Prapai really fought for Sky and their relationship. Even though Sky gave up on them because of his insecurities. Prapai never gave up on Sky or their relationship not even for one second.
By episode 13 Sky is just so soft with Prapai. He feels so safe that he just admits he wants to hug Prapai to sleep. The way Prapai takes care of him and cleans him up after they make love is just so tender. Sky even looks a little shy about how tender Prapai is with him because he is not used to it. Its a clear difference from his relationship with his ex who found his love and affection boring. But Prapai just takes it all from Sky and gives that love and affection back to Sky in so many ways. Prapai loves his adorable, affectionate boyfriend who just wants to hug him to sleep. Prapai is just as clingy and affectionate and hugs Sky back as they cuddle in bed together.
They both really changed each other for the better. Sky was able to learn how to trust someone again and it paid off. He got himself a person who will do anything and everything for him. He found someone he can love and adore and love him back just as much. He can be as clingy and affectionate with Prapai all he wants and Prapai just takes it from him and gives it back to him in spades.
Its a long way from the person he used to be when he silently hugged Prapai when he thought Prapai was asleep. He wanted that warmth and comfort so badly but he couldn't ask for it. Felt like he wasn't allowed to have it or that Prapai would give it so willingly. Even though Sky slightly hesitates in admitting to Prapai that he just wants to hug him to sleep. He still isn't afraid to say it out loud and when he does Prapai just hugs him tightly and looks so happy about it. When Sky tells Prapai he just wants to be with him, the look on Prapai's face says it all. I've written a whole other thread on this so I wont repeat it here. But it's in the link below if you want to read more.
This whole conversation with Prapai taking care of Sky is just so soft. Prapai's sweet words and the way Sky looks at Prapai like he is his
Sky just wants to love Prapai and he gets loved and adored by Prapai in return. He has so much love and affection for Prapai even after everything he had been through and he could have closed himself off to Prapai. It would have been easy to do it, to shut Prapai out of his life forever. But Prapai didn't give up on Sky. He takes all of Sky's love and affection and gives it back to him in so many ways. Prapai was quite happy with his carefree life but meeting Sky made him so much happier. They changed each other's life for the better. They are just so happy with each other.
I will end it here because its too long. If you made it to the end of this thread thank you for reading it all.
1. Prapai gets a new bike with a better seat for Sky and takes him to pick out the bike and a helmet for him.
2. Prapai and Sky go shopping for a new condo close to the race track where they can crash after a race night when they’re too tired to go all the way home.
3. Breaking in their new condo, the one they picked out together. This condo has no ghosts of old hookups or evil exes.
4. Sky surprises Prapai at his office and proceeds to “help him” with work, mainly by taking up residence in his man’s lap and distracting him until it becomes to much for Pai to bear any longer 😉 (see the tiktok i posted previously for inspiration)
5. Prapai asks Phayu to practice with him at the race track and Sky and Rain join, hanging out in the hangar while their boyfriends race each other. Ends up just being a cute double date day.
6. PrapaiSky morning routine: waking up, showering, picking each other’s outfits for the day. i mean don’t you want to see Sky tying Pai’s tie and picking out the pin for his suit? ugh domestic fluff at its best!
If you write any of them, i only request you send me the link immediately so i can enjoy and give kudos. 🥰
I am so happy for, and proud of Jared!! This is so awesome.
From a guest-starring role, all the way back when he was a baby to now... his success in an incredibly tough industry is really tremendous, and a credit to him for all of his hard work!
Credit to Lauren for this fabulous representation:
(And though we don't see it, credit to Seamus Fahey for all the work he's put in to making WIndy as well!)
research for the “sam’s self-concept and the word freak” essay led me to watching this scene in 12x01 again, and it STILL hits me. like the list of people Sam sees that are dead and he specifically has let down include Kevin, Eileen, Dean (x2), his mother and Jessica. like it obviously dredged up his past guilt, and that includes Mary’s death. his fear is that he’s the reason for the people around him dying - their deaths are on him.
“We’re all dead because of you, Sam”
how much of this has been internalised since childhood? and how much of it was reinforced when Jessica died? and how much of it was confirmed in him when he finds out Azazel killed Mary to get to him? He specifically sees Dean dying of hellhounds in 12x01. He must have thought that he’s the reason his brother is dead, which definitely set its stamp on being “cursed”.
reminds me of this conversation:
then in the same scene of 12x01, we have this:
like he said himself once, he believes he’s the least of them all. and maybe it IS Dean’s words after Charlie’s death that he has internalised. but he already believed that he should have died. he was ready to die at the end of the trials, for good.
Sam wants to die without causing more pain to others. so in 12x01 he is guilty for all those deaths because he feels he is at fault. others suffer around him, so how is his life worth prioritising? Dean obviously doesn’t believe this so Dean bringing Sam back in s2, saving his life through possession in s9 - they’re all against what Sam firmly believes, which is:
“I did a pilot called Supernatural, and hopefully it’ll be on Warner Brothers this fall…”
Jared interview for House of Wax, filmed prior to Supernatural getting picked up, setting this around March or April of 2005. (includes outtakes that the editor probably meant to remove? they’re very cute)
we were so robbed. imagine magda calling sam with fear in her voice because she’s scared she’s losing control and sam dropping everything to go help her. imagine sam connecting with his own powers accidentally while trying to teach her how to control hers. imagine what kind of storyline we could have had!!!
A request that was meant to be a oneshot that turned into a whole series. Instead of Mary being brought back at the end of Season 11, it was Jo. But she’s different than the Jo Dean knew back in the day. She’s lost and broken. Dean has to win back her trust and help her adjust in this new world and hopefully make her fall for him all over again. **edit is mine**
