fallen souls

this was supposed to be a temporary obsession. now it’s my main hyperfixation. we’re all wounded souls in the end

[soulonoscopys]

okay let me try to do the pinned post explaining thingy

im here in 2022 for the winchester codependency (no incest pls!). some days i’m a samcoded deangirl and other days i’m a deancoded samgirl. go figure, it’s a tough existence. 

too many worms crawling around in my brain, and they usually come out as inhuman screeches. you have been warned

i’m a #sam studies and #dean studies enthusiast

tag guide under the cut:

sam studies

#sam and trauma

#so i’m a freak now? (sam and his self-view)

#flesh is a constant haunting (sam and autonomy + the word "clean")

#death is a great sacrifice (sam and dying/wanting to die) - tw suicide

#maybe i could be saved (sam and faith)

#i have a devil on my shoulder (sam and the devil)

#sam and choices 

#the boy with the demon blood (boyking sam)

cute sam stuff: #sammy

sam meta: #sam studies

dean tags

#dean and trauma

#dean and emotion socialization (how dean was socialized about emotions, deals with them in himself and others)

#dean and attachment (insecure attachment style) 

#angels are watching over you (dean and faith)

#i'm poison (dean and his self-view)

#dean and the angel (i enjoy destiel in canon)

#daddy’s blunt instrument (dean and john)

cute dean stuff: #deanie

dean meta: #dean studies

sam and dean tags

#sell my soul for you (sam and dean)

#little brother sammy

#big brother dean

general spn tags

#discourse: john and abuse

the winchester family: #family is hell  & #family is home

my opinions - sometimes i say stuff that could be meta but idk - #noscopy talks

#soulonoscopy rewatch (for episodes i’m rewatching)

#I've been burning ever since (spn and fire)

critical stuff is tagged #dean critical , #sam critical and #spn wank

if you’re not interested in cute stuff or storyline stuff for one of the boys, you can filter either tags: s.w stuff    /     d.w stuff 

[sambrosia]

in the spirit of sam and cas doing weird experiments on sams body as their favorite girls night activity i CANNOT stop thinking about sam attempting to deal with his trauma surrounding getting possessed more times than any living human by asking castiel to possess him on purpose. like just lying side by side on sams bed like they do watching netflix and sam says “yes” and castiel possesses him but Doesn’t Do Anything. they just cohabitate inside sams body for a little bit and when sam says “that’s enough” cas immediately returns to his own body. just giving sam back the feeling of control. letting sam say “no, get out” and have it mean something. helping sam feel big enough to fill out his body on his own. It’s Coping

[tragedynatural]

thinking about sam as a kid who was small and bullied and fought back against bigger children who used size to intimidate and harm. and sam as an adult who’s big and makes himself seem nonthreatening in his posture and stance. he rarely ever yells, he speaks gently, he rarely if ever touches women first. in fallen idols he sits beside the upset witness immediately to speak to her softly while dean stands over her. he puts himself on her eye level so he doesn’t look like a threat. growing up and gaining a physical power that was used against you as a small kid who was friends with the bullied. and choosing not to use it unless it’s to protect.

[fearlastyear]

ivan the terrible and his son ivan, ilya repin // all hell breaks loose, pt.1 (insp: @marymotherof)

[meowmeowmessi]

not me thinking about how lucifer brought sam back to life as a "gift" to jack the same way amara brought mary back to life as a gift to dean.....

[oldmanpusspuss]

new scale

[sosaysdean]

that defines you as company property

[suncaptor]

To be honest this is the part of the episode that makes ME feel insane.

[castielpoopsarchive-blog]

aesthetically pleasing supernatural caps. 1/05

[egipci-archive]

“Home” x Everything Under.

[adamfromsawreal-deactivated2025]

did u guys know that nothing is worth losing sam winchester like its literally canon castiel an angel of the lord said so himself

[acecroft]

Dean Winchester in SUPERNATURAL 1.21 ‘Salvation’

[soulonoscopys]

sometimes i feel so samcoded. feeling alienated in one’s experience in life, both with strangers and loved ones. wondering what it means to be good, wondering how to break out of the cycle of abuse and trauma. wondering how to be good. trying so hard to be good, trying so hard to do good, but failing in every way. the feeling of darkness tainting your body and the urge to go for a run, to wake up early, to not loose time, to have control over your life and your body. knowing that though the self never received compassion, you have to be the one to give compassion, to others and to yourself. teaching yourself that others are not necessarily right about you, and what you do shapes who you are. that the actions you do matter.

[theangiediary]

[sosaysdean]

augh

[boyworstie]

follow the blood / back to its body / trace the red dirt with your finger / you’ll find what you’re looking for / you’ll find someone else / got there first      — brandon melendez, “line/age”

            ⋙ for @chitaquadean​, happy birthday marlo! ❤️

[suncaptor]

OBSESSED with this scene like Sam is like I have a sense of self. It is in these powers we both share. It isn’t connected to Lucifer. Like Sam, who’s psychic abilities did in some ways link him to Lucifer and who’s sense of identity has been marked by being Lucifer’s vessel, is saying here no, I am not the devil. I am psychic and that doesn’t make me him at all. It just made me who I am. I think this is the least depersonalised Sam has been in years.