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Me: *plans to wake up early and go set myself up with a therapist*

Me: *stays up well past 1 AM*

Well, THAT isn't happening. Maybe Monday...

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“some days I think about everyone who has ever touched me and I wonder if they felt something”

— anatomy-of-rains (via wordsnquotes)

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“i am afraid that if i open myself i will not stop pouring. (why do i fear becoming a river. what mountain gave me such shame.)”

— Jamie Oliveira, “Erosion” (via wordsnquotes)

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“I promise you I will try harder to be better. I have battled with things inside me for longer than you know; I do not know what they are or why they are there, I only know that they feel manageable, defeatable, when I am around You.”

— Tyler Knott Gregson (via thelovejournals)

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10/17/17

I’m honestly terrified that I’m literally dying and that’s such a horrifying feeling to have at 21 years old. What if I don’t get to watch my son grow up?

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Fun fact : I had stage four cancer when I wrote this, but didn't know it yet. Listen to your body. Don't let your family or doctors convince you that you "just have anxiety". DEMAND the tests and scans that you want.

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I really cannot believe how nasty I can be when provoked by the right person. It’s sensational.

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2/25/2020

I wish I could see the look on your face when you hear I passed my drug test. I wonder if you'll feel bad or guilty at all. Or if you'll still find a way to justify doing the lowest possible thing you could have ever done to me, to my family. I'll never forgive you for this. Even after everything we've been through I never hated you, but I fucking H A T E you now. I honestly wish you'd just fucking drop dead.

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It still hurts so FUCKING bad every time I think about the fact that you're not here. Will I ever get over this? Over everything that happened between us but we never resolved? Over your death? I have to have a chance to talk to you in another life, this can't be it, it can't be over...

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12/26/19

Zax is constantly comparing me to Gina from Brooklyn Nine-Nine and idk if it's a compliment or not but I'm diggin it

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People can talk shit on Tumblr but I 10/10 feel the most comfortable to spill my deepest, most conceided thoughts here and it's important to get those out

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11/20/19

Zax texted me on his way home and asked what kind of tacos I wanted cause I’ve been dying for some food stand tacos and when he got home he had a bottle of Bacardi and some pink lemonade cause he knows I like lemonade drinks. But I felt like poo and couldn’t even eat the tacos. So he sent me to bed and took care of the kids. Then when I felt better we had some bomb sex. I love the little things he does for me, he’s the best

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I love when I’m bending over to grab something or change laundry over and Zax happens to walk by and smacks my butt. It gives me a reason to live

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9/18/19

I’m never active on here when I’m happy and I want to change that. My life is fucking amazing right now. Zax and I are doing phenomenal, my children are beautiful and growing every day, I’m beautiful and growing every day. I started college classes this week. I’m just happy, man

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My perfect family

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My mans rubs my butt until I fall asleep, what does yours do

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8/29/19

Honestly, my tumblr is so fucking depressing. How are any of you still here lmao

On a brighter note, things have been pretty fucking great recently (besides my usual mental gymnastics tricking me into believing they aren’t). Zax and I are back together, we have our family back and our own place with the kiddos. We’re both actively trying to be who the other one needs and things have been pretty smooth so far. Our sex life is great (when has it not been LOL), our home life is great. My medication is keeping me pretty well balanced, my mania is under control. Things are good, man. I’m happy. My blog could use some happiness so here ya go

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Soon