Being in a Relationship With Bucky Barnes
He’s terrified of Rocket simply because Rocket is insistent on needing his arm
When he gets drunk with Thor for the first time is also the first time he tells you he loves you
He completely opens up to you about his feelings about his rehab
He feels fucking horrible because he can’t remember anything Steve talks about but he’s trying so hard and Bucky feels so bad about not remembering
You tell him that things will never be the same, and he needs to figure out who he is without anyone’s help
Which is part of the reason why he goes to Wakanda
When he comes out you’re there and you end up on your knees hugging each other for an hour
Not speaking, just holding each other because it’s been a year and fuck he missed you
You are completely submissive to him most times, he has this underlying power and authority about him that renders you putty in his hands.
However, you can’t help but be a bad bitch when you need to.
When you’re sparring, you’re pulling out all of your tricks (powers, assassin moves etc) to render him speechless
Lots of women work for the Male Gaze, but you work for the James Gaze
You don’t call him James, ever
It’s always Buck, or Love, or Sweets
But when you do call him James, it’s in the most intimate moments— when you’re comforting him after a nightmare, or when he’s crying or when you’re making slow and soft love.
He loves your ass, whether it’s in tight pants, his sweats, under his hand when Y'all are cuddling, or up in the air for him and him alone
He claims its soft, and there are very few things in this world that are soft anymore
But you know its because he’s secretly always going to be a teenage boy
Even if he is like, 100 years old
You love calling him old man, or elder Barnes because it makes his jaw do the Thing and it makes him lips pull up only slightly
So slightly that only you and Steve notice
he rarely gives you a full smile on your face, but he smiles at you a lot
He smiles at you when you fall asleep on your books or briefings
He smiles at you when you’re putting away your laundry in one of his dirty shirts “because it smells like him”
He smiles when you talk in your sleep because it’s usually “love you, bitch” or lines of the Disney movie you showed him earlier that day
He often sweeps you off the couch in his living room to dance to Disney songs because they comfort him and the closeness to him comforts you
And nat and Steve and Sam have all walked in on him teaching you how to quickstep to The Princess and the Frog ST
He also really loves “fly me to the moon”- it’s his favorite song and he swears he’s going to dance with you to the song on Yalls wedding day
But animals and elementary school kids? Can’t get enough of him.
The animals are drawn to his energy
And kids like to touch his metal arm and if they’re lucky, they’ll be able to climb on him and swing from it
So he’s on the fence about having kids, but he brings home new animals all the time
The only one that Y'all haven’t found a home for is a St Bernard named Rocky because Bucky always takes down all the advertisements you put up
You refrain from your love of scary movies for him because despite Shuri’s help in Wakanda he’s still Afraid
So that’s actually when you introduced Disney and Pixar to him
The fuckin softy amirite ladies
You guys act like the other is the sun and you’re a sunflower
Like you’re always turned towards each other or hovering over the other
You’re undyingly protective of each other
I’m talking you often abandon your original mission to protect the other when invading a hydra space
He’s terrified of hurting you w his metal arm
But the first time you ride his metal hand after a hard workout he starts to notice how it gets you going
When he flexes his hand out of habit and his arm whirrs softly he realizes that your stare isn’t one of fear or disgust but one of amazement
He fucking loves when you go down on him
He loves the spit and the moans and the hums and he loves when he feels your nose press against his stomach and you swallow around him
He loves the taste of himself on your mouth
He loves when you ride his thigh
He’ll be sitting against the headboard and reading some sort of self help book (he loves grace helbig and Connor franta’s books)
And he’ll be wearing loose shorts, and the muscle and hair on his thicc thighs will make you moan outlaid the second you see him
And soon enough you’re making out and you’re cumming all over his thigh
He’s hella fucking submissive in bed simply because he’s afraid he’ll hurt you, but also because in the 40’s he was always putting in the most effort and it’s nice to not have to worry about everything
So you often ride him into the sunset
And he leaves small clusters of hickeys on your tits because finally he actually own something and that something is you
You love his hair more than anything in this world
When he ties his hair in a messy bun to eat you lose your mind
And ever since you watched the second How To Train Your Dragon, HES been asking you to do little braids in his hair
And it’s just become a habit
You’ll be in the living room watching a movie and he’ll be resting his head in your lap and soon his head is full of braids
He always always always leaves at least one in for the whole day
He doesn’t like music, but he loves podcasts because he learns more and more about how modern society works
You recommend “Pod Save America” and “Small Doses”, but his favorite is true crime podcasts and BuzzFeed unsolved
when they do an episode on the Ghost (winter soldier), he’s actually fascinated because the media hates him but Shane and Ryan are actually fascinated with him and how he worked.
He cries laughing when they finally decide that the Ghost is an old Chinese grandmother
You and Shuri are really close not only because you are Bucky’s two favorite girls, but because you are both so fascinated by him.
You actually have a book of drawings of Bucky and his arm that you and Shuri share
You like to speak to her, Wanda and peter in vine references and can actually have a full conversation without any of the other Avengers understanding you
You help Shuri take out her braids when she needs help and you do so while she’s in Tony’s lab working on new designs for the Avengers
Tony is pissed at the mess you’re both making
But he’s never seen Bucky smile so much (it’s because of how close you and Shuri are getting)
You bring her to Sephora and when you come back after stealing Tony’s business card you corner bucky and T’challa and do their makeup
Bucky decides he likes having his eyebrows gelled and he decides he likes brown mascara
T’Challa likes a little bit of Rihanna’s Fenty highlight “trophy wife” on the top of his nose
She accidentally calls you mom and dad on the reg and eventually you don’t think it’s by accident
You love this teddy bear of a man and he loves you and you’re so fucking amazed at each other.
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