my thoughts consume me

22 & still living a kafkaesque dream

[maxxie-or-smth]

you've met me at a very "yeah i'm trying to work on that" time in my life

[loveridden1999]

[stalgivc]

[skinnyangels-stuff]

[exhaled-spirals]

— Will Rees, “Kafka the hypochondriac”

[pathologising]

dads arent real shut the hell up

[orpheuslament]

Song, Allen Ginsberg

[rosegardendeprofundis]

Source: @laceypaigepoetry on Instagram

[loveridden1999]

doing things at the right age is literally a made up concept. you can start/pursue anything at any age. btw.

[sadcoresushi]

I wish I could say I hate my life a little less now. Maybe I do. I feel like a totally new person, with new ambitions, new desires, a new mindset. But along with it linger the expectations from my past self, the dreams I've buried deep inside me. Nobody listens to the noise I cry, not even a stranger anymore. I've hushed that part of myself, to not overshare, or burden others with my agony.

Does gratefulness truly make one feel content? Or am I just too selfish?

[bloodiegawz]

well at least im not 11 or 12 or 13 or 14 or 15 or 16 or 17 or 18 or one of those awful years

[starryvomit]

[sadcoresushi]

I want to read atleast 20 books this year. Wish me luck lol. ( I could barely finish one last year)

[sadcoresushi]

Last year turned out to be unexpectedly surprising. Mostly because I took more leaps of faith than I ever thought I would, and I'm so glad I did. I chose to be less rigid and more present, and allowed myself to feel deeply and experience life without constantly holding back. And honestly I felt so much alive.

I embraced my relationship, nurtured my friendships, and made countless memories along the way. Every risk I took, every chance I accepted, and every moment I lived through shaped me in ways that only made me better. Unfortunately, I also dealt with health issues under rather strange circumstances. Tbh, it was disturbing, yet oddly thrilling.

All in all, 2025 was one hell of a ride. Was it better or worse than the year before? I honestly can't say. I loved it and hated it in equal measure. While I can admit that I didn't achieve any major personal breakthroughs or comebacks, something which I'm not particularly proud of, but I'm choosing to see that as a starting point rather than a setback.

This year, I want to dedicate myself to self-improvement. I want to focus more on who I am, what I truly like and dislike. I want to work harder, consume less mindless content, and get back to reading more books. I want to learn new things, travel, and make more memories. I held myself back at times last year, so I hope I don't do that again.

[hellbabyfromhell]

Pissed off i didnt recieve any packages because i didnt order anything. Just unfair

[sadcoresushi]

becoming one with wilderness lol

[weltenwellen]

Fariha Róisín, How to Cure a Ghost

[sadcoresushi]

This year ain't over yet but if I had to sum up the 9 months up until now, it's been a whole lotta shite since June, don't ask me why! I can't remember a day I haven't been succumbed by some random illness ever since. Like a few weeks ago, I had some random eye infection called chalazion, yes I googled it, a suspicious lump in my eyelid, scared the shit outta me but here we are. I feel like the latter half of 2025 is not in my favour and through sickness and stress I need to make it out somehow.