the fear of falling apart

"a bird in a cage will sing to the bars; a cog will dream of the machine--and so do we waste all our wishes on stars, when there's all of that space in between." | header by @gazedraws on twitter | thane | 21 | he/they/it

[salamoonder]

abandoning this account for the foreseeable future. i won’t see any messages, sorry.

[salamoonder]

i am back BRIEFLY to inform y’all that my new account is @themagiciankingsley. I will likely delete this reblog but as i’m seeing people who follow this account, hilariously, in the notes on that account, i figured, fuck it why not you might as well know it’s the same person. cheers

[salamoonder]

abandoning this account for the foreseeable future. i won’t see any messages, sorry.

[salamoonder]

i am back BRIEFLY to inform y’all that my new account is @themagiciankingsley. I will likely delete this reblog but as i’m seeing people who follow this account, hilariously, in the notes on that account, i figured, fuck it why not you might as well know it’s the same person. cheers

[salamoonder]

abandoning this account for the foreseeable future. i won’t see any messages, sorry.

[justagirlfangirling]

you ever read a fanfic and just sit back and think...someone wrote something THIS good... and then just....published it on the internet....for free.....

[bisforbutch]

Choosing peace is hard when people online are committed to being obtuse, unhinged and stupid and you're an argumentative bastard raised in a home where everyone silencing you was never right like even once. Like I understand by arguing with someone about how much their shitty take doesn't matter, I am in fact making it matter, but like there really should be a solution to this dilemma where I literally always win and feel good and sexy but alas, that's not how it works so I just have to delete posts about shit that makes my blood boil and like block people. Where's the fire in that?

[thyrell]

enough explaining how trans people don't actually deny biology to transphobes who don't care. let's start actually denying biology

[thyrell]

i dont think genitals exist

[honigimohr]

“I have pasts inside me I did not bury properly.”

— Ijeoma Umebinyuo, from “Confessions”, published in “Questions for Ada” (via weltenwellen)

[adampvrrish]

not to talk about doctor who but remember being a lonely depressed teenager and hearing him say '900 years of time and space and i've never met anyone who wasn't important'

[bbg100]

he was like ‘just this once-everybody lives’ and i chased that shit with homosexual determination for every day since, like maybe through pure force of will i could save everyone i loved from a system that wanted us dead

[jestersoftproveprophets]

Doctor Who isn’t necessarily the best-written show, it’s nothing world-stopping, but god, if it didn’t help me through being a depressed teenager. It wasn’t just ‘never give up’ or ‘love conquers all’, it was them looking the audience dead in the eyes and saying, ‘I see you. You are important and special, and you deserve to give yourself a good life’. And I will always thank it for that.

[salamoonder]

children shot by police officers since 2015

baby shot and killed by police in may of this year

hundreds of police officers charged with rape over a 9 year period

police officer charged with sexually abusing a child in march of this year

police officers charged with domestic violence are allowed to keep their guns

police officer commits abduction and assault in may of this year

this took me five minutes.

brooklyn 99 is not fucking funny.

[fenmori]

summer heat

[angelsndragons]

i have to say that while i appreciate liam's confidence that his time travel plan would have worked, i disagree with him entirely and for one big reason:

caleb's parents were, by all accounts, good people who loved their son.

there is no way on the gods' green earth they would have left him to rot in a sanatorium for eleven years or not gone looking for him. seventeen years is a long time.

not taking them and the actions they could take into account would have screwed the timeline so hard.

[fellshish]

My dream is to write That One Fic that a whole fandom knows

[bisforbutch]

My blog is a safe space for a lot of people, but especially black nonbinary people. Period!!!!

[salamoonder]

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Critical Role (Web Series) Rating: Not Rated Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Astrid/Eodwulf/Caleb Widogast, Essek Thelyss/Caleb Widogast Characters: Astrid (Critical Role), Eodwulf (Critical Role), Caleb Widogast, Essek Thelyss, Beauregard Lionett Additional Tags: Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Past Abuse Summary:

If you keep swallowing the anger back, it's going to choke you.

[salamoonder]

i’m genuinely so emotional about the drei right now that i can’t even think

i’m going to...i don’t know if enjoy is the right word, but i’m going to revel in finishing the drei epic. i always knew how it was gonna go and i aways knew it would likely diverge from canon and it has, but goddamn.

i am incredibly grateful for the story that liam has told. i...seriously. i am standing on the bones of his story and building my own little sandcastle, and it may not seem like much to anyone else, but for two years i’ve angrily staked all of my trauma, bit by bit as i’ve uncovered it, onto caleb. and then later onto astrid and wulf. and i truly can’t even put into words what that’s done to lighten my soul.

[salamoonder]

vax would be so proud of his sister

[salamoonder]

T HE THREE OF THEM. THE THREEEEEEEE OF THEM

ONE BED

THERE WAS ONLY ONE BEDDDD