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I have not one home, but many. Not in a monetary/rich way, but in a way that I do not have a place I call “home”. I stay with various people, in beds familiar and strange. Every place I stay has something to offer, but never enough to keep me satisfied for long. My belongings are spread out among these places I lay my head or kept in my car for the next place to sleep. I carry very little but a lot at the same time. I hold on to too much, not in my hands, but in my soul. A longing for a place of my own, my pillow every night, my room, my kitchen, my living space. My books on the shelves. My pictures on the walls. My flowers in the window. I carry this longing everywhere I go with every step I take, on my way to my next journey.

I do not want to go to college :(

A girl just said “I thought Michael Jackson died in the 70s”

And then another one was like “that was Martin Luther King Jr.”

I’m like Y’all are both wrong. WTF

Y’all this is the second time I’ve had Covid this year. This is bs

Wassup guys I’m medicated now

The deep urge to sit on top of the roof while it’s raining right now is alarming

Apparently wearing baggy clothes and sweaters makes me gay??? Like what? This is coming from my straight friends. They’re saying that I’m wearing baggy clothes and guy clothes when I’m a girl, so that makes me gay. like no bro, I’m insecure

Head hurt

Y’all have not been feeling good :)

You know I’m always like “body positivity”, “wear what you want to wear and screw what others think of you” and then I’m like “haha but not for me :)”

You know I’m realizing that one way to be truly happy, or at least a way to get there, is to start romanticizing your life. Like fall in love with yourself. Not in a narcissistic way, but in a self love way. A healthy self love.

If I start romanticizing my life, treating myself good, or at least like I deserve. Making cookies or some desert to eat and eating it without feeling bad about it. And maybe I could start by making some and taking it to school while also keeping some for myself.

Working out, not because I think I should because I’m “overweight” which is often the reason why I think I should, but because it’ll make me healthier and more relaxed. Drinking more water because I literally never drink water and I’m sure my kidneys are literally dying.

Studying and actually trying hard with my classes and stop procrastinating so that I’m not stuck in a constant loop of procrastinating and then hating myself because of it.

Wearing what is cute and what I really want to wear instead of wearing baggy clothes to hide my body, or because I don’t want to hear the comments of “oh you’re actually wearing something nice” or “you’re wearing a dress! You never wear a dress” I don’t want to feel the eyes on me when I wear something different that I actually kinda like.

Lighting candles and taking bubble baths after a bad day of work so that I can relax instead of coming home and just trying to push it down and “deal with it later” which later explodes. Going to sleep at a decent time and getting enough sleep in order to function the next day. Idk. I think that if I make these small changes they will lead to bigger changes that will ultimately change who I am, hopefully for the better

So my cat does not like being held for more than 5 seconds, she doesn’t like laying in your lap, and she really doesn’t like it when you pick her up to set her in your lap. Hates it.

But recently I’ve noticed, if I’ve been gone for a couple of days, she will pay closer to where I’m sitting. Or if I’ve had food, she will crawl all over me trying to get it, even in my lap!

I haven’t been feeling good, sinus infection, and I woke up to her laying on me. I don’t know how long she’s been there. She didn’t move until I tried to pet her and then she was done.

I would like hope that this is improvement and that she will start to get more comfortable with me close to me.

I hate that Instagram and Facebook show that you are active and how long ago you were, all that junk. Like bro I’m trying to ghost somebody rn and procrastinate. I’m scrolling on Instagram and I’m getting calls from my group partners for a project that’s due tomorrow. Fear not for I am responsible only at the last minute.

I can’t wait until it’s cold so I can wear baggy clothes and nobody will be able to tell how big/small I am. I want to fade away and hide in my clothes.

I hate my body dear god

It’s so hot where I am. Why is it that it’s literally the last week of October and it’s 70 degrees plus? I get that it’s the south, but come on.

I WANT TO WEAR SWEATERS WITHOUT SWEATING ALL THE TIME