To my lover,
I am sorry.
I am pulling you down by the ankles as I am drowning at sea, not accepting your hand to help me reach shore.
and I'm sorry I've convinced you that's what you deserve.
There is so much i want to tell you,
and there is so much I don't.
everything that comes out of my mouth becomes an apology.
To my lover,
I am sorry.
You are my sunshine and I am decaying; I am eroding.
You do not deserve me, because you deserve so much more
and I will never be more. My rot is not enough to fill a stomach.
These bones are not worth the effort.










