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i make more original posts than i reblog ... im pretty much always online
DNF IF - trans//med, te//rf, antikin, pro//endo, exclusionist, pro//ship
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where to upgrade social battery. where to buy larger social battery. how to attach multiple social batteries. how to hang out with all your friends without getting tired. how to hang out with everyone you wanna hang out with without burning out. infinite social energy hack. nap tips
idk if it sounds weird but i sweeaaaar making shidou's shirt and cape last year helped so much when planning ocgram outfits . i understand the straps so much more now
quick question for those who may be able to answer: I'm working on a cosplay, and I'm trying to be as accurate as I possibly can, but I'm stuck on one tiny detail.
Does anyone have a good reference of what the purple writing is here? All of the prisoners have it Somewhere on the straps and I'd love to be able to embroider the writing!!!
Hello! I'm finally dipping my toes into the realm of commissions! I'm currently in a position where it's not looking like I'm going to be able to get a job any time soon, and have something that I urgently need to pay off.
Under the cut is a transcript of the images as well as more information on what commissioning me means!
I am available on here and on discord. All payment is done via Paypal.
If you can't commission, please spread the word!! It would mean a lot to me.
MORE INFORMATION โโโ
RULES:
- NO A..I !!!! I AM NOT DRAWING TO BE PUT INTO A TRAINING MODEL. DOING SO IS IN VIOLATION OF ME!
- I reserve the right to deny any request that makes me uncomfortable to do.
- Payment is paid after I send the sketch and confirm all details. I WILL NOT CONTINUE WORK UNTIL I RECEIVE FULL PAYMENT.
- Do not remove any watermarks.
- Posting on media and using as an icon STILL REQUIRES CREDIT. I am arcanumart on here, foolsarcanum on twitter, arcanumart on toyhou.se, and sycamoretower on bluesky.
- I will likely post commission artwork on this blog. Please inform me if you do not want me to do so.
- I do reference irl photos when figuring out poses. If this makes you uncomfortable for whatever reason, please don't commission me.
- Providing me with a ref (a simple drawing, a picrew, images to supplement a description) will do more good than text alone.
CAN DO:
- Original characters (+ characters from media)
- Fantasy ocs, non human ocs, etc.
- Mild blood
- Matching Icons (Including yumeship/selfship/oc x canon)
- Icons for VTubers
CAN ATTEMPT:
- Objectheads
- Complicated Designs
WON'T DO:
- Furries
- Mecha
- Full Nudity
- Heavy blood & gore
- Hate speech symbols & imagery
Icons: Square-shaped drawings that are SHOULDERS UP ONLY. Created with SNS / Profile Pic usage in mind! Would also work for character refs like toyhou.se!
Available in Flat Colour, Light/Base Shading, and Full Shading & Highlight. Lines only upon request.
Hello! I'm finally dipping my toes into the realm of commissions! I'm currently in a position where it's not looking like I'm going to be able to get a job any time soon, and have something that I urgently need to pay off.
Under the cut is a transcript of the images as well as more information on what commissioning me means!
I am available on here and on discord. All payment is done via Paypal.
If you can't commission, please spread the word!! It would mean a lot to me.
MORE INFORMATION โโโ
RULES:
- NO A..I !!!! I AM NOT DRAWING TO BE PUT INTO A TRAINING MODEL. DOING SO IS IN VIOLATION OF ME!
- I reserve the right to deny any request that makes me uncomfortable to do.
- Payment is paid after I send the sketch and confirm all details. I WILL NOT CONTINUE WORK UNTIL I RECEIVE FULL PAYMENT.
- Do not remove any watermarks.
- Posting on media and using as an icon STILL REQUIRES CREDIT. I am arcanumart on here, foolsarcanum on twitter, arcanumart on toyhou.se, and sycamoretower on bluesky.
- I will likely post commission artwork on this blog. Please inform me if you do not want me to do so.
- I do reference irl photos when figuring out poses. If this makes you uncomfortable for whatever reason, please don't commission me.
- Providing me with a ref (a simple drawing, a picrew, images to supplement a description) will do more good than text alone.
CAN DO:
- Original characters (+ characters from media)
- Fantasy ocs, non human ocs, etc.
- Mild blood
- Matching Icons (Including yumeship/selfship/oc x canon)
- Icons for VTubers
CAN ATTEMPT:
- Objectheads
- Complicated Designs
WON'T DO:
- Furries
- Mecha
- Full Nudity
- Heavy blood & gore
- Hate speech symbols & imagery
Icons: Square-shaped drawings that are SHOULDERS UP ONLY. Created with SNS / Profile Pic usage in mind! Would also work for character refs like toyhou.se!
Available in Flat Colour, Light/Base Shading, and Full Shading & Highlight. Lines only upon request.
Song: Abnormality Dancin' Girl (guchiry ft. flower)
English translation by Sympalissma
UST by HIRATELIER, tuning done by Mod G
Key: Lyrics in purple, romaji in bold, descriptions in black
CWS: Possible bullying & isolation, chemical usage?, hospital imagery
APPEARANCE NOTES
[The opening shot shows a few locations - a hospital, a house, a staircase, a school, a classroom.]
No matter how hard I try or how much effort I put in
itsumo dou ganbatte doryoku o shita tokoro de
The results are always average
sashishimesareru wa heikinchi
[This part takes place in middle school. Here we can see middle school Kaede looking on at a group of about 4 or 5 girls.]ย
I can't go on like this
yatterarenai yo
[The camera turns to focus on Kaede, who is standing all alone with a frown on her face. ]ย
Constantly being manipulated by useless measures of worth
kudaranai hyouka ni odorasarete bakari
[The scene changes to Kaede sitting the back of a classroom. The girls in front of the camera seem to be laughing and having fun, but Kaede is still frowning while peering out the window.]
I've already come to hate this life
mou iya ni nacchatta kono jinsei
[Camera brings Kaedeโs face closer to the camera. Her eyes are empty, her glasses reflecting the scene in front of her. She sighs, listless.]
So, I think I'll restart my life
nara umarekawarou ka
[Scene changes to show Kaede walking out and slamming the door behind her.]
My chest is completely filled with โabnormalityโ
"ijou" ga mune o umetsukushite
[Kaede is seen walking down the street. Her expression is worried, her hand is clutching the front of her uniform shirt.]
I'm becoming a me that isn't normal
futsuu ja nai jibun ni naru no
[Her hands move to her hair, pony tails between her fingers as she pulls at her hair in frustration.]
I ask myself over and over, "did I get it?
jimonjitou kurikaeshi te ni ireta no
[Her gaze relaxes and she lowers her hands, but she shakes her head briefly ; thoughts she doesnโt want plague her mind, so she shakes her head to try and get rid of them]
A brand new me."
atarashii watashi o
[Camera moves to an upclose shot of her face again. Thoughout the duration of the line, the camera pans out, then ends quickly with a door shutting.]
Look at me now, touch me right now
hora mite yo hora furete yo
[Kaede can be seen sitting at her vanity; we are looking at her as if looking at her through the mirror. Her smile slowly shrinks into a frown throughout the line.]ย
Iโll throw away my ordinary clothes
bon'you na fuku o sutesatte
[Kaede starts pulling out her pigtails, throwing the rubber bands to the floor. Her hair is long and a mess when she finishes.]
Now, from my chrysalis, Iโll become a butterfly
ima sanagi kara chou ni naru no
[She picks up a bottle of liquid eyeliner and begins trying to do her makeup.]
Iโll show off everything as it is
ari no mama subete misetsukete
[As she tries to put on her mascara, she pokes herself in the eye with the brush. This infuriates her, and she throws the makeup to the ground.]
Therะต are no performers on this coolะตd-off stage
samekitta butai enja wa inai
[Kaede is standing now, her hands balled into fists. She looks around her room, and can be seen breathing heavily.]
So I'll beat out the steps, 1, 2, 3
nara suteppu kizande 1,2,3
[Kaede starts picking up random things in her room and throwing them around. Books, stuffed animals, pillows, etc. are all thrown around, leaving the room in disarray.]
I'm not being manipulated
odorasareru nja nai
[Kaede stops throwing stuff and sinks to the floor, obviously crying.]
I'm dancing! Yeah, I'm going crazy!
odoru no yo saa saa saa kurutte
[We pan to Kaedeโs face. As tears stream down her face, so does her makeup, leaving long black streaks from her eyes as she continues to sob.]
[During the instrumental, we see Kaede get up; remove her makeup; go to bed ; wake up and get ready for school. The last shot we see is her leaving to walk with her sister.]
"Normality" cast a curse on me
"futsuu" ga noroi o kakete kite
[We flash to highschool Kaede and her sister now. Kaede looks similar to how she does now ; her sister is a girl with light golden brown hair styled in a bob with a hime cut. They are walking down the hallway of a japanese high school.]
And I yearned for "abnormality"
"ijou" ni akogareta no
[We pan to Kaedeโs face as a group of girls start chatting with her sister. Her expression shows that she feels bitter and upset at the fact the girls are talking to Kanata instead of her.]
I don't have any interest in your differing opinions or pet theories;
iron, jiron ni kyoumi nado nai kara
Iโve already locked the door
mou kagi o kakete
[Between the two lines, Kaedeโs face grows angrier ; we are given a look at the inside of her mind, where she feels like there is a โlocked doorโ between her and her sister Kanata currently.]
I went beyond โloveโ and โhateโ
"suki" "kirai" o touni toorikoshite
[Kaede storms off from the group, running away further into the school.]ย
And fell deeply in love with โabnormalityโ a long time ago
"ijou" ni koikogarete ita noย
[We move to a shot of Kaede sitting underneath a stair case. Her knees are pulled close to her chest.]
And from the ruins of that warped love, it was createdโ
yuganda ai no nare no hate tsukurareta
[Zoom in on Kaedeโs face. There is still anger and sadness in her eyes, but there is some thing more - determination.]
A brand new me
atarashii watashi o
[We zoom in closer, this time to Kaedeโs eye. In her eye we see a reflection of whats to come - current Kaede surrounded by friends ; she is loved.]
Look at me now, touch me right now
hora mite yo hora furete yo
[We move to the Hinomori family home ; Kanata, Kaede, and their parents are all seen eating dinner at the table.]
Iโll throw away my ordinary clothes
bon'you na fuku o sutesatte
[Kaede abruptly gets up and pushes her chair in. We cant see it as she heads to the kitchen, but her entire family's eyes are on her as she leaves.]
Now, from my chrysalis, Iโll become a butterfly
ima sanagi kara chou ni naru no
[She stares at herself in the reflection of the kitchen window. A smile is on her face, but does she like what she sees?]
Iโll show off everything as it is
ari no mama subete misetsukete
[In time to the beat, we see images of her pouring herself a glass of water. The ending shot is her standing away from the sink, glass up in hand.]
There are no performers on this cooled-off stage
samekitta butai enja wa inai
[She decides to do a fun little spin in the kitchen, happy about something shes thought up. But as she doesโฆ]
So I'll beat out the steps, 1, 2, 3
nara suteppu kizande 1,2,3
[The glass of water slips out of her hand. We see shots of the glass shattering in time to the โ1, 2, 3]
I'm not being manipulated
odorasareru nja nai
[Kaede falls to the floor, seemingly crying. She seems like shes very upset about breaking the glass.]
I'm dancing! Yeah, I'm going crazy!
odoru no yo saa, saa, saa kurutte
[Instead, we see her face - she is crying, but she has a smile on her face as if shes lost it a little bit.]
[As the instrumental goes on, we see her parents and her sister enter the kitchen. Her mother puts her hand on her shoulder as her dad cleans up the glass โฆ but Kanata stands to the side, saying nothing. There are two scene changes after - one, where we see that she hurt her knees when she fell, and the second, where we see her headed to the bathroom to clean up the cuts.]
In a dark room by myself
kurai heya hitorikiri
[A shot of the bathroom sink. Water is running in it.]
Before the mirror at midnight
kagami no mae gozen reiji
[A shot of the mirror - we see what still looks like middle school Kaede, her hair in pig tails.]
"Who are you?" "Who am I?"
"anata dare" "watashi dare"
[The girl in the mirror changes to the Kaede we see in current times - her hair in long pig tails, with loops of hair adorning them. She has a smile on her face that tells her not only that she will be popular and happy - but that she should move on with her idea. The smile grows bigger between the two sections of the line.]
I asked, but received no reply
toikakedo henji wa nakatta
[We see the sink again. The water swirls with small lines of blood from cleaning the cuts on her knees. By the end of the line, the water shuts off.]
Go crazy, go crazy, go crazy, go crazy, go crazy, go crazy, go crazy, dance
kurue, kurue, kurue, kurue, kurue, kurue, kurue, odore.
[There are several different images between each word in the line. In order we see: A shot of Kaedeโs feet as she walks to the kitchen. Kaede reaching into the cabinet for a glass ; the window can be seen, indicating that it is still daylight and that a day has passed. Kaede placing the opaque plastic cup on the counter. Kaede placing a white bottle of bleach on the counter. Kaede pouring the bleach into the cup. Kaede pouring juice into the cup. Kaede handing the glass to Kanata. Kaede with a wide smile on her face.]
Oh, brand new meโฆ
saa, atarashii watashi o
[Kaedeโs smile grows wider. During the last couple beats of the line, we see her image flicker between middle school and current time Kaede.]
Look at me now, touch me right now
hora mite yo hora furete yo
[We are back at the dinner table. This time, Kaede has a smile on her face. In the second part of the line, the scene changes - all of a sudden, Kanata has leaned over the table in pain.]
Dressed up in transparent clothes
toumei na fuku de kikazatte
[Kaedeโs parents hover over Kanata, unsure why she has suddenly collapsed.]
Now, from my chrysalis, Iโll become a butterfly
ima sanagi kara chou ni naru no
[Kaedeโs parents and Kanata have left the table now. We are left with Kaede, who is putting her hair up in long pig tails.]
Iโll show off everything as it is
ari no mama subete misetsukete
[We see Kaede putting on her coat as she heads out the door.]
There are no performers on this impassioned stage
nekkyou no butai enja wa inai
[We have a new scene - we are now at a hospital. First we see a shot of the hallway, then a shot of Kanata in a hospital bed.]
So I'll beat out the steps, 1, 2, 3
nara suteppu kizande 1,2,3
[A shot of the heart rate monitor - on โ3โ the line goes flat.]
I'm not being manipulated
odorasareru nja nai
[Kaedeโs parents are crying - they have just lost their little girl.]
I'm dancing! Yeah, I'm going crazy!
odoru no yo saa, saa, saa kurutte
[From this point on, we see a familiar sight. Kaede is surrounded by a group of about 4 or 5 girls - but this time, Kaede is smiling and interacting with them, with no care in the world. She has the same hair as current Kaede, but it should be known that her uniform is different from the one she had in the rest of the video. The mv ends with a shot of Kaede's face, smiling.]
My chest is completely filled with โabnormalityโ
"ijou" ga mune o umetsukushite
I'm becoming a me that isn't normal
futsuu ja nai jibun ni naru no
And from the ruins of that warped love, it was createdโan unfulfillable love
yuganda ai no nare no hate tsukurareta kanawanu koi
My chest is completely filled with โabnormalityโ
"ijou" ga mune o umetsukushite
I'm becoming a me that isn't normal
futsuu ja nai jibun ni naru no
I ask myself over and over, "did I get it?
jimonjitou kurikaeshi te ni ireta no
