sare without a care

Watch it burn down.

[sarewithoutacare]

The flock is running.

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[sarewithoutacare]

Stuck to a window.

Photo by @sarewithoutacare, No ai used.

[the-big-mood]

[sarewithoutacare]

Modded my first handheld emulator. 😊

[sarewithoutacare]

6am

It's 6am and I can't sleep. A piece of me is getting used to the calm and the other half of me is waiting for the other shoe to drop. Trusting myself and my decisions is sometimes hard for me. However, if I want the right outcome, I have to stick with it. Going back to someone mistreating you doesn't make them stop mistreating you. It helps them know they can keep doing it and you'll come back every time. "Staying strong and moving on" or whatever someone's mother's motivational Facebook post says with a minion on the bottom.

[kyotoprotocols]

[gothredy]

[9to10lives]

[sarewithoutacare]

This morning I blocked a "best friend". I said what I needed to say and I didn't want an explanation or excuses. There are none. My family members could've died in an accident recently... it was so bad... and this friend just... disappeared on me for almost 2 weeks. They always made situations about them, so I should've known they would abandon me. But this was too disrespectful to ignore. I don't care if you think it's childish for just leaving like that, but I honestly could not handle the confrontation after everything that's happened. It doesn't feel great because for years I really loved them... however, I have to think about myself at some point as well.

Luckily I did have other friends who really stepped up. Helped my family and me when I needed them most. Those are the friendships I'll nourish moving forward. I guess sometimes a big event really puts into perspective who's in your corner and who's not. Just needed to get my thoughts out there...

[fayriequeene]

[sarewithoutacare]

Cat scratchhhh.

[vampirerelics]

[kyotoprotocols]

[mummer]

it’s crazy how when you’re 11 you think wow nationalism is the root of all evil and war is despicable and religion is the opiate of the masses and misogyny is everywhere and climate change is our most dire threat. and you start to grow up and you think well surely it will become more nuanced to me, surely there must be a reason adults arent breaking down wailing in the streets due to the cruelty of this world. and then you become an adult and you think wow nationalism is the root of all evil and war is despicable and religion is the opiate of the masses and misogyny is everywhere and climate change is our most dire threat

[sarewithoutacare]

Is there something wrong with me? I just can create a disconnect and not feel as guilty as I should. I have never had a stable childhood and sometimes I think I'm comfortable with the separation. If someone has wronged me, it's so easy for me to just... move on. No closure, no messages, just silently drifting away from them. Does that make me heartless? I've just always grown up realising that people and situations are temporary. Not everyone is a lifelong friend, partner, and even family members don't get a pass. I do not do this to everyone, and no one is perfect, I give a lot of chances too. But sometimes, I just stop caring... Aren't I allowed to just... Protect my peace?

Idk been thinking about that a bit lately.

[sarewithoutacare]

Reduce speed now.

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[maviyenot]