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[sckuik]

"Cause when I'm with him, I am thinking of you"

Disclaimer : cheating?, angst with happy ending kinda, no prank AU, childhood bestfriend!Josh

A/N : the fact that my writing is mostly based of songs makes me laugh ILOVEMUSIC. also this sucks im sorry

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He was perfect.

The perfect boyfriend ever.

He brought you on dates, gave you plenty of gifts, loved you proudly and loudly and didn't make you uncomfortable..

So why did you think of that one night stand instead?

It happened in a random night, you were staying at your childhood best friend's house. His huge house.

You were friends for as long as you could remember. He understood you like no one else did. You shared billions of inside jokes. And his sisters considered you as member of their family.

You were spending the night, watching horror movies. You hated those, but they were his favourite, but the way his eyes would lit up when you'd agree to watch them made it worth it.

You were curled up together, not in a flirty way, you were always so close together, physically and emotionally.

Then a jumpscare appeared on the screen, making you hide into his shoulder, hiding your face from the screen while he laughed. 'You're scared?'

You frowned and looked up at him while he was already looking down at you.

'I just didn't expect that..' you mumbled, your heart racing from the scare, and from something else you couldn't quite name yet as you looked at him.

He chuckled, but quickly his chuckle softened as he kept looking at you, his green eyes melting into your gaze, you felt seen.

'Don't like being surprised?'' he asked calmly, his eyes darting from your eyes to your lips.

Your eyes did the same, but they remained on his lips as you muttered 'Depends on the surprise.'

'I've got an idea of a surprise you'd like.' He smiled as he leaned in, putting his lips onto yours.

You heart practically exploded, you didn't know it, but you were practically waiting for a kiss to happen between you two.

The kiss led on to something bigger, and the next thing you knew was that you woke up in his bed.

It was too perfect wasn't it?

Sleeping with your childhood best friend...while you had hidden feelings from him.

It could've led to a beautiful relationship, and you knew it.

So why were you dating someone other than him?

That one boy from your class liked you, and everyone knew it. He was the golden boy of your college, and it seemed like you'd caught his attention.

Lucky you, huh?

Josh didn't spoke to you about that night. In fact, after that night he didn't speak to you at all.

But that night was burned into your mind. That one night where he held you so gently, where he made sure to please you and where he cuddled you after everything.

You wanted to talk about it. But everytime you brought up the subject he'd move it to something else, or pretended to be busy.

So you took the opportunity to date the golden boy to forget about him.

Everyone was so happy for you two.

Your new boyfriend was happy.

But were you?

You relationship was dreamy. You'd spend time stuck to each other, like those disgustingly cute couples you'd see in those Christmas rom-com.

The ones who finished each other's sentences, who looked at each other with loving gaze and of course who wore matching necklaces with each other's initials on it (his idea not yours)

Beth and Hannah, your close friends and Josh's sisters, weren't buying it.

They were rooting for you and Josh to end up together. To finally put the 'childhood best friend' act to the side and finally date.

At one point, you couldn't even say that Josh was your best friend anymore. And to add to that you were hanging out with your boyfriend's group of friend instead of your old friends.

And Beth noticed it quickly.

One day, you were in class, and honestly? You were about to burst out crying.

Everything came crashing into your while in English class.

Your boyfriend who you didn't even seem to have feelings for, your childhood best friend who'd you slept with and who seems to have cut contacts with you, and your grades who were slipping due to your mental health degrading.

You asked your teacher to go to the bathroom and while in it you paced around like a caged animal.

You were totally having a mental breakdown.

After a moment, you weren't back in class, so the teacher asked someone to go check up on you, and that someone was Beth.

She walked into the bathroom and immediately spotted you over the sink, absolutely sobbing your eyes out.

She rushed over to you and tried to comfort you, but you couldn't help it and told her everything.

It started with 'I can't handle it anymore--' and it ended with '--I miss Josh so much.'

Tears flowed in your eyes, the pain was unbearable.

You missed your best friend. And it didn't even seem like he missed you back.

Josh acted so indifferent. He kept joking with everybody, he kept flirting with other girls but he didn't even spare one glance at you.

After calming your sobs down, Beth's heart ached for you.

She needed to bring you and her brother back together, as a couple or even just as friend.

So this time she was the one organising a weekend in her parent's lodge.

Her excuse ?

'Exams are making us drift apart so we need to get closer, like before !'

Everyone knew the real reason.

Because EVERYONE in your friend group saw the way you and Josh looked at each other.

But you talked about this weekend to your boyfriend, and of course, like the perfect boyfriend cliché he was; he didn't want to let you go alone in the mountains.

So he came with you.

Everyone looked okay with it though.

After all, your boyfriend was THE golden boy.

How could they say no to him? (they totally could but they wanted to have a lot of drama during this weekend)

The weekend finally arrived, and immediately when you knocked on the door of the lodge, Josh was the one to answer it.

You awkwardly said hi, but your boyfriend didn't catch the awkwardness and gave Josh a high five.

Your friends were all gathered in front of the fire, trying to catch a bit of warmth during this harsh winter.

Your boyfriend told you to join them while he'd unpack both of your stuff in the room you shared.

You said hi to everyone, hugging them after not doing so for so long while mumbling a bunch of 'I missed you''s

The night arrived quickly, and the alcohol started to flow rapidly.

Beth and Hannah had their eyes on you and their brother. But it looked like a magical force was pushing you away from each other.

At one point you excused yourself from the party, saying that you had to go to the bathroom.

But instead you walked to you room,locked the door and absolutely bursted out crying.

Josh didn't make any efforts to talk to you, and honestly you didn't blame him. How could he? Your boyfriend's arm was basically always around your waist all night!

As you were crying, someone knocked on the door.

'I'm busy' you said, your shaking voice betraying you.

The doorknob shook, the person clearly wanted to see you. Walking towards the door you say your boyfriend's name followed by 'I'm not in the mood.'

But it wasn't your boyfriend who answered.

It was Josh.

'I heard you sobbing.'

You put your forehead against the door, your hand on the lock, a second away from unlocking the door.

But your hand stood frozen.

'What do you want?' you asked tiredly

You heard a soft thud against the door. He put his forehead against it too.

'I can't stop thinking about you.' he started with a shaky laugh 'I tried to forget about you, i really did. But it seems like you did it better.'

You laughed bitterly at his jab.

Yeah, you did it better...at least it's what everyone thought.

You didn't answer.

A heavy silence settled between you two.

Josh sighed and took off his forehead from the door as he mumbled a simple 'sorry'

As you heard his steps walking away, you quickly unlocked the door and opened it.

'When I'm with him, I am thinking of you.' you blurred out

He paused and turned around, a single tear sliding off his cheek. He quickly wiped it off and walked towards you.

He took your face in his hands and kissed you in a hurry, knowing you two could get caught at any moment.

When you quickly got out of air and broke the kiss, he looked deep into your eyes and smiled.

Then someone called out his name from downstairs and he said 'I have to go.' with a small smile, kissing your forehead.

And as he walked away, you couldn't help but to smile too.

After all, Beth's plan worked,

And you really thanked her for it.

[sckuik]

iloveitiloveitiloveit

Disclaimer ; slight angst?,no prank AU, weird relationship between reader and Josh, cheating???

A/N : I listened to this song on repeat for this.

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"I like being used, it means I have a purpose "

Being best friends with Beth, Josh's sister, meant that you were always in her huge house. But despite the house being huge, you always ended up in his room.

It only started by comforting him after a hard break up. Him and this girl from your class dated for a year, she was totally his type, you knew it.

One day you came into the Washington's house, Beth was out in the yard to ask something to her mother and Josh came into the kitchen, where you were scrolling on your phone, waiting for Beth.

You looked up from it and was met with puffy eyed Josh coming into the kitchen. Your heart clenched at the sight, putting down your phone on the kitchen counter as you walked toward him, a sympathetic hand on his arm as you asked what was going on.

He explained that his girlfriend broke up with him, saying that she met someone else, someone better than him.

You tried to comfort him, you didn't wish that this would happen..but you were kinda glad it did.

Of course, you had a crush on Josh. Who didn't? That boy was handsome, funny, nice...he was everything!

But, he only saw you as his sister's best friend.

That was until one day, a day that started it all for you.

You were alone in the Washington's house, Beth went to buy some stuff at the grocery store for a pajama party with you, her and her other sister Hannah.

You waited for Beth as you sat on the living room couch.

After some minutes, you heard the front door open, thinking it was Beth you walked towards it,

Only to be met with Josh.

"Oh, [yn], didn't expect to see you," his voice was calm as a small smile appeared on his face.

You paused for a moment, you really didn't expect to see him too, but quickly regained composure

"You should be used to see me around here by now," you joked.

A soft chuckle came out of him,not his usual loud laugh, so you directly knew something was up.

"Are you okay?" you asked curiously

He paused, smiling tiredly as he put his keys back in his pockets.

"I saw her," he started

You frowned, couldn't help it.

He laughed quietly making your frown soften.

"Josh.." You mumbled reaching out to hold his hand.

But he didn't held your hand back, no, he hugged you.

A hug where he buried his face in your neck, practically begging for a simple touch after months of not being held like that.

You stood frozen for a moment, then hugged him back.

Josh didn't hug. Or rarely.

So you took the opportunity.

He knew you were a person to trust, a person he could open up to.

And maybe he used it too much, but you didn't care because you had his attention on you for once.

"Lets let fate decide,

Heads we go to yours, tails, we go to mine"

Then the contact became more important between you two.

It wasn't obvious to other people, a simple touch on the arm, a smile, a shared laugh from an inside joke.

It was all casual, right?

One night, you were laying in bed, wondering where this story will lead,

okay maybe it was only a hug, but it felt so much more..And he cried to you so much that it had to be more than only a friend thing.

You thought you were going crazy by seeing those mixed signals.

But then, the vibration of your phone receiving a message took you out of this overthinking.

'I'm in front of you house'

Your eyes widened as your heart did a leap in your chest.

Then another text popped on your screen

'I need you'

You didn't think twice, you changed into something else than your pajamas, tried to rearrange your hair and walked downstairs.

You opened the front door and then you saw it; his car parked on the driveway.

You closed the door of your house as he got out of his car.

"Are you okay?" you asked jogging towards him.

He didn't answer.

You stood there, looking up at him, analysing him; no sign of tears.

Then he took your face in his hands.

Your eyes widened, shocked by this simple yet intimate touch

But he didn't stop there.

He leaned in and kissed you, soft and delicate.

You were sure your eyes would pop out right of their socket by how much they widened.

You didn't lean in, not yet.

But when he said "I needed this." his voice slightly shaking as he leaned back, you couldn't help but to take his face and kiss him back.

And so it all started.

You would be doing homework when he would send you a message.

Sometimes it was 'Can we meet?' or 'You up?'

and from time to time he was more vulnerable by sending 'I need you.' like the first night he kissed you.

Then you would sneak into his room, or he'd come into yours. It was normal at this point.

He'd talk your ear off about his ex girlfriend, how much he loved her and how much he missed her.

Then he'd look at you with those deep green eyes of his. Those eyes that you loved so much.

His stare that would make your knees buckle as he leaned in and kissed you again.

"You're a bad idea, but a real good time."

You tried to convince yourself that he really needed you, that you were a here for him for a good reason.

That those making out sessions were a support for him.

It felt weird. It felt wrong.

And despite this gnawing feeling in your guts, the one that told you that he was just using you to forget his amazing ex-girlfriend.

You loved it.

"Oh I'd be lying if I said I didn't love it, cause I do"

One day, you were at Beth's house, again, and she looked..stressed.

As you were about to ask her why she looked so stressed, she blurred out something that made your heart stop

"I think Josh is seeing a new girl." she said bitting her nails.

You laughed awkwardly, not trying to act so guilty about the fact that this new girl was you.

She continued by saying "I heard him sneak out of his room last night while talking on the phone,"

You wanted the couch to swallow you whole.

She didn't stop there, she sighed and said "I'm worried about that girl," making you frown.

"Why would you be worried about her?" you asked laughing slightly.

"Because he's still seeing his ex."

You heart dropped to your stomach as your face went pale.

"She came to our front door yesterday," Beth explained calmly "I listened at his door while she was in his room.."

Her next words didn't reach your ears as a ringing started to crawl into them.

you were sure your heart just shattered in a million pieces, but you couldn't let Beth know, so you tried your best to ignore the ringing and focus on her.

The same day, around 8pm, you walked back to your house, trying to contain your tears.

How could this happen?

How could he do this to you?

No, actually, how could you let him do this to you?

You knew this was a bad idea from the start, you knew it by the way he talked about her.

How generous she could be. How funny and attractive she was.

You heard it all.

You started to cry as you reached the street who led to your house, until a car reached your level.

Josh's car.

He stopped on your driveway and as he got out of his car, he smiled at you, an actual smile.

Not a guilty one, or one full of remorse one that was real.

"I missed you," he said walking to hug you.

You let yourself get hugged, and as he let go of you, his smile dropped by seeing your tears stained face.

He asked if you were okay, but the only thing you could do was cry again.

He tried to hug you, but some sense came back to you, so you pushed him.

"Why would you do this?" you asked him.

"Why ?!" Your voice broke as he looked at you, finally catching why you were crying.

"Beth told you, didn't she." it wasn't a question, it was a quiet realisation.

You bit your bottom lip, trying to keep in the rest of your cries.

"I thought we had something," you whispered, broken.

He didn't say anything, he just looked away.

"Say something!" you ordered as you pushed him.

"What do you want me to say?" he asked, and fuck, you hated those words.

"That you don't love her." you said,fully hurt.

He stood there, silent.

you didn't miss a beat when you said "Whatever this was; its over." making his eyes widened slightly.

He tried to reach out to you but you slapped his hand and walked to your door.

"Im a couple of minutes out from relapsing into you"

You thought that after that it would be over.

It had to be over.

One day, you got invited to a party, you knew what it meant ; bunch of alcohol and making out.

Perfect to forget about him.

The party was at its maximum, songs on speakers, making your inside jump to the beat.

You knew he was here, with her under his arm.

You heard some people talk about it "Josh is back with her?" they would say.

Even Ashley, a friend of Beth asked you about it over the loud speaker.

You shortly answered , your gaze not leaving Josh and that girl.

He looked handsome.

She was gorgeous.

You felt sick.

You put your drink down and walked upstairs to the bathroom, closing the door behind you.

Over the sink, you rinsed your face with cold water. Looking into the mirror, mascara already running down your face.

You stood there, zoning out in front of your reflection.

Why.

Why her and not you?

You quickly go out of your thoughts by someone entering the bathroom.

Josh.

You thought it was you hallucinating him.

Maybe he was so much in your mind that he turned into a sort of physical copy from your thoughts.

"[Yn]?" he asked. The music wasn't so loud upstairs, so you heard him right.

Your name rolling out of his mouth, the same way he'd sigh when you'd kiss him.

You didn't answer, just looked back into the mirror, you looked a mess.

He entered the bathroom and closed the door behind him.

"What do you want?" you finally hissed at him.

He paused then walked behind you as he looked at your reflection in the mirror.

"Would it be wrong if I said that I want you?" he asked with a short and tired laugh.

You turned around, frowning.

You were angry, but your eyes said otherwise.

And he noticed it, that look in them.

He leaned in, his hands on each side of the sink, close to your waist with his lips inches from yours.

"I.." he muttered, bitting his bottom lip "I fucked up." he admitted

"You did." you laughed tiredly.

a silence where he looked deep into your eyes.

"Do you love her?" your voice was above a whisper.

He didnt answer.

Instead he finally kissed you.

It was like the first kiss you shared.

Soft and slow.

But this time with hurt coming from your lips.

And maybe, just maybe, the lack of an answer coming from him meant something.

"Oh fuck it, baby I love it, I love it, i love it."

[sckuik]

Cupcake

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Disclaimer : Fem!reader, suggestive, no prank AU.

A/N : hahahahahha

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You were friends with Jessica since the start of college, by having the same group of friends and sharing some class together.

Jessica was popular, bitchy and pretty, and you? Yeah you were the same.

At first when people saw you two, they'd imagine that you'll be rival; fighting over who's going to be the most popular on campus.

And honestly, it kinda was like that the first days.

You first met Mike, Jessica's boyfriend, talking to him during a class break. And when Jessica saw you two, she basically jumped onto her boyfriend's arm like a koala on it's branch.

"Honey...sorry to break it to you but he's taken," were the first words she said to you.

"Oh!" you said laughing surprised "Good for you, but he's actually not my type." you said sarcastically

Jessica felt kinda dumb at your answer but quickly regained composure by just looking at you up and down.

You were well dressed. And she kinda hated you for that "I like your hoops," she said smiling(surely trying to seem nicer).

You complimented her back, and your compliment was so...real...that she didn't see you as a threat.

You soon started to talk during class break or just during class and soon realised you were quite alike !

Soon enough you've became friends and started hanging out with her and her boyfriend.

"You look like a cupcake!" she said one time you were wearing pink. Not sure on how to take the compliment you just laughed and say thank you.

That's where her nickname for you started "Cupcake". It was a dumb inside joke, but she didn't think bad.

One day, was you were talking with her on the phone, she explaine that her friend, 'Josh' apparently, invited her and her other friends to his lodge in the moutains.

She didn't sound too thrilled about it, but you on the other hand were excited for her.

A lodge? In the mountains? that sounded awesome.

"You know what? I'll ask Josh if you can come," she said with a laugh.

You said that she didn't have to, but at that she just said "Don't you worry girl. I'm sure that Josh would be THRILLED to have you around."

That made made you pause, because--wait.

Jessica talked about you to a boy?!

She just continued on what outfit she'd wear in this cold weather.

But that made you wonder...What kind of guy Josh was?

Was he cute? Or hot? maybe both...

You zoned out while Jessica went on to talk about if she should put on press on for the weekend.

On a Thursday night, you received a text from Jessica saying ; "Josh said he's more than okay with you coming xx"

The week-end arrived fast, faster that you thought.

One moment Jessica was talking about it, and the next thing you knew...you were in Mike's car with Jessica singing an upbeat pop song while you were in the back laughing at her high notes.

When you finally arrived at the lodge doorstep, you felt a bit nervous to meet everyone..But Mike said they were chill and funny, so no need to be worried! Right?

Mike knocked on the door and a girl with glasses opened it, she was quite pretty, and immediately lightened up by seeing Mike and Jessica.

she greeted and made them enter, and when she saw you, her smile warmed up immediately.

"Hi, you must be [yn],"She said calmly "I'm Hannah, Josh's sister,"

You greeted her and entered the lodge, it seemed like you were the last one to arrive, a bunch of people were there.

Soon enough, Hannah gathered up everyone to present themselves to you and you quickly caught their name and their personality

Hannah; Josh and Beth's sister; sweet, a bit naive but calm in overall. She writes in her diary often, is she talking about you?

Beth, Josh and Hannah's sister ; firm, serious but nice and understanding. She looks out for everybody around the lodge.

Chris, Josh's best friend ; nice, funny, a bit shy and definitely has a crush on Ashley. Was kinda intimidated by you...no special reason (he just seems to be intimidated by women.)

Ashley ; Timid, discreet but blunt and definitely has a crush on Chris. She took a great look at you and how you dressed.

Emily, Jessica's best friend ; Assertive, intimidating, mean but nice if you deserve it, dating Matt. She actually kinda scared you the fist seconds but since you were Jessica's friend, she gave you a smile when she met you.

Matt, calm, nice and definitely submissive (Thanks to Emily's intimidating aura.) He just waved at you but his attention seems stuck to his girlfriend (Good job Emily.)

Sam, very very nice, a bit sarcastic but in overall really funny. She complimented your hoops and said that you two were matching since she had the same as you.

Of course you knew Jessica and Mike, so it was the turn of that famous 'Josh' to present himself, but as you looked around you didn't seem to see him

"Josh's taking a shower," Chris said

"But when you'll see him, you'll know it's him." Ashley giggled.

"He's such a perv." Emily whispered grimacing

"He's not..." Hannah said laughing softly, trying to defend her brother even if deep down she knew Emily was right.

Everyone settled and started to unpack in their room. Apparently your room was the third room on the left on the second floor.

As you opened the door, you were met with a boy, in his underwear, damp and as equally surprised to see you.

"Sorry I meant second room on the left!" Beth's voice was heard in the living room making you chuckle to yourself

"Didn't know someone would help me get dressed." the guy said smirking at you

"Yeah, you must be Josh." you said unfazed.

This let out a chuckle out of him as he walked towards you.

Okay, even if you weren't eyeing him up and down, you surely took a goooood look at him.

He was fit. No doubts. Tanned abs and a V line and yeah...he was fine.

"Sorry, i came into the wrong room," you said as you were about to close the door, but then his hand stopped the door as he looked at you. His gaze was heavy on you.

"You sure? Because this feels like you came into the right room at the right time." He drawled with the same smirk that didn't fully reach his eyes.

You looked at him with a grimace, clearly unfazed by his weird flirting. Okay maybe it made you stomach flip a bit..but you couldn't let it show, not when he looked so cocky.

"Yeah well it was a mistake." You said still unaffected by him.

He chuckled "This feels like the start of a movie,don't you think?" as he leaned against the doorframe

"You mean a porno?" You bluntly said, making him laugh out loud while shaking his head.

"Woah, Jess didn't mention you were..wild." He said, his voice lowering on the word 'wild'

So you were right, Jessica did talk to him about you! Why though? Maybe it was because you were single and kinda desperate.

okay, maybe not desperate, but every damn guy you've met was only here for your body or just because you looked like arm candy.

"Yeah well, I'm full of surprises," you said as you started to walk away.

He didn't say anything, but you did feel his gaze look at your ass as you walked away.

When finally in you room, which was quite literally next to Josh's, you slumped onto your bed and sighed.

Damn, he was fine AND flirty ? Not hooking up with him would be a challenge.

You unpacked your clothes as you listened to music on your phone.

The lodge was pretty warm, but outside it was freezing cold! So you settled with some denim shorts with tights under them and a turtleneck with a zip up hoodie.

You looked pretty, of course you did! And to be fair, Josh's thought the same.

After unpacking, you walked out of your room to meet with the others who were downstairs.

Chris, Ashley and Josh were in the kitchen while Emily and Matt with Mike and Jessica were in the living room.

Sam was taking a bath while Hannah and Beth's were in Hannah's room chilling.

You had your options.

So you settled to go with Josh's little group, not wanting to be third wheeling with the two couple.

When Ashley saw you she immediately smiled at you "Finally another girl, i was tired of hearing those two talk about sports!" she exclaimed walking towards your side.

"Hey, climbing is cool," Chris said laughingly

Josh on the other hand didn't say anything, except a small chuckle came out of him, but his gaze was stuck onto you.

You four talked for a moment, presenting yourself and your interest, and Ashley looked like she really started to like you.

Gradually, the discussion began to drift of to your love life. Chris and Ashley were really vague about a certain love interests that was in their life, and without even thinking you exchanged knowing glances with Josh

Those two were adorable, taking it really slow, but really cute.

"What about you Josh?" you asked "I've heard you're a playboy" you said with a mischievous grin

Josh looked up from his beer with a smirk "Me? a playboy?" he asked with faux innocence.

"Uh, yeah, totally." Ashley chimed in "you like, talk about your conquest all the time" she puffed in laughter

This made a feeling wash over you. Not quite jealousy..more like envy. Envy of all those girls that got to see what was below that V line...

Wait.

Were you attracted to JOSH?

You surprised yourself with your internal monologue, but before you could say something, Josh's voice took you out of it.

"You seem like a playgirl too," his tone was cocky. You frowned at him, a 'playgirl', really?

"Well, this assumption shows thay you don't know me very well." you scoffed

Chris tensed up slightly at your tone, while Ashley giggled, but Josh? He just looked a you, challenging you to prove otherwise.

"What made you think that?" You asked leaning over the kitchen counter, beer in hand, challenging gaze on too.

Josh shrugged, but his breath hitched a bit as you leaned in on the counter. Chris laughed awkwardly, not wanting a fight to erupt and trying to defuse the tension "I bet he just said that to joke,"

You raised an eyebrow at Josh, "Is what Chris saying true?" you asked calmly. Josh shrugged again, he really seemed to be...attracted to your aura.

Josh opened his mouth to say something, but he was cut off by Jessica's chirp on the doorway of the lodge "[Yn] ! Come see the view !"

You sighed with a slight smirk, your head bowing slightly as a way of saying 'excuse me, I'll be back'.

You joined Jessica outside on the front porch. You sat on the outside couch, beer still in hand as you shivered of cold with a laugh "Jeez, it's freezing here"

Jessica smirked and stood in front of you "You might need that, since you're practically melting. " You squinted at her, not fully understanding her allusion.

She sat beside you, as she asked you "Why'd you think I brought you here,"

You shrugged and waited for her to explain. She shifted her whole body to face you as a knowing expression was over her face, the same expression as a best friend discovering your HUGE secret.

"Girl." she started making you laugh "I saw and heard your little back and forth with Josh," she whispered

Your eyes widened, was it THAT obvious?

"Yeah girl, it was that obvious" Damn she really can read your mind!

"I just talked with him, I don't know what you mean," you shrugged trying to shake off a particular feeling : Embarrassment

Jessica rolled her eyes with a knowing smile. "I'm just warning you, he can be a lot to handle,"

This made you wonder; were there more of this weird flirting he did so good?

And why did you actually want to discover this side of him?

"I'll be fine, it's not like I'll be hooking up with him in twenty minutes," you laughed sarcastically

"Oh girl..." Jessica said standing up "We'll never know." she whispered as she walked back in the lodge.

you sat on the porch's couch for a moment, just drinking slowly your beer and Jessica's words.

Maybe it was a bad idea to..'fall' for him.

You couldn't properly call it 'falling for him' it was just a simple flirt, and you weren't even sure that it was flirting or just his personality.

Maybe he was into you, maybe he was just playing like he did with most of his so called 'conquest' like Ashley said.

You were so deep in thoughts that you didn't notice the presence beside you, near the main entrance of the lodge.

It just took him saying "Hey, cupcake.." to get you out of thoughts.

You jolted at the sudden presence beside you as your head snapped to look at him. "Oh it's you. " you said nonchalantly or at least tried to come up as nonchalant. "And don't call me that, only Jess can," you added with a slight glare at him.

He chuckled, again, he seems to do that a lot since you're there, maybe it's because you're really funny or just because he doesn't know how to handle your sassy attitude.

he walked over the railing of the porch, and leaned his back against it his gaze still on you.

"Stop looking at me like that," you said grimacing "Your gaze is heavy"

he snorted in laughter and leaned back against the railing, he had now a red solo cup in his left hand with a questionable mix of liquor in it.

"It's not heavy," he said back, but he knew that his argument wasn't couldn't keep up with your unfazed gaze. "It's just..analysing"

You took out your lip gloss out of your pocket and apply some, using your phone as a mirror.

And you swore you could seen him lick his bottom lip as you did that.

"Uh-uh," you said with a slight smirk.

"So, cupcake, huh?" he continued, surely trying to make conversation.

you sighed and put back your lip gloss in your hoodie pocket "I said, don't call me that." You said firmly.

He raised his free and in surrender, the same smirk still plastered on his face.

"Relax," he started "I'm just trying to get to know you." he said casually

"Getting into my pants that's what you're trying to do." you didn't miss a beat, and that made his eyes widened as a loud laugh came out of his mouth, the kind where your head rolls back

he regained composure as his laughter became a slight chuckle "I'm not--"

"--you are." you cut him off with a roll of your eyes.

He sighed, shaking his head defeated. Yeah he clearly lost this back and forth.

"Maybe." he finally admitted after a moment of silence "But i want to get to know you first." he said seriously, so seriously that it made your stomach knot.

You sighed and stood up, "I'm not interested," you fully lied, but he didn't know...right?

a pause, then "Aw..you're not going to make me taste that icing of yours?"

Your mouth went open in shock. Emily was right; he was a perv!!

You didn't have the time to answer back that he already moved to the lodge's main door.

"That's a shame." he murmured as he opened the door.

And now, he was gone.

What shocked you wasn't his DISGUSTING flirt, or his huge confident attitude to have the guts to tell you that.

No, what shocked you the most was that you kinda weren't against that idea.

[sckuik]

Popular

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Tendou x popular!reader

Angst??

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She was the sunlight after a thunderstorm, the smell of fresh cut grass, the first snowflake after years without snow.

She was everything that I wasn't.

You could say that [Yn] was popular, she was liked by almost everyone, and the people who didn't like her were just jealous.

She had gorgeous hair, a smile that could make anyone melt, was intelligent and curious, she truly was something else

I was the creep of our school, the weirdo, the loner. While she was the cutie, the sunshine, the bundle of joy.

Was it love or was i jealous?

I can't say when I started to love her, i just remember that I always did.

But one day, my feelings grew stronger, at first I thought it was just a friend crush, like i just was so impressed by her that I wanted to be her friend more than anything else.

But when she laughed at one of my jokes, I felt my heart flutter a little bit more than it did before.

It was a stupid joke, nobody listened to it, except her. She was beside me so, yes, she heard it. But then she put her hand on my forearm. And I felt my heart jump.

I wasn't used to physical contact, never received it, never gave it.

But her touch was so simple yet so gentle and heartwarming.

At that moment I really thought that she had some feelings for me.

Maybe I was just so alone that I imagined those things.

But i swore it was real!

Every time I would make a joke she would laugh and touch my forearm.

Even when she wasn't beside me!

She would walk towards me while laughing and touch my forearm.

I surely wasn't the only one who found it weird, my friends and her friends looked at me like I just did the unthinkable.

But it wasn't the only thing that made me believe that she felt the same way that I did.

She would always say 'hi' to me in the hallways, she would ask for the homework from me and no one else, we would talk about our taste in music and more !

One day she even asked if we could have a shared playlist and we did !!

I couldn't believe it, I was sharing a playlist with the girl I had a crush on.

Everything was going well, until she went to one of our volleyball matches,

I was playing so well that at the end of the match, she came to congratulate me.

When we were talking, my friend Ushijima came to congratulate me too, so I introduced them to each other.

Such a bad idea.

They exchanged banalities and she say goodbye to us.

As I was taking my stuff to leave the gym, Ushijima came to me and asked me something that made my blood go cold.

"Tendou," he started with his usual monotone voice, "Is [Yn] single ?" he asked bluntly.

Yes, she was single, I didn't know how a girl like her could be single but she was.

But I lied,

"I don't think so, I think she's dating a guy," I answered.

"Oh, I see" you could see the deception on his face but I didn't care.

I wanted [Yn], and he wasn't about to stole her away from me.

Days passed and [Yn] continued to be nice towards me.

I really thought she had feelings for me, and I was practically sure of it.

But one day, I saw her chatting with Ushijima, they seemed to have a good chat and I was so jealous.

After their little conversation, Ushijima came up to me and said :

"You lied to me Tendou. " His voice cold as before.

"About..what?" I said confused.

"She's single,"

Oh shit

"Oh yeah? maybe they broke up!" I said fake laughing

"No, she said that she was single for a long time now." he corrected

"I've must heard some rumours about it then," I lied again.

"How did you know anyway?" I asked him

"Well, I said that it was a shame that she had a boyfriend because I'd like to take her out on a date."

My heart dropped.

Ushijima wasn't the one to ask indirectly what he wanted, he always made sure to say what he thought directly, without lying or being shy about it.

And I knew it,

But the fact that he asked [Yn] out on a date made my heart hurt.

"Did..did she say yes?" I asked quietly.

He nodded.

My heart was hurt. It felt like it was bleeding. I felt horrible.

Of course she would say yes, Ushijima was handsome and popular, he wasn't a weirdo or a loner like me.

I congratulated him and walked away, gripping the handle of my backpack tightly.

While walking away i didn't look in front of me as I was looking down at my feet.

I hit a person while walking and they fell to the ground.

And the person was [Yn].

I apologise a thousand times and handed her my hand for her to take it.

She took it and laughed at how much I apologised.

She then sajd that she just saw my friend Ushijima and I couldn't help myself but to say something

"Oh yeah, you're going on a date with him right?"

I could see a faint blush on her face. I wanted to scream.

Sure she was gorgeous while blushing, but it was about another man, not about me.

"Yeah..he was really blunt about it and it made me laugh, so I accepted it." she giggled.

"It only takes a laugh to win your heart then.." I mumbled

"Yes, but you also make me laugh, Tendou."

My eyes widened, first of all, she heard what I said and that was cringe.

But, she said I made her laugh, so does that mean I could win her heart?

I couldn't say anything, like my mouth was completely shut.

She smiled at me before walking away.

And I was left there, standing in the middle of a hallway, my heart pounding.

The next day, as I was walking to class with Ushiijima, he told me about his date with [yn].

Apparently, it went well and they like each others company.

I felt awfull.

Was [Yn] playing with my feelings ? I mean, she gave me all the signs that she liked me back, but she apparently had a great time with him.

I was lost.

Sat in class, I decided it was over.

I needed to talk to her.

At the end of class, I went over to her desk, surrounded by her friends.

"[Yn], can we talk..in private?" I asked.

she looked at me looking lost, but agreed.

We went outside under a tree. The sun was shining and the air was warm.

"So..whats going on?" she asked quietly.

"Do you like him?" I've decided to do like Ushiijima and ask my questions bluntly.

It had its effect because I saw her eyes widened directly after I asked my question .

"W-What?" she stammered.

"Do you like him, Ushijima I mean." I clarified.

She stayed silent for a moment. Looking at me then at the ground, fidgeting with her hands.

"I.." she mumbled.

"Listen, you went on a date with him, that's great,"

"But I can't keep having the hope that maybe something between the two of us is possible."

Her head snapped back at me.

"Between the two of us?" she repeated.

"Yes. The smiles, the way you only asked homework to me, the shared playlist.." I listed all of the thing that made me believe that she liked me.

she looked at the ground and stayed silent.

"Or was I..wrong?" I asked her

"No!" she exclaimed before sighing. "I do..I.." she muttered trying to find her words.

"Do you like me?" I said quietly.

"There's Ushiijima.." she mumbled.

My heart felt heavy. Of course, there was Ushiijima.

"Oh, so you like him?" My words felt sour and angry.

"No." she quickly answered.

"[Yn]!" I exclaimed frustrated as I put both on my hand on her shoulders.

"You went on a date with him!"

"I know!!" she yelled, her voice breaking.

"Do you like me ?!" i yelled back.

"I can't be seen with you!!" she yelled back before covering her mouth with her hands in shock at what she just said.

I didn't know how to react. I just knew that my heart felt like it broke into a hundred pieces.

Yes, she couldn't be seen with me. She was the popular and pretty girl while I was the ugly weird guy.

"But do you like me?" I asked again.

"I do, oh yes I do." her voive was now shaking.

I smiled at her as tears ran down my face, I couldn't help them from falling, they just did by themselves.

She put a hand on my cheek, wiping down the tears.

I leaned into her touch and for a moment it was like she really loved me.

Not for my popularity status, but for me.

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