so, free will. that’s only for you?

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this used to be my about

hi! thanks for stopping by! i don’t really use this blog anymore but feel free to peruse it if you want. if we’re buddies or were ever mutuals and you’d like to keep in contact with me feel free to send me an ask or a message for my main or my discord or whatever! otherwise i’ll see ya around, have a good one, thank you for a good time, etc ♥️

[aliusfrater]

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why am i blocked by you :((

babe how am i supposed to know

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hi anon i'm not gonna post your message with your url in it but don't worry you didn't do anything to like upset me or anything i just saw some kind of annoying posts on your blog when you followed me lol. it truly does not take much so don't take it personally

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why am i blocked by you :((

babe how am i supposed to know

[sashayed]

uneat apple. uneat apple reddit. uneat apple "how to" reddit. apple how long to digest. google what is minute. how much is 40 minutes. how many minutes no sun then there is sun again. god joking about apple ? god make jokes yes or no reddit

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reflecting on this scene from peace of mind today

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like dean's childhood WAS fucked up and interesting and worth talking about!!! but so many people have locked onto their particular desires for dean's character and refuse to engage with what we are actually told and shown by the show so they have to make shit up instead. it IS interesting that dean took to hunting so well, that john trusted him to be brought along on hunts as a child, that he viewed himself as a parentified figure for sam who was responsible for his well-being, that often his decisions or actions while acting under those roles in his own mind were harmful or wrong or made sam upset. that is interesting! it is interesting and often used in early seasons as a plot point ON THE SHOW!!! that sam and dean have very different understandings of their childhood! why would you make it LESS interesting by deciding "dean's view was 100% right and sam is either stupid or lying" rather than accepting that when sam counters dean's beliefs about their childhood it isn't to make a he-said-he-said argument for no reason it's PLOT, on a TV SHOW, that shows that dean's GOOD INTENTIONS often FAILED, just like john's!!! because dean was a child and trusted his dad! and sam was a child and trusted his brother!

imagine seeing "i was kind of a lonely kid, dean" / "no you weren't, you had me" and thinking "ha! take THAT, sam! your lies will NOT be accepted here!" rather than "the differing views the brothers had about what sam was experiencing (by which sam's view is de facto the 'more' correct one, both because it is about HIS experiences and also because of what we are shown and told in this episode and others) is a central theme of what makes this tv show interesting"

imagine seeing the difference in sam & dean's heaven memories and assuming sam is somehow MANIPULATING HEAVEN and/or heaven is twisting the world to suit sam's INCORRECT understanding of their childhood just to MAKE DEAN FEEL BAD and thinking that that reading of this television show is, like, better and also canonically true. why do you want to make the conflict "dean is right and the world is actively conspiring against him to gaslight him" rather than "wow, ten-year-old dean was put in a horrible situation and wasn't equipped as a ten-year-old to fix the horrible situation his six-year-old brother was also in, and now as an adult dean has to reckon with that, and it's upsetting for him, and he often denies this rather than admit he was incapable of being a parent for his brother because he thinks sam is blaming him and accepting that blame that will ruin or strain their relationship, which ironically strains their relationship because sam isn't trying to blame dean, he's trying to be understood"

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i think the main reason i avoid a lot of preseries speculating or content is simply because to some people preseries sam is just a lifelike RealCare Baby Doll Infant Simulator that dean has to take care of to get a good grade in his mommy replacement classes and/or a snotty little kid who only does things like "read" and "make friends" to piss off his dad because his only true passion in life is being ungrateful.

now the reason this happens is because almost all of what we get about sam's preseries life and childhood was established in the show bible when sam was supposed to be the main character so he was getting main character attributes like being the black sheep of his family, but people want dean to be the main character so they have to shift their analysis (fine to do, annoying to read presented as if its canon) which leaves the entire thing feeling very flimsy and weird from a, like, understanding media level. like tell me how sam is the spoiled princess baby brother who never had to realize how dark life was because dean was shielding him from it (the role he HAS to take to make dean-main-character preseries analysis work) while simultaneously being left alone in rotting motel rooms for weeks at a time with no way of contacting his only living family or knowing they're alive. tell me how we end up with sam on-screen telling dean re: mary "i never had this, i never had someone cutting the crusts off my sandwiches" and the most pervasive fandom reading of that scene being that sam is lying, for no reason, to dean, who they think was the one cutting the crusts off sam's sandwiches and therefore would be the one person on the entire show that sam couldn't pull off this lie to. WHATEVER!!!

anyway i take it back i love preseries fan content if it's about sully

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sam winchester canonically possessed by elphaba send tweet

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my beloved monster and me,  we go everywhere together. my beloved monster - eels x sastiel

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you’d think that in 11x10 lucifer would perhaps attempt to get dean to say yes to him in exchange for not murdering sam given that dean is genetically a suitable vessel for him, sam’s life is pretty compelling motivation for dean to make stupid decisions, jimmy novak is literally just some guy and also it was a pretty big gamble on lucifer’s part that castiel’s consent would even count. but there’s actually a really simple reason that lucifer didn’t even half-assedly attempt to possess dean that i don’t think many people have considered. and the reason is that he simply does not care for that man

[katsidhe]

Hard agree and I think it’s even stronger than that! I think that Lucifer deeply and sincerely loathes Dean in a way that means he actually wants nothing to do with him, not to use him and not even to torment him and definitely not to possess him. Dean is all of Lucifer’s least favorite things wrapped up in one convenient bundle: a proxy for Michael, a relationship that Sam finds strength in, and just generally a reminder that brotherhood is impossible and hypocritical and cruel, but that even so, Lucifer still isn’t allowed to have it. I think a part of him actually kinda hates Dean on Sam’s behalf, as much as a part of him is jealous.

Dean IS the reason that Sam threw Lucifer into the Cage in 5.22, and Dean IS the focal point of the guilt trip Lucifer uses on Sam in 11.10, and these are equally important to Lucifer’s rock-bottom opinion of Dean.

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if i had to summarize what being a supernatural fan who actually watched the show on this website was like it would be someone reblogging your post with the tag “who the hell even headcanons [something that happens on the show on the screen] 😭”

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funko pop correction: dean never played air guitar on his legs that was JENSEN in the extra footage after the END CREDITS. that's not dean it's jensen ackles. therefore i can extrapolate that it's not a yellow-eyed sam funko it is instead a yellow-eyed jarpad

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this is how it feels to talk to my parents about my mental health

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you know how gadreel put sams consciousness in a little filler-episode world in the bunker where he’s working with dean investigating like zombie cheerleaders or whatever when he was in control of the body? that but he searches through sams memories and goes well dean is my only guide to morals and ethics when it comes to sam’s personhood but luckily he’s given me a pretty good script to follow here :) and then he sticks sam’s consciousness in a recreation of the panic room

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i absolutely get why no characters on supernatural smoke cigarettes but it is funny that the one singular exception is a man who dies of lung cancer in the very same scene

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i think jared padalecki has a particular sense of connection to the song “good luck babe” but i won’t get into it here.