Musings of a Sexual Assault Victim

Here I thought I was fine. Turns out it is far from over.

[self-harmconfessions]

1217) The only things keeping me grounded are my scars and they're starting to fade.

[madness-of-depression-deactivat]

[noshameinoursickness]

Your feelings are valid simply because you feel them.

something lovely my therapist said  (via fuckinq)

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[pleasecuremywrists]

Depression blog. Keep going, you’re not alone.

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If you consider a woman less pure after you’ve touched her, maybe you should take a look at your hands.

(via timid)

[beautyinthebellejar]

Always defend your right to heal at your own pace. You are taking your time. You are allowed to take your time.

Unknown (via beautyinthebellejar)

[violentwavesofemotion-deactivat]

I carry him inside of me no matter where I go. He is inside of me.

From The Life Of The Marionettes (1980) dir. Ingmar Bergman (via violentwavesofemotion)

[savm-blog]

Hi... I'm the victim of a woman-on-woman sexual assault. It doesn't seem like there's very much information or support for that. I know that's because most sexual violence is carried out by men, I just feel a little lost that's all. Do you have any advice? Some people keep telling me to report it, but are there even any laws in place against something like that? I am so lost.

Hey there. First things first. I am so sorry that you are suffering through this. I do not have a lot of information, but I will give you all I have. With your permission, I may reblog this using another account. That account has more followers with resources. If you would rather me not, let me know and I can ask them privately. 

Unfortunately there is not a lot of information on woman-on-woman sexaul assault, but I will tell you that what you went through is a valid experience. No matter what the information or the definition in your area, sexual assault is not dictated by gender. The official definition of sexual assault no longer includes a gender reference, however, depending on the laws in your area, this definition could be (wrongly) adapted. 

As for reporting, do what is right for you. You are the most important part of this equation. If you think it will help your healing process in the long run, go for it. If you think it will be too much right now, maybe don’t report. It is up to you. You are in control. 

My advice. Find someone, someone you are totally comfortable with and trust. Tell them you are lost. Ask them to help you find more legal information or help you with whatever else you are unsure of. Don’t let them make decisions for you, but allow them to help some. 

This is just one small article but I’ll leave this here. http://www.ourbodiesourselves.org/health-info/sexual-assault-by-a-woman/

[youknowyouareasurvivorwhen]

You know you are a survivor when the only childhood stories you tell are the ones your family always told over and over again even if you don't remember them or anything at all from your childhood just pretend you are okay.

[becomingjoyful-blog]

"Today I forced the word no into my body because I was not able to force it out."

[charcoaled-roses]

[spiralofsadness]

Depression. Sometimes it’s screaming and crying and smashing plates Sometimes it’s numbness and quiet and “oh god why am I not dead” And sometimes it’s getting up anyways and staying alive, even if you don’t want to

It’s not because I’m lazy, I just can’t function sometimes - H.R (via the-healing-nest)

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[storeboughtisfine]

STOP

[jaynmalackson]

D E L E T E T H I S

[the-former-anarcho-animeism]

F U C K

[methhomework]

THIS PERSON DOESNT NEED A COMPUTER

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WHAT THE FUCK JUST WATCH IT LITERALLY JUST PRESS PLAY

[dxjg]

WORK OF GENIUS

[mariska-chris-olivia-elliot]

Mariska: ”When I started getting letters from viewers. First a few, then more, then hundreds, and thousands since then. The women and men writing the letters didn’t ask for an autograph or a headshot. They disclosed their stories of abuse. I held in my hands the stories behind the statistics that I had learned. Each letter was of course unique, but themes kept coming up: isolation, shame, fear — and a lot of pain. Those letters, and the very courageous people who wrote them, just made a very deep impression on me”

”I was very proud to be on a show brave enough to explore subjects no one was talking about, but I also knew I wanted to do more and play a larger role to help survivors heal and reclaim their lives”

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[that--tired--girl]

if my friends saw my blog, i think it would crush them

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