Rooted Conversations || SassyRolex
Dear sassyradish,
It's good to know what you want. I think that may be where we differ the most. There's a part of me that almost wishes I could say I'd want to explore that further, but it wouldn't be true, and that has nothing to do with you and everything to do with me.
I have a lot of things I need to figure out with myself before I'll be ready to settle and start a family. There is a part of me that feels like maybe someday that could be a goal for me, but... to be completely honest I haven't even considered that part of my life. Which I suppose makes our goals incompatible.
It's hard to admit that because I've really enjoyed our chats and getting to know you more and more. But to pretend when you're being so open and honest about your goals and wants would be a disservice to both of us.
I don't know what I'm looking for. I don't know if I'm hoping more for this whole letter thing to end with a match made or just friends I can talk to or connections to be made. I think that whole uncertainty of what I'm after has been half of my problem when it comes to relationships. The other half of the problem comes from my lack of experience with all of this.
Or maybe it's just who I am as a person, that's also a possibility. That feels like the most likely reason.
I'm sorry. I'm sorry if this is disappointing, and I understand if you would like to part ways, but I have genuinely enjoyed our time talking to each other. But I don't want to hold you back from finding someone who has similar goals and dreams as you do. You deserve someone who wants to and is ready to build a life with you, and that someone--as much as I hate to say it--isn't me.
It was never going to be me.
And yes, it's much easier to communicate over email. Clearly. This is all something I would be too much of a coward to ever admit to in person, and you deserve better than that. But i'm glad I had a chance to say any of this to you.
I truly wish you all the best, and I hope you find your perfect match.
Maybe one day we could be friends?
All my love the best,
Wisteriarolex
@sassyradish
Dear Wisteriarolex,
It's too bad that they are incompatible, but I really truly appreciate you being honest with me about that. It's better we know that now, right? Rather than try for something and realize it's not what either of us really want or need.
And I am so so very grateful you chose not to pretend with me. I really... I feel like I've already dealt with that before in the past, and so I can only thank your candor again and again. Because I have also really enjoyed our chats, but it's okay to admit that we're not suited for each other even so.
I think of course it's okay to not know what you want. These emails aren't signing you up for a guaranteed relationship or forcing you to get into something after the fact. So hopefully it has given you a chance to figure yourself out a little bit more.
It's a little disappointing, but not so bad as you think. Because like I said, I prefer honesty over stringing me along. I thank you for telling me, and I hope that you do figure out what you're looking for. Perhaps one day we can meet as friends. For now though, I do appreciate that you've shown me where I should focus my energies more.
Take care of yourself, sassyradish
@wisteriarolex













