Sadboi Cave

Hey, I’m Kris, your local non-binary lesbian! I’m a gamer and Twitch streamer! My blog is a mess, enjoy! Check out my Twitch: https://twitch.tv/sadboi_kris

[catchymemes]

[catchymemes]

[octoberamethyst]

sorry but if youre spreading the news that Bonvino is being demoted as if its a celebratory thing… i have bad news for you,

-there was no promise from Trump to “de-escalate” or lessen ICE’s presence in Minnesota, only hints and vague shrugged promises.

-our governor capitulated with one of Pam Bondi’s demands, we just don’t know which one yet. I’m hoping it’s not our voter registration like they were asking for..

-our economy in the twin cities is on the verge of collapsing due to so many people sheltering in place, unable to work, they are going to be unable to pay rent, and our elected officials are not even thinking about doing anything about this

-Finally, Minnesotans are going to be harmed further by the incoming “Border Czar”, the violence is not going to lessen here.

if you, sitting home in your state or country outside of the US-blessedly absent of 24/7 helicopters, Nazi agitators, right wing media goons, and masked thugs kidnapping your neighbors-aren’t figuring out how to meet you neighbors, set up rapid response networks and making sure the most vulnerable are protected, your state will fall apart even worse than we have here.

[sadboi-kris]

Mental Health Journal #4

What up chat,

it's been a minute since I've last posted. A lot has happened so this'll be a long one.

I want to first lead off with that I'm feeling so much better and a lot freer, and I think it's making me more outspoken. I literally am not afraid to say shit. Maybe all the trauma has had me angry, I don't know. The world is fucked. Feels like I shouldn't be happy when the world is literally FUCKED. My mom tells me not to let it affect me, but I can't help but let it affect me. Just because it was Alex Pretti or Renee Good, doesn't mean that it couldn't have been any of us as well. The government doesn't care about you, and will take you out for not being compliant. It's comply or die. It's a cold world out here. America is in a dark place. I'm not actively suicidal, but sometimes I wish I didn't have to live through this. Doesn't that suck?

It's bitter bliss. I did a therapy intensive and it was so life changing. We did 4 straight hours of EMDR and killed two memories that had been really putting a chokehold on me. I feel so alive and free. I haven't felt this free in so long. Yet, there's still so much tying me down. New things I haven't remembered in years will just pop up and retraumatize me. What up with that? On top of that, like I said, why should I have feel happy when the state of the world is FUCKED. Like so what if I'm turning 30 in April. So what if what I accomplished in therapy was life changing. Who cares if my soul feels free? It still feels like I'm in a chokehold to this government. I wake up every day and someone is hurt or dead. I wake up every day and it's always the rich getting richer and the poor getting poorer. It's war after war on each other. I wake up to rights being stripped away. I wake up to America in constant distress.

Yet...

I still go to work. I eat, sleep, repeat. I pretend everything is okay just so I can make somewhat of a living to survive. That's where they want you right now. They want you to their complicit, poor, little bitch. I feel helpless. I feel like I should be doing more. They want you to feel drained, but I feel pumped. I feel angry. I don't know how else to keep regulating my body and emotions right now. I'm so angry and I have to put it somewhere. I'm ever more angry that this is what's killing me right now and feels so fucking relevant when all I want to do is truly focus on myself and my trauma. But what do I do? No matter what progress I make anyway feels like it gets blocked by how FUCKED this world is. Sometimes I just think, damn...what's the point.

[apolladay]

Reblog to give your followers a blanket and a cup of hot chocolate because a lot of them are cold 🥶

[hickeywiththegoodhair]

“why are you, as someone in their 30s, still on tumblr” oh so you think you’re gonna be normal when you’re my age? you think you’re gonna be CURED?? you think the witches’ curse will have been lifted by then?? cmon now

[sadboi-kris]

Ever had a panic attack?

[sadboi-kris]

A symbol that the roads are tough and sometimes we feel weak. But things will get better. One day at a time.

[istascha-deactivated20260222]

my body is a machine that turns normal situations into psychological horror

[brucefromfamilyguy]

[liverrlips]

world falling apart which means i’m reappearing on tumblr

[speak-see-hear-touch-think-not]

For a society that teaches lying to be bad we sure do a lot of lying.

[free-my-mindd]

One day, things won’t feel so heavy anymore.

[surrah698]

My poor, sensitive nervous system... 😭

Gotta make sure to get plenty of rest!

[unfiltereddddmess]

All I see when I look around is all the ways I fail as a person

[free-my-mindd]

[nightlongnight]

Do you ever just cry in frustration because you feel there's something wrong with you no matter how much you try to fix it?