I’m at a weird point in my life where I know I’m gonna be alone for a second? I feel an odd disconnect from everyone around me but it isn’t in a self sabotaging way. It’s more of a “I’ve protected my peace and self for longer than I have before, and I want to continue to do so”. I think for many reasons this year has been the most productive (for self work and maturity) for me and I don’t see that ending anytime soon. I am really learning the lesson of patience and time and how being delusional is actually a really good way to condition yourself and it’s something I will 100% continue to do. I truly see being single as the ultimate gift when you’re young. I am 19 and have been in enough shitty relationships that destroyed and broke me, literally left with nothing but failed attempts and trauma. JUST KIDDING!!! Those failed attempts and trauma have BUILT me and I now know what I will NEVER settle for again. I was genuinely miserable for so long and I am very thankful I no longer am, but with that being said I have learned so much. I learned I want to be selfish and learn about myself. I think what I’m going to do soon is start trying to fall in love with myself. Like make a silly little book about falling in love with myself. Everything about me. My favorites, memories, pet peeves, ect. I want to get to know myself and be more confident of a person by being self assured. But I also want and need to protect my peace by/while doing it. I have a little less than 2 months before fall semester starts and I’m ready to set myself up for success.