{what Is Life Without A Little Risk}

~Proud Hufflepuff ~imagines (requests and original) ~will write for any character 18+

[sapphic-lovegood]

Here’s the list of the fandoms I will write for, so send me some requests!

Harry Potter (including Marauders era obvi)

Maze Runner

Once Upon a Time

Marvel

X-Men

Star Wars

Game of Thrones

Peaky Blinders

Umbrella Academy

Vampire Diaries (The Originals included)

Outer banks

Supernatural

Criminal Minds

Chances are if it’s not on the list I will still write for it, just ask!

[spellwoodmanor]

[pancake-0028]

[sapphic-lovegood]

I know I haven’t posted in ages but recently I’ve watched Metal Lords and it awake something in and yes, yes I did find every song on Hunters list he gives to Kevin and made a playlist

[sansaxjeyne]

another Social Media AU because they're fun.

[jeffreywoodsgf]

sad teenager 🤝 finding comfort in characters that are meant to be horrifying

[crowley-anthony]

laura’s 10k celebration (top 30 ships as voted by my followers) ✵ 25 ➳ jaime lannister & brienne of tarth

↳ “You are speaking of a highborn lady, ser. Call her by her name. Call her Brienne.”

[princecameronlovedacommoner]

Rafe: *Trying to comfort Topper* Listen, the joke’s on her, cause look who she’s with.

Literally half a second later…

Rafe’s chaotic ass coke dealer boyfriend from The Cut: *Pulls up in a rage to the country club* RAFE CAMERONNN!!!

Topper:…

Kelce:???

Rafe: *Internally* Fuck

[sapphic-lovegood]

Salvation in the form of your grace…

Poly!Rafe Cameron x (Fem)Reader x Barry

As Rafe allows himself to continue to be brainwashed by his father, his slowly leaves behind the two people who truly love him more than anyone.

Warnings: mentions of abuse, emotional manipulation, drug and alcohol use, cursing, violence, homophobia, (light)dom/sub dynamic, smut

A/N: I will die on my Rarry hill so let me have this, also please be nice because some of the things written in are from personal experience so don’t freak out thinking I added it for shock value. Fanfiction is how I cope.

Bold Italics=flashbacks

Italics=lyrics

Word Count: 3906

I'm not ready to be just another of your mistakes

The trio was indeed an odd group. No one was quite sure what to make of it, but they didn’t question. Simply out of fear of the two men constantly by her sides.

It all started with a drunken blur of a night. Rafe was high and upset and he found himself at Barry’s trailer.

Rafe pounded his fist against the door until it swung open.

“It’s late- the fuck do you want?” Barry asked.

Y/N was there, leaning out from behind Barry shyly.

“Rafe, are you okay?” She whispered softly, stepping past Barry to gently take Rafe’s hands.

His eyes were filled with tears, he was shaking.

“I-I need you-

Before Barry could make a reprimand Rafe for the unsolicited comment, he was interrupted.

“I-I need you both…you’s are all I’ve got anymore.” Rafe said, holding back sobs. Barry’s jaw unclenched and Y/N pulled him into her arms.

“We’re here- you have us, Rafe.” She whispered. He cried into her neck, clutching her sides.

Barry ushered them inside and settled Rafe onto the count. His hands raked through his hair as he cried.

“Hey, hey, Rafe. Look at me, you’re good. You’re good.” Barry whispered, gently touching Rafe’s chin.

“H-He doesn’t see what I do for him- he keeps fucking using me!” Rafe yelled. Y/N jumped and shakily held his cheek.

“Baby, look at me. You can’t keep doing things for him- you can’t let him treat you like this.” Y/N whispered, her thumb stroking his cheek.

“B-But he’s my dad.” He croaked. Her heart broke into a million little pieces for him. She understood more than anyone what it felt like to be discarded by a parent.

“Listen, he ain’t gonna bother you here. Alright?” Barry whispered. Rafe nodded and looked between the two.

“Thank you.” He whispered, gently taking each of their hands. Barry swallowed nervously and nodded.

“Yeah…of course, country club. You’ve always got a home here.” Barry said.

The three loved one another so much. Having been neglected all their lives. They fed off the love they never got to give. Y/N the most out of all of them. Constantly needing to be touched by one of them. Whether it was holding one of their hands or behind cradled in one of their laps.

She needed to feel as close as possible.

Barry and Y/N helped Rafe more than they knew. Helping him with his drug habit, helping him with his mental health. Trying to make sure he was in a good place and had somewhere he could express his emotions without judgement.

Rafe never understood what having a home was like until them. Rafe and Y/N had become his home.

I can't seem to drown you out long enough

Both boys hadn’t come to terms with their sexualities before their relationship. So when it started, it was difficult. Rafe wasn’t used to affection and Barry was jaded. He wasn’t good at talking about how he felt and it resulted in a lot of bickering.

The boys were fighting. Y/N could hear them from outside the trailer. She hated the fighting but it came to a point where she needed to intervene.

Storming inside and slamming the bedroom door open.

“Enough! Both of you!” She yelled, tears already burning in her eyes.

I fell victim to the sound of your love

“We’re sorry, baby.” Barry murmured. Y/N sighed and crossed her arms tightly.

“The fighting has to stop…it’s driving me crazy you guys. We love each other. A-And I know that’s hard for you two…but you know it’s true.” She whispered, her hands cupping their cheeks gently.

“We know…

“Oh fuck off, Barry.” Rafe murmured, pulling away. Y/N clenched her jaw and grabbed his sleeve.

“Look at me, Rafe. I-I know this is harder for you than anyone. With your dad…but it’s okay.” Y/N cooed, ushering Barry over.

Barry tenderly cupped Rafe’s face, causing the boy to flush.

“We love you, big boy. So I guess you’re stuck with us.” Barry said lowly, his thumb gently stroking the boy's cheek as it heated up under his palm.

“I-I love you too. Love the both of you so fucking much.” Rafe whispered. Barry smirked and pulled Rafe down into a soft kiss. Causing them both to let out a soft noise of satisfaction.

Y/N smiled brightly. Her heart swelling with adoration.

As they parted, Barry kissed Y/N gently, fingers gripping her chin.

“Aren’t you just the sweetest little problem solver, huh?” He teased. Her cheeks flushed and she pushed him back playfully.

“I-I hate when you two fight.” She whispered shyly. Rafe grabbed the back of her neck and pulled her into his chest.

“We know, honey. We’re sorry. Won’t ever happen again.” Rafe cooed. She nodded, burying herself into his arms.

You're like a song that I ain't ready to stop…

I got nothing but you on my mind

Rafe’s father was becoming a problem. His cruel words slowly getting to Rafe once more. Even after spending so long letting himself be loved and cherished by not one but two people.

He couldn’t get the vile words out of his head.

“So you’re a queer freak now, is that it?”

“You think those scum actually care about you?”

“The drugs have fucked your brain up worse than we thought if you think they care about anything other than money!”

“They fucking care!” Rafe screamed, chest heaving with every strained breath that left him.

“You are nothing to them!” Ward yelled. Rafe pulled at the roots of his hair roughly. Tears filling his eyes.

“They treat me like I’m someone! They fucking care!” Rafe growled, grabbing his bag and leaving. Getting on his bike and letting it take him as fast as it could to the trailer.

The revving of the engine alerting the two inside that Rafe was home.

The trailer door slammed open and Y/N jumped.

“I need a fuckin’ drink.” He grumbled. Y/N looked to Barry who sat across from her. The worry on her face evident.

“I’ll go.” Barry said softly. Y/N nodded and watched him follow Rafe into the kitchen.

“Something happened, bug?” Barry asked, soft twang to his accent. Rafe inhaled sharply and gripped the counter tightly.

“My fucking father…what else is new.” Rafe grumbled. Barry nodded slowly, eyeing the distraught boy carefully.

“What’d he say this time?” Barry asked softly, hand coming up to gently hold the back of Rafe’s neck. Rafe turned and swallowed back tears.

“Y-You guys…you care. I know you fucking do.” Rafe whispered. Barry’s heart dropped and he nodded.

“We care, bug. Don’t doubt that, pretty boy.” Barry said, pulling him down into a tight hug.

When Y/N didn’t hear any yelling, her worry grew. She followed after him and found them tightly hugging. Rafe crying softly into Barry’s shoulder.

“Get in here, sweet cheeks.” Barry said, seeing her pout at the sight of them hugging without her. She buried herself into their arms and pressed sweet little kisses against Rafe’s tear stained cheeks.

“We love you so much, Rafey. Always be here for you.” She whispered. He laughed softly through his tears and squeezed her waist.

“I love you’s too, so fucking much.” Rafe murmured. Y/N squealed as he nearly took her off her feet. Her fingers gently brushing through his hair.

I'm not ready to be just another of your mistakes

Barry and Y/N didn’t mind reassuring Rafe they loved him. They wanted him to know he was cared for. But he wasn’t the only one that let his insecurities haunt him.

Before Barry, and before Rafe, Y/N lived with a neglectful father. Mostly absent, and when he wasn’t, he was treating her like shit. Beating on her, locking her out of the house in the middle of storms.

Funny enough, the two had met through her father. Barry was her fathers dealer and one day, her father had wracked up a hefty debt. And when Barry went to his house to collect, he found poor, bruised and beaten Y/N instead.

Don't wanna let the pieces fall out of place

Y/N was sleeping between the two boys. It’d been a long night, Y/N’s father showing up at Barry’s trailer.

It took a while to get him to leave, but when Barry called Rafe, the two of them were enough to scare him off.

She was stirring, unable to get comfortable. Her eyes opened and she whimpered softly.

Sitting up quickly and slipping from bed. Her head was spinning with a million thoughts at once.

She was sitting on the foot end of the bed. Picking at her fingers. Maybe she didn’t deserve them.

Maybe she was bound to end up a worthless old drunk like her father. Or maybe she’d die young of an overdose like so many she knew before. Life was cruel, but her mind was crueler.

Her soft whimpers, slowly turning into cries. Which quickly turned into muffled sobs as she tried desperately to not wake the boys behind her.

I was only just a breath removed from going to waste

Barry was the first to wake up. Looking down at her, knees pulled up to her chest. He nudged Rafe awake and they sat up and their hearts broke.

“Hey, sweet thing. What’s on your mind?” Barry whispered. Her head turned to look at them and her cheeks flushed. Feeling silly for crying.

“M’sorry. Didn’t mean to wake you up.” She said softly. Rafe pulled her into his lap and she whimpered, brushing her tears away.

“W-What if I end up l-like him?” She cried. Rafe cradled her against this chest, kissing her head repeatedly as Barry kissed her knuckles.

“That ain’t gonna happen, pretty girl. You know why?” Barry whispered. She shook her head and sniffled, lifting her head from Rafe’s neck to look up at the two boys.

“Because you’re good…you’re smart, and funny as hell. And creative, you’re gonna do something great. We both fucking know it.” Rafe whispered. Y/N sniffled and peered up at the boy holding her.

“Don’t you forget that.” Barry said. Y/N nodded and leaned forward, kissing Barry slowly.

She needed to be surrounded by them. She pulled away from Barry and kissed Rafe slowly, whimpering as his fingers tangled into her hair. Soft little pants leaving her.

“I-I need- I-I

“What’d you need, sweet thing? Hm?” Barry murmured, lips gently brushing along her neck.

“N-Need to feel you- please?” She begged softly. Rafe met Barry’s eyes and evil smirks spread across their faces.

“Yeah- we’ll take care of you, honey. Who do you want first?” Rafe murmured, his hands slowly working her sleep shirt off.

She couldn’t force her words out. It was all making her head fuzzy. She didn’t care who she had first. She just needed to feel close to them.

He carefully maneuvers her so she’s laid back against his chest, Barry kneeling between their legs as Rafe forcefully spreads hers.

Her chest rose and fell quickly as Barry gently kissed down her body. Little whimpers leaving her parted lips.

Rafe’s hands traveled over every inch of exposed skin. Along her shoulders and down her arms. Trailing over her tummy and smirking as she squirmed at the ticklish sensation, before settling his warm hands on her breasts. Fingers playing with her sensitive nipples, pulling and pinching the peaked buds.

“Gonna make you feel real good, sweet thing.” Barry cooed, grabbing her hips.

“Lemme ask you again, who do you want first? Gotta use your words, sweetheart.” Rafe said lowly, suckling bruises along her neck. Leaving her shoulders bare for Barry to mark up.

“Y-You, Rafey. W-Want you first.” She whimpered. Barry chuckled lowly, helping Rafe move her. They handled her like she was a China doll. Like she was nothing but could break at any moment.

“That’sa good girl.” Barry said softly. Rafe was sat on the edge of the bed with Y/N in his lap. Her back against his chest.

Barry stood in front of them, his hand gently holding her face.

“Ready, sweetheart?” Rafe murmured. She nodded, humming her response.

Pushing her panties to the side, Rafe lowered her down onto his cock. His falling back at the feeling of her soft walls hugging him so nicely.

Y/N’s hands flew out to grab onto Barry’s shoulders for support. Soft moans falling past her lips as tears filled her eyes.

Rafe’s rough hand pressed against her tummy as she adjusted to his size.

“F-Feel so good.” She sobbed, using her grip on Barry’s shoulders to gyrate her hips against Rafe.

“Fuck- you’re perfect.” Rafe groaned against her neck.

“Look how pretty you two look fuckin’- know how to drive me crazy, don’tcha?” Barry growled. Y/N whimpered and parted her lips as Barry slid his fingers into her mouth.

“Oh shes fucking needy, isn’t she, pretty boy?” Barry teased. Making her cheeks flush.

She was. She was desperate for any touch they were willing to give her. She needed to be reminded she was theres. That night, she was thoroughly reminded who she belonged to.

Till I found salvation in the form of your grace…

Barry hadn’t loved anyone like he loved Rafe and Y/N. Not ever in his life. Part of him was scared he’d lose them one day. That they realized they both could do so much better.

Y/N would kiss all over his face and tell him she’d never leave him.

Rafe would wrap his arms around him from behind and tell him he’s stuck with them both.

It was all the reassurance Barry needed.

Before Y/N, both men were deeply haunted by their lives. Using drugs as an escape. With help and encouragement from one another, they got clean. Minus cigarettes and the occasional joint.

They truly were good for one another.

On the verge of almost bleeding you out…

The couple had spent so long making sure Rafe had finally learned to ignore his father. Only wanting him to realize he was so much more than the little credit his father gave him.

To his father, he was a nuisance. A disappointment.

But to them, he was kind and caring. A natural protector and caregiver. Y/N had grown to love the nights they spent painting rocks together and then hiding them all over the lawn for Barry to find.

Barry loved the movies night they’d have together, Y/N cuddled up between as Rafe’s fingers carded through his messy hair.

But as time passed, it was clear that Rafe never moved on from his father. In fact, he was influencing him worse than ever.

Rafe hadn’t come around for a couple days. Y/N missed him and Barry wouldn’t admit it, but he missed him too.

It was a week before he was seen by either one. Of course they talked, but his absence was noted.

“Rafey! Where have you been?” Y/N said sweetly, jumping up and hugging him tightly. Barry was less quick to forgive and forget his unannounced disappearance.

“I was around, sweetheart.” He said, his hand squeezing her ass playfully as she ran back to her lounge chair.

“Yeah- I’d like to know where the fuck you’ve been too, country club?” Barry grumbled, walking over to Y/N and gently stroking her hair.

“Listen- I said I was around. Fuck off, man. I just need to buy some shit right now. Okay?” Rafe said. Y/N’s heart stopped and she sat up quickly. Legs swinging over the side of the chair.

“You’re here to buy?” Y/N whispered, tears springing to her eyes. Barry’s arm gently wrapped around her waist and pulled her back into his side.

“I-I thought…y-you both were clean?” Y/N whimpered.

“You thought I was fucking serious? Nah- I ain’t about that shit. I just need like a gram or two, man. I got the cash.” Rafe said, tossing the money down onto the ground at their feet.

“Don’t be talking to her that way- you know how important that promise was to her. What the fuck is up, bug?” Barry said lowly, stepping over the money to stand in front of Rafe.

“Jesus! Nothing is up! Can’t I just get my fucking drugs and dip?” Rafe said.

“N-No! Not when you left us wondering for a week? W-What about us? Didn’t you think to l-let us know?” Y/N cried, her hands slamming against his chest to push him back.

Rafe’s lip twitched with anger. His eyes darkening. His hand flew up and grabbed her jaw tightly.

“No I didn’t think to let you’s know because I didn’t give a shit.” He growled. Y/N cried and pushed him back, Barry stepping between them quickly.

“Don’t fucking touch her like that? What the hell is wrong with you?” Barry yelled, grabbing the front of Rafe’s polo shirt in his fist.

This wasn’t the Rafe they’d fallen in love with. It was someone completely different. This was who they’d met so many months before they’d all gotten together.

“I’m not getting you your fucking drugs. Not after this shit. Don’t come back till you’re ready to tell us what’s got you all worked up.” Barry growled. Trying to mask the hurt he was feeling with protectiveness for Y/N.

Rafe shoved him off of him and scoffed.

“Fuck you both.” Rafe growled, mounting his bike and driving off.

Y/N cried softly, rubbing softly at her jaw where Rafe had grabbed her. They hadn’t seen him like that in months. They’d gotten used to the affectionate sweetheart that was in their bed most nights.

Not the unhinged coke head that had just taken his anger out on the two people who loved him most.

Barry hugged her to his chest tightly and tried to ease her mind.

“He ain’t right for that, sweet thing. But you know him, he’s just going through it right now. He’ll come round.” Barry murmured.

Not sure if he was convincing her or himself truthfully.

Are we too wounded now to ever come down?

Oh, how I long for us to find common ground

Y/N had work to keep her mind off of worrying about Rafe. If she spent too long thinking about it, she’d find herself crying again and her head hurt enough.

When she got home, Barry was sitting outside smoking by the fire.

“Hey, baby. Come’er.” He murmured. She happily slid into his lap and buried herself into his arms.

“Have you heard from him?” Y/N whispered. Barry’s head fell back against the chair and he sighed.

“Nah…not a fucking word.” He grumbled. Her heart dropped and she rested her head on his shoulder.

“D-Did I do something?” She whispered, her insecurities creeping up on her. Barry sat up, hands instantly grasping her cheeks.

“Hey, look at me. You’re fucking perfect. Hell..I still don’t know why you’re with either of us. You didn’t do a damn thing wrong, sweet thing.” Barry said. Her eyes filled with tears and she nodded shyly.

“H-He won’t answer any texts or calls. I-I don’t know what c-could be this bad, Bear.” She cried. He hushed her, lips pressing against her head.

“We were nothing but good to him.” Barry murmured. Feeling the unmistakable sinking in his chest that he hadn’t felt in so long.

I've got nothing but you on my mind

They were left in the dust with no answers. He simply vanished from their lives. For a while, it hurt Y/N in a different way than Barry.

Barry had trusted him, finally let someone in. And he got hurt. He wouldn’t admit it out loud but he was fucking hurt.

Some nights he laid awake, head on the pillow just staring at the blank ceiling. He couldn’t get his mind to quiet down. He knew it couldn’t have been anything either one of them had done.

There was no answer, no reasons or clarity…until the day Rafe walked onto the property in tears. The first time in weeks they’d seen him.

“I-I need to talk to you both.” He said lowly. Y/N’s heart skipped and beat and she yelled for Barry to come outside.

He rushed out the door, stopping in his tracks.

“Some fucking nerve you’ve got- showing up here…

“I-I know- I’m here to give you answers. Y-You both deserve answers.” He said, fidgeting at her turned to look at the black car behind him where both Y/N and Barry could make out the outline of his father in the drivers seat.

“We’ve gotta end it…all of it.” Rafe said. Y/N looked at Ward Cameron sitting in the car. Smug look on his face.

“T-Tell me it’s not because of your dad.” Y/N whispered, a sudden boldness comping over her. Mainly fueled by the anger she was feeling.

“I-It’s…it’s complicated.” Rafe said.

“It’s not!” Y/N screamed, tears streaming down her face.

“Tell us the truth…we deserve at least that.” Barry said lowly, pulling Y/N back into his arms.

Rafe couldn’t force the words out. He couldn’t tell them it was his dad because then he’d be admitting he fell for the act. That he fell for the if you leave them you’ll be my favorite son again.

Because that would be more humiliating than breaking their hearts.

“I'm not ready to be just another of your mistakes.” Barry said lowly. Y/N sniffled and stepped forward to take Rafe’s hands in her own.

“Don't wanna let the pieces fall out of place.” She begged. Rafe shook his head, tears staining his flushed cheeks.

His eyes said all he wanted to say. He loved them. So much that he’d rather them hate him.

“P-Please, Rafe. D-Don’t fall for his lies. D-Don’t throw what we had away for him.” Y/N begged. Rafe reached up and cupped her face gently, brushing her tears away gently.

“I found salvation in the form of your grace.” He whispered, gently kissing her a final time.

He released Y/N and walked over to Barry. The shame settling in when he met the harsh eyes of the older man.

“I-I never wanted to hurt you…either of you.” Rafe whispered. Barry reached up and cupped Rafe’s cheek.

“I know, bug. I guess it’s just the way things gotta be.” Barry murmured. Rafe nodded silently, leaning down and giving him a gentle kiss.

“Take care of each other. I-I- I’m so sorry.” Rafe said, forcing himself to pull away from the man. Barry nodded curtly, pulling Y/N into his chest as she cried softly.

They watched him get in the car and angrily wipe away his tears. The black car drove away and away until it was a spec in the distance.

Y/N sobbing into Barry’s chest as the older man held back his own tears of anger.

They spent so long building up love and trust, only for it to be shattered in mere moments.

Months of love and comfort broken apart by cruel lies and fake promises…

On the verge of almost bleeding you out

Are we too wounded now to ever come down?

[sapphic-lovegood]

Favorite Crime 3/3

Rafe Cameron x (Fem)Reader, JJ Maybank x (Fem)Reader

Y/N was once Rafe Cameron's world, but when he chose drugs over her. She picks up the pieces of her broken heart and JJ puts them together again.

Warnings: Toxic relationship, drug abuse, abuse, manipulation, cursing, breakup, sexual themes.

A/N: this is kind of a mix of fanon and canon Rafe, definitely more romanticized than he should be but only for the purpose of this story. This also isn’t time line accurate, I shifted some stuff around so the plot flowed better, don’t come for me.

Word Count: 3520

Part 2⬇️

Favorite Crime 2/3

Rafe Cameron x (Fem)Reader, JJ Maybank x (Fem)Reader Y/N was once Rafe Cameron's world, but when he chose drugs over her. She picks up the p

(Not my gif)

When Y/N heard through the grapevine about JJ's arrest, she couldn't help the worry that settled in her chest.

She found herself at Kie's place, sitting on the porch.

"H-He's gonna be okay? Isn't he?" Y/N whispered. Kiara wrapped her arm around her shoulder and pulled her into her side.

"JJ has the survival instincts of a cockroach. He's gonna be just fine." Kie said. Y/N giggled through her tears and nodded.

"That's so mean...but you're not wrong. I-I'm just worried about what his dad is gonna do to him." She murmured. Kie nodded and Y/N sighed.

"Think they'd let me in to see him?" She asked. Kie laughed and shook her head.

"Absolutely not." Kie laughed. Y/N smiled and tied her hair up.

"Worth a shot I guess."

Y/N got on her bike and headed into town to the police station. As she got closer, she saw JJ leaving with his father by his side.

Her heart stopped and she quickly got off her bike.

"J-J, you alright?" She asked. He stopped dead in his tracks. He looked between her and his father.

"Get in the Damn truck, JJ." Luke growled. Y/N pulled him into a hug tightly.

"Don't get in the truck- please, J." She whispered. Knowing what awaited him if he did.

"I've got to, sweetheart." He said lowly, leaning back and looking down at her.

"Now, JJ!" Luke yelled. Y/N jumped and she watched as he got into the car.

"Go on now, I'll see you later." JJ whispered. Her eyes filled with tears and she nodded. Her heart pounding in her chest. Knowing that the moment she was out of sight, Luke was going to hurt him.

When Y/N saw JJ at Midsummers later that night, her heart leapt to her throat at the sight of his bruised face.

"I-I'll be right back." Y/N whispered to Rafe. He nodded and his eyes burned holes in her back as she

ran over to JJ.

"J- your face." She whispered, catching his arm. He turned sharply and his eyes widened.

"Fuck- sweetheart...

His words died on his tongue as he looked over her. So pretty in her fancy little dress, tiny flowers in her hair. Her cheeks flushed and she gently reached up to touch the bruise on his chin.

"W-Why didn't you listen to me?" She whispered. He couldn't focus on a thing she was shaking. Not when she looked so fucking good.

"You're so fucking beautiful." He murmured, his hands reaching for her waist. She looked up at him and swallowed thickly.

Rafe hadn't said a word about she looked. She didn't wanna let him know that it bothered her, but she hated dressing up and he knew that. He could've at least said something nice.

"I-I always feel silly at these things...I hate being all dressed up." She whispered. His heart skipped a beat as she straightened his tie out softly.

Rafe's jaw clenched and he gripped the glass in his hand so tightly his friends feared it would shatter.

"Silly is the last word I'd use to describe you right now." He said. She smiled and slipped from his grasp.

"You should be icing those bruises instead of serving all these rich assholes right now." She said, smiling sadly.

"I know, I'm here on official pogue business." He said. She giggled and smiled.

"I don't doubt that. Make sure you stay outta trouble, Maybank." She said. He nodded. Watching her disappear into the crowd.

No doubt back to Rafe. Who was less than pleased by the interaction he'd just witnessed.

He grabbed Y/N's arm and pulled her aside.

"What the fuck was that?" He asked lowly. She pulled her arm away and furrowed her brows.

"He just got out of jail, Rafe. I wanted to make sure he was okay. He's my friend." Y/N said. Rafe rolled his eyes and rubbed at his jaw.

"Friends...yeah. If that's what you need to tell yourself, sweetheart." He said.

"Fuck off, Rafe. Do not start this right now. How many times have I told you-

"I've got nothing to worry about- I've fucking heard it enough. Go fuck JJ for all I care." He said. She could smell the alcohol on his breath. Not that it excused the cruel words he was yelling at her.

"Rafe...please. N-Not tonight. I don't know how much clearer I can be- I only want you." She whispered shakily, gently holding his cheek. He looked down at her with hard eyes. Easing up when he saw her sad eyes.

He kissed her gently, easing her mind.

"I'm sorry, baby. I know- I know, it's you and me." He said. She smiled and nodded, giggling as his strong arm wrapped around her waist and hauled her off to the dance floor.

Y/N was left alone shortly after, finding herself dancing with Sarah. Rafe had disappeared and Y/N wasn't really worried.

Until she saw JJ come flying out of the house, security guard hot on his tail.

"J-

"Remember what I told you? About deserving better?" He asked. She nodded and her eyes flickered over to Rafe, leaning against the railing on the porch.

"Yeah...I-I do." She whispered. He held her chin and smiled sadly.

"It's still true." He said. She flushed as he released, running off with the pogues.

"What'd he say to you?" Rafe asked. Y/N jumped and turned to look up at her boyfriend.

"Nothing important..." She murmured, burying her head into his chest as she relished in the single calmness of the moment. Something about how she buried herself into his arms made him drop it.

They went home for the night, Rafe unable to shake the anger he felt after seeing Y/N and JJ so close. He knew JJ said something. He just didn't know what.

The following day, Y/N woke to a text from JJ that John B was in the hospital. Her heart stopped and she jumped out of bed.

"Where're you goin' baby?" Rafe mumbled. She kissed his forehead softly and jumped into her jeans.

"John B is in the hospital, I wanna go make sure everyone else is okay." She said. His jaw clenched and he sat up quickly.

"You're really going to them? This fucking early, it's like you just can't wait to get away from me." He said. She flushed and turned.

"You know that's not true. I just wanna make sure my friends are okay and then I'll be back." She said, as sweetly as possible.

"Don't fuckin' bother. I won't be here." He grumbled. She felt like her chest was caving in.

"O-Okay." She whispered meekly. Trying to push the tears back until she was out of sight. She grabbed her backpack and biked to the chateau.

Kie was the first to greet her. Hugging her tightly.

"Is everyone okay? No one else is hurt right?" She asked. Kiara nodded and took her hand, pulling her inside. She looked to JJ and she could see the distress on his face.

"J, you alright?" She asked softly, taking his hand in hers. He squeezed her hand softly and nodded.

"Yeah..M'alright." He said. She smiled sympathetically and squeezed his hand in return.

"If you need anything, you know I'm always here, J." She whispered. He nodded and softly kissed her knuckles.

"I know, honey." He said lowly. She smiled and sat besides him. Their hands still linked together. Y/N was worried for her friends. She was worried for JJ.

"I've gotta get to work, but I'll see you all later, yeah?" Y/N said, grabbing her bag.

"Yeah, we'll be at the wreck, Y/N. Come by." Kiara said. Y/N smiled and nodded, jumping as two warm hands slid around her waist.

"Come by later, promise?" JJ whispered. She turned into his arms and peered up at him.

"I-I promise." She whispered. He kissed her head and hugged her tightly.

"I really need you right now." He whispered. Her heart fluttered and she squeezed his middle.

"I'll be here, J. Promise." She whispered, sweetly kissing his bruises cheek.

Y/N went to work and at the end of the day, found herself home again. Ready to see Rafe after a long day.

"Baby? Are you home?" She called softly. She was so tired. She'd been worried about her fiends and worked all day. She just wanted to relax.

But when Rafe came around the corner, a hard look at his face and pupils taking up nearly his whole iris, she knew there wasn't going to be any rest.

"So where the fuck have you been?" He asked. She swallowed nervously and wrapped her arms around herself.

"I-I went to see my friends...like I said. A-And then I had work." She said softly. He growled and marched up to her, his hand grabbing her face and forcing her head back.

She yelped, hands trying to push him back.

"R-Rafe- stop- what did I do?" She cried. He shoved her against the wall and looked down at her, chest rising and falling rapidly with every breath.

"Fucking around with those goddamn pogues all day!" He yelled. She jumped and whimpered softly.

"I-I wasn't, Rafe. I had work!" She cried, whimpering as his gripped her jaw.

"I don't fucking believe you- always fucking with them. Making eyes at Maybanks." He growled. Her stomach dropped and she was filled with a sudden anger.

Using all the strength she had, she shoved him back. Causing him to stumble.

"You're a fucking whore." Rafe snarled. Her heart broke and her eyes filled with tears.

"W-Why would you say that?" She whispered. She shoved him back.

"I-I gave you everything! I-I loved you! S-So much! I-I have done everything for you a-and I don't even get t-trust in return?" She screamed. His eyes darkened with rage. Jaw clenching so tightly he thought his teeth would break.

"No- you don't get trust. Not when you're fucking JJ-

"I'm not fucking JJ!" She screamed in frustration, shoving him away from her for a final time.

It happened so fast, they were screaming and yelling.

Rafe grabbed her wrist and his hand rose, palm hitting her cheek with a loud crack. Her head jerked to the side and the sheer force of the hit caused her to fall.

He hit her.

Her hand trembled as she gently touched her cheek, feeling blood trickle down her lip. It went silent. The only sound being the uneven breathing coming from Rafe.

Until the realization of what he'd done hit him like a train.

"F-Fuck- sweetheart- I-I didn't-

He couldn't get his words out properly.

"D-Do not touch me!" She whispered as he went to take her hands.

"I-I won't- I'm sorry- I'm so sorry." He whispered. She pulled herself to her feet, wiping the blood from her lip.

"Y-You're not- you're not sorry. And d-don't even tell me you're going to change b-because you're not going to! Y-You just keep hurting people, Rafe!" She sobbed, her chest feeling like it was caving in.

She didn't feel love anymore when she looked at him. She didn't get the warm, butterfly feeling in her tummy. She felt sick. Like something died deep inside her and it was crawling out through her chest.

She ran past him to their room, grabbing a bag and shoving things into it.

"B-Baby- please. I-I'm so fucking sorry- I-I never wanted to hurt you- let alone put my hands on you like that-

"But you did! Y-You did, Rafe. Y-You hurt me. Over and over and I k-keep letting you. I-I don't deserve this- I-I deserve better. I-I'm done waiting for you to change." She cried, pushing past him and leaving.

Leaving him to ruminate with what he'd done. Let him think.

Y/N found herself walking to the cut. Walking turned to running, feet pounding against the pavement. Finding herself outside the chateau.

Her soft knocking at the front door woke Kiara, who was asleep in the living room.

"K-Kie...it's me. I-I need a place to stay- p-please." Y/N whispered. Kiara flipped the porch light on and gasped. Y/N's cheek was already blossoming with a nasty bruise. Discolored purple and yellow and red skin under her eye. And her lip. Split open and bleeding down her chin.

"Oh, Y/N. What happened?" Kie whispered, slamming the door open. Which caused Y/N to jump slightly.

"H-He isn't gonna change- I-I wanted him to change s-so badly, Kie!" Y/N sobbed. Crumbling to her knees. Kiara gasped and knelt down, wrapping her arms around her friend tightly.

"JJ- guys! I need you!" Kie yelled. Y/N cried softly, leaning into Kiara's side.

"Don't worry, JJ's here. Popes here, I'm here. We're all here for you." Kie whispered. JJ woke up and groggily walked to the porch. The dim light illuminating the two girls. And his heart stopped.

"Y/N, sweetheart, what happened?" JJ asked. Her head lifted from Kie's neck and his heart skipped a beat.

She was hurt. Someone had hurt her.

He knelt down slowly in front of her, her eyes following his every movement carefully.

"H-He isn't getting better, J. I-It's only g-getting worse." She cried. He immediately pulled her into his arms. His heart racing a mile a minute.

"I've gotcha, sweetheart." He murmured, gently stroking her hair. Kie and Pope knew Y/N was in good hands. JJ would never hurt her. Never scare her.

So they left them to be alone.

Y/N's head buried into JJs neck. Her body trembling in his arms.

"All the things I did...just so I could call him mine." She cried softly. He kissed her forehead and his jaw clenched. No one deserved to be treated like this. Especially not her.

He didn't know what to say, he wasn't sure what there was to say. He knew this would happen. And the idea made him sick so he pushed it off. But he couldn't anymore and the anger that slowly filled him got worse by the minute.

"Come on, let me clean that lip up." JJ whispered, brushing her hair away from her eyes so he could look up at her face. She nodded and leaned into his hand as he gently cupped her cheek.

She shakily stood from his lap and followed him inside. Dropping her bag onto the bathroom floor. She hopped up onto the counter and JJ turned to look at her.

Even bloody and bruised, his heart did flutter at her beauty.

"Tilt your head back." He said softly. She nodded and her head fell back, giving him the angle he needed to gently clean her lip.

His one hand held the back of her head, fingers tangled through her hair. She looked up at him and her head spun with all the thoughts floating around.

"You doing okay?" He asked, her quietness worrying him.

"Yeah- j-just tired I think." She whispered. He nodded, his thumb gently brushing over her jaw softly.

He kissed her forehead, his arm wrapping around her waist to bring her into his chest.

"I-I k-knew this was how it'd end. I just don't think I wanted to accept it. I wanted him to change." She whispered. JJ nodded, not knowing what to say. His lips pressing against the top of her head. Only wanting to ease her state of upset.

"I won't let you get hurt again. Not like this, you deserve...the fucking world." JJ whispered, warm hands tenderly holding her bruised face.

"I-I really need you right now." She whispered, repeating his words from that morning. His lips twitched upwards into a sad smile and he nodded.

"I'll be here." He said. She giggled sadly and hugged him tightly.

"Always." He murmured. She sniffled and he scooped her up. Making her squeal and wrap her arms around him tightly.

"You can take my bed. I'll sleep on the chair in the living room." He said. Her heart fluttered and she tightened her arms around his neck as he slowly lowered her onto the bed.

"Y-You could stay.." She whispered. His jaw clenched and he looked down at her.

"Stay- please." She said. He nodded and gently tucked her hair away from her face.

"Whatever you want, sweetheart." He said. She smiled and wrapped her arms around him tightly.

"T-Thank you, J." She whispered. He gently rocked her back and forth in his arms, relishing in the feeling of her pressed against him.

"I'd do anything for you...you should know that by now." He said against her neck between gentle kisses. Her eyes filled with tears, unable to recall the last night someone loved her as hard and fiercely as JJ.

A part of her loved him too. Loved him so much that it scared her, but she loved Rafe. As much as he hurt her, she knew it would take time to heal from what had been between them.

Y/N laid back onto the unmade bed and sighed softly. The soft mattress molding to her body perfectly.

JJ laid besides her, leaving a few inches of space between their bodies. He took a moment to look over her face, smiling softly to himself.

Her eyes fluttered open and she looked up at him. His cheeks flushing lightly knowing he'd been caught staring.

"J?" She asked softly, nuzzling into his chest. His heart nearly beat out of his chest, hands shaking as he hesitantly wrapped his arm around her shoulder to bring her closer.

"D-Do you remember that n-night? On the hammocks?" She whispered, her fingertips tracing small patterns over his chest.

Of course he remembered. It was the first time she'd come to him about Rafe. First time he was genuinely concerned for her safety. That night he realized how much he truly cared about her. How it was so much more than a silly crush.

"Y-Yeah...I remember." He hesitated. She nodded and kissed his chin softly where a bruise was, no doubt left behind by his father.

"W-We've always been more than friends. From the moment we met...part of me knew that. I-I think I was scared. R-Rafe was in my life for so long. I-I didn't think I had any other option. B-But then I met you." She whispered. His jaw clenched tightly and he looked down at her.

His hands were rough, but when he touched her face. You'd have swore she was the most precious gem in the world. The way he so softly held her face in his hands. Thumb soothing over her heated cheeks.

He wasn't sure what to say. She took his silence as he didn't feel the same anymore. And that hurt worse.

"I-I'm sorry-

"No- no- you've got nothin' to be sorry for. I-

He paused for a moment, leaning over her slightly so she laid on her back under him.

"I don't know how to talk about how I feel- and I don't wanna mess it up." He murmured. The sincerity in his voice causing her heart to flutter.

"Could never mess it up, J." She whispered, softly biting at her bottom lip as their noses brushed softly.

"I loved you the moment I met you...I thought it was just a stupid crush because you were pretty and funny and you were hanging around more. But then there was that first time you came here after a fight with Rafe.

I'd never been so angry in my life, because I didn't understand how an asshole like Rafe fucking Cameron was lucky enough to have you in the first place, let alone treat you the way he did." He said, pressing a gentle kiss to her cheek. Her heart fluttered and she held his shoulders.

"I would've done fucking anything to take that pain away for you...that's how I knew it was more than a silly crush...I just- knew." He whispered. She swallowed the lump in her throat as her eyes filled with tears. Never in her life had such sweet words been said to her. Never had she felt so safe and loved.

"I love you." She whispered, burying her head into his neck. Those three words brought him instant relief. Like ten tons had been lifted from his shoulders all at once.

"I love you too, baby." He said softly, his hand gently rubbing her back. She sniffled and giggled through her tears. He leaned back and looked down at her.

"I'm not looking to rush you...okay? We don't have to- be anything except friends until you're ready." He said, his one hand resting on her tummy.

Her heart fluttered at his sweet words and she smiled softly.

"T-Thank you, J." She whispered. He nodded and kissed her forehead as he knelt back.

The pair fell asleep tangled together. A mess of hands running over each other and soft spoken words. Unable to get close enough to one another.

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A/N: should I write a fourth chapter with a little more JJ x Reader action to finish off the mini series?

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If I wrote a Barry x Reader x Rafe love triangle series based off Hozier songs would anyone actually read it?

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Favorite Crime 2/3

Rafe Cameron x (Fem)Reader, JJ Maybank x (Fem)Reader

Y/N was once Rafe Cameron's world, but when he chose drugs over her. She picks up the pieces of her broken heart and JJ puts them together again.

Warnings: Toxic relationship, drug abuse, abuse, manipulation, cursing, breakup, sexual themes.

A/N: this is kind of a mix of fanon and canon Rafe, definitely more romanticized than he should be but only for the purpose of this story. This also isn’t time line accurate, I shifted some stuff around so the plot flowed better, don’t come for me.

Word Count: 2624

Part 1⬇️

Favorite Crime 1/3

Rafe Cameron x (Fem)Reader, JJ Maybank x (Fem)Reader Y/N was once Rafe Cameron's world, but when he chose drugs over her. She picks up the p

(Not my gif)

Y/N biked to the chateau. Unable to stop the crying.

She approached the group and smiled through her tears.

"Hey, you guys." She said softly. Kie and Sarah shot up and hugged her so tightly. Y/N cried, her head burying into Sarah's shoulder.

"Come on, sweetheart. Let's go talk." Kie whispered. Y/N nodded and followed the girls. Their arms wrapped around Y/N as they climbed into a hammock.

"What happened, Y/N?" Sarah asked softly.

"H-He was high a-again- s-so high and p-paranoid and h-he accused me of cheating! H-He was screaming at me, h-he punched a hole in the wall." She cried. Kie looked at Sarah as she hugged Y/N tightly.

"Why on earth would he think you're cheating?" Sarah asked softly. Y/N sniffled and looked over at the boys who were all worried.

"H-He saw JJ help me on the boat. W-When I slipped and he caught me. H-He's high and paranoid a-and assumed we were fooling around." Y/N whispered.

Both Kie and Sarah knew about JJ's not so little crush on Y/N.

"Did he hurt you, Y/N?" Kie asked softly, knowing it had to be asked. Y/N swallowed nervously and shook her head no. She didn't think Rafe had that kind of violence in him. But after tonight, she was scared.

"N-No- he wouldn't- he couldn't, right?" Y/N asked, her eyes filling with tears.

"He cares about you so much- Rafe is just...he's going down a bad path right now. The only one that can help him is himself. So do not blame yourself." Sarah whispered. Y/N nodded and brushed her tears away.

"I-I thought he trusted me more- I-I thought we had more trust i-in one another." Y/N whispered.

"He's a fucking idiot who doesn't deserve you." Sarah whispered.

"Come on, no more tears. Let's have fun tonight. You can stay here with us." Kie said. Y/N smiled and nodded. The girls pulled her over to the fire and Kie handed her a joint.

JJ looked at Y/N, his heart clenching knowing she was upset. He wanted to be there for her so badly but part of him knew it was partially his fault. How flirty he was, how much he found himself drawn to her.

People noticed how much he liked her.

As the night went on and Y/N slowly started to forget why she was upset. These were her people. They made her feel comfortable.

JJ found himself walking over to the hammocks where she was sitting.

"This spot taken?" He asked, gesturing to the space besides her.

"Not at all." She giggled. He smirked and sat besides her. She shifted into his side and smiled as his arm slung over her shoulder.

"I'm sorry about Rafe." He said softly. She flushed and gazed up at him. His face so close to hers. His arm around her. It was more than friendly.

"D-Don't be...it's not like he actually has anything to worry about. We're..friends, right?" She whispered, inhaling sharply as his nose brushed against hers accidentally as he tried to move. Accidentally.

JJ bit back a smirk at her soft stutter. He affected her as much she did him.

"Yeah...right. Nothing to worry about. Except, every time I look at ya I have to stop myself from kissing those pretty little lips." He said lowly. She flushed and sat back so she could look down at him.

He was serious.

"J-JJ-

"No no, I know. I'd never put you in the position where you'd do that to Rafe. You really love him and he loves you based on the sounds of it. You two are happy- I don't wanna mess that up for you." He whispered, his thumb gently stroking her cheek.

"I care too much to see you hurt, I just want you to be happy. Even if it's not with me." He said. Her heart fluttered and she leaned into his gentle touch.

"J- I care too, so much. You're amazing and sweet and-

She stopped herself. She knew if she kept going she'd admit to him what she wasn't to admit to herself.

Maybe Rafe wasn't who she was meant to be with after all.

"I love Rafe- a-and we've hit a rocky patch but h-he's gonna get better. I-I just know it." She whispered, sitting back and pulling herself out of his touch reluctantly.

"I know- it's gonna take every ounce of restraint to not kiss the life outta ya...but we can be friends. Tell your boy he ain't got nothing to worry about, sweetheart." JJ said lowly, gently grasping her chin as he sat forward.

The hammock swung as he shifted, causing Y/N to all but slide into his lap.

His hand instinctively went to steady her hips.

"We're good friends." She whispered, reaching out to innocently brush a bundle of hair out of his eyes.

"Yeah...real good friends." He murmured, helping her out of the hammock.

"W-We should get inside, we'll get eaten alive by skeeters." She said. He smirked and nodded. Watching her run off inside.

Y/N never told anyone about what was said between them that night. Not Kie, not even Sarah. Her best friend. What they talked about that night was special. Something that connected them and anyways telling their friends would be embarrassing.

So the next morning, when Y/N returned home. To the boys apartment where she stayed most night. She told Rafe, sincerely. That he had truly, absolutely nothing to worry about. She was his, 100%.

They kissed and made up. He apologized for everything. The yelling, the wall, for being night. And he swore, for the third time, that he was going to get his shit together.

JJ would see them together at the country club. Y/N always looking a little too out of place. JJ hated that. He knew she loved Rafe but he put her in situations where she didn't feel love. She felt used.

Like she was a shiny thing for him to show off to his friends. She'd stay nestled into his side, every few hours asking shyly when they could go home. Only to be given the same answer.

Soon.

Soon never seemed to come so they'd end up there all night.

She'd always get home to a snarky text from JJ.

How was the country club?

She'd rolled her eyes and smiled softly.

Things were good for a while. Calm even. Rafe seemed to be getting better. She had hope.

The night of the movie in the park, Y/N tagged along with Rafe and his boys.

"I'm gonna say hi to Kie." Y/N said, kissing his cheek.

"Alright- come right back." He said. She rolled her eyes and he yanked her back into his side. Making her gasp.

"Don't roll your eyes. Go say hi and come back." He said.

"Fine! Jesus, what's gotten into you tonight?" She asked. He sighed and his face softened. Leaning down to kiss her softly.

"I'm sorry- some shit went down and I don't want you mixed up. Just come back so I know you're safe." He said. She flushed and nodded shyly.

He knew how to make her knees weak.

Y/N ran over and hugged Kie tightly.

"Hey there, beautiful." Kie teased. Y/N smiled and waved to the boys.

"Hey you guys, where's John B and Sarah?" Y/N asked.

"We're not really sure. They probably ran off together for the weekend." JJ said. Y/N smiled and nodded.

"Rafe's burning holes into your back." Kie whispered.

"Y-Yeah..I know. He's being weird. He didn't even want me to come over and say hi." Y/N whispered. Kie looked at the boys, who were glancing over their shoulders.

"They're being weird too- I think someone went down that we don't know about." Kie said. Y/N nodded in agreement and they agreed to keep an eye out for trouble on either end.

Y/N ran back over to Rafe and she kissed his cheek softly. She slid into his lap and her arms wrapped around his neck.

"Hi, beautiful." He whispered, gently kissing her cheek. She rested her head against his and gently cupped his cheek.

JJ looked back and his eyes caught Y/N's. Y/N flushed, smiled shyly before forcing herself to look away. And instead, Rafe and JJs eyes met.

Rafe scowled and his big hand pressed against her tummy, pulling her back closer to him. His lips against her neck. As if to say, she's mine.

JJs face hardened. Rafe treated Y/N like she was property. Not a person. JJ didn't miss the menacing smirk on Rafe's face as Y/N tilted her head to the side, allowing him more room as he continued to kiss her neck sweetly.

Her eyes fluttering shut at the feeling.

"My pretty girl." He whispered. She flushed and looked down at him.

"Love you." She whispered. He held her cheek and kissed her. Not returning the words. A sinking feeling settling in her stomach.

She wanted to scream. Say you love me, please. Say I'm more than something for you to show off.

She couldn't bring herself to say it. Not now. Not when she felt like things were so fragile as it was.

"Hey, we'll be right back, baby. Stay here." Rafe said suddenly. Y/N was pulled her from daydream and she stood from his lap.

"Wait- where are you going?" She whispered, catching his hand.

"It doesn't matter, just stay here." Rafe said sternly. She swallowed the lump in her throat and watched as the boys disappeared behind the screen. Y/N looked around and she met Kie's eyes. JJ and Pope were gone.

Y/N ran over to Kie and grabbed her arms.

"Kie- the boys are all gone." Y/N whispered, fear lacing her voice.

"They went behind the screen- come on. They'll kill one another." Kie said. Y/N grabbed her hand and they ran through the crowd.

Behind the screen, was chaos. The boys fighting one another brutally. Kelce holding JJ back while Rafe punched him relentlessly. Topper was strangling Pope.

Y/N shoved Rafe so hard he stumbled back. Turning and cocking his fist back to hit whoever pushed him and stopping. Eyes locking with Y/N's as she put herself between JJ and Rafe.

"I-I won't let you hurt them." Y/N whimpered, body trembling his fear as Rafe refused to lower his hand.

"I-I won't let you hurt my friends!" She yelled, shoving him back. Tears spilling from her eyes.

"Get out of the fucking way, Y/N. I swear to god. You have no idea who you're protecting." Rafe growled. She took a step backwards, her back pressed lightly against JJs chest.

"I-I'm not moving." She whispered. Rafe grabbed the front of her shirt and ripped her away from JJ, pushing her out of the way.

"What the fuck- don't hurt her, Asshole!" JJ yelled, trying to get out of Kelce's iron grip.

Y/N hit the ground and whimpered softly, Rafe went to hit JJ again and as he went to make a move, the screen went up in flames. The crowd was screaming in a panic as everyone rushed to their cars to get away from the blaze.

Rafe grabbed Y/N's arm and pulled her to her cheek. She ripped her arm away and shoved him away from her.

"D-Do not fucking touch me, Rafe Cameron." She cried. His face fell and he looked at her. Seeing the fear in her eyes as he registered what he'd done.

"B- Baby, please. I didn't mean to-

"G-Go Rafe! Just go!" She said, her voice breaking as Kie wrapped her arms around her tightly. Guiding her away from the fire and away from Rafe.

Kie and Y/N ran to her car and they all piled in. Y/N was sitting in the back as Kie hazardously pulled out and immediately started to drive.

She couldn't even process what had happened. She was lost in thought until JJ gently touched her shoulder.

"Hey- are you alright? He didn't hurt you?" JJ asked softly, eyes sincere as he looked over her face for any sign that she was in pain.

But she didn't care, she cared about the bruises that were blossoming on JJ's face. She cared about the blood trickling down from his split lip.

"Y-Your face-

"I don't care about me- just tell me you're alright." JJ said lowly, reaching out to cup her cheek softly. She nodded quickly, holding back a sweet sigh as she leaned into his warm touch.

"I'm okay- I promise." She whispered. He nodded and pulled his hand back.

"Y/N, you're gonna stay at the chateau tonight, right?" Kie asked. Y/N flushed and nodded.

"Y-Yeah- I can't go back to the apartment." She said softly. Kie nodded and they went to the chateau.

Y/N all but collapsed into the fold out bed, pulling a pillow close as exhaustion caught up with her. JJ walked in and his eyes trailed over her.

JJ grabbed a beer and went he went back to the pullout, she was sitting up. Pillow between her legs as she rubbed her tired eyes.

"Hey, sweetheart." He said lowly. She flushed and looked up at him.

"Y-You should ice your lip." She whispered. He nodded and his thumb swiped away the blood along his chin.

"Can I say something that you won't like?" JJ asked. Her eyes widened and her heart skipped a beat.

"When has the opinion of others ever stopped you from voicing your thoughts, J?" She teased. He chuckled and nodded his head slowly.

"Since I don't wanna lose you- but...you gotta know, you deserve better than that piece of shit. You know that, don't you?" He said, kneeling down so he was looking up at her.

"You're fuckin' perfect." JJ whispered. Her eyes filled with tears, angry tears, tears of frustration and hurt and betrayal.

Because she knew JJ was right. She knew she didn't deserve how Rafe treated her. She knew he wasn't going to change. That every time he promised to get better, it was a lie. And she knew it was only going to get worse.

"H-Have you ever had someone in your life for so long that a-after a while...no matter h-how much they change...you can't help but love them no matter what?" She whispered, brushing her tears away.

JJ nodded. He knew that feeling all too well. Constantly wanted to please his father no matter how much he hit him. No matter how cruel he was. JJ wanted his dad to be proud of him.

"I know where you're coming from, sweetheart. But eventually- you just gotta let go. For your own sake." JJ said, gently holding her chin.

She nodded and softly held his wrist. JJ was good to her. Made her feel safe.

Y/N stayed at the chateau that night. She couldn't bring herself to return to the apartment until late in the afternoon. Silently hoping Rafe wasn't even home. She couldn't face him.

She knew he'd flash her his puppy dog eyes and she'd melt into his arms and forgive him for everything.

And the minute they locked eyes and she saw how bloodshot his were. The tears staining his cheeks. She knew she was done for.

"I-I'm so fucking sorry." He cried. She climbed into his arms, gently rubbing his back.

“I need help!”

"I-I know, baby. I-I know. We’re gonna get you help." She whispered.

And just like that, he had her wrapped around his little finger again.

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Favorite Crime 1/3

Rafe Cameron x (Fem)Reader, JJ Maybank x (Fem)Reader

Y/N was once Rafe Cameron's world, but when he chose drugs over her. She picks up the pieces of her broken heart and JJ puts them together again.

Warnings: Toxic relationship, drug abuse, abuse, manipulation, cursing, breakup, sexual themes.

A/N: this is kind of a mix of fanon and canon Rafe, definitely more romanticized than he should be but only for the purpose of this story. This also isn’t time line accurate, I shifted some stuff around so the plot flowed better, don’t come for me.

Word Count: 2122

(Not my gif)

Rafe and Y/N met out of pure coincidence. Y/N worked on the golf course and Rafe was there one day with friends and he fell in love at first sight.

She was the most beautiful girl he'd ever seen. Immediately charming her with his smile, and his confidence. Resulting in what was going to be one dinner.

Y/N knew who Rafe was, she wasn't dumb. But something about that wolfish smile drew her in. He took her out to dinner and it was perfect. She wasn't used to how he treated her.

Like she was a queen. Y/N was relatively shy. But she was kind and had a good heart. Rafe made her feel seen. Like she was a queen. He made her love herself.

Until he didn't. A few months after they became official, and Kildare was buzzing with the news of the Eldest Cameron's new girlfriend, things changed. Rafe changed.

He was secretive and shifty. He didn't tell her things anymore. He snapped at her more often and then he'd cry and apologize. Y/N was worried beyond belief.

Too many nights he'd come crawling in her window after the sun went down. He'd hold her in his lap and cry into her neck.

"It's all a fucking mess." He cried. She gently ran her fingers through his hair and kissed his head.

"It's gonna be okay...whatever is going on will pass." She tried to console. He cursed softly and tightened his arms around her.

Around this time, Y/N started to confide in Sarah. Who had recently started dating John B. Once the pogues had accepted her as one of them, Sarah asked if Y/N could hang out one day after a rough fight with Rafe that the whole Cameron house had heard due to Rafe's unhinged anger issues.

They of course welcomed the new member with open arms. JJ remembered how his eyes nearly popped out of his skull and his cheeks flushed a shade of red no one had seen before. She was fucking perfect. Every inch of her.

She wasn't even wearing anything special. A ratty old hoodie with doodles and cigarettes burns in it. And shorts, her bag and longboard in hand. Her hair was wild and curly, the only thing keeping it out of her face was her sunglasses pushed back on her head.

"Hi! It's real nice to meet you all." She said sweetly. JJ's heart melted as she shook his hand. He got a chance to look at the dozens of handmade brackets on her wrists.

"I'm JJ, nice bracelets." He said. She smiled and undid one.

"Here!" She said, gently tying it around his wrist. He couldn't even answer, too in awe of her immediate kindness to the whole group.

She was a kook. Supposed to be. She didn't look like a kook. They went out on the HMS Pogue for the afternoon. Sarah and Y/N had brought beer and white claws and JJ and Kie provided top shelf weed.

Y/N wasn't a drinker, but man if she didn't enjoy a good joint now and then.

JJ swore it was the hottest thing he'd ever seen watching her roll a J herself. She shrugged her hoodie off and revealed her crocheted bikini top.

"Oh my god! That's so pretty!" Kie said, climbing over and gently touching her strap.

"Thank you- I make them. I'll make you one!" Y/N said. They welcomed Y/N in immediately. She talked to John B about fishing and to Pope about books and JJ could've listened to her talk about anything, all day.

She talked to him about surfing and how she wanted to go on adventures and see the world. She was really perfect.

Then JJ saw the bracelet on her write. A little R charm on it and his head started to spin. No. There's no way.

"What's the R stand for?" JJ asked softly, fingers brushing the bracelet.

"Oh, Rafe." She said, smiling softly. His eyes nearly left his head.

"You with Rafe Cameron?" He asked, catching everyone's attention. Her cheeks flushed brightly and she nodded shyly.

"Yeah, we've been dating for almost a year." She said, sipping her drink. Sarah smiled at Y/N sadly.

"We're actually in a really big fight right now." She whispered, Sarah's arm wrapped around her shoulder.

"No shit?" JJ murmured. Y/N shrugged and smiled sadly.

"Everyone has their baggage. Rafe's always been there for me, and I wanna be there for him. But he pushes people away." Y/N said softly. Sarah hugged her tightly and kissed her head.

"He can be an asshole. I praise you for staying with him." Sarah said. Y/N rolled her eyes and giggled softly.

"He's not that bad. He's sweet and he's always been there for me." She said. Sarah smiled. Y/N really saw something in Rafe no one else did.

Sarah and Kie came over after a bit. Once Y/N was sitting alone again.

"Am I crazy or was there a lil something going on between you and JJ." Kie teased. Y/N flushed and smiled shyly.

"N-No no- we were just talking. H-He was just trying to make me feel included." She said. Sarah smirked at Kiara and nudged her.

"No- he's definitely sweet on ya." Kie said. Y/N giggled and smacked her arm.

"Leave him alone. He was being sweet." Y/N defended. It was cute. They instantly clicked. She just felt comfortable around him.

At the end of the day, Y/N had dove new friends. And before Sarah and her left, JJ pulled her back and put his number in her phone.

"Let's hang out again." He said, a sly smirk on his face.

"Of course!" She said happily. He kissed her cheek and she ran off to Sarah's car.

"Drop me at the boys place, I need to talk to Rafe." Y/N said. Sarah nodded and dropped her off.

Topper let her in and she went down the hall to his room. She knocked softly and the door opened.

"H-Hey...can we talk?" She whispered. He nodded and gently took her hand.

"Yeah- of course." He whispered. She followed him inside and closed his door.

"I'm so fucking sorry about this morning. I- I was hungover and Ward and I were fighting last night. And I took my anger out on you- I know you don't deserve that, I don't deserve you." Rafe said. Y/N was stunned. He always apologized but not like this.

She wrapped her arms around his middle tightly. His chin resting on her head.

"Don't say that- you know I love you so much." She whispered. He gently brushed his finger through her hair and buried his head into her neck.

"I love you- more than I have ever loved anything. I don't know what I'd do without you." He murmured, angry tears filling his eyes.

His fathers words replaying in his head.

Worthless. Fuck up. Deadbeat.

"It's okay, Rafe. M'not going anywhere." She whispered, kissing his cheek. She leaned back, holding his face.

She kissed his cheeks and his nose and then his lips gently.

"I love you, and I'm always here for you." She whispered. He leaned down, grabbing her waist and pulling her closer.

"I love you, missed you today." He said softly. She smiled and set her bag down on the bed.

"I missed you too, I was hanging out with Sarah and her friends." She said. His jaw clenched and he rolled his eyes.

"Those fucking pogues?" He asked.

"Hey! Don't be mean, they were really nice." She said, shrugging her hoodie off so she could change out of her wet swimsuit.

"What'd you do?" He asked.

"Went out on John B's boat and we swam for a bit. Kie was really nice." She said. Rafe didn't like them by any means. But if Y/N liked them, he wasn't gonna say anything to discourage her from making friends.

"That's good, baby. Glad you had a good day." He said, watching as she pulled on a pair of spare leggings she kept at his house and one of his sweatshirts. She climbed onto the bed next to him and nuzzled into his side.

"I'm exhausted." She murmured, her arms wrapping around his middle.

"Yeah, long day, huh?" He said softly. She nodded and kissed his cheek.

"Why'd you get into it with, Ward?" She asked softly, gently holding his cheek.

"Oh you know...the usual. I'm a fuck up and I'm gonna kill myself with the drugs." He said. Her heart clenched and she picked at her bottom lip.

"Well...the drugs are something I'd like to talk about." She whispered. He groaned, rolling so he was leaning over her.

"Not you too." He grumbled. She held his face and pouted.

"Rafe...you know that I don't ever judge you. But the coke is getting out of hand and you know it." She said, holding his chin gently.

"I know, baby. I'm getting my shit together- I swear. I'm getting it tight. For Wheezie, for you, for my dad." He said.

"Fuck your dad...you're smart and sweet and he doesn't appreciate all you do for him." She whispered. He smirked and kissed her softly. She really did see something in him. She knew he was good. She thought he was good.

She stayed that night, wanting to make up for the time apart while they were fighting.

In the morning they made breakfast together and the boys teased the two. Teasing Rafe that he was whipped. He didn't care. Because he loved her. And she made him a better person.

She started to hang out with Sarah and the pogues more often. Much to Rafe's dismay. He hated that she was around them. She hated that she was around JJ, and John B and Pope. His girl.

He'd never voice his fears because he didn't wanna sound insecure or needy. But fuck, if he did t full with rage every time she left to meet them at the docs.

Rafe had been at Barry's before going back to the apartment. When he came home, he was high off his ass. And being high made him paranoid as it was.

Y/N got home from swimming with Kie and Sarah. An oversized flannel thrown over her swim suit.

"Hi, baby! How was your day?" She greeted sweetly. He looked up and his eyes darkened.

"My day? It was fine...guess it would've been better if I hadn't have seen JJ all fucking over you." He growled. She stopped, her heart skipping a beat.

"R-Rafe, we weren't doing anything. H-He helped me out of the water and into the boat." She said, her back against the wall. He slammed his hands against the table and marched over.

She flinched as his fists hit the wall on either side of her head.

"Don't fucking lie to me!" He yelled. Tears filled her eyes and she shoved him away from her.

"D-Do not talk to me that way! I-I didn't fucking flirt with JJ- I didn't cheat on you! So get a fucking grip!" She screamed, her body shaking with fear.

He'd never looked so angry in his life. She was terrified.

His jaw clenched and he punched the wall, his fist going directly through. She jumped, a small shriek leaving her.

"I saw you!" He yelled. She cried and pushed her hair out of her eyes.

"You saw me with my friends! You saw my friend helping me! I-I don't get the fucking complex you have about JJ but he's my fucking friend! So get your shit sorted, Rafe." She said. He grabbed her arm and pinned her to the wall.

She looked up at him and her heart stopped. His pupils were wider than she'd ever seen them. Barely able to see the pretty blue of his irises that she'd fallen in live with. It wasn't Rafe looking back at her. It was something else.

"Y-You're high- y-you are fucking high, Rafe!" She cried, shoving him away from her.

"Y-You said- you said y-you were gonna stop a-and be better!" She yelled.

"It doesn't fucking matter! Why do you care?" He yelled. She jumped and pushed him back as he got in her face.

"Because I don't want you to fucking die!" She screamed.

"I-I don't want JJ- I just want you. W-Why can't you see that?" She cried, grabbing her bag and leaving. She hopped on her bike and started pedaling. Anywhere. She didn't care.

She called Sarah in tears. Needing someone.

"We're all at the Chateau. Come here."

[rometabss]

i honestly don't see how jj could like kie ??? like it doesn't make sense to me bc he's clearly uninterested in her. like kie was making those jokes about "boring pope" "fun pope" etc etc and she never seemed to like Any of them for that matter like she just doesn't like pope that way. but then you have jj saying "look at that guy over there. he would do anything for us, that's a real pogue if i've ever seen one, bone deep. that's just one man's opinion tho" it just shows how jj just genuinely loves pope for who he is and he doesn't want him to change At All bc he adores and admires him SO MUCH like he's seriously so in love with the guy

like seriously "are you even a pogue?" vs "that's a real pogue if i've ever seen one, bone deep". that scene shows that jj doesn't like kie, he's in love with pope

[sapphic-lovegood]

To anyone watching Outer Banks season 2, did the end of episode three make anyone else sob or am I just too invested in this show ??

[randomoutsiders]

The marauders friends w a girl (who’s like 2 months you her than them) a they baby her sooooo bad like older brothers 😭

“i’m literally your age, james!” you growl, shoving him away.

“false. you’re a baby. we’re eighteen whilst you remain seventeen. therefore.. baby.”

[sapphic-lovegood]

This is so cute

[sapphic-lovegood]

Ease My Pain (Update)

Update on Ease My Pain- basically the final two parts are primarily smut and I’ve never written a smut that I’ve posted and I am nervous so I’m critiquing myself excessively. I promise it’s coming.