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animentality

depsidase

musiicpix3l

Yes yes i know love is love. But they are still killing CHILDREN. over this.

fluffmugger

"Love is love" is a milquetoast cishet marketing phrase

Pride is a FUCK YOU to a society that wants us dead.

Spreading awareness that Ivanka Trump plans to build a resort on the Albanian island of Sazan that would endanger countless native species

Just another day of the wealthy being out of touch with the world around them

I stand with the Flamingo Revolution and I hope you do too🦩🦩🦩

#wildlife conservation #eat the rich #ecology #flamingos #tumblr fyp #Youtube

Idk if it's just me but I find hard to feel proper "disgust" towards powerful people doing evil things.

Indignant? Hell yes

Sorrowful? Yessir

Perturbed? Not too uncommon

But not really disgust. That as a word and feeling I associate more with something that offends my senses like a raw piece of chicken or intense chewing.

The way it's used to describe actions by corporations and government entities seems more akin to something like "off-putting" or "messed up/not right".

At least, that's how I tend to view the matter because being autistic with alexithymia makes me experience emotions differently than most people, to greater or lesser measure depending on the specific one.

But yeah lesson here is that language and feeling are both overall weird and hard to precisely categorize.

Have a good one 🐸:)

EDIT:

One other thing I want to add that it's not like a person's actions can never disgust me

But in order for me to feel that visceral sort of feeling, they need to have done something involving some offense on the senses, most often things involving bodily fluids, the violatiom of the body, garbage, food preparation, and what have you. Other than that, I once again fail to really feel that sort of way about other things.

#emotions #thoughts #alexithymia #autism posting #autism #neurodivergent experiences #text post

pangur-and-grim

cleaning him

pangur-and-grim

those aren’t their names!!!!!!

chloroformedhorse

Why does he have grippers

#those are not cats #they're house goblins

wingkink

btw it's so fucking stupid you can be anxious physically in your body even after you've decided mentally you don't care. I'm supposed to be in charge here

salamanderswafe

Related to that is the frustration that comes with alexithymia

I want to move on from The Anxiety™/The Sadness™ and carry on with my day but my brain will be like:

Having experiencing both separately and at the same time, it all around sucks ass to have both your mind and body basically be deadweight.

cannibalchicken

aubreyappears

THE SENSATIONAL SNUFFLER

depsidase

salamanderswafe

Yesterday was my last day doing at-home care for an elder gay guy from the Silent Generation. He's a creative writer with mountains of literature of his own as well as from different poets and authors from over the years in his tiny apartment as well as an artist who has made all sorts of weird and wacky ceiling mobiles as well as other little collages and such. Although he didn't remember much of anything about what his life was like during those times, the things I did learn like how one of his past partners was a huge fish enthusiast or the tender poem he showed me about another past partner that had an little illustration of the other man sleeping with a cat on the side made me appreciate how he is a little piece of history, even if he shouldn't have to be.

I hope he continues to live for years to come. Even if he was a frustrating client at times, I came to care about him a lot.

We shared a couple final hugs yesterday outside his apartment before I left.

I'll miss him🥹

#elder queers #gay liberation #lgbtq