1872) Recently, I've found myself purposely fantasizing/thinking about cutting in an effort to replace intrusive sexual thoughts.
They have plagued me for years due to OCD. They make me feel dirty and evil in a way that nothing else does. I find that I would rather actually cut than just have the sexual thoughts. I know it's not healthy and that I shouldn't purposely bring cutting into my mind, but I have to get the other thoughts out. I guess I am still using it as a coping mechanism.












