[sassyler]

completelyclueless replied to your post:HOW BAD ME BE

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[ask-gloomy-onceler]

I can't say I won't miss you. Gloomy.

[/GLOMPS] Im sorry for acting like a douche. 

[sassyler]

HOW BAD ME BE

[ask-gloomy-onceler]

Goal Achieved!

I feel so proud of myself.

I should frame these <3

[sassyler]

this just in: youre a fuckin nerd

Hey excuse me…

I AM SUPPOSED TO SAY THAT TO YOU, YOU DARN GREY BLOB. WHAT KIND OF PERSON DOESN’T HAVE A NOSE OR MOUTH. LOOK AT THOSE DORKY SUN GLASSES. I THINK WE BOTH KNOW WHO THE NERD IS HERE. 

[sassyler]

Here I thought you'd recognize me :( -Gloom

He's dead.

Shut up. 

[sassyler]

"Sassyyyy..." Oncie whined.

Uh... And... you know my name how?

[sassyler]

*POKES* >=T -gloom

Don't touch me.

Gloomy is dead.

If you think you're funny

Then let me tell you a little something.

YOU'RE NOT.

[sassyler]

By bed I meant coffin~ ;) Still work for ya? -Gloom

No.

[sassyler]

This is really funny.

Absolutely hilarious.

Who ever sent this is definitely the master of jokes.

[sassyler]

[ask-depressed-once-ler]

"I don’t hold on to the past. I don’t see the point in it. I’m not saying completely forget about it, but I don’t see the point in getting bent up about what happened in the past because, well, it’s in the past. It’s already happened and there’s nothing anyone can do to change it so might as well move past it and focus on now. Plus you’re so hellbent on all the bad things you’ve neglected to mention any scrap of good that’s happened. Like our date, don’t you remember that? I don’t know about you, but that was one of the happiest memories I have."

He took a deep breath, feeling a bit calmer. “I’m not making excuses and I’m not making it seem like everything was perfect. All I’m saying is it wasn’t as awful as you think it was. Even if it was, I can live past it.”

[sassyler]

 Sassy kept his eyes on the floor, his hands pulling at his sleeves. He couldn't even think about the good memories when all he kept seeing were the bad ones.

"I do- I remember. I know there were good times... There's no point in me talking anymore this is getting no where... I'm trying not to... what I mean is I'm sorry- I was just trying to set things straight. I didn't mean for this to be-... like this. I know I'm over reacting. I'll just- I'll go." He gave Sad one last glance then turned around, twisting the knob to open the front door.

[ask-depressed-once-ler]

"You don’t think I remember all the times you’ve been a complete and utter ass to me? The times where I was so mad at you I thought I would actually give up on being your friend? You don’t think I remember all the fights we had? Because I do. I remember all the fighting we used to do and I’m not saying things were perfect but it’s better than what I had before. Everybody fights, it’s not that fucking unhealthy. And so what if you haven’t been the nicest person? You’ve changed, haven’t you? You’re not the same snide asshole who shuts everyone down within the first thirty seconds of knowing them. The fact I got to see you change and mature is what brought me here in the first place."

His eyes were fixed on Sassy. “I never thought of you as someone you weren’t. I never put you on a pedestal. The only thing I think of you is from what you’ve shown me. I don’t want a relationship. I never expected one in the first place, because I know it’s not your M.O. I only wanted to tell you how I feel and to let you do whatever you want from there.”

[sassyler]

 "You're so-" He pulled at his hair and frowned, "I don't think you understand. I'm no friend expert but I know that that wasn't right. 'So what'? Really? You can't just do that. You can't just throw your hands up and let it go like that. Are you so-" Sassy started to walk in small circles, frustration visible with every move. "I hate your go-with-the-flow personality. Things were far from perfect. Things couldn't even be considered fine. Stop making excuses for me. Like everything was fine and not that bad."

He tried to explain to Sad as best he could but the words weren't coming out as he had hoped. He started to grow even more frustrated, feeling tears form. He rubbed at his eyes before they could come down. 

He took a couple seconds to steady his breathing then continued, "Let me do whatever I want? Well you always let me do that anyway, right? I could always do whatever I wanted and no one could say anything about it, yeah? Do whatever I want." He scoffed and started mumbling to himself.

[ask-depressed-once-ler]

Sad took a deep breath before speaking. “I….I need you. You’re my best friend and you’ve helped me through so many tough times and I don’t think I can do this without you. You’re one of the reasons I’m still here. I never wanted to say any of this because I hate sounding needy, like some kind of puppy that needs constant attention and maintenance, but that’s what I am….But despite all that you still talk to me and take care of me and that’s what leads me back to this. I….” He sighs heavily. “I’m still in love with you.”

[sassyler]

"I've helped you? Really? Well correct me if I'm wrong but how many times have we fought? Well over 40 I'm sure. I've been nothing but horrible to you and when I was nice, those rare times I know, I remember, they were only a couple of times and barely counted as nice. If you want to thank anyone for helping you or at least recognize them you should talk to Pinkie. She found you when you took all those pills. She was there for you more than I was." He sighs, "What I'm trying to say is until recently, we've been in an unhealthy relationship and I'm trying to say that you shouldn't love me- you-you shouldn't even like me. You really shouldn't..."

Sassy breaks eye contact with Sad, instead staring down at his feet, "And until you understand that I wasn't there for you as much as I would've liked to be, that I wasn't a good person at all, I can't be in a relationship with you. I want you to stop thinking of me as... that person- that person that I'm really not." 

[ask-depressed-once-ler]

"S-Sassy, wait!" He followed after him. "Sassy, I don’t want you to leave me. I don’t want you to stop talking to me. It’s just….I’m scared, o.k.? I’m so scared that something I say will be the last straw and you’ll never want to speak to me. There’s so much I want to tell you but I’m so afraid of going over the line and I just….I don’t want to ruin this."

[sassyler]

Sassy stopped and turned around, forcing himself to look at Sad. "...I'm not... going to stop talking to you over just anything, Sad. Who do you think I am? I wouldn't leave you. I mean I've left you... but that was- it's difficult to explain and I'm sorry. I wouldn't leave you deliberately... If you have something you want to tell me then tell me."

[sassyler]

It's what you haven't done. Freaking get your man already

I'm not in the mood right now, Pinkie. Shut up about your stupid ship and maybe start thinking about the well being of your friends instead.

[ask-depressed-once-ler]

"I take it ‘Okay’ means you want me to talk now, huh?" He sighed heavily.

"That night when….I told you I wanted to die. Before then, I was determined to get over you. I know you don’t want to be in that kind of relationship and that’s fine, I understand that. But that night stirred up all those feelings again and I’m stupid and can’t control my feelings and…." He stared at the floor, not daring to look at Sassy. "I’m sorry you had to have a friend like me."

[sassyler]

Sassy shuffled his feet uncomfortably and curled his hands into fists to stop them from shaking. He stood there for a couple of seconds, staring at Sad the entire time. "No. I'm not in the position to be dating. There's a difference. I couldn't be in a relationship with anyone-... I already tried once before and it didn't work out for me. There are things I'm trying to... focus on. It's nothing to do with not wanting to be in one, it's more I can't be in one." He scratched the back of his head and sighed, "What do you want me to do? Were you actually expecting me to never want to talk to you again? Did you want that? So you could go back to forgetting about me in peace? If you wanted me out then maybe you should've said something to me sooner!" He didn't know he had raised his voice until he spoke his last word, leaving the room silent.