Just amazing how all of this came about: nine months on the [Erebos, then the Mithraeum], where Harrow begins her journey into Lyctorhood by vomiting constantly, refers to the sword as "your large steel infant," (pg 31), and while God is explaining what happens to a planet's soul when a planet is murdered, how the revenant is created, she has what might be her first(?) menses (pg. 42).
Harrow goes on to experience constant assault that could be coded in a certain way familiar to a lot of young women attacked by older men (Mercymorn: "What did you say, to make him try to kill you?" (pg 191).
Later she experiences the very unpleasant imagery generated by the Sleeper's pregnancy (and all the failed attempts) while in the River bubble (where she is guided by another mom-coded figure), unaware this is referring to her Gideon, whose mother has been haunting her from that "large steel infant" and once Harrow vacates the premises (her body), Gideon finally emerges and gets a front-row seat to this shitshow where she literally comes out of a closet.
Oh, and Mercymorn who keeps regressing Harrow's age as we count down to the birth of a new character?
Being a mother in this series is a real...well.