O' DEATH,

[saturnmused]

𝐒𝐀𝐓𝐔𝐑𝐍𝐌𝐔𝐒𝐄𝐃. a selective & private multi-muse, featuring canon & original characters from fandoms such as: the sandman, marvel, baldur's gate 3, supernatural, & others. written with care by nix (29, he/they, eastern timezone). this blog is explicitly 21+ due to dark & mature themes.

A STUDY IN: balancing mental health & well-being ; pursuing one's forbidden desires ; accepting responsibility & living with the consequences of one's actions.

[ Ⅰ. ] travelling with: @sndrd, @plutomused, @kurjaks, @timelovcd, @screwhope. [ Ⅱ. ] blogroll: @soldatassass1n, @electrictempest, @codename-rush.

CARRD. MEMES.

[saturnmused]

@1dentifie ≛ SAM & DEACON.

❝ 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝒂 𝒍𝒐𝒏𝒈 time now, i've felt like a freak, ❞ he indulges the other in hint of honesty as sam tries to best approach this situation with some empathy, which he feels is well-deserved. he doesn't know other's lot, but the look of weariness on deacon's features is one that sam knows all too well, & he wants to try to help if & when he can. ❝ didn't fit in at school, or at home. i escaped into books, maths, sciences ; it was all a distraction from how i was really feeling. ❞ youngest winchester brother gives a slow shrug of shoulders, hesitating, as if unsure where he was going with this. ❝ it's taken me this long t'realize . . . it was never me that was the problem to begin with. it's always been them. ❞ he wonders if this could be relatable to other at all ; sam generally isn't wrong about these things, but there's always a first time for everything.

[storyborn]

@saturnmused & tony/steve.

❝ what brings you by these parts, super soldier? something i can do for you? ❞

[saturnmused]

𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒓𝒆'𝒔 𝒂 𝒇𝒂𝒎𝒊𝒍𝒊𝒂𝒓𝒊𝒕𝒚 here, even after all these years of being apart, that tony's presence brings, & a hidden comfort with that familiarity. has lips curling into smile at other's greeting, & said supersoldier gives tilt of head as he moves to lean against doorway. ❝ just felt like a visit to an old friend was in order. ❞ admittedly, steve hasn't come over anywhere near as often as he'd like ; but he's cognizant of tony's space as well, knowing that they're only the worst ( & best ) of each other in close quarters. hands stuffed in pockets make vague gesture at surroundings. ❝ working on a new project ? ❞

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@hexsreality ≛ DEAN & WANDA.

❝ 𝒊 𝒉𝒂𝒅 𝒂 really good time, wanda, ❞ eldest winchester brother tells the scarlet witch as they make their way back to his car, which he'd driven them both in to their date ; a local diner, with all the best kinds of food ( in dean's humble opinion ― & choice in food does matter for him ) ! dean watches as she makes her way to the car, something elegant & graceful in movements, drawing him in to her singular allure, & moves to open the door for her, but stops before she can get in, reaching for one of wanda's hands. ❝ i hope you had a good time, too ? and . . . maybe wanna do it again, sometime soon ? ❞ he's already thinking about it, but the last thing he wants to do is exert unduly pressure on her about potentially coming home, so he offers a smile & then opens door wider for her.

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@ventureheart ≛ DEAN & CLARA.

❝ 𝒊'𝒎 𝒔𝒐𝒓𝒓𝒚, 𝒃𝒖𝒕 . . . am i just s'pposed t'trust you, here, or what ? y'have anything for me, other than 'just believe me, bro' ? ❞ dean winchester, as a hunter of all creatures & monsters supernatural, knows that there are many cases in which what once was believed a fairy tale then fabricated to reality. he's been dealing with this for decades now, trained by father to be a warrior, carrying on family business ; but time travel ? a box which could go anywhich where in space, in human history & beyond, with an equally-timeless being at its helm ? it sounds like a nightmare to him, who knows all too well what happens when powerful individuals are given free reign, & he's glancing around for location of brother, though dean hasn't seen sam in a hot minute. ❝ look, whatever's going on, we just want t'finish this case, & then we'll be out of your hair, alright ? ❞

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@icebhaal ≛ DEAN & SERAPHINA.

𝒔𝒐𝒎𝒆𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒂𝒃𝒐𝒖𝒕 𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒔 doesn't feel right, & the elder winchester brother knows his gut has yet to lead him wrong ; he leans into the feeling, trying to chase origin, but comes up wanting, staring straight into her eyes. mildly hypnotizing, & dean is no stranger to feeling off-kilter when it comes to interactions with those he's genuinely interested in, nerves settling in body. he clears throat, raises brows, & tries to make it seem like he's been doing more than simply fantasizing of his hands on her body. ❝ ―and you're sure you didn't see anything ? ❞ not the first time he's had an interest in a suspect, but hunter instincts take over, making him suspicious. ❝ i thought you were performing that night. early night in after the concert, or what ? go 'nywhere else ? ❞

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LIKE THIS POST for a short starter from either dean or sam winchester, from s.pn. multis, as usual, please specify for which of your muse's it'll be for.

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lazyboy-bound and rewatching S1 of super.natural. reminiscing

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@sndrd  asked: [ dreamy ] sender and receiver indulge in a handful of slow, romantic kisses

𝒇𝒆𝒘 & 𝒇𝒂𝒓 𝒃𝒆𝒕𝒘𝒆𝒆𝒏 are the times when they get to do this, lying together, & when grey feels he's truly able to take his time. so much of their life together as shadow dragons has been on the run, constantly on the move while the world burns around them, that it's a struggle to find time to spend together where they can be truly alone. the elder elf feels the tension in the air, mingling with something indescribable that he can only point to as ambrose's influence. lover's scent wafts between them & grey wants to bury himself in other, interjoined foreverafter, & lets this guide his movement against ambrose, a gentle grind as they lay together on other's bed. feeling of soft lips pressing against his own has grey giving a soft groan, open-mouthed, into the kiss, before one hand reaches up to find purchase in ambrose's mess of curls. ❝ sweetheart, ❞ he breathes when they part, breath coming hard from lips as the warrior tries to regain some semblance of control. ❝ i want you, ambrose. ❞

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headcanon questions

if you are sending to a multi-muse, remember to specify the muse that the questions are being sent for . feel free to edit these as you see fit .

🌟 What’s something small they did as a child that hinted at who they’d become?

❤️ Who is the one person they’d drop everything for, no questions asked?

💔 What’s the one wound (physical / emotional) they’ll never fully recover from?

🗡️ What’s their “I’ve killed for less” trigger?

☀️ What’s their happiest childhood memory?

🌧️ What kind of weather matches their soul?

🍽️ What meal do they cook when they need to feel like themselves again?

🎶 What song instantly makes them emotional & why?

🌙 Do they sleep peacefully / fight nightmares every night?

🔒 What’s a secret they’ll take to their grave?

🪞 What do they secretly hate about their own appearance?

💪 What random skill are they weirdly proud of?

👶 Baby picture of them - what’s the most embarrassing thing about it?

🏠 Describe their home when no one’s watching—messy, spotless, chaotic cozy?

😭 What always makes them cry, even if they hate admitting it?

😂 What’s the dumbest thing they’ve ever laughed at for way too long?

🧸 Do they still have a childhood comfort object? Where is it now?

✏️ What nickname do they secretly love being called?

⚔️ How do they act when they’re furious but have to stay polite?

🩸 What’s the worst injury they’ve ever had & the story behind it?

🕊️ What would instantly calm them down in a panic attack?

🔥 What’s something they’d burn the world down to protect?

🌹 What scent reminds them of the person they loved/love most?

🪥 What’s their most oddly specific daily routine?

💔 What’s the one apology they’re still waiting for that’ll never come?

🃏 Are they the type to forgive / hold a grudge until the end of the universe?

🌌 What’s their biggest “what if” that keeps them up at night?

🦋 What was their “I’m not a kid anymore” moment?

🎭 Do they wear a mask in public? What’s the real them like underneath?

🧳 If they had to leave home forever with only one bag, what do they pack?

🌑 What’s the darkest thought they’ve ever had about themselves?

☕ What’s their comfort drink?

🖤 What’s a “villain” trait they actually possess?

🤝 Who is the one person they never want to disappoint?

🎁 What gift would utterly destroy them (in a good / bad way)?

🩹 How do they react when someone they love is hurt?

🌅 Are they a sunrise / sunset person - what do they think about while looking at their favorite?

🧣 What texture/clothing item makes them feel safe?

🦉 What piece of advice do they give everyone but never follow themselves?

🔪 What’s the most violent thing they’ve ever done for love / survival?

🦋 What seemingly insignificant memory do they cherish the most?

🌹 What is their love language & how badly do they need it right now?

🪨 What’s the hardest choice they’ve ever made?

🧋 What food/drink do they hate that everyone else loves?

🕰️ If they could relive one day of their life, which would it be?

👑 In their own story, are they the hero / villain / someone else entirely?

🌡️ What temperature do they keep their home at & why?

🧸 What would their younger self think of them now?

💌 What’s the letter / text they’ll never send?

⚰️ What do they want written on their gravestone / what do they want people to remember them for?

[saturnmused]

i am officially 30!

[hollowprompts]

➛ 𝐦𝐚𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐩𝐢𝐞𝐜𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐚𝐭𝐫𝐞 𝐛𝐲 𝐦𝐚𝐫𝐢𝐚𝐧𝐚𝐬 𝐭𝐫𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐡 - lyric prompts.   adjust as needed.

clever words and phrases only stain. 

i remain so lost and buried under everything that i need.

all i want is you.

i've been here so very long.

every word is calculated, never questioned or debated. 

i could wreck it if i had to.

i'm the wreck.

my masterpiece will fall apart.

it was over before the start.

this is just a part i portray. 

you're beautiful, can i hide in you awhile?

don't make a sound in case they hear you. 

it only hurts me to be near you.

keep those tired eyes closes.

follow my instruction and i will show you self destruction. 

i don't know how it got this way.

i realize i'm losing and this is my real life. 

this habit is always so hard to break. 

i don't wanna be the bad guy. 

i've been blaming myself and i think you know why. 

i thought you wanted me.

i want you all to myself.

make me feel like someone else.

i just can't decide what i'm running from. 

i can't keep my filthy fucking mouth shut. 

it's not enough, it's never enough. 

here's another day i'll spend away from you. 

take what you wanna take. 

take me home, i don't wanna be alone tonight. 

i will run to you till i can't stand on my own.

i cross my heart and hope to die. 

you're still away from me. 

i wonder what you're doing.

i wonder if you doubt it. 

i wonder how we used to ever go so long without it.

if your heart wears thin, i will hold you up. 

i will hide you when it gets too much. 

i'll be right beside you. 

nobody will break you. 

trust in me, don't pull away. 

i'm just trying to keep it together.

i could do worse and you could do better. 

every memory comes on when i hear that old song that we used to sing with the words all wrong. 

i'll burn out and slip away.

i'll wreck this if i have to. 

it's no wonder i'm not eating.

are you hearing me now? 

you're not making this easy? 

i just need a minute, i just need a breath. 

don't you ever tell me i'm not lovin' you best. 

can we just say the rest with no sound? 

i know this isn't enough and i don't measure up. 

sorry is never there when you need it. 

i do want you to know that i hold you up above everyone. 

i think you'd be good to me and i'd be so good to you. 

i think i saw a sign. 

maybe it's me, maybe i only see what i want. 

i can't be without you. 

trading in who i've been for shiny celebrity skin. 

i like it push it until my luck is over. 

all this work to impress, charming girls out of their dresses. 

pretty will swallow you forever. 

i can see you open up to breathe. 

what you need has been killing me. 

try to be everything that you want me to be. 

i'll say yes, i'll undress. i've done more for less. 

i think it's better this way.

i'll make this perfect again. 

i wish we could stay here forever alone. 

i still love your taste. 

sometimes i wish you would leave me. 

i'm not sick of you yet, is this as good as it gets? 

i take it hard. 

they don't know you like i do. 

i can never go back home again.

[weltenwellen]

Fernando Pessoa, The Book of Disquiet

[yeyinde]

Collins is gone.

Namaygoosisagagun First Nation/Collins has burned to the ground. The entire community is nothing but ashes after being quickly consumed by wildfires. They did not have any support from emergency services, and no one offered aid. The community saved themselves by escaping into boats because no one came.

Mishkeegogamang and Cat Lake have lost power. Families are ending up in shelters with nothing. Armstrong, Lac La Croix, Whitesand, Gull Bay, Lac des Mille Lacs are currently in the fires path and all members are being evacuated.

All this loss, all this devastation, and it was entirely preventable.

After steadily underfunding wildland firefighting and purposefully excluding Indigenous wildland firefighters and Indigenous wildfire organizations from wildfire operations, firefighter training, decisionmaking, and resource exchanges, in 2025, Doug Ford slashed the forest firefighting budget.

It's hard to ignore his decision to cut funding and leave us out of adequate fire training (even though we've lived with forest fires for thousands of years—far longer than settlers have been in Canada—and made sure fires like the ones we're all seeing today were prevented through kinisitotēn) when, despite making up less than 5% of the population, we account for 42% percent of all wildfire evacuations in Canada.

And when we are successfully evacuated, we face discrimination and racism—like Kashechewan—because it's always been easier to blame us than it is to blame the true culprit: denialism, corportate greed, and colonization.

The people of Collins and every other impacted community deserve better.

Right now, the AFN is currently accepting donations to help Collins First Nation. If you're able to, please consider donating.

ONWA (Ontario Native Women's Association) is another great place to donate to. They have outreach vans going to motels and inns and offering food, water, resources, and cultural support to those impacted by the wildfires.

Other places to consider donating to are Mikinakoos Emergency Fund, Red Cross, True North Aid, Indigenous Climate Action. You can also send donations directly to Whitesand First Nation via e-transfer ([email protected]) and they request that you add your full name in the e-transfer comment section to receive a tax receipt.

*Before sending money, verify that the appeal appears on an official First Nation, Tribal Council or registered charity channel.

If you can't offer financial support, please consider donating items of need. Moontime Connections is currently accepting drop-off donations. If you live in the Thunder Bay area, Namaygoosisagagun Health Office is also taking in donations! They can also bemailed to Superior Inn Hotel & Conference Centre at 555 West Arthur Street, Thunder Bay, ON, P7E 5P8.

items needed are: food, diapers, medical masks, men’s and women’s joggers (all sizes), children’s clothing (newborn to size 14), children’s shoes, summer clothing, men’s clothing, toiletries (lotion, Vaseline, toothpaste, toothbrushes, shampoo, conditioner, soap, deodorant, etc.), strollers, adult depends-all sizes, dog & cat food

wīya ispīh iyiniw-kiskīyihtamowin pasikōpayiki kāwi askiy ta-iyihyīmakan

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@timelovcd  asked: five minutes? like, five minutes. that's all i need.

𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒍𝒂𝒖𝒈𝒉 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒆𝒔𝒄𝒂𝒑𝒆𝒔 lips is playful, utterly taken with choice of partner. she teases knowingly, gives him that look she knows he can't resist, & cameron's never been a particularly strong man in the will department ; he crumbles easily under pressure, & she's been waiting long enough, hasn't she ? frozen prince has been stuck in meetings all day, but finally has relented with schedule to sneak in to see her ― & his efforts are about to be rewarded, if sky has any say in it. easy, flirtatious smile comes to lips & the prince leans close, crowding into lover's space as he knows she loves so well. ❝ just five minutes, hm ? that really isn't long at all, darling . . . ❞ he pauses, reaching up with one gloved hand to nudge with delicate fingers just under her chin, meaning to tip head up to properly meet his lingering & heated gaze. ❝ & what about me ? do you think i can really make do with only five minutes ? ❞ he leans in, brushing cool lips against her ear as prince murmurs sultrily, ❝ i'd much rather have you for as long as i please. doesn't that sound better ? ❞

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@wnterslder  said: “ good boy “

𝒕𝒆𝒍𝒍 - 𝒕𝒂𝒍𝒆 𝒇𝒍𝒖𝒔𝒉 𝒔𝒕𝒂𝒓𝒕𝒔 on cheeks & quickly heat makes its way across neck & down chest in turn ; steve has always been an obvious blusher, & receiving james's praise is no exception. it may have been said jokingly, & steve is socially adept enough, as well as well-versed enough in flirting, to know that ; but the feelings it has burgeoning in gut are not a simple tease, & the former captain recognizes it as he watches other. observant since he was a child, steve watches the way expression plays out over best friend's features, & wonders if he genuinely means it, or if he really is just teasing ― but like many things with james these days, the answer eludes steve like sand slipping through fingers. he can't ever quite get a read on other, even now, years into being reunited, & a part of the blond misses what they used to be as kids ; efforts to know each other had always been successful back then, but these days it requires more effort. not that steve's complaining, anything but ― he'd gladly & willingly do anything for james, would eagerly give other the shirt off his back if needed, but the ache does linger in chest, even when he tries not to think about it. slow smile spreads on lips, & steve ducks head in shy manner before he's tentatively meeting other's gaze. ❝ . . . thanks, pal. ❞ he hesitates, then takes a step closer, reaching for james's hand. ❝ y'know i've always wanted t'be good, for you. ❞

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@contradictivs  said: “Don’t pretend you ever had a choice.”

𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝒂 𝒃𝒓𝒊𝒆𝒇 𝒎𝒐𝒎𝒆𝒏𝒕, teddy isn't sure what ryder means. but then he sees the look on other's features, & wonders if the feelings he's been harboring, hidden away for self only, have anything to do with it. mouth opens as he tries to think of something to say, then closes as the werewolf thinks better of it, hesitating with words of defense on tongue. but teddy realizes that arguing with other's statement won't do anything good, would only breed conflict, when all he truly wants is to sink into other's waiting arms. he doesn't know how ryder feels, if feelings are even reciprocated, but doesn't he owe it to other to be honest now, when it matters most ? ❝ if you're talking about me fallin' for you, man, no. i've never had a choice in that. ❞ teddy knows now that the heart wants what it wants, even if that happens to be best friend ; the one person that the werewolf is terrified of losing. this conversation could change things ― & teddy just wants other to stay, no matter what that means for their relationship. ❝ but that's not a bad thing― or, at least, it doesn't have t'be a bad thing. i don't see it that way . . . never have. ❞ unspoken words left hanging : it's been a while that teddy has been managing these emotions.