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[sapppphho]

watched pride and prejudice 2005 the whole way through for the first time yesterday and i now consider myself a changed person.

[jarrahstenthdundies]

its just that claire never got charlie’s list and sawyer never knew juliet was pregant and jin never saw ji yeon in person and aaron never got charlie’s ring and juliet never saw her sister again and boone never finished what he wanted to say to shannon and desmond named his son after the person that brought him and his wife back together and ugh it just makes me so sad and overwhelmed over how broken these characters were

[apoetriee]

ROMEO & JULIET MARYLENE

[sapppphho]

“im on the girls team” you never once mention baela or rhaena. you never talk about rhaenys. you brush past laena only as an excuse to hate daemon. you despise rhaenyra and you don’t even hide it. you probabaly don’t even remember characters like elinda and mysaria and dyana who give such an interesting perspective on things. your entire idea of the women on this show are alicent, who is always depicted as the perfect victim who only helps to prop up the men around her, and helaena, who you see as the only true victim because she is passive and silent (not baela or rhaena who are younger and have lost their mother?? why, because they are willing to fight for themselves?? because they are active and sometimes angry and adored by the people the way you claim helaena is), and jahaera, who you can project your own headcanons onto (her father didn’t love her, he would never and could never make her his heir because his entire claim to the throne was built on the fact rhaenyra was a woman). you don’t care about the women on this show, you just lowkey want alicent on the throne, all of team green rewarded and coddled, and everyone silently accepting this as if they have not lost everything (and far more than alicent).

[petals-and-parchment]

When Sally Rooney wrote, “I am not a religious person, but I do sometimes think god made you for me.” And Emily Brontë wrote, “Whatever our souls are made of, his and mine are the same.” And Paulo Coelho wrote, “I realised that he was my other half , created just to be with me, and I with him.”

[sapppphho]

people acting like it’s a biblical sin to call her eleven/el but from what we’ve seen she doesn’t like to be called jane by almost anyone. jane ives is the girl she never got to be, the mother who can’t ever hold her or smile at her or even talk to her, the childhood bed she never got to sleep in. el is the name she made for herself with all that she was ever given. even when they were hiding in california, will and jonathan still called her el. jane is personal and painful and important. id say it’s reserved for hop and joyce (but even she mainly calls her sweetie). all her friends call her el because it’s the name she chose with them, it’s what they know her by.

[sapppphho]

you were raised by a group of emotionally unavailable engineers. you didn’t grow out your hair until you were fourteen and running away from all you knew with a theatre troupe. you grew up in the decapitated metal head of an unfinished statue commissioned by an old dead man who drove london into poverty and was widely disliked. he is also your grandfather. you’re bisexual. the boy you love sailed away from you after you irrevocably betrayed him. the first time you refer to your mother out loud as your mother is right after she has just been cut in half in front of you. the man you work for is resurrected into a machine and you raise his two small children before leaving them with aforementioned theatre troupe in the hopes they will live better lives. your previously mentioned grandfather implanted his memories into your brain when you were a baby in the hopes he could continue his legacy through you. this device saves your life when you are fatally shot by a fifteen-year-old prejudiced boy because there are tiny machines in your blood that repair injuries. you fall in love with a northern girl who your grandfather also experimented on. you build the first flying machine in centuries and are almost murdered to prevent your technological advancements. you watch your city become mobile after fighting to prevent this very thing from happening and then flee to a dead continent with the few people you love.

[sapppphho]

characters who find freedom in death. characters who have cried and begged and dragged themselves through life face-down in the dirt and kept going until they just couldn’t take any more of it. characters who only ever had the chance to make one choice for themselves and chose that one, the only one, the last one.

[sapppphho]

i need more imperfect mothers in media. mothers who look at their child and don’t like what they see and can’t hide it and can’t say it out loud either, can’t save them or spare them or hug them. mothers who see the worst of themselves reflected back at them and have to look away, who see the kids growing up safer and sadder than they did, becoming better people than them, becoming worse people than them. they’re your greatest failures and your greatest achievements. they’re the only things you love in this world and you’ll never say it out loud. you hate them sometimes and you scream with it but you’ll fight like a dog for them if you need to.

[sapppphho]

going to throw my two cents on the love triangle out there and then sprint back to the safety of ronance: steve has acknowledged multiple times that he was a bad person in s1, has apologised to everyone he hurt for all he said and did, has thanked nancy many times for giving him a wake up call, and matured as he’s grown up.

johnathan has never once even mentioned taking photos of nancy shirtless (except for one really weird conversation where he said he could “see what she was saying”), it was entirely swept under the rug and ignored, he never takes accountability for anything, never told nancy that he was purposefully ignoring her in the hopes she would break up with him because he was too much of a coward to either do it himself or actually talk to her about his thoughts, is more focused on steve than nancy, and truly believes that proposing will solve everything.

if she says yes and they get married, they’ll do what they always do—never talk about their problems—and without an intense trauma bond (even murray admitted it), they’ll stay stagnant and miserable and nancy will end up exactly what she was so afraid she’d be in s1: trapped in a loveless marriage with a husband she can’t really talk to.

[sapppphho]

i thought they were going to go this route with will and it was cool don’t get me wrong (tho i don’t think he has the telekinetic powers i think he can just control the monsters because he’s linked to vecna) but im already seeing people say he’s more powerful than el and calling her useless and weak like can we not

[sapppphho]

someone pointed out that kalis worst fear came true and she ended up right back where she never wanted to be and now i want to cry.

[sapppphho]

jumping in joy because one of my favourite characters from one of my favourite episodes from my very favourite season is back and now all the people who mindlessly hated it can go choke.

[sapppphho]

i don’t trust writers with queer characters and storylines but part one was so impactful just to see robin and will become great friends and laugh and talk to each other about their struggles and i will honestly never recover if they kill off robin and reduce her character to a plot device for byler.

[sapppphho]

how can ppl sit there and say representation is forced and unnecessary and not realise how impactful it is to see yourself and your struggles represented in someone else and realise there’s nothing wrong with you??

[sapppphho]

could talk forever about how the differences between morgwen and merthur are rooted in the fact that gwen became morgana’s friend before she became her servant and merlin became arthur’s servant before he became his friend.

[sapppphho]

one of my favourite episodes in merlin is 2x02 when odin puts a bounty on arthur and when the assassin arrives he finds out arthur’s lying about leaving camelot and believes it’s part of some grand scheme and in reality it’s just arthur being petty and trying to prove he doesn’t need special treatment.