emotional vacancy

this blog isn't for you if you're not schizoid || anti self-dxers & true crime not welcome

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no one really cares about me but thats ok bc i dont really care about them either

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the only thing i want to feel is the cold midnight air against my face

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Do you ever feel lonely but rarely like people enough to be around them?

i dont experience the emotion of loneliness but maybe someone else does

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hope yall figured out by now we dont give a shit abt this blog

very fitting tho

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yah anon, if you cry alone in your room and feel strong emotions, just not in front of others, then you’re likely not schizoid, you’re probably just repressing your emotions.

yep

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Do you think its possible for Szpd to look like ADD on the outside..?

idk anything about adhd but watch for replies from people who do

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could it be a schizoid thing to be capable of strong emotions but never show them to anyone? like i do cry, but i do so alone in my room and don't tell anyone about it afterward, as if it never happened

no lmao thats like ... normal

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no no when i was telling you the car story i didn’t mean it in a “im neglecting my health bc i wanna be cool n edgy” it was a “my mind didn’t even go to taking care of myself and i just thought it’d make a funny story”. like i feel like normally people would be concerned for themselves but when i hurt myself it’s just sorta whatever, you know? that’s what i meant by it.

oh ok that makes more sense. im the same way tbh like a lot of people will worry about and clean a scratch or bite their pet inflicts on them and when it happens to me people ask if im gonna but im just like lmao whatever just another day in the life bro

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i once told my therapist that i feel emotions the way dogs see colour. would you consider that i good analogy of how schizoids feel emotions.

doesnt matter if an analogy you use is good for the disorder in general or every schizoid or whatever tbh it just matters thats accurate for you. with that being said, as a general sense dogs dont see as much color as humans, and schizoids dont experience emotions on the same level as nonschizoids, so like yes but also no bc dogs all see pretty much the same colors no matter the breed, whereas szpd can manifest in different ways depending on the person. so as i said before if its a good analogy for you you should go ahead and use it and thats all that really matters

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schizoids can still have a sense of humour tho right? like i feel like the only thing connecting me with other humans is my ability to laugh and make jokes.

of course. szpd isnt necessarily being 100% devoid of every emotion or whatever its just limited to varying degrees based on the person and emotion in question

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my friend suddenly got mad at me bc i’m “a dick 90% of the time” like i’m fucking tired of ppl without schizoid saying “oh yeah that’s chill” when you tell them your pd might effect the relationship, don’t research the pd to know what they’re in for, and then blame you like you didn’t tell them exactly wtf they were signing up for. if you don’t wanna talk to my idgaf but don’t act like this shit is something i’m actively trying to do man!!!!

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is it a schizoid thing to not like Love your family but still feel a deep connection with them? like i wouldn’t consider how i feel about them love, but that doesn’t mean the way i feel isn’t as deep n meaningful, it’s just in a different way, bc they raised me and stuff? idk how to explain it but i’m curious bc i feel bad ab not loving them but then i try to remind myself that that doesn’t mean they don’t mean Anything to me.

definitely i feel the same way tbh i care about them and their well beings but idk if i would call it love ... or maybe its just a different type of love lmao who knows

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got hit by a car about a month ago while i was riding my bike. it hurt but i was fine. i sorta just thought it was a funny anecdote to tell my friends but they all reacted super worried n it just ruined it for me:/ just wanted to have a laugh with the lads n they wanted me to go to the hospital.

it can be funny and you could have gone to the hospital just to be sure everything was good at the same time. theyre not mutually exclusive 

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my "i love you"s and our softer moments have felt emptier and emptier and emptier.

i don't know how to tell you.

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Are you a girl or boy or nb

does it matter