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rui / luka / mizuki / tsukasa ! jirai, block don't report ! wishing you a wonderful day <:3

[safety-p1nz]

ごめんね〜

last updated: April 16th, 2026 - blog theme by yukidiot!

hihi !! just a little jirai trying to get through a messed up world, please be kind! ^_−☆

feel free to call me rui, luka, tsukasa, mizuki, or whatever else you come up for me!!

any pronouns <3

#happy lovely everyday — normal/ramble posts

#time to re:start — vent posts (paired with tw tags i can actually think of lmao)

#chase my ideal idol — ask answers

#luka’s dumb questions — posts about random and kinda stupid questions i have. feel free to put in your thoughts about them

if it wasn’t obvious enough by this blog’s… everything, im a fucked up teenager (<16, follow ur own dni!), so please be warned for content such as sui ideation, sh, and swearing! i try my best to trigger tag posts but a few may slip through the cracks ><

autistic + gad and probably more shit. have a therapist now so expect them to find more wrong with me. might be plural but i have work so that’s not important right now.

if you send me asks i will love you forever and start running around you in itty bitty circles !!! <3 /p

[hypeboy2006]

[pupfettipaws]

how do i show affection no glue no borax

[safety-p1nz]

i NEED to be locked up bro i don’t even care at this point. maybe i’ll wait until schools out so i can seem normal enough but i would belong in a psych ward

[razorbladed-sugarcoated]

[safety-p1nz]

actually pissed just remembered something.

sorry. the fuck do you mean you want to change MY THERAPY APPOINTMENT TIME to take like half of it to make her talk about me. no? no don’t do that? I talk to my therapist so i don’t tell you things? none of us want to tell you shit? Will we have to disclose to her every time we share something heavy that we don’t want her telling you?

one session but whatever. fmsbl.

[pinkpalmdrive]

[tunakitchen]

sending asks is so scary what if i sneezed on my keyboard and mistyped my entire adress and misgendered everyone and mispelled every single word and also typed my password into the message. what then. once the ask is sent who knows what it looks like. i couldve tyepd anything

[gorejuice92]

'jirai landmine' chai tea

[safety-p1nz]

i love barely remembering my past unless it’s one of the fucking Voices projecting the worst parts of my life into my bain

[safety-p1nz]

pack to my appetite -> “you’re not packing enough to eat”

pack to what the hell she wants me to be eating even though i’m not hungry enough for allat -> “you’re wasting food”

so i can’t win apparently.

[gloomndoomy-deactivated20260529]

i want attention but i dont want to force people to give me attention

[muttcide]

Hey I don't know who needs to hear this but I'm so proud of you for waking up even if you don't leave the bed! I'm proud of you for trying! I'm proud of you even if you recover or not! I'm happy you exist! I'm happy you are still here, fighting!

[bloodblossoms]

“You’re more than your grades!” It doesn’t feel like it

[kittyboy-girlfailure]

found on pinterest ^w^

[divine--hate]

Finals week or my final week? Subscribe and hit that like button to find out

[iwanttobelovedplease]

Why can’t I go to sleep and not wake up